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Chapter 14: Goodbye

JPOV

The last two months have gone on as if nothing happened. It was as if we had never found Bella again. The only time we heard anything was the rumors at school None of the Cullens said anything about her and no one tried to go and see her or Charlie. Actually I think we all worked really hard to avoid Charlie. Actually I think we all worked really hard to avoid Charlie, and no one has even seen Bella around. Today something felt different, last night Belladonna had a concert and I guess she actually showed. I guess she was just avoiding us, not that I can blame her.

There were pictures of her splattered on all the magazines, she looked beautiful and despite all the black she was wearing she looked happy. I think that hurt, how can she look so happy after she broke her heart. The front pages all said she made a comment before the start of the concert but I never opened to see what she said.

School was just as boring as it always but about eleven I felt a great deal of sorrow and acceptance come from someone outside. When lunchtime came I walked out to my car for a second where I was hit with a familiar sent… Bella. She had been here, but why did she leave again. I followed the scent over to my truck and found an envelope with my name on it. When I opened the note inside was an unlabeled cd and a letter.

I turned on my truck and put the cd in Bella's voice floated in around me with so much sorrow, and it broke my heart all over again. (AN: SONG CALLED 'WHITE HORSE' BY TAYLOR SWIFT).

Say you're sorry

That face of an angel

Comes out just when you need it to

As I paced back and forth all this time

Cause I honestly believed in you

Holding on

The days drag on

Stupid girl,

I should have known, I should have known

I'm not a princes, this ain't a fairy tale

I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,

Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,

I was a dreamer before you went and let me down

Now it's too late for you

And your white horse, to come around

Baby I was naive,

Got lost in your eyes

And never really had a chance

I had so many dreams

About you and me

Happy endings

Now I know

I'm not a princes, this ain't a fairy tale

I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,

Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,

I was a dreamer before you went and let me down

Now it's too late for you

And your white horse, to come around

And there you are on your knees,

Begging for forgiveness, begging for me

Just like I always wanted but I'm sooo sorry

Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale

I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well

This is a big world, that was a small town

There in my rearview mirror disappearing now

And its too late for you and your white horse

Now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now

Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa

Try and catch me now

Oh, it's too late

To catch me now

Oh my Carlisle, what had I done? As I sat there listening to that song the passenger door opened and Alice hoped in and sat next to me. "Are you okay Jasper?" she asked.

"No Alice I think I made a mistake. I didn't even give her a change to explain. It's really over isn't it?" I asked.

"I don't know Jasper, you know when she has her shield up I cant see anything. I got a glimpse earlier of her leaving you that letter but then blackness again." she said.

"Thanks Alice," I said, picking up the letter, I was so scared to read what it said. The paper had her scent all over it and it made my heartache more. The letter was written in her beautiful and delicate handwriting and said:

Dearest Jasper,

I have laid in bed for two months morning what we once had. I can not believe that you would not even give me a chance to explain. I know they say a picture is worth a thousand words and there were several pictures but what you don't get is a date for which the picture took place. Things between us are over but I still feel the need to explain, the pictures you saw were taken two years ago. His name was Brad, I thought I loved him and let him in, then I smarted up and left him. He said I took his happiness and one day he would take mine. Which is why those pictures were published. Brad is human and wanted his shot at fame, and by dating me he gets his spotlight, but that's besides the point, I am writing to let you know that by the time you get this I will be gone. I just wanted you to know my side of the story. Then maybe we can both move forward with our lives. Remember this Jasper, I love you forever.

Goodbye,

Isabella Marie Swan

When I finished reading her note I just wanted to curl up into a ball and cry but I couldn't do that. She loved me so there was a chance that she may forgive me for being an idiot. I can't believe I didn't listen to her. I'll try her house first, maybe she hasn't left yet. "She's not there, I just see you standing in the middle of her room, which isn't good when Charlie gets there to find you." Alice said, she must have had a vision while I was sitting there thinking of what to do.

"What should I do then Alice, I don't want to lose her. I made a stupid mistake, help me Ali." I said pleading with her, her emotions held a strong current of sorrow and familiar love.

"Jazz I'm sorry, I wish I could but with Bella's shield I'm blind. I don't see Charlie telling you anything but you can try. You know Bella better than any of us, you know she hasn't gone far not with her father still here." Alice said trying to be helpful.

"Okay Alice I am going to go talk to Charlie after we get out of school." I said looking at Alice, she had a smirk on her face.

"Jasper school will be out in five… four… three… two… now." She said as the bell rang. Oh my Carlisle we sat in my car for three hours without me noticing.

"Okay well when will Charlie be home?" I asked.

"Later, sometime after five it looks like." Alice said.

"Okay so I got three more hours to wait." I paused, "Lets go home."

Waiting for Charlie to get home was the longest couple of hours of my life. When six o'clock hit I decided that I had given Charlie enough time to get there. When I pulled up in their driveway I saw that the cruiser was already there. Walking up to the door I was the most nervous time in my life. When Charlie answered the door I could feel all of his rage pour out of him and aim for me. "Chief Swan can I come in for a minute?" I asked.

"What do you want Mr. Hale?" He asked not moving.

"I was hoping to speak to Bella," his rage almost tripled at the mention of her name.

"Bella isn't here, she left because of YOU!" Charlie yelled. "Bella trusted you even after everything that you and your family did to her. I was so worried when she said you were back but she said that you wouldn't hurt her. You- you- you broke her worse than Edward did. At least with him she could still live, she still could walk and talk and act normal but with you she died." All his rage for me about knocked me to my knees and I deserved every bit of it.

"Please sir let me make this right." I begged. "Please I love her and I was so stupid to think she would cheat on me. Please just tell me where she is."

"Jasper I can hear the honesty in your words," He said pointing to his head, sorrow and pity now mixing in with his anger, "I could tell you where she is but she's in the one place that you can't go, none of you can."

"Thank you Charlie for listening. Maybe someday she will talk to me again. But when you see her or speak to her tell her I love her and I am sorry." I said all my hope gone. I left Charlie standing there on the porch looking at me with sad eyes.

"I will Jasper, I will." Charlie whispered.

Pulling up at home I felt hope coming from inside, I wish I was able to bring them good news. Walking in the house I felt all hope disappear when they saw me, but Alice was filling a little smug and still had hope. "Jasper you're an idiot." Rosalie said, I knew she was mad at me because of what I did to Bella and she was right.

"Jasper," Alice said, she had an all-knowing smile on her face, "what did Charlie say?"

"I broke her, I'm worse than Edward, and that she went somewhere we cant go." I said breaking down. I hated knowing that I broke her so bad that she ran away from Charlie. I hated that I basically killed her after promising that she could trust me. She gave us a second chance that we didn't deserve and we broke her again but worse.

"Jasper think about it where can we not go? The one place that we can not go?" Alice asked like I was stupid, which I really am.

"La Push, she's with Jacob." I said stating the obvious.

There were many gasps all around followed by Carlisle asking, "Jacob Black is still around? Why is she staying there and what about the treaty?"

"Jacob is still around we ran into him a couple months ago when Bella and I were out hunting. Bella and him used to be best friend when we left before. The pack is why Charlie and Bella are still alive, they saved Bella from Victoria many times. Plus Jacob made Bella and Charlie family to the pack, they can go to La Push with out breaking any treaties because they don't have one." I said.

"So how do we get her to come back?" asked Emmett, the thing is that no one knew the answer to that question.