A/N: I don't own anyone but my OC's…..though I wished I owned the rest….*sighs*
Oh holy hell! I totally fell off the rails and got brain locked on this...But this one has slight angst, confessions, and sexy goodness! Oh and if I become a target of this purge I will not go down without a fight! I have heard it was those idiots at Critics United that are behind this. Well there are more of us than there are of them!
"How are you feeling?"
Alessa peered over the heavy mug and across the room as Black Hat approached. His eyes continued to house the concern that unfortunately attached to him like a leech in recent days.
"Better," she mumbled with the rim between her lips. "I didn't have any nightmares last night."
"Good," he nodded shortly.
"I know you're worried; about me….."
"Is it not my right to be such?" His face darkened in to a deep frown.
"It is your right. These terrors, these nightmares have plagued me since I fled Cathedral City. I didn't sleep well some nights and others I woke up to find myself in the same closet you found me in only I was in an attack stance and gripping my Sais so tight my hands had been void of all sensation."
Alessa paused and took another long drink before continuing.
"Honestly I never told anyone these things…..Not even…"
She stopped before saying Hicks' name out loud. "Well it doesn't matter now."
"Why do you say such a thing Lessa? Of course this matters now! You've opened up, sharing the deep wounds that you've been forced to carry all this time."
"I know," she subconsciously licked her lips. "But I also know that being with you has been the push I needed to open up."
Black Hat nodded but couldn't help to let a tiny smile escape.
"I'm sorry," she blurted.
"For what?" He tilted his head towards her.
"Taking off like I did at Solanum. I just…." Alessa's chest heaved as her shoulders dropped in a display of guilt.
"Alessandra," Black Hat coupled the mug with his hands and placed it on the stand. "We can discuss this until you are better."
"No," she shook her head. "Let's talk about this now…..please?"
"Alright," he acquiesced.
"I know what I did was stupid and I nearly got killed. I know you're upset with me for it."
"I am," the hybrid was quick to answer. Perhaps he was too quick…..
"So whatever you have to say to me do it. Yell, scream, purge…Get it off your chest. I'm prepared to take it."
Alessa put on her bravest front, ready to accept whatever the consequences were. It couldn't be any worse than what the Church had done to her!
You really believe I would strike you?
Alessa opened her eyes to see the mournful expression haunting his beautiful amber rings.
Whatever the punishment is I am prepared to accept it….
Punishment? Alessandra I would never dare lay a hand on you in malice….
I'm sorry…..Old habits die hard huh?
The sad smile crossed her lips. Black Hat winced at her words. Even now she anticipated a violent retaliation from him for her disobedience. No! No she had to see!
"Alessandra," Black Hat gathered her in his arms and pressed a gentle kiss to her forehead. "I would never harm you. I would die first before striking you! How could I hurt the one I love?"
Alessa froze and slowly lifted her head towards him.
"Y-You love me?" She choked on her words and the tears that gathered in her eyes.
"Yes." Alessa felt the strong calloused hand tenderly slip between the strands of black. "I realized it after you were shot and when I took care of you. It was then I felt it…."
And I damn near fucked it up with my stupidity!
"How stupid I was! I almost hurt the one person who….." Alessa bolted up and started for the door but the overpowering form of her mate blocked the way.
"No," he shook his head. "No running away. Now go, sit back down."
Alessa sighed and sat back down on the bed. Her fingers fidgeted uneasily as she battled the guilt slipping further through her body.
"I shouldn't have tried to do that."
"I can see why you reacted the way you did Lessa. Your whole life was nothing but pain and angst. To know the touch of love…."
"Is something totally new to me," she whispered. "And I tried running from it."
Alessa thought she had known real love with Hicks and perhaps she did. But her heart had been shattered that day and any pieces that had survived turned as hard as the outcrops of the Wastelands.
"What the fuck is going on?"
Alessa stood in the doorway of the bedroom. Her hands were curled fiercely around the frame and knob turning the joints bone white. Her heart was in her throat as her eyes regrettably spied the truth before her.
"Alessa….." Hicks leapt from the bed clothed only in his boxers. Lucy darted beneath the covers, avoiding the hateful daggers of ice. Shock lined his handsome features as the older woman hovered with malice in her eyes.
"Just stop right there! I do not want to hear whatever lies spill from your lips Hicks! Now I see why you've been staying away from me…."
"Wait, it's not like that…."
"It's not like that! Then what in the FUCK do you call this? You're practically naked in BED with HER!"
Alessa pointed a slender finger at the cowering figure beneath the heavy comforter.
"You know what? I don't want to hear it! You'll just lie to me."
Alessa's lips trembled as the tears streamed down her flush tinged cheeks. Her hands shook against the door as she took two steps back from the man she had loved. Her eyes darted to the bed where only the week prior she had been sleeping in his arms. The warmth of his body was still fresh in her mind as the leathery scent that dabbed at his skin. Alessa shook her head with disgust as the harsh reality erupted.
"I gave you everything…." She whispered. Alessa felt as if she had been tossed aside like trash. Perhaps that was all she had been her life: To be used by others then tossed aside into the cold. Why did she expect something different with him?
"Bastard," she spat in his face then fled the house.
"He hurt me."
Alessa sighed at her confession. "I mean I walked in and found them like that."
"Bastard indeed," Black Hat snarled. "He broke your heart."
"It's why I stayed where I did when I left the cities. Solitude didn't hurt me; it kept me alive."
"But you were alone."
"Of course but I was better off alone then suffering like I had. I thrived out there until…"
Alessa leaned over grappling her arms around his waist. The slender arms strengthened their hold as a child would wrap around a parent's waist in time of need. Her head rested against his shoulder as her eyes slowly shut. "You found me and now I can feel that heaviness and burden lifting. You did that."
"No, Lessa, you did that yourself."
"Well you helped. You gave me a reason to face the demons of the Church; to exterminate the scourge. I promise I won't take off like a reckless teenager again."
"I know you won't. You always keep your promises."
"So you love me huh?" Her head lifted up until two sets amber rings were mirror images of the other.
"I just don't love you Alessandra…..I'm in love with you. And I know if you're not ready to say it I understand!"
Alessa's mouth dropped into a small circle as the shock of his declaration.
"But how do you know? We haven't been together….." She was silenced by the pressure of his mouth pressing tightly with hers. Alessa felt herself melting in his arms as she pushed forward keeping the connection between them as their bodies tumbled back against the crumpled bedding. Alessa eagerly parted her mouth meeting the heated wetness of his tongue. The soft sighs only encouraged him further. The smaller soft muscle was gently coaxed out by the powerful sensual dance of the larger. His lips suckled on it suggestively, guiding his tongue across the flat plane of saliva and flesh. The quiet moans rippled from her throat as her hands slipped up and under the loose fitting shirt, anxious to touch the rippled chiseled flesh beneath.
The feathery touches of his lover's hands across the subtle rifts and valleys of his body caused him to moan helplessly as the sweet manipulations of skin and nail continued along the hemline of his pants. His head tilted back as the golden rings rolled up in unbridled lust. Her lips severed the heated connection between them earning a small grunt of protest from him.
Alessa dipped her head down and brushed her lips across the chords of tendons that flexed against her caress. His wandering hands jerked the vest off her shoulders, waiting patiently for the slender arms to slip away. Not a second could pass before the tight olive shirt was being lifted up and over then discarded without a second look.
He lowered her back on the bed, taking a moment to gaze at the beautiful creature sprawled out below. The light returned to the rich citrine hues, something he had secretly missed. Her lips had softened into a subtle smile with canines peeking from the bottom of her lip; it was an honest smile of trust and adoration. The dark halo framed her strong face, the stunning opposite of the Church's idol. If he had to breathe the very air would've been ripped from his lungs. Black Hat started to tear at the leather straps fastened on his hand but Alessa snatched his wrist and pulled it away.
"Don't," her voice purred in a low seductive manner as she pulled herself up. "Leave them on…."
Black Hat simply smirked as her fingers fisted the front of his shirt ripping the buttons apart. They flew across the room bouncing off the walls and stand but neither one paid heed. Alessa beckoned him down against her with her legs climbing along his outer thighs. The delicious friction created between their bodies stirred the heat growing in the depths of her body, hinting her skin with a faint glow of flush. It was growing harder to keep this stead but painful pace but she didn't want to rush it but the hard grinding of their hips together threatened to hurl both into a sexual frenzy of flesh and blood.
"I want to show you how much I love you," he captured her mouth devouring the swollen lips with a domineering power. Alessa relented but didn't cease her hungry exploration of his body. She grinned into the hybrid's mouth as her hands tore the zipper and button open. The abrupt hard jerks of her wrists pried the faded material apart. Black Hat growled with pleasure at the soft nimble hand slipped down inside, gripping the rigid flesh of his cock. Her thumb massaged the weeping slit of the head, smearing the digit and velvet surface with the beads of precome.
"Lessa…." Black Hat bucked his hips against her hand.
"You like that? You like it when I'm stroking you like this?"
"No….I….Love….It….Please….More…."
Alessa nipped at his ear and neck and pumped her hand faster and harder feeling the solid rock member twitching in her grip. If the sinful but blissful strokes continued he would lose all control right then and there! But the sensations of her skin against him were pure bliss. She watched as the worn faded pants were pushed down her lover's hips and legs until he was naked from the waist down. Her eyes traveled down the solid thighs and calves which served in inflame the lust and need growing inside of her. The scent of their aroused states clung to their skin and air, feeding the frenzy that was simmering beneath the surface.
"Lessa…." The guttural growl rumbled in his throat. He was getting close…..so close….
Alessa snapped from her trance as her hand was tugged away from his weeping cock. Her mate was panting hard as he struggled to maintain control over his body.
"Alexander," she caressed his cheek and lightly kissed his lips.
"Lessa…..Please…."
She didn't need to ask and sprawled back on the bed with hips elevated off the mattress. The need in his eyes burned like a raging fire as his hands teasingly tugged the denim down. The cool air greeted the smooth hot folds, causing her to hiss and arch her back even higher.
"I love how you feel," he whispered dangerously in her ear. Two calloused fingers gingerly pushed on the buried jewel of nerve and flesh, causing Alessa to thrash her hips against the welcomed intrusion. His thumb slowly massaged the receptive mound as his fingers penetrated between her legs and into the hot sticky channel. The very tips curled against the precious heat, sending jolts of electricity through Alessa's body. The hard pants and gasps made him grin wickedly as she fucked herself on his hand with forceful hungry thrusts. The feeling of being stroked and manipulated in such a sensual intimate manner was almost more than she could take.
"So beautiful," he whispered in her ear. Alessa couldn't speak as the coiling in her body tightened to the brink, ready to release the tension. Her mouth was open but only pants and gasps were audible. Her inner thighs quivered and closed together as the powerful orgasm ripped through her being.
"Shhhh," he covered her mouth with his but continued his teasing and touching between her legs. Her muscles clamped around his fingers, pulsing around him with the sweet honey of her release creating a quiet wet sound as quickened the pace. Black Hat dipped his head down and flickered his tongue between the damp folds, sighing as he imbibed her ambrosia. Nothing could describe what he experiencing, tasting, or feeling at that instant. His Lessa, so open, so vulnerable, and so trusting as she spread her legs wide apart. His mouth was pure heaven as it continued tracing along her most intimate parts. The screams coming from above only encouraged him on as he pried deeper into her body. The faint tickle of his canines against sensitive skin only enhanced her pleasure which only excited the hybrid even more. His cock twitched and wept beads of pearl as he couldn't stand it any longer!
He slowly withdrew but not before tenderly kissing the protruding mound. Her taste was intoxicating; like a powerful drug that refused to relinquish its hold over his mind body and soul. But he would gladly succumb to it every time.
Alessa swallowed hard as she felt her body throbbing with the pleasurable ache. Her eyes fluttered open and peered through glazed over rings as he scooped her up in his arms and slowly eased inside. The thick pressure was greeted with the tight but hot wet glove embracing him. He pushed further inside until he was finally balls deep, unable to go any further.
"Just relax my love," he softly cooed in her ear and gently slid back then thrusted in. His mouth raced over her throat, nipping and kissing at the sweat laced skin. Alessa tilted her head to one side and closed her eyes, letting her will fall into his hands. His hips rocked and ground against her, sending shivers of delight down her spine. Alessa shuddered beneath him as the head of her lover's cock hit and rub against that sweet spot inside. She was wetter than before as she bucked her hips, meeting his in steady but deep thrusts.
"Again….please….." she beseeched him. Black Hat grinned at her plea and picked up his thrusts, watching as her face twisted and contorted in ecstasy. He could feel her body constricting around him as she teetered on the edge.
"That's it Lessa," he kissed her collarbone and top of her shoulder. "I wanna feel you…."
Alessa flung her head back and let out an ear piercing scream as her body convulsed and shuddered. Her eyes squeezed shut releasing liquid diamonds from her eyes. Black Hat quickly kissed them away. Her nails raked down his back with thin lines of blood trailing behind them adding to the heavy shroud of sex adrenaline and sweat that blanketed them. Black Hat groaned with satisfaction as she rode out another hard but mind blowing orgasm. Her essence bled into his, letting him experience the awesome power of her body's release. It was if his mind and body were adrift a veil of warmth that wrapped around him as his being was attacked by a million sensations of ecstasy with a rush of energy flowing through his veins.
"Yes Lessa…." He was slamming his hips harder against her as his own release was building. The strain in his voice amplified as his throat thundered with deep growls. Alessa smiled knowingly and titled her head to one side, exposing the slender pretty throat for him. Black Hat felt his gums tingle as the offering called out to his instinct.
The ivory fangs pierced the tender shoulder but Alessa didn't cry in pain. Instead her hands carded through his hair as he feasted upon her blood. The springs of crimson were captured with his lips and tongue, refusing to let a single drop spill.
Lessa…..I-I
Let it go Alexander….
She gasped as the viscous ropes spilled into her body. The stoic arms and legs trembled as his body succumbed to its own climax. His vision went bright with a blinding white before the dark rings spotted his sight. Alessa felt it coursing through her veins and nerves forcing a tiny whimper from her lips. Her arms and legs instantly latched around him, keeping them locked together as one as he continued to shudder against her. Alessa ran her hand soothingly up and down his back then gently kneaded his lower back. It had a calming effect upon him as she sensed he was on the descent from his sexual high. He carefully released his hold upon her, cleaning the wounds before pulling back.
Before saying anything, he rolled onto his side, taking the smaller hybrid with him. The pair were now face to face, on their sides on the bed. Neither one said anything but rather were content looking deep into the other's eyes. She linked her hands with his, kissing the tops of each. Black Hat couldn't but help to notice how beautiful she was, lying there naked and basking in the afterglow. Her normally tame locks were now unruly and in disarray. Her skin dabbed with beads of sweat.
Alessa watched as he took one wrist in both of his hands and began kissing the strong but slender limb.
"You just can't get enough of me huh?"
"Never," he muttered.
"Good," she smiled lazily. Alessa caught the chaotic strands of his hair sticking up and out. She suppressed a small laugh and enjoyed the tender attention showered upon her. A yawn escaped her lips as she felt exhausted.
"Tired already?" Black Hat raised an eyebrow in amusement.
"Yeah," she shrugged her shoulders. "You wore me out."
"As you wore me out," Alessa laughed at his sentiment. She scooted across the bed until she was completely emerged in his embrace. Alessa wanted to be closer to him, especially now in light of his confession. Her arms locked as tightly as possible, afraid to let him go. Black Hat felt the ferocity in her hold but said nothing and instead ran his hand up and down the right plane of her back, feeling the raised trails that were graphic reminders of her enslavement.
"How much longer to Sola Mira?"
"Another few days and we will rest there."
"Sounds good to me," she wanted to ask the Queen she meant in her dream. Alessa felt her eyes grow heavy then she was asleep. Black Hat kissed the top of her sweat drenched locks before closing his eyes and joining his mate in the lull of slumber. He would wait patiently until she was ready to tell him. No need to rush her as he knew she was still healing from the wounds of the past.
I hope everyone liked the extra long chapter!