Kim placed the plate in front of him. They hadn't really spoken for the rest of the afternoon, Adam had disappeared into his room again and they basically avoided each other until Kim knocked on his door and told him dinner was ready.

"Fried egg?" Adam cocked one eyebrow, tilting his head and smiling. "You remembered."

It was his favourite thing ever. A fried egg on top of a piece of steak was his ultimate food indulgence. Kim could think of nothing more disgusting but he loved it and took great pleasure in ordering it when they were out at their favourite steak restaurant with very specific instructions on how he liked his egg.

"I do." Kim looked down a little shyly. Could she be anymore desperate to make him happy? He had been right; she didn't trust his love for her. All long she told herself she didn't do it because there was no love, she did it because she did love him but obviously she didn't believe that he felt the same and she never asked him. Like someone who read horoscopes and then convinced themselves that it was fact and would twist things to fit with what they'd read, Kim listened to everyone else's advice and convinced herself that it was how Adam felt. She never, not once asked him. She'd been played and she was a fool and she may have lost the best thing she ever had.

He cut into his egg and whistled his appreciation as the gooey egg yolk ran out over his steak. "You know we had to have that conversation. We couldn't ignore it forever."

"I know; I just hate myself."

"Don't." Shoving a piece of meat and egg into his mouth he moaned with pleasure and he obviously loved it and Kim just enjoyed watching him for a moment.

"Why not, you do?"

Adam shook his head as he chewed. "I don't hate you, not even close. This would be easy if I did."

"You don't have to say that to make me feel better."

"Kim, I don't hate you, I hated some of the things you did but I never hated you." He sounded like he was done talking about it and quite frankly he was. It was going around in circles. As far as Adam was concerned they had said what needed to be said and that was it. What it meant now and in the future was yet to be seen. "This is good." He took another bite. "You can add this to your list of culinary achievements."

"What a fried egg on a slab of meat? Such an achievement."

"Best thing I've eaten in months."

Watching a movie that night the old easy banter returned and the earlier conversation was forgotten. They had always been good at mocking movies and TV Shows and Kim had made them watch 'The Lucky One.' At least it had started out in some warzone but his hope had quickly faded.

"What are we watching?" Adam groaned.

"Zac Efron."

"I didn't know there was a movie called Zac Efron."

"Well no, there is not but you know he's my secret celebrity free pass." Adam had deliberately sat close to her and he liked it when Kim leant on his shoulder a little and he could the faintest hint of a blush.

"How could I forget?" Of course he hadn't forgotten, how could he. There was not much about her that he had forgotten and that was half his problem. Even being close to her the last few weeks he started to enjoy the smell of her again. When she used to brush past him at the District when they were on the outs the smell she left behind made him feel sick, now it had become comforting again. "It's not so much of a secret."

"Oh damn, really? I thought I kept that well hidden."

"Well every time we watch one of his movies you get….." he let the rest of the sentence tail off. Neither of them needed to reminded what would happen after Kim watched a Zac Efron movie, more often than not Adam was definitely always the Lucky One.

Lucky tonight however meant sitting together watching a movie, picking holes in it constantly and just enjoying being close to one another. Kim thought that he almost was going to give her a good night kiss. He stared at her for just a moment, cocked his head, smiled and patted her on the leg. "Good Night."

Kim woke up with a start. She suddenly had the feeling that someone was watching her. "Oh God Adam." She sat bolt upright. "Are you okay?" He was standing in her doorway and it was the sudden flood of light into her room that obviously woke her.

"Kim." His voice was trembling and barely above a whisper.

She flew out of bed. "Adam. What's wrong?" He was shaking, standing in her doorway in just his boxers and looking terrified. His breathing was laboured and Kim started to panic. Was he hurt or sick? He didn't feel hot when she touched his forehead but he was sweating. She grabbed his hands and tried to get him to focus on her, she desperately needed to bring him back from wherever he was. "Adam. Look at me." He pulled his hands away like he'd been holding them over a fire that had just got too hot.

"Adam."

Suddenly he gasped and even in the half-light she could see the terror in his eyes. "I had a dream. She was here and she took you away." He grabbed her tightly by the forearms, she knew he wasn't trying to hurt her but his grip was so tight that she winced and he suddenly let go.

"Who?" Kim led him over to and gently pushed him down on the bed. He was unsteady on his feet and Kim was worried he was going to faint again and he was far too heavy for her to catch.

"Her name, Janet. It wasn't Laura, her name is Janet." He pressed his fingers over his eyes as he desperately tried to make sense of what was in his head and he started to panic again, he didn't want to lose it. It was coming and going and it had woken him up suddenly and he was unsure of where he was and started to panic. Without really knowing how he got here he was now with Kim and he didn't know if he was still dreaming but she felt real. "It starts with M. I can't remember."

Kim was rubbing his back. "Just breathe Adam."

"She just laughed at me as she took you away. I couldn't stop her. I can't remember her name. I need to remember." His breathing was shallow and Kim was desperate to get him to calm down and mimicked some deep breaths encouraging him to breathe with her. "I couldn't get to you."

"I'm here Adam, it's okay." Kim grabbed one hand and rested it on her cheek, covering it with her own and held the other hand tightly in his lap. "I'm here."

Slowly his breath started to even out and he felt his head clearing. "Martin….no Morris."

"Janet Morris. Is that her name?"

"Yes."

"How do you know that?"

"I heard them. I think I heard them. In my mind, I tried to pretend to be asleep or unconscious when they were talking. They were talking about her and her husband. How insane they were. What they wanted to do with me." His head snapped up suddenly and the terror had gone and been replaced by tears. "I couldn't save you."

"Okay." She kissed his temple softly. "Okay. They are not here now. It's just you and me and we are both okay. I'm here and I'm safe, so are you." She eased him back onto the bed. "Come and lie down."

"Don't go."

"Adam, I'm going to be right here. Right beside you." She crawled into bed beside him and let him rest against her chest. They didn't talk but Kim knew he wasn't sleeping and probably only dozed off just before dawn. This wasn't how she wanted to have him come back to her bed and seeing him so distressed was heartbreaking but Kim was glad she was here for him; it was time for Kim to repay him for all the times he held her while she cried.

Kim must have dozed off also and when she opened her eyes Adam was looking at her. "Are you okay?" was the first thing out of her mouth. Her fingers brushed over his still bruised cheek and she didn't like how weary he looked.

"Yes."

"The dream?" Kim kissed his forehead as he closed his eyes. "Do you remember it?"

"More like a nightmare. I remember some of it. I know she was going to hurt you."

"Lucky I am here then, with you. You'll keep me safe." Her hand was still on his cheek and her thumb was running lightly up and down beside his ear. She could feel the heat radiating off him, his barely dressed body was so close to hers and all she had on was a tank top and her panties. Erin certainly hadn't gone all out with the packing, more than likely that was deliberate.

"Always." He rolled away and stretched out on his back and hooked one hand behind his head, he needed to not be so close to her right now. One thing would make him feel better though but that would be crossing a line and neither of them was ready for that. "It was pretty vivid."

"You said her name. Do you remember that?"

Adam nodded and closed his eyes. "Janet Morris." It was clear as day. Why now? Why couldn't he remember this weeks ago? He started to shake a little, just enough for Kim to notice so she moved closer to him and rested a hand over his heart. "Breathe Adam."

"I can't."

"She's not here. It's just you and me. Intelligence is going to find them, now we have a name. Trust them."

"Your safe here. You need to stay here." Now she knew why he really wanted her here. While he didn't really understand what had happened to him and why he wanted and needed to protect her but Kim knew, without a doubt in that moment that he still loved her and she just had to get him to allow himself believe it.

"I am safe here with you."

"I never loved her, or was ever going to. After that day in court, up until then I never…." Kim knew what he was trying to tell her, everyone else had made her painfully aware that Adam hadn't been with anyone else up until he found out about her and Roman. "I was so out of my mind." Adam was staring at the ceiling but he appreciated that Kim was still so close. "It was just sex. You know that kind of sex to get over your ex thing."

"I do know. It never works though does it?"

"No. It just made me miss you even more." He chuckled a little painfully. "Initially I wanted to parade her around town to shove it in your face but she didn't and by the time I figured out why I was in too deep."

"Why do you think she's involved?"

"I don't know, I just do or at the very least she knows who did this." Without noticing it Adam was running his fingers up and down her bare arm. "Can we not talk about it right now?" Kim agreed to leave it for now. They would have to go over it again when Voight arrived and Kim could feel the tension leave his body so they lay down together and didn't talk.

"I'm going to have a shower and then make us a coffee and breakfast."

"Okay." He tugged on her hand when Kim started to climb off the bed. "Thank you."

"You don't have to thank me Adam." She squeezed his hand.

"Feel free to faint in the shower I promise I'll rescue you." Adam winked at her and Kim felt her stomach flip. He wasn't in her room when she got out and she found him in the kitchen already making a start on breakfast.

"I would have done that?"

"I needed to do something to take my mind off things." He was making them pancakes and Kim spied the packet of chocolate chips on the bench. Just as the fried egg was his favourite thing, chocolate chip pancakes rated highly on her list of food indulgences. Seems as if they were both desperate to make each other happy.

Kim rested a hand on his back as she reached for the first pancake on the plate. "Your nightmare?"

"No, you."