I hope I don't disappoint, but this isn't exactly what you were all expecting, but then again I'm not supposed to be predictable... the seed has been planted, lets see how it grows =D
Sorry for the delay and for leaving you all with a cliffhanger, I had every intention of updating the next day but I got a uh... little preoccupied lol. My apologies, there should be an update up until Wednesday then possibly not one until Saturday or Sunday.
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Chapter Fourteen
His shocked expression lightens as he laughs, "I'm sorry... I misheard you" I sigh... not only do I have to tell him, but I have to tell him twice,
"Naomi is the girl"
"What girl?" I sigh, but this time it's frustrated, "No... my Naomi?" He says, and I nod, waiting for the bollocking, waiting for the friendship to end, but instead he sits there dumbfounded, "Oh"
"It was causing problems, so I moved out, I'm gonna be staying here from now on" I say, nervous as he isn't really saying anything,
"Oh, ok then" Three minutes of deathly silence, and my stomach starts turning in knots,
"Say something" I say, and he laughs briefly again,
"What do you want me to say? The girl I'm in love with... turns out she used to be in love with my best friend, who is a girl... and I've never been told this..."
"I'm sorry"
"What do you have to be sorry for?" Now I frown,
"Well, I... she... we" I panic,
"No, no. That was before we even met... Yeah, you could have told me sooner... but this actually explains a lot"
"How so?"
"I mean... you two, you never really spoke, you never really got on... and I never understood why, I guess now I do" He sighs, "I just wish she'd have told me... even before you came back..."
"I'm a little confused" I sit up, my eyes looking up, almost searching my brain for an answer, but I can't find one, I can't find one small answer for his remarkable reaction,
"How so babes?" He sits forward, looking at me.
"This... you... I just told you something which I felt was gonna make me lose you... and you sit here... calling me babes still... I just don't get it"
"You honestly think I'd willingly throw our friendship away for a girl... a girl that you slept with, that you were in love with... before we even met? You really think I'm like that?" Now he gets angry, "I am not at all, what happened between the two of you is the past... I'm with her now, no grudges nothing, I'm just annoyed that she never told me about you, especially seeing as you said you were so in love" He coughs, "I did find it odd that she's best friends with your sister and you'd never met... but..."
"I'm so sorry" I say, and he smiles, leaning forward he grabs my hands,
"Look, there is nothing to be sorry for, it's not still going on is it?" I shake my head,
"No" I'm not exactly lying...
"Well then..." He smiles. "I just never knew she was into girls, is all" He says, sitting back again, his eye widening, and then a smile spreads across his face,
"You're picturing it aren't you?"
"Lil bit" I slap his knee,
"Look, listen to me now ok?" He snaps out of it, "Please be completely honest with me" He nods, "Will this..." I motion between us, "Be weird because of what I said... I know what's gone on, the dishonesty, everything, I'm just shocked at how you've taken it, very shocked" He smiles,
"I may be an arrogant prick sometimes Ems, but I love you, your my best friend, have been for a few years now... friends are far more important to me than any relationship, ok? I may act as though Naomi is my first priority sometimes, but she is not. I love her, don't get me wrong, but if she were to make me choose between you or her, it would be you every single time" I breathe a sigh of relief, "That is of course only if you don't sleep with her behind my back" He laughs, and I freeze, but quickly cover it up. I slap his knee, laughing along with him, "Is that what she's been bothered about?"
"I think so" I nod,
"I feel a little threatened now" he says, no joking behind, nothing, this is just him,
"Honestly, you don't need to... it's over, I promise you, she loves you" I say, a sad smile on my face that I cannot hide, and he notices it, his hand takes mine again,
"Ok, I've heard you out, now you listen to me... you're still in love with her aren't you?" My sad smile is still on my face as I look away, I feel my eyes mist up, but I stop them, "Aww, Ems" He leans forward, sitting on the edge of the couch he takes me in his arms, "Shhh" He shushes me as I silently release my tears, tears from today, tears from three years ago, tears that have been building up, dying for a proper release. I pull away, wiping my eyes,
"I won't come between you... that's why I left... you're happy, and I don't want to ruin that"
"You won't ruin that" He smiles, "If it doesn't work out, it doesn't work out. If it does, then I'll be worried about you a lot" I smile, and his hand lifts up, cupping my face, "Your my little lesbian, nothing is gonna change that, ok?" His thumb brushes across my face, wiping away the stray tear that falls down my cheek.
"What happens now?"
"Nothing" He nods, "She doesn't need to know that I know" I frown again, "I'm hoping she opens up, she tells me... if she doesn't, then I know she's not a keeper, don't I?"
"Are you sure this is... ok?" He laughs,
"Yes, god you're paranoid"
"I know, but it's kinda the unwritten rule aint it? Don't sleep with your best friend's exes..."
"To be completely fair, I didn't know she was your ex, so that is your fault" I have no words... No words. I'd even bought myself some vodka simply to drown my sorrows at losing my best friend, and he takes it like this. I literally do not know what to say. "I think it's best that you left to be fair..." He smiles, "If it were me in your situation I'd have left a long time ago... as soon as I found out"
"I know, it's hard, but it's my own fault, there is nothing I can do to rectify that... I'll be pleasant because of you" I smile, "Please, are you fucking with me?" He laughs again,
"Look, it is an awkward situation, but as you've said, you and Naomi are over... finished, so why should I get mad at you for your past? If it was still going on, then I would, but it's not. I trust you, so lets not make this awkward ok?"
"Ok, so long as your sure"
"Fuck sake... I'm sure" He says, getting a little irritated, I smile,
"Sorry... so are you really not going to mention anything to her?"
"Nope, it's not my place really, I'd be acting like the jealous boyfriend, and I'm not like that, you're her past, hopefully I'm her future, if she deems me fit she'll tell me"
"She might be scared" He frowns, "you've shocked the fucking shit outta me with the way you reacted, maybe she thinks how I thought" I frown, "If that makes sense"
"It does... but either way she's practically living with me, if she doesn't tell me cause of that, well, she doesn't really know me at all, it'll make or break our relationship really"
"Oh"
"Don't you say anything" He points at me smirking, "I mean it"
"I won't" I bite my lip, "I won't" I say quieter. He smiles,
"Thanks for telling me"
"Thanks for not hating me" I laugh nervously,
"I couldn't hate you if I tried" I really hope that's true. "I'm gonna take off, call me when you're free and we'll have a couple of drinks, ok?" I nod, standing up, he takes me into his tall frame, holding me tighter, "It'll be ok" I really hope that's true also. I watch as he leaves, and I hear my mum come down the stairs, she smiles sadly at me, and I almost break,
"He's a nice boy"
"You have no idea"
"It was good of him taking it like that... very mature" She sits down in her chair and smiles, "I could see you were nervous,"
"Nervous? I was absolutely cacking myself" I giggle, "I really am gobsmacked"
"Well don't sit and fester about it, it's sorted" I smile sadly, a new habit of mine,
"I may have told him about Naomi and myself, but he doesn't know half of it Mother" I sigh, "He doesn't know we slept together... we've kissed... while they've been together" She sighs, shaking her head, "I know, I know... but I can't help it... I love her mum, I love her so much" I feel my bottom lip quiver, but I bite it, suppressing the tears. Tears that won't solve anything.
"Maybe it's not meant to be"
"Maybe..." I sigh again, for the umpteenth time tonight, "I'm going to bed"
"Night" she smiles at me, I walk solemnly up the stairs, waiting for Katie to attack me asking for answers, but she's sat calmly on the bed, phone in one hand and an open book in the other. She looks at me and I instantly know something's wrong,
"What?" I ask, and she sighs,
"Naomi"
"What?" I panic, walking towards her,
"She's just rang me... she's in bits Em" My heart cracks, "What did you do to her?" It's not accusatory, it's softly spoken, almost as if she really is starting to understand this whole situation,
"She told me she loves me K, she told me she fucking loves me, and then chose him... so I left... she asked me to stay, but I said no, and then came here"
"She thinks you've left for good"
"Did you tell her I'm here?"
"No" I frown, "If it really is over between you two... isn't it better to think that you're far away rather than 10 minutes away? Isn't it better for her to give everything to Jimmy... than be torn? If she thinks you've left Ems... she'll stop holding on for once and hopefully for good"
"I don't think so" I shake my head, "It would be better but she's gonna see me... There's Jimmy and work"
"I thought you'd just told him"
"Yeah... he was fine" I laugh, still not believing, still waiting to wake from this dream,
"Fuck off"
"He did... he said I'm Naomi's past, he's her future, he can't hold anything against me because of my past... he's actually annoyed at Naomi for not telling him"
"Well holy Christ on a bike!" She laughs, "Did not see that coming"
"I know"
"Is he gonna confront her about it?"
"Nope" I shake my head, sitting at the foot of her bed, "He's gonna wait for her to tell him"
"She never will" She shuffles down the bed towards me, "She'll be too scared to lose him, she wouldn't dare"
"I know... that's why I'm gonna tell her to"
"What?"
"I'm gonna tell her to tell him about us... if she doesn't she'll lose him anyway, he's testing her K..."
"Shit" She says, realisation finally sinking in, the depth of this whole situation...
"You can say that again"
"Shit"
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