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AN: Thank you so much for all of the reviews. Sorry that it took me longer to update this time. I hope you like the new chapter. It's quite fluffy, but I feel you needed a break from the angst, but don't worry...it'll be back next chapter. ENJOY!
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Draco POV:
Why the blood hell had I told her that? What had I been thinking? Had I completely lost my mind? I had no idea why I had said that. I didn't love her…did I?
I made my way to the empty courtyard and sat on one of the cold stone benches. I ran my hand through my hair and let out a great sigh, watching my smoke like breath billow upward in the chilly air. It was cold, but I didn't care. I wanted to feel numb.
I desperately didn't want to love her. With every fiber of my being I didn't want it. I would have given up anything not to love her…except for her. I supposed that answered my question. I did love her. I wasn't sure when it had happened, but it apparently had.
I had felt the most intense jealousy when I had seen Nott take her in his arms. I had watched them dance, the heat in me rising rapidly, and then I had seen her start to stumble. Nott wasn't able to lead her. This made me happier than anything possibly could. I had gone over to them because I had wanted to prove that I could lead her, that in my arms she could dance perfectly. It had all been about pissing off Nott, but when I had taken her in my arms my motives seemed to change in an instant. I had begun to simply want to hold her close, to have her look beautiful and graceful. It had suddenly become all about her. That's when it had happened.
I had felt her warm in my arms and had felt such a peace in it. I had never felt so at ease in my life. That's when those three little words had come out of my mouth of their own accord. I hadn't meant to say any of it, but I had and now I had to deal with the aftermath of it.
It was obvious that she didn't feel the same way about me as I did for her. She hadn't said I love you. Maybe if I had said it sooner she would have loved me back. Maybe I had finally pushed her away, but I didn't want that now. I had really screwed up and I had no clue what to do. I wanted to be with her. I wanted to touch her, to hold her, kiss her. I felt like I was losing my mind. If I had been less of a man I would have cried.
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Ray POV:
I didn't even know where to begin to look for Draco. He could always find me, but I certainly couldn't find him. I just hoped that he hadn't gone back to his dormitory. That was the one place I didn't have access to.
I had looked all around the castle, or at least it seemed like it. I had been at it for at least two hours. The dance would be over soon and I couldn't think of anywhere else to look. I was giving up. I would just have to find him the next day. Perhaps he would come back to the Great Hall. He wouldn't leave his precious Pansy alone all night.
There was no way that he really loved me. This had to be some sort of ploy to get me to start kissing him again. He had no more control over me. It was Christmas. The enchantment was broken, so maybe this was the only way he could think of to keep me around. Yes, I will admit that at first I believed him, but only for a second. I felt foolish for believing him even for that short second, but you couldn't blame me. He had looked so sincere. I had seen love in his eyes, but I knew now that all that had been was something that I had cooked up in my head because it had been what I wanted to see.
I was so glad I had been too shocked to say that I loved him too. I wanted my first time of saying it to be special and not wasted on some little prick who was trying to trick me. I was angry. He knew I wanted to hear those words. Hell, I would have been happy with a simple I like you, but no, he had to choose the three words he knew I wanted to hear more than anything and just throw them around like they meant nothing.
I walked past the entrance to the courtyard and heard a noise that made me jump. Images of Stephen came flooding to my mind. I had been so caught up in finding Draco that I had completely forgotten that I shouldn't be walking around by myself. I felt a panic run through me. I still had no wand. My Grandmother hadn't sent me a new one yet, so I was completely defenseless.
I heard the noise again, but this time it was more pronounced. It was a painful sounding moan. It had sounded like…Draco, but that was crazy. No one in their right mind would go outside right now. It was freezing and I knew for a fact that he didn't have a coat on. I heard the painful moan again.
I had no idea what to do. I had no coat and my dress barely had sleeves. I would freeze to death if I went out there, but what if it was Draco? He sounded like he was hurt. I couldn't leave without at least checking it out.
I took my last deep breath of reasonably warm air and walked out into the courtyard. I felt the cold air hit my body and felt my breath hitch. This was crazy and I knew it. No sane person would come out here without a coat.
I quickly looked around, rubbing my arms to get some semblance of warmth. I was about to give up when I saw a figure behind one of the pillars. I hesitantly began to walk towards the dark form. "Draco?"
The dark figure moaned and I could immediately tell that it was him, but something was wrong. I ran to him, all thought of being cold left me. When I reached him I was horrified by what I saw. He was lying on the ground with his arms wrapped around himself, violently shivering.
"Draco, what happened?" I bent down and helped him get onto the nearby bench. I knelt down in front of him and took his face in my hands; the feel of it frightened me. His face was as cold as ice and had lost all its color. There was a faint shadow at his eye and his mouth had blood at the corner. I put my face close to his and tried to get him to look me in the eyes.
When I finally captured his eyes with mine I saw that his eyes were unfocused and foggy. He leaned forward and kissed my lips; they felt like cold stone and had the faint taste of blood to them. He weakly smiled. "It worked…"
I hugged him close to me to try and warm him. "What worked?"
He wrapped his arms around me and hugged me so close that I could feel his heartbeat. It was slow and irregular. "I wished you would find me and you did…" His words were slightly slurred. I had to get him out of the cold and back into the castle.
I tried to pull away from him, but he had me tight in his arms. I was really beginning to feel the cold myself and had begun to shiver. "Draco, please, let's go back in the castle. It's too cold out here." He held onto me even tighter. "Come on, Draco."
I roughly jerked myself out of his hold and pulled him off the bench. It took all the strength I had in me, but I eventually got him standing up straight and leaning against me. He felt so cold. I had no idea how long he had been like that. I was just hoping it hadn't been the whole two hours I had been looking for him. I could tell that his body had become weak and that he wasn't exactly lucid. He kept mumbling things I didn't understand and was swaying in my arms.
I practically dragged him the last few steps back into the castle. Once inside I leaned him against the nearest wall and watched as he slid to the floor, his head slumping forward. I dropped to the floor in front of him and grabbed his face, bringing it up to look at me. "Draco, are you alright? Please be alright…" He looked up at me and quickly grabbed my head, pulling me to him. He took my lips roughly and hard. I couldn't help but to let myself lean into him completely. He was so cold. I pulled back. "Draco, you need to go to the Hospital Wing."
His eyes filled with fire and he roughly pulled me back to him. "What I need is right here."
He was scaring me. He wasn't at all right in the head. I decided to start talking to him like he was a child, very soothing and slowly. "OK, Draco, you can have me, but first let's take you to the Hospital Wing, alright?" I nodded and he followed my movements with his own nod. "I'll be right back, Draco. I have to go and get Madam Pomfrey from the Ball, OK?
He grabbed my arm so tightly that it hurt. "No, you won't come back. You don't love me…"
My eyes grew wide. "Draco, I do, it's just..."
He narrowed his eyes. "Then say it…"
"Draco let me go get you some help." He might have been acting like a child, but his strength was that of an adult.
He jerked my arm. "Say it"
"No…" I roughly yanked my arm out of his hold and got off the floor. I looked down at him. He actually looked…sad. Had he really meant what he had said? I would worry about that later. I had to go and get him help.
I ran as fast as I could to the Great Hall. When I arrived I saw that a good amount of the students had left. Probably because there was only about thirty minutes of the dance left. I looked around frantically for Madam Pomfrey and finally spotted her talking to Professor Snape.
I ran to her and grabbed her arm. I put my hand to my heart to try and catch my breath. "Madam Pomfrey you have to help."
Her eyes grew wide. "What's wrong?"
"Draco…" It was all I could get out through my sporadic breathing.
I saw Professor Snape look at me with shock. "What has happened to Draco?"
I took in a deep breath. "Follow me." I began to run back to Draco, Madam Pomfrey and Professor Snape close behind me.
When we finally reached Draco I wanted to cry out. He was lying on the floor; his eyes closed looking of death. Madam Pomfrey knelt down beside him. I saw her put her hand on his cheek. She looked at Professor Snape. "Help me get him to the Hospital Wing. He's hypothermic and has been badly beaten. I need to give him a warming potion and fast."
Professor Snape quickly bent down and scooped Draco off the floor like he weighed nothing. The two adults began to run up the stairs with Draco and without thinking I followed behind them.
When we arrived in the Hospital Professor Snape laid Draco on a bed, Madam Pomfrey running to her potions. I just stood there at the door and watched them try to help Draco. I felt completely helpless. This was my fault. He did love me. I knew that now. I should have said I love you back and then none of this would have happened. He wouldn't have left the dance and this horrible thing wouldn't have been done to him.
When they were done helping Draco and all had become quiet, Professor Snape looked up and saw that I was there. "Do you have information about what happened to him?"
"No sir, I don't"
He looked at me dismissively. "You're no longer needed then, Miss. Sonders. You can leave."
"No…" I said in such a weak voice I wasn't sure he had heard.
He looked shocked. "Excuse me?"
"I'm not leaving him…"
He started walking towards me in a threatening manner. "I'm afraid you're incorrect."
I felt my resolve strengthen. "I'm not leaving him."
He raised his eyebrows. "Yes, you are. Do you want a detention? I'll be more than happy to give you one."
I narrowed my eyes at him. "Fine, give me a detention, but you're going to have to drag me out of here kicking and screaming if you still want me to leave."
"Would you two be quiet? Mr. Malfoy needs to sleep." We both looked at Madam Pomfrey who was covering Draco with more blankets. "Just let the girl stay if she wants. It's fine with me. I just want quiet in my hospital."
Without taking another look at Snape I walked past him to Draco's bedside. I looked at Madam Pomfrey and mouthed a thank you. She smiled and winked at me. I was pretty sure she knew something was going on with Draco and I. She apparently approved.
I heard Professor Snape clear his throat. "You have detention Miss. Sonders, first thing when term starts."
Without turning from Draco I answered him. "Fine" I heard the door to the Hospital Wing open and close. He had left.
Madam Pomfrey rose from beside Draco's bed and smiled at me. "He's going to be fine. I gave him something to warm him and now all he needs to do is sleep it off. He was beaten pretty badly. He had internal bleeding, but I was able to fix it. Will you two be alright out here? I need to go and do some paper work."
I smiled. "Yes, we'll be fine." She turned from the bed and left to go into her office.
I leaned down and kissed Draco's forehead, his nose, and then his lips. I pulled back and looked at him. The color in his face was returning and the faint bruise on his eye, along with the bloody lip were gone. I gave a relieved sigh and pulled up a chair close to his bed. I started stroking his hair and humming a tuneless song while I watched him sleep.
I looked up when I heard the Hospital door open. It was Mandy. "Ray are you alright?" Her eyes grew wide when she saw Draco on the bed. She gasped. "What happened?" She ran over to my side.
I looked up at her, but still continued stroking Draco's hair. "I don't know, Mandy. He just…I don't know. I really don't want to talk about it right now. How did you know I was here?"
"Michel and I saw you run out of the Great Hall with Professor Snape and Madam Pomfrey. We followed you guys up here, but hung back until we saw Professor Snape leave."
I looked around. "Where's Michel?"
"I made him wait outside. Ray…Are you ready to go? Michel and I can walk you back to the dormitory…"
I instinctively moved closer to Draco. "No, I'm staying here."
She looked down at me with worried eyes. "Ray, you can't stay in here all night…"
"Yes, I can."
She sighed in defeat. "Alright Ray…Do you need me to bring you anything?"
I bit my lip. "Actually there is something…Can you bring me a change of clothes?"
She smiled. "Sure" She made her way to the door. "I'll be right back."
I smiled. "Thank you"
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Draco POV:
I could feel Ray next to me, knew she was touching me. I felt too peaceful for it not to be Ray. My head was swimming and I felt like I was in a sleep I couldn't come out of. What had happened?
The last thing I remembered was that I had been sitting in the courtyard, cold and alone, feeling sorry for myself. I had been out there for about twenty minutes when I had heard someone behind me. I had turned around and had seen…it was a blank. That's all I remembered. Everything was a complete blank after that. The only thing I could recall after was little snippets of Ray's face and being brought to the Hospital. Ray must have been the one who found me.
"Draco?" I heard Ray's soft voice in my ear. "Are you awake?"
I tried to open my eyes, but found that I didn't have the strength. I tilted my head towards where I knew she was. "Sort of…" I was shocked at how my voice sounded. It was weak and scratchy. I suddenly felt frantic little kisses all over my face and found myself weakly smirk. "Ray?"
She stopped her kisses. "Yes? Do you need anything?" Her voice was full of worry.
"Kiss me"
I felt her lean over me and her lips touch mine. Her hands moved to my face, her thumbs running back and forth over my cheek bones. I wanted so badly to deepen the kiss, but I couldn't gather up enough strength to open my eyes, much less move my arms.
She pulled back, her hands still at my face. "Draco, are you alright? What happened?"
I tried to open my eyes again and grunted in frustration when I couldn't. "I don't know"
She began to run her fingers through my hair. "That's alright, Draco. Just go back to sleep." Her voice was soothing and I felt myself falling back into the darkness I had come from. "I love you…" That was the last thing I heard before slipping back into unconsciousness.
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Ray POV:
I was sitting on the side of Draco's bed lovingly stroking his hair, watching him sleep. I had finally told him that I loved him, although, I wasn't really sure if he had heard it. During his short spurt of consciousness he hadn't seemed completely coherent.
Mandy had come and gone long ago. It was nice to be out of my dress and into some jeans and a t-shirt. It was four in the morning and I had yet to sleep, but I wasn't tired or bored. I had spent the better part of the night staring at and touching Draco, running my fingers through his hair for hours, kissing his face and his neck, putting my ear to his chest and listening to his strong steady heart beat. He looked so peaceful in his sleep.
I placed my hand on his chest, letting my fingers run over the smooth skin. I leaned down and quickly kissed his lips. I got off of the bed and sat in the chair, pulling his robe over my shoulders for warmth. I could feel sleep start to creep up on me and I decided to let it take me. I got in the most comfortable position I could in the hard chair and placed my head on the bed next to where his hand was. I shut my eyes and let darkness take me.
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I woke up to the feeling of someone touching my hair. I slowly opened my eyes and saw the hospital beds that were surrounding me, everything from the night before flooded back to my mind. I sat up so quickly that I almost fell out of the chair. I turned to Draco and saw that he was sitting up, his hand where my head had been…he must have been the one playing with my hair. He looked healthy, but still had a weak air about him. I blinked my eyes several times to try and fight away the sleep. It was obviously morning because the sun was brightly shining through the windows.
He smirked. "Finally decide to wake up?" I through myself at him before I even realized what I was doing. He wrapped his arms around me and kissed the top of my head. "So you love me…huh?"
I bit my lip and pulled back slowly to look at him. He was still smirking. "I was kind of hoping you didn't hear that…"
He raised his eyebrows. "So do you or do you not love me?"
I sat up all the way on the side of his bed and looked at him with nervous eyes. "You answer first."
He shrugged and relaxed back against his pillow. "Yes, I suppose I do." He smirked.
I narrowed my eyes. "You're an ass."
"Yes, but you love this ass."
I raised an eyebrow. "What makes you so sure?"
He sneered and roughly grabbed my arm to pull me down to him. "No more games, Ray."
I smiled and quickly kissed his lip. "You're so cute when you're mad."
He narrowed his eyes. "Do you love me or not?"
I smiled. "Yes" He pulled me closer to him so that I was completely on the bed with him, my head on his chest. "So…What exactly does this mean?"
He started rubbing up and down my arm. "What do you mean?"
"Well…are we…together?"
He stopped in his movements. "No more than we were before."
I rose from his chest and looked at him. "What does that mean?"
"We can't be together, Ray. I have to be with Pansy. My father would never approve of you." It felt like my heart was caught in my throat and I felt anger rise in me. I started to get completely off the bed, but he wrapped his arms around me so tightly that I couldn't move. "Let me finish, Ray."
"Fine…" I angrily groaned.
"I'll make a deal with you. Things remain as they are now with a couple of slight differences. Neither I nor you will be with anyone else but each other, although, I will still have to look like I'm with Pansy." I started struggling in his arms and he jerked me still. "I haven't kissed Pansy in months and I don't plan to start now if that's what you're worried about." I calmed and he continued. "Do we have a deal?"
I started rubbing my head on his chest. "I think I can live with that." I lifted my head to look at him. "It's not exactly like I wanted people to know about us either."
He narrowed his eyes. "Why not?"
I lightly laughed. "Draco…you're not exactly well liked among the bulk of my friends."
He sneered. "Maybe you should get better friends, ones who aren't mudbloods."
I rolled my eyes. There was no point in getting mad at him. It wouldn't do anything and considering he was in a hospital bed, he could say anything he wanted to me. I was just happy he was alright.
I heard the Hospital door begin to open, so I quickly got off the bed. I turned to see that it was Madam Pomfrey. "And how is our patient this morning?"
I heard Draco clear his throat. "Tired"
She came over to his bed and I stepped out of her way to allow her access to him. She ran her wand over his body and gave him some more of the potion that she had given him the night before. I saw him slip down in the bed and close his eyes, his breathing becoming heavy and even.
She looked at me. "He's going to be asleep for a while, but you're still welcome to stay." She started going into her office and I followed. She sat at a white metal desk and looked up at me. "Yes?"
"Uh…I was just wondering why you're so…alright with me staying in here with him. You usually kick people out after a five minute visit. I mean…I really appreciate it…I'm just curious."
She gestured to the seat in front of her desk. "Have a seat." I sat down in the hard metal chair and waited for her to answer me. "Has anyone ever told you that you are a lot like your mother?"
I raised my eyebrows. "No, I've always been told I was like my father."
She laughed. "Oh, not at all, perhaps in his later years, but certainly not when he was at Hogwarts. If anyone is like your father it is the young Mr. Malfoy."
"Really?"
She smiled. "Yes, very much so, well…until your mother got a hold of him. They were the sweetest little couple. I'm the one that delivered you. Did you know that?"
My eyes widened. "No, I had no idea."
She continued to smile. "Yes, I was very close to your mother. She had been interested in becoming a healer when she was at Hogwarts. She used to come in here every day and help me out. She was such a sweet girl. Since her mother died when she was only one I think she was looking for someone to be a mother figure to her."
I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion. "My grandmother died when my mother was one? My mother died when I was one…"
She frowned. "Yes, her death was so sad. I just wished there had been something we could have done. We tried to figure out what was wrong with her that entire year, but we just couldn't figure it out."
"I didn't know all of that. My father just told me that she had gotten sick after I was born."
She nervously smiled. I could tell she was getting uncomfortable with the conversation. "Yes, very sad. Well…anyway…That's why I let you stay last night. You remind me of your mother and well…it was nice to think part of her is still here…in you."
I had a feeling that she wasn't telling me the whole story, but I decided to let it go for the time being. It was obvious that there was a need to change the direction of the conversation. "So…Did you know my father well when he attended Hogwarts?"
She leaned back in her chair. "No, not really, I got to know him better after your parents were married. If you want to know more about your father while he was at Hogwarts you might want to talk to Lucius Malfoy."
My eyes grew wide. "Why would he know about my father? She tilted her head in confusion at me. "They were best friends in school, practically inseparable. Didn't you know?"
"Uh…no…can't say that I did..."
She raised her eyebrows. "Hmm…I'm surprised your father never mentioned it…Oh well." She shrugged her shoulders. "Well…I have work to do…"
I shook my head to get the image of my father and Lucius Malfoy chumming it up out of my head. "Oh yes, of course. I'll leave you to it then." I got up from the seat and went back to sit next to Draco.
I was really going to have to start getting more into my mother's diary. There were apparently a lot of things I wasn't informed of. My father and Lucius Malfoy were friends...Really? That was just too weird to comprehend. I decided to put it to the back of my mind to think on later. I was very tired. I had only gotten about four hours of sleep, so I shut my eyes and tried to think of pleasant things.
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"Ray…Ray?" I felt someone shake me. "Ray?"
I opened my eyes one at a time to see Draco staring down at me. I shot up like a lightning bolt. "What? Do you need something?" I rubbed my eyes.
He looked at me with worried eyes. "Ray, go back to your dormitory. You look exhausted. You need to go and sleep in a bed."
"You want me to leave…"
He sighed in frustration. "I don't want you to leave, you need to leave. You need to go and get some rest. Madam Pomfrey said I would be out of here by tonight, so I'm fine. Go and get some rest, so we can have a little fun tonight." He smirked.
I raised an eyebrow. "Are you sure you're not just trying to get rid of me?"
He laughed. "Yes, now go." I got up from the chair and leaned down to kiss him goodbye. He put his hand behind my neck and held me in place at his lips.
After a few minutes he let me go and I pulled back. I didn't know if I should say I love you. I was use to saying I love you to my father when we separated, but I wasn't sure if Draco was that type of guy or if he even knew what type of guy he was. I decided not to risk it. "Well…I'll see you later."
I turned and headed for the door. "Wait!" I turned to look at Draco. "Hand me my robe." I went over to him and handed him his robe. He rummaged through the pockets and brought out his wand. "Take this."
My eyebrows furrowed and my mouth fell open. "What? Why?"
"Has your Grandmother sent you a new wand yet?"
I bit my lip. "No"
He reached out the wand to me. "That's why."
"Uh…You're the one that got attacked, so you're the one that needs the wand."
He narrowed his eyes. "Just take it, Ray." A thought occurred to me and I laughed. "What's so funny?"
I continued to laugh. "I just realized that you've been calling me Ray and not Sonders."
He smirked. "Well, considering I told you that I loved you I thought the formality was no longer necessary. Now…Take the wand."
I sighed. "Fine" I took the wand from his hand and turned to leave, but he grabbed my wrist.
I turned to see that he was smirking. "Aren't you going to thank me?" He pulled me down to him and roughly took my lips. He bit my bottom lip and let me go. "You're welcome."
I smiled and headed towards the door, but took one last look at Draco before I walked out.
When I arrived in my room I took out my mother's diary from my trunk and decided to read for a while. I was very curious about my father and Lucius Malfoy's friendship. My mother hadn't really mentioned my father a lot in her diary as of yet, but I was only half way through her first year at Hogwarts. I opened the diary to where I had left off and began to read.
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Two hours later and I was still reading, having been engrossed in the diary. It had finally begun to talk about my father and I had been shocked at how my father had treated my mother. He had been a complete jerk. I found myself hating the man I was reading about until a realization hit me so hard that it literally knocked the breath out of me. He had been exactly like Draco. My father had treated my mother the same exact way Draco had treated me during my first year at Hogwarts. It was like reading about a totally different man. This was not the father I had grown up with. My father had been sweet and doted on me. He had been the perfect father.
I continued to read until I reached the end of my mother's first year at Hogwarts. My eyes were growing heavy and I knew I wasn't going to be able to stay awake for much longer. I shut the diary and returned it back to its place in my trunk. I laid down on my bed and let the sleep take me.
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I woke up a couple of hours later, safe and warm in my bed. I looked at the clock beside my bed and saw that it was almost time for dinner. I rose from the bed and reached under my pillow to retrieve Draco's wand, putting it in my jacket pocket. I ran my fingers though my hair to undo the tangles that had formed while I slept and left the dormitory.
When I walked into the Great Hall I saw Mandy already at the Ravenclaw table. I plopped down beside her and she turned to me. "Hi Ray. I was beginning to think you weren't going to come to dinner. You seemed pretty knocked out when I left the room."
"Yeah, I really needed some sleep after last night."
She smiled "So…How is Draco?"
I sighed. "I'm not sure. I haven't seen him since I left the Hospital Wing. He said he was supposed to get out tonight." Almost the instant after the words had left my lips I saw Draco enter the Great Hall with Blaise at his side. I felt my body instantly relax. It felt like a missing piece of me had suddenly found its way back to me.
They sat at the Slytherin table beside Crabbe and Goyle. I looked around for Pansy, but saw that she was no where in sight. I looked back at Draco and saw that he was looking right at me. He smirked and then went back to talking to his friends, his eyes leaving mine.
"I forgot to give you something." I looked back at Mandy. "When I sat down to dinner there was a note addressed to you on the table. "Here" She handed it to me and smiled. "I bet it's from Draco."
I smiled widely and opened the note. It read:
I'm watching you.
A chill ran down my spine. This was not Draco's handwriting and I had a feeling as to who's it was…Stephen.
"Ray? Are you alright? You're as pale as a ghost." I handed her the note. She looked down at it and read. "Odd note…Kind of creepy…What's with Draco?" She looked back up at me.
I looked at her with terror in my eyes. "It's not from Draco…"
She looked down at the note and then back to me. I saw realization enter her eyes. "Stephen?"
"Yes" I put my hand to my heart to try and rub the anxiety away. "I need Draco."
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Draco POV:
I looked at Ray and saw that she looked worried. She was hugging herself and biting her lip. Our eyes met and I could see terror in her eyes. I felt myself rise from my seat.
"Where are you going?" I looked down to see that Blaise was looking at me with a questioning look.
I sat back down, my eyes going back and forth between Blaise and Ray. "No where…" I ran my hand through my hair. I wanted to go to her so badly, but I couldn't with everyone around.
"So what was with you and the blood traitor last night? You two seemed pretty cozy on the dance floor and then you didn't come back to our room until late this afternoon. Where the heck were you?"
I had decided to keep the attack a secret. My father knew of course. He had been the one to tell me to keep it under wraps. The attack made me look weak. I had let someone get the better of me while my back was turned. "None of that is your business, Blaise. What I do with my time and who I do it with is of my own concern, not yours."
He raised his eyebrows. "Fine, sorry I asked."
I looked back to Ray and saw that she looked even worse than she had the last time I looked at her. I caught her eyes and quickly jerked my head towards the door of the Great Hall. She nodded and rose from her seat, walking out of the Great Hall without hesitation. I rose from my own seat and looked down at Blaise. "I'm not feeling well. I'm going back to bed." With that I walked out of the Great Hall.
When I was outside of the Great Hall I looked around and saw Ray at the foot of the stairs. After taking a quick look around to make sure no one was there but the two of us, I quickly went to her and kissed her lips. I pulled back to look at her worried face. "What's wrong?" She held out a shaky hand to me which held a note. I took the note letting my fingers linger on hers for longer than necessary and read the contents. I looked at her. "Is this from Stephen?" She nodded her head and I saw her eyes begin to water, a small tear escaping her eye. I leaned down and kissed the tear from her cheek, kissing my way to her ear. "Classroom" I pulled back and took her hand, beginning to lead her up the stairs.
When we arrived on the fifth floor I pulled her into the classroom we always used and shut the door behind us. I came at her and took her in my arms, rubbing up and down her back in a rhythmic motion. I was trying to be as comforting as I could, but I wasn't good at this sort of thing. I had no idea how any of this was suppose to work. Did I tell her that I loved her even though she already knew? Were you supposed to do that sort of thing or did you only say it once and that was the end of it?
I looked down at the girl in my arms and saw that she was breathing easy, her eyes closed and her face smoothed of all worry. I must have been doing something right. I leaned down and kissed the top of her head, smelling the intoxicating scent of her hair. I began to feel my body want her. I had to get a grip on myself. She didn't want me right now and I certainly didn't need to push the issue. She was upset and I was supposed to be comforting her not groping her.
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Ray POV:
I wanted him and I was getting frustrated at him for not trying something. He always tried something. Hell, he had asked me to kiss him when he could barely move in a hospital bed, so why wasn't he trying something now.
He had finally said I love you, but now that I had him emotionally he wasn't giving me him physically. I pulled back a little so that I could run my right hand up his chest. I heard his breath hitch and I couldn't help but to smile. If he wasn't going to try something then I was. I pulled back completely to look into his eyes. I could tell that he was trying extremely hard not to attack me. His eyes had a frantic edge to them and his hands were balled up into fists. I had no idea why he was holding back, but I was going to take the situation into my own hands. I put both of my hands on his chest and lightly ran my hands down until I reached the top of his pants. I grabbed the bottom of his shirt and began to pull it from his pants.
When the shirt was completely untucked I looked up at him and saw that he was smirking. "Please…continue."
I bit my lip and looked at his tie. I brought my hands up and began to undo the knotted fabric. After it was untied I slipped it from around his neck and dropped it to the floor. I started to unbutton his shirt slowly, revealing his smooth pale skin. When I undid the last button I put my hands inside his shirt around his waist and brought my face into his chest. I started kissing the soft skin while running my hands along his bare back. I heard him give a frustrated sounding moan and I suddenly felt him start to walk forward, bringing my back against the wall.
He roughly grabbed my arms from around his waist and pinned them on the wall on each side of my head. He put his forehead to mine and looked at me intensely. His eyes looked like they were on fire. "Don't start something you can't finish."
I smirked and closed the gap between us, taking his lips. He took my bottom lip into his mouth, sucking until I felt a strange mix of pleasure and pain. My heart was beating so fast that it was becoming hard to breath. He pulled back from my lips only to move to my neck. A moan escaped my lips. "Draco, let go of my hands. I want to touch you."
He nipped my neck and pulled back to look at me. He smirked. "You want to touch me?"
I tried to free my arms from his hold, but he held them too tightly. "Yes" I whined.
He slowly let go of my arms and put his hands on my waist. "Better?"
I smiled. "Uh huh" I put my right hand on his chest and traced little patterns on the smooth skin with my fingers.
He shut his eyes. "I want you." I leaned into him and began to kiss his chest, slowly making my way to his neck. He cleared his throat. "Ray?"
I continued to kiss his neck. "Yes?"
"I want to give you something."
I pulled back and smiled up at him. "Really? What?"
He reached into his pocket and pulled out a tiny black box. "I had this made for you."
I raised my eyebrows. "When?"
He smirked. "A while ago, I was planning to give you this in hopes that you would keep snogging me, but there's no reason you can't still have it just because I love you now."
I lightly laughed. "What interesting logic, Draco." He handed me the box and I slowly opened it. I gasped when I saw the contents of the box. It was a necklace in the shape of a circle with green and blue liquid moving in a circular motion around each other, never touching. I looked up at him. "It's beautiful."
"Put it on and I'll show you how it works." I raised an eyebrow, but did as he said. I put the delicate silver chain around my neck and watched the beautiful pendant fall perfectly between my breasts. I looked up at him and saw that he was smiling. He leaned down and kissed my lips gently. He lingered there rubbing his lips against mine for a few seconds before he pulled back. "Look at the necklace."
I took the necklace in my hand and brought it up to my face. The green and blue liquid like substances were beginning to mix, creating a turquoise color. I smiled and looked up at him, dropping the necklace so that it fell back in place.
This felt right to me, being here with him. It finally felt good and complete. There was no longer any question of how he felt about me. Yes, there were still things we would have to work through, like his father, but for now this was enough. I looked into his eyes and felt like melting to the floor. "Can I…say that I love you?"
He raised both of his eyebrows. "Why would you think you couldn't?"
"I don't know…I don't want to…scare you off."
He laughed. "I'm not going anywhere anytime soon." He leaned down and kissed my lips gently at first, but as the kiss continued became more fervent. He ran his tongue over my bottom lip, asking for entrance. I allowed him in and our tongues began to battle for dominance. I loved the taste of him. His mouth was like my favorite candy that I could never get enough of. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer, trying to deepen the kiss even more.
I felt him start to run his hands down my sides until they rested on my hips. He left my lips and kissed down to my neck, leaving little bite marks along the way. I moaned and felt his hands grip my hips tighter. His right hand started to move up my hips until his hand reached the bottom of my shirt. I felt his hand start to move under the fabric and I jumped, but found myself not stopping him.
He stopped moving his hand when he reached my stomach. He kissed to my ear. "Relax, Ray." He sucked on my earlobe and whispered again. "Just relax."
I took in a shaky breath. "OK"
His hand began to move farther up my shirt, lifting it from my skin. I felt the air hit my bare stomach and felt a chill run through me. My body began to shake and it was becoming very difficult to get a good breath. I was so nervous that it was becoming difficult to stay on my feet.
He stopped his hand when he reached the bottom of my bra and pulled back from my neck to look at me. He kept his right hand in place under my shirt, but brought his left hand up to run his fingers through my hair. "Do you want me to stop?" He didn't look angry or put out. He looked genuinely concerned.
I took in a sharp breath. "Yes"
He removed his hand quickly and kissed my lips. "It's alright, Ray."
I bit my lip. "I'm sorry. I'm just not ready to go that far."
"Come here" He took me in his arms and switched our positions so that he was the one against the wall. He started to slide down to the floor with me still tightly in his arms. When we reached the floor he sat, his back against the wall with his legs straight out. He placed me so that I was sitting on his lap and put his hand on my head, bringing my head down to lay on his bare chest. He began to stroke my hair. "This right here is enough…" He paused and kissed my forehead. "For now"
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NEXT CHAPTER:
Term begins. Stephen finally shows himself. Draco and Ray's secret relationship continues, but something bigger than the both of them may get in the way of their new found love. The diary reveals a terrible fact.
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