Interview With an Angel

Chapter 14:. . . Answers

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Krad?

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Master Satoshi is sitting in front of the living room mirror again, using the mirror as a medium to speak to me. I smile slightly, watching him with burning amber eyes.

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Yes Master Satoshi?

What do you think about my father?

Your father? He abandoned you before you were born.

Not him. My adoptive father.

Kei Hiwatari? Hmph. He is a fool and a bastard.

Why do you think that?

He took you in, yes, but only in order to have your powers at his fingertips. He is despicable. He has given you everything you could want or need, save one thing. He did not give you love or a family. He keeps you at arms length, only talking to you when he wants or needs something.

Is that what you really think?

Yes. I hate the man. If I could, I would kill him.

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Master Satoshi goes silent and I can see the smile on his face. He looks up at me, his cornflower eyes somber.

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Thank you, Krad.

For what?

Never mind.

Anything else?

Um. . . where do you go between tamers?

Hmm. . . Well. . . it is hard to describe. I go to a gray place, much like the mind I get trapped in. It is made of two shades of gray, a dark gray for the earth, a paler gray for the sky. There is nothing else there. I am alone in the gray. It. . . is. . . infuriating. I cannot stand being trapped there. It drives me crazy. However, I do get trapped there, though not for long usually. The longest was for the last forty years, while I waited for a male child to be born. When he was born, I was immediately transferred to the white world of a mind, which is so much better than the gray area I live in between tamers.

Master Ryuu tried to come up with a solution to my gray world. He thought I might be able to use my magic to paint a picture. I tried it in his head, but only gave him a pounding headache. The next time I was trapped in the gray world, I tried it, but nothing happened. I was left in the gray world until he had a son.

The place I go is hard to describe, but I have tried to do my best to describe it to a human. Imagine a world of all gray, as far as the eye can see. Nothing but gray, no sounds, no smells, no colors. I go crazy in the colorless world. I am an artist. I need color, I need light, sounds, smells, all of these things keep me alive. And in this place. . . I have nothing. At least in the mind, I can see through my tamer's eyes. I can see colors, I can hear sounds, all of those things I want. These things keep me sane. Thus, I stay sane when in a tamer's mind, no matter how badly they torture me. I go crazy in the gray world. And I would rather be trapped in a mind than in that gray place, alone and colorless.

Colorless?

Yes. I cannot stand to be in a colorless world. I am an artist. I need color.

Oh. What would you do if you were free?

I have been asked that only twice before in my life.

I would become an artist. I would draw, paint, use my artistic talents to tell my thoughts to the world. I would travel the world, seeing places I have always wanted to see, but never been able to go.

I would. . . I would enjoy life and live, just live.

I am sorry that you are trapped in me.

As am I.

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I stretch, leaning back against a wall I can feel, but Master Satoshi cannot see. He watches me, his eyes unreadable. I cannot tell what he is thinking, which is strange, since his thoughts are usually open to me. I ignore this, turning back to him.

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You have anything else you wish to ask?

Um. . . not right now. . . If I do. . .

Feel free to ask.

Thank you.

Of course.

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The mirror goes dark, then I am returned to Master Satoshi's mind. I lean back, resting, smiling, glad that we could talk. I know that I did not want to open up to Master Satoshi, but as I talk to him, it is becoming easier to open up to him. . .

Perhaps it is because in a way, he reminds me of Master Ryuu. It is the eyes, I believe. Not just the color, which is the same, but in the way he looks at me. I am glad we have these conversations. Perhaps, I shall ask him questions next time. . .

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A/N: All righty! I believe I have answered all the questions that have been asked! That makes me happy! Sorry that was short, by the way. . .

I hope that this story is still up to your expectations. If you want me to change anything, just ask!

Do you have questions for Krad or Satoshi? And. . . any requests? I am here for you, my dear readers. Plus. . . with finals, my brain is pretty much toast, thus my continual asking! But I am here to please, which is what I hope I am doing.

Thanks to marium, Dawn's Eternal Twilight, and Kurisuta!! Ya'll all rule!