Hello hello! I didn't update yesterday, I know, but I updated twice on Friday. Speaking of updating, I'm so happy that "He was a Southern Gentleman" and "Lessons Learned" were updated! Thanks guys!

Ooooh! If you guys haven't already read it, but "Mythological Creatures" by Mistyhaze420 is awesome! If you like a coupla crazies named Edward and Jasper, then you'd love it! I did!

Oh, I have no idea why the last two chapters were all in bold. That was weird.

How much pain has quaked your soul? How much love would make you whole? You're my guiding lightning strike. I can't find the words to say. They're overdue. I've traveled half the world to say: I belong to you. (I Belong to You by Muse)

I should take a page out of Misty's book and make a playlist on youtube of all the songs I listen to while writing these chapters! X3

"I'll be here fore you, Jasper. Don't worry, I'll pick up the pieces."

The pieces… They've been scattered all over the place. There's no way he'd be able to put me back together completely. No one can. Not even me. Pfft. I couldn't do shit.

Still, I clung to him until my eyes ran dry. I was enveloped in everythin Edward: his scent, his body, his taste.

Everythin. He's my drug.

"Hey Jasper and Edward! We gotta go back to our cells! C'mon!"

I look up at Edward and feel his fury. I'm curious.

"Why are you so angry, darlin?

He looks down at me and I can see the lethal fire in his eyes.

"He plans on making a move on you tonight. I hate him. I'm going to kill him."

I look up at him incredulously. I'm flattered, but still a bit scared. I'm flattered cuz he's jealous, but I'm scared cuz I know he wouldn't have a problem killin James. I don't know this James very well, but I have to share a cell with him tonight. I'll be sleepin a few feet away from him. It's almost like I'm invitin him to do somethin bad to me. He knows there's somethin goin on between me and Edward. And he seemed… interested.

I gotta watch out. He may try to do somethin weird…

But, I try not to think of that. I don't want to taint the limited time I have with Edward. His soft hair, bright and beautiful green eyes, high cheekbones and the wonderful blush he gets when he's feeling good. Everythin about him drives me wild. And I realize: I can't be without him. It's only been a day, but I know it will only be worse tonight. What will happen if I have another bad dream? I can't go back there… That's most of the reason why I'm here. I lapsed in control and when I fell asleep, I told the world that I killed my father. No one woulda known had I not done that…

But, in a way, it's a bittersweet occurrence. I loved Garrett, but I wasn't in love with him. I think I may be in love with Edward.

I chuckle and shake my head. A few nights in prison can change everythin about a person. I don't know a whole lot about this person who I'm professin my love about. But that's the allure. More of a draw to know everythin about him. I want to know his whole past, the good, the bad, the happy, the sad- absolutely everythin.

I feel velvet fingers brush my lips and go to my chin. He pulls my face up to his and his eyes are watery and there's a breathtakin crooked smile on his face.

"I would love to tell you everything about myself, as long as you tell me all about you." He leans down so he can blow in my ear before whisperin, "I think I'm in love with you too."

My body bursts into flames and I claw at his body, bringin him closer to mine. I fall on my back and pull him on top of me. And he's exactly where I want him: between my legs. His fingers fumble and find my zipper. He rips it down and growls in my mouth, bringin another round of flames. My suit is yanked off my arms and Edward breaks the kiss briefly so he can pull it off my burning body. He looks down at me like I'm a fuckin glass of water on a hot summer day. I'm harder than granite.

"It seems you have problem that needs attending to, Jasper."

Slowly, he unzips his own jumpsuit, pullin it down to his waist. Then he yanks his undershirt off and over his head. My mouth waters as he shimmies out of the suit and kicks it off. I see he has his own problem, but that's the last thing I think about as he attacks my stomach and chest with his mouth. My fingers tangle in his hair and my back arches as I moan and encourage him. He takes my right nipple into his mouth and nips at it lightly before swirlin his tongue around it. His hands are workin on my… problem… through my drawers.

"Edward… *huff* Darlin… Oh, please! Please!"

He smiles against my stomach and looks up at me as he hooks his index fingers under my waistband and toy with the skin there. He's teasin me, and it's drivin me more wild than a buckin bronco.

"Ahhhhh! Edward…! Please! Stop doin that to me!"

"What exactly do you want me to do, Jasper? Tell me, I'll make it happen."

I can't form words, and his fuckin smile and fire eyes are fuckin with my mind. I buck up and whimper, hopin he can get the idea of what I want. He must, because my drawers are lyin next to me. He seems… scared. I touch his face, able to suppress some of my lust seeing how he's upset.

"Darlin, what's wrong? If you don't want to, you don't have to."

He looks up at me with weary eyes and sighs as he nuzzles into my hand.

"Emmett made me take him in my mouth. He'd grab my head and thrust into me. I threw up twice and he beat me. I want to, Jasper, so bad. I'm just… afraid."

"Darlin! I'd never do that to you! I'm fine just holdin on to ya. I'd do it for ya if you wanted me to. I won't hurt you. I'm not Emmett. I see you for who you are. You're absolutely beautiful, wonderful, you help me when I'm scared and when I have awful dreams, you always wake me up! You have nothin to prove to me. If you don't want to, you don't have to. I'll still love ya."

His eyes were wide and his lip was tremblin. Suddenly, his lips were on mine and he was kissin me with all he had. When I was havin trouble breathin, he started working his way down my body. I shivered and moaned as he got nearer to my… problem. Lust filled him and he took me into his mouth.

All I could think about was the pleasure he was giving me and a song I heard a long time ago:

You could be my unintended choice to live my life extended.

You should be the one I always love.

I'll be there as soon as I can,

But I'll be busy mending

Broken pieces of the life I had before

Before you.

"Darlin… *huff* I'm… gonna… come…"

He just hummed around me and that was all it took for me to come deep down his throat. He brought his mouth back to mine and I tasted myself on his sweet tongue. I relished in the bliss that was Edward.

I never intended to fall so hard for someone after what happened to Garrett. I blamed myself for every second of pain he went through.

He was at my house when we got caught. We were kissin on my bed when he burst through the door, callin us fags and sayin that we were goin to fuckin Hell.

My father was never religious, unless he was tellin me that I would go to Hell for my sins. For the next few days, he was the most religious son of a bitch that part of Texas had ever seen.

I found out two days later that Garrett was dead. My father yanked him away from me and I screamed for him to stop. I just assumed that he had told Garrett to leave and never come back. I never guessed that my father would do something so horrible.

They fuckin beat him with bats, sticks and threw rocks at him. He was within an inch of his life before they stopped. Then, they tied him to the back of a truck and decided to have a joy ride all around the countryside.

The day I killed my father was the day I found out that Garrett was dead. I was sittin on my porch when I heard a few boys laughin and jokin as they walked by my house.

"Didja hear? They killed that fag, Garrett!"

"Really? How'd they do it? Did they rip his junk off? That's what I woulda done!"

"Nah. They beat him and then tied him to the back of their truck and drove around."

"Shit, man! That's wicked!"

I lost it then. I beat the two assholes bloody and til they started screamin to their fuckin mamas. Then, I went to my room, grabbed my gun, and went to find my father.

"WHAT DID YOU DO TO GARRETT?"

He looked at me with that fuckin smug smile on his face.

"Me n the boys took carea him. Next, we're gonna get you, fag."

"I'M YOUR FUCKIN SON, YOU FUCKIN SON OF A BITCH!"

"YOU AIN'T NO SON OF MINE, FAG!"

That's when I lost it. I shot off the whole clip into his fat head and chest.

As I tried to catch my breath next to my daddy's dead fuckin body, I kept tellin myself that no one could ever love a monster like me. I was fucked up. I would be fuckin alone for the rest of my fuckin life.

But… I never expected to find someone who was just as fucked up as I am. Someone that gave a fuck about me. Someone who could help me forget that I was a monster.

I flipped us over so that Edward was on his back and I was on top of him. He moaned with wanton desire, and I ran my tongue down his jaw, neck, chest, stomach until I got to the top of his drawers. Then, I ripped them off and took him in my mouth. I promised myself that when it came to Edward, I would always swallow.

I loved him.

Ayee… Again, I can't do lemons… This was the best I could do, so I'm sorry.

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Whenever I'm alone with you, you make me feel like I am home again.

Whenever I'm alone with you, you make me feel like I am whole again.

Whenever I'm alone with you, you make me feel like I am young agina.

Whenever I'm alone with you, you make me feel like I am fun again.

However far away, I will always love you.

However long I stay, I will always love you.

Whatever words I say, I will always love you.

I will always love you.

(Lovesong by The Cure)

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