Sing Out Loud
Song dedicated to this chapter: Pardon Me by He is We
Sam's POV
"Your seriously quitting?" Both Carly and I dropped our backpacks on the floor of her apartment.
"Yeah, I guess I realized that it's not for me." I answer hoping we didn't have to talk about it for long, I was getting tired.
"Well, okay." We both took a seat on the couch.
"So you don't mind that I'm not doing it?" I was a little shocked by her reaction.
"Yep, it's your decision." She gave me a small smile. "So aside from the solo, I heard there's something else that's been going on in your life if you know what I mean." She winks at me. Did Freddie already tell her?
"What's that supposed to mean?" My heart speeds up a bit. I swear if he told her I would get up now and bang his door down just beat him up. It was a mistake, nothing more.
"I mean, aren't you excited about your date with Alex?" Relief overcomes and I can breath again.
"Oh, yeah. I still have to pick out an outfit." I joke.
"No worries, I'll help you with that." I was happy to have a best friend like Carly and it was a relief knowing she didn't care whether I did the concert or not. I liked being able to tell her anything, almost anything.
"Heyo!" Freddie busted through the door like he owned the place. Okay, maybe I'm exaggerating a little but seriously? He's been here for only two seconds and he's already bugging the chiz out of me.
"Hey Freddie, what's up?" Carly called behind me. I didn't want her to know. I just hope Freddie will forget about it and not bring it up.
"Oh, nothing." He responds.
"Then why are you here?" I snap at him. I really didn't need him here right now.
"Sam." Carly scolded. I lift my hands up in defeat and leave for the fridge.
"Where's the pudding?" I ask to nobody in particular as I scan the cold fridge. "Oh, wait. There it is." I say grabbing the cup.
"Hey!" Spencer peaked around the corner of the wall. "When did you guys get here?"
"A few minutes ago." Freddie tells him. I make my way to the counter with my huge cup of dreamy chocolate goodness.
"Oh, cool. Um, Carly can you help me with something?" Spencer asks.
"What did you set on fire?" Carly's eyes grew wide expecting the worst.
"I didn't set anything on fire." He reassures her. "My fish bowl kind of cracked. And by cracked I mean broke in to a million pieces." He explains.
"Spencer!" Carly groans. I swear Spencer and fishes aren't a very good mix. He should get a cat, they're pretty independent.
Before I knew it Carly was already racing Spencer to his room. I glance at my cup which has a few bites left and I rush to finish it. The faster I did that the more of a chance I wouldn't have to talk to Freddie.
"So," He caught me before I could leave. Well that's a downer, I'm forced to talk to him now and I don't even have anymore pudding left. "Why didn't you rehearse your song on stage today?" My mouth flew open. I wanted to explain but when I tried to speak all I felt was warm air coming out, no words.
"I didn't want to." I finally say. It wasn't really a lie, I truly didn't want to.
"I didn't want to either but Mrs. Sommer said we had to if we wanted to perform at the concert." I stare at me empty cup, thinking of a plan to get out of here.
"Well isn't that funny. Anyway, I got to go." Not the best plan but I'm hoping it will work.
"Sam, there's something your not telling me." His voice raises in concern. I close my eyes wishing this was a bad dream.
"I'm not doing the show." I finally gave in. This is going to go down hill, fast.
"What are you talking about? Did you quit?" I really didn't want to talk about it right now.
"Seriously, I got to go." I tried to get passed him but before I knew it he had his hand around my arm keeping me from going anywhere. My hands curl up in tight fists ready to punch him.
"Just tell me one thing," His voice was soft but still stern with a glimpse of hurt that automatically made me release my hands. "Are you still gonna go on that date with Alex?" My face started burning, guilt washing over me. His eyes told me he already knew the answer so I wasn't going to say it. I ease my arm out and slowly walk to the door. As I grab my backpack I turn around to face him. He was still facing the other way.
"I'm sorry." I whisper, hoping he would hear. His back still faced me but I heard a slight scoff. I didn't blame him. I'm just hoping I'm not making a huge mistake.
I knew when I told Freddie he wouldn't understand, sometimes I don't get why I quit either. But I have to keep reminding myself I'm doing this for me, no matter how hard it is.
Author's Note:
The Bad: Okay so I didn't even plan on writing this chapter because I wanted to go straight to the date but I felt it was a little needed, sorry its a filler :(
The Good: But on the bright side I've been in the writing mood and I've planned on updating more often :)
Plus I've recently gotten more into reading Seddie stories again and if you have any stories you might want me to read I will be more than happy with taking your suggestions
So it's not really like me to update so quickly but I finally came to the realization that I've been putting this story off a lot
And thanks to the always amazing reviewers! (Oh and thanks for telling me your reactions to iLMM, they all made me smile)
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Liumi- Yeah, that's how I really wanted to write this story. With two different POVs, I felt it explained a lot more. Thanks for the review!
Why I dedicated Pardon Me to this chapter (Don't have to read if you don't want to): I knew I had to use a He is We song for one of my chapters and it wasn't long before I found this one and became so excited to use it! I feel in this song the singer expresses a lot of attitude but also realizes that everything is her fault. Sam will always be Sam, but that doesn't mean she can't feel guilty at times and that's the main reason why I picked this song. As always, link is on my profile.