Here is another update, because I feel so bad about how long I've been taking to update. I swear, I'm trying really hard to update faster. Things get in the way. Like life, and people leaving reviews saying "this fic is bullshit, please stop writing". Yeah, I deleted it, but it seriously got to me. I almost stopped writing. But, it's just whatever, I get it. Everybody is free to have the opinion they have, but some people choose to be hurtful when they are expressing that opinon. Sucks, but people suck. Those of you who aren't leaving hurtful, negative reviews, I'm thankful for that. Enjoy this chapter :) I didn't run spell check or anything with this chapter, just because I honestly didn't feel like it, so if there are any gramemr issues or mistakes, I'm sorry :(
Jade Price sat, quietly, all alone on the roof of her bar. It was her hiding place, her secret place. One that she assumed none of her friends knew about. When she couldn't think straight, she retreated up to Puck's apartment, climbed out his bedroom window, and laid on her back. Just glancing up at the stars. There was something about the stars that always set her heart to rest. Stopped the ringing in her ears. Took away the constant earge to want to hurt herself. She laid there, thinking about the last week.
It had been six days since the group had returned from their random Hawaiian getaway. She thought back to the night they had preformed at the beach party.
They had preformed three songs, and won the crowd over, no issue. After, they had started drinking, and hanging out with a bunch of new friends they had made. Jade, half drunk had wandered away from everyone else. She wanted to see the stars more clearly, so she strolled down the beach to where she found an empty lifegard tower. She climbed the stairs, and opened the door to the small hut. Just as she had though, nobody. Just some random lifegaurding equipment, and beach things. She closed the door, and turned to look out at the beach. There were stars everywhere. She smiled, and took a deep breath in. God. It was beautiful.
"Hey you."
She looked down to the beach, and there was Brittany.
"Hi."
"Can I come up there with you?"
Jade nodded, and finished off the drink that was in her hand. Once Brittany was up there, she stood behind her, and wrapped her arms around the darker girl.
"Mmmm...you smell sooooo good", she giggled. Jade just smiled, shyly. Not that Jade did as much talking as Rachel, but she was never this quiet. Brittany didn't know what to think about it.
"Jade...if you don't want to be with me right away, or at all...I would understa-".
The taller blond girl was cut off, by lips pressing to hers. She tightend her grasped around Jade, and leaned into the kiss. She licked Jade's bottom lip, and just like that their tongues were fighting, lightly, for dominance. Didn't take very long for Jade to give in, and just let Brittany take control. She grabbed Jade by the hips, and turned her so she was facing her. Jade pressed her body against her, but it didn't last long. Brittany picked her up, just like before, and held her up against the wall of the lifegaurd hut. The kiss broke, both of them breathing heavy.
"I like that you've drinking those fruity vodka drinks all night long", said Brittany.
"Yeah? How come?"
"You taste like a Strawberry Starburst...those are my favorite", she giggled.
Jade smiled, and they were kissing once again. Brittany's hands wandering all over Jade's soft skin. She started kissing and sucking on Jade's neck, and pulse point. Grabbing her breast, and squeezing softly.
"What are you doing...pretty girl...", giggled Jade.
"Picking up where we left off", she whispered into her ear. Jade closed her eyes, and took a sharp breath in, when she felt Brittany's hand wander into between her legs. An hour later, they returned to the beach, hand in hand. Not even aware that during their moment of passion down the beach, they were being watched.
Back on the roof, Jade couldn't help but smile to herself. That had been an amazing night for her. But, her mind soon wandered to the night before they left.
It was Quinn, Rachel, Brittany, and Rachel. They were all sitting on the floor in Quinn's room. Rachel was sitting in Jade's lap, bawling her eyes out, screaming at Quinn.
"You have no idea how much I resent you right now, Quinn! Not a clue! I gave my whole heart to you! Nobody but you since fucking high school! Not one other person! And, you cheat on me with one of our best friends! How could you do this me?"
"Rachel...please...", Quinn cried, who sat with Brittany's arm around her.
"Please nothing! I forgave you for treating me like dirt duing school! I loved you even after you gave your baby to my mother! My mother who told me she didn't want me in her life because I was too old!"
"You said you were okay with that!"
"I LIED. To make you feel better! I didn't want you feeling guilty, so I put up with it all this time! I guess that was a huge mistake on my part!"
"Rachel, you never told me how you really felt, maybe if you would have bothered to do so, you wouldn't be so upset! How the Hell was I supposed to know you hated me for it!"
"Never! I never hated you for it, at all. I just...I hated her for it! Calling her my mother after that just didn't feel right, and it never will", she said, as she started crying even harder. Jade held her tight, and wiped some of the tears from her cheeks."Shhhh...it's okay Rach...try to calm down", she whispered.
"Rachel...I'm sorry...I just didn't know...", cried Quinn desperatly.
"Did you ever really love me? Did you ever really love me at all? Or was being with me, and marrying me just all part of the guilt you feel for treating me so badly...". Quinn, Brittany, and Jade all stared at the smaller girl.
"How can you even as me that", spat Quinn."After everything we've been through, after I moved with you to New York, for your dream! Your career! Your life, and you seriously have the nerve to ask me that right now?"
"My life", asked Rachel, as if she had just been punched in the stomach. Jade knew exactly why Rachel was so offended by that, and she knew what about to happen. She held the girl even tighter in her arms, and sure enough Rachel started fighting toget away.
"Your life? Are you fucking kidding me", she screamed, pushing and pulling at Jade's arms."Rach, stop it...please calm down", Jade begged, letting her own tears fall.
"You promised me what I wanted was important to you! You promised me that! You said it didn't matter what you decided to do, that you would base it out of New York! How dare you throw that back in my face", she cried, still fighting to get at Quinn.
"Well, then I guess I lied too! Congratulations! We're fucking even!"
Even Brittany gave Quinn a dirty look at that point, and she was sitting right next to the girl, to comfort her nonetheless.
"No, no no we're not even close to being even Quinn! I would never cheat on you", cried Rachel. She was done fighting. She was crying so hard, she could barely breathe.
"Maybe you should have", cried Quinn.
"No, Quinn...don't say that", said Brittany, who was crying as well.
"I do love you Rachel, I really do but obviously...you will never forgive me for this", she cried, burrying her face into Brittany's shoulder. For the next few minutes, there was nothing but tears. Rachel cuddled into Jade, Quinn wrapped in Brittany's arms. Santana, listening on the outside of the door. Chase had fallen asleep, so she snuck away to see what was going on. She didn't like what she had heard at all. The last word she thought she had heard before walking away from the door was, divorce.
Jade had tears falling from her eyes, as she lay on the roof, thinking about that night. She had never seen Rachel Berry so broken, and it wasn't something she ever wanted to see again. She was lost, deep in thought about her friend, when she heard footsteps behind her.
"Hey."
She sat up, and turned around.
"Hi Noah."
"You've been up here for like two hours, you okay?"
"Yeah...just thinking. How'd you know I was up here?"
"Oh okay, you still think this place is a secret", laughed Puck.
"Isn't it?"
"Everybody knows you come up here. Hell, it used to be my spot to bring girls, but I guess that's not the case anymore", he laughed.
"I think it's Effing adorable that you and Lauren are dating...she's gonna' make you a new man", laughed Jade.
"Shut up...".
"Is she still coming back to visit next week?"
"Yeah, hopefully. I gotta' admit...I thought that when you guys got back there, everything would be okay. Like...back to normal. I thought Quinn and Rach would be okay. I thought...you and Santana would be okay. I really never thought you'd come back holding hands with Brit. And...I can't say I'm okay with that."
Jade had nothing to say. She appriciated Puck's honesty, but she really didn't know how to respond.
"You guys were a family...", he continued."You, San, Chase...you were an actual family. Now...now it's just...awkward."
"I'll always love her, Noah."
"Yeah, I know that. But, this just doesn't seem right."
"I'm sorry", whined Jade.
"Don't say you're sorry to me, you didn't do anything", he said standing up."Well, come on. We have some singing to do". He reached down for Jade's hand. She smiled, and grabbed it, and the two of them were headed down into the crowded bar. There were people everywhere, and Finn, Mike and Matt were busy behind the bar. Kurt had just taken the stage, and grabbed a microphone.
"Ladies and Gentlemen, it is my pleasure to introduce to you, a man who's made an impact on my life, and a lot of other people in here. A person that made the most annoying speeches in the history of time, yet somehow got through to us all. Everybody pleae put your hands together for the worst thing to happen to rap music, Mr. William Shuster."
Everybody cheered and clapped, as Will took the stage laughing, playfully slapping kurt ont he arm.
"It's a damn shame you said that last thing about rap Kurt, because that is exactly what I'm about to do. Hit it Joey", said Will into the Microphone. As soon as the music started everyone was in an uproar.
Will-
Don't call it a comeback!
I been here for years,
Rockin' my peers,
Puttin' suckers in fear!
Makin' the tears rain down like a monsoon,
Listen to the bass go boom
Explosion! Overpowerin'
Over the competition, I'm towerin'
Records shock!
When I drop these lyrics,
That'll make you call the cops!
Don't you dare stare,
You betta move!
Don't ever compare me to the rest
They'll all get sliced and diced,
Competition's payin' the price!
I'm gonna knock you out!
Mama said knock you out!
While the crowd cheered, and Will rapped, Jade laughed and headed outside once again. She hadn't smoked any cigarettes in the time she was up on the roof, and really wanted one. She stepped outside, and not two minutes after, Mercedes and Matt were coming from the parking lot.
"Hey girl", said Mercedes, hugging Jade tight.
"Hey you guys! How are you", laughed Jade, hugging Mercedes back, then hugging Matt.
"Doing good, thank you. You look good, how's the crowd here tonight", asked Matt.
"Fired up. Shuter's here...he's rapping", said Jade smiling.
"Oh, I'm not missing this...", said Matt, and he dashed inside. Leaving Mercedes and Jade giggling.
"So, how was Disneyworld", asked Jade.
"Babygirl...it was magical. I didn't wanna' leave! Plus...my man...mmm mmm mmm my man...", laughed Mercedes."Boy is fiesty, just...so fiesty!"
"Gross...but I'm happy for you", laughed Jade.
"So, I'm all caught up, thanks to Tina and Alyson. You and Santana...done? Just like that", asked Mercedes sadly. Jade just nodded.
"Awe, Jade...I'm so sorry. None of this is your fault, you know this is all on Santana, right", she asked.
"I guess...", said Jade.
"No. No guessing anything, did you cheat on that girl", asked Mercedes. Jade shook her head.
"Exactly. She messed up, not you. Same goes for Rachel, I think I need to have a talk with her too. I'll tell her the same thing I'm bout' to tell you. It's hard to understand why the people we love do things to hurt us, it always has been, and it always will be one of those confusing things that emotionally knock us on our asses. But, to justify it by putting all the blame on yourself...that ain't right Jade, and you've done that for as long as I've known you. I know that's you, I know it's something you've been doing for a long time...but I just...wish you could stop", said Mercedes, rubbing Jade's arm.
"I know", said Jade, sympatheticly.
"Just try, alright?"
"Alright."
"Okay, I'll see you inside, I'm gonna' find Rachel. Put that nasty shit out, and get back in here", laughed Mercedes, as she walked away. Jade laughed, and tok a long drag from the cigarette. She stolled lazily back inside, and looked around. Taking in her surroundings, carefully, and slowly. As she looked around, she saw nothing but happiness, and smiled. Will Shuster up on stage, pumping the crowd up with his corny rap skills. She looked over to the bar, where her Brittany was sitting with Tina, and Rachel. Laughing happily, taking shots. She glanced over to Santana, who was sitting at a table with Quinn, Mike, Emma, and Matt. Laughing hystarically at the preformace they were witnessing. She then saw Alyson, sitting on Artie's lap, pouring a drink down his throat. She couldn't help but feel content, even as her vision got a little fuzzy. Her heart was pounding hard, and she knew exactly what it was. Anxiety. The feeling. That horrible feeling she got when she knew something bad was about to happen. This was strong. It was making her heart hurt. She breathed in slowly, but then let out a soft whimper, because it had hurt more than she expected it to.
"Fuck...what's happening to me...", she mumbled to herself.
She gained some control, and started to stumble around. She needed to find Puck. She needed to tell him that the feeling was back. But, her legs wouldn't move. She was getting very dizzy. Meanwhile, at the table, Emma was talking loudly over the music and cheering.
"So, it's nice to see Jade in such a good mood, considering everything that's been going on", she said to Santana.
"Yeah, I guess. How did you know about all of it", asked Santana.
"Well, working with the prison system now to help the inmates deal, I have access to a lot of different information. I found out the very morning he escaped", said Emma. Santana then felt like her heart had jumped into her throat.
"Wait...wait a second, what are you talking about", she asked, nervously.
"Mika Price...how he escaped from prison yesterday afternoon...", said Emma.
That did it. Santana shot up from her chair, her eyes instantly on the prowl for Jade. She didn't see her, but she did see Brittany, who stangly enough was already looking in her direction. Their eyes locked, and Brittany knew something was wrong. As if they were both thinking the same exact thing, they started looking around for Jade. They both spotted her at the same time, standing by the front entrance, hand on her chest, tears rolling down her cheeks. They both went for her, getting to her the very second she has given into the darkness, and fallen to the ground.
Song Will rapped was "Mama Said Knock You Out" By: LL Cool J.