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I'm sorry, I know I told you guys that this chappy would be from Edward's pov but I changed my plans completely for this chappy, so now it's Damien's pov. But no worries, the quote is still there.
Recap:
If only he had noticed. But he didn't and even though I was relieved he didn't, I was devastated. So I had to do this. He didn't know and he wouldn't.
"Because the Bella you once knew is dead"
Vulnerable
What would the dark sky be
Without the shiny stars sparkling in glee
You were my stars that gave me light
I was the sky that held you tight
Damien's POV
What now? Where should I go? Who should I comfort? I want to be there for both of them, but sadly there's only one of me. Bella was crying in her bed and Edward ran off into the forest. I dunno where he went but I was strangely very worried about him. So here I am, only one body. To whom should I go comfort?
I decided to go to Bella first, she would be more hurt. Or at least that was my guess. But then till I calm Bella down, who knows what state will Edward reach?
I felt a hand on my shoulder, so I looked behind me to see Edward's sister , Alice, and another blond guy. She looked sad and he looked….devastated.
"Jasper and I will go to her. You go see Edward" Alice whispered. I stared at them for a moment, debating on whether or not to trust them with Bella. The Jasper guy seemed to notice my struggle.
"Don't worry. You can trust us with Bella. Or at least Alice" He mouthed sadly. Alice's head snapped in his direction and she touched his face and forced him to meet her gaze.
"Don't say that." She said firmly but still kindly. She turned back to me and said, "she's safe with us" she reassured me. I nodded slowly and then took off in the direction of Edward's scent. It wasn't hard to follow and he wasn't easy to miss.
You'd think that the forest absorbed his mood. It was misty and depressing. Edward sat under a weeping willow. It's leaves fell over Edward's hair, it's shadow barely concealing his hunched figure. He sat there sat with his back rested against it's stem. His elbows on his bent knees and his dangling between them. His head was rested back against the tree and his eyes were squeezed closed. He looked so……broken. Even though he wasn't sobbing, the name of Bella that was falling from his lips was worse than sobbing.
The tree seemed to hold sympathy for him. It was bent over him, it's leaves covering him. Hugging him to it. Trying to give comfort. And it too looked like it was crying with him. For him. Whichever.
"You know…" I began in a whisper but sure he could hear me, "sometimes letting the grief take over you sounds like a better way to deal with things than keeping it locked inside you…." I waited for a response but he didn't move from his place or acknowledge my presence. But I continued. "But hiding and giving up has nothing to do with all that"
I watched his lips part and the wind carried his agonized whisper to my ears, "It's too late. I was too late"
I went closer to him till I was close enough to see how pale his face was. Paler than it should be. How weak he seemed to be. "That's a lie. It's never too late" I said firmly.
He chuckled. A humorless, empty, pitiful chuckle. "I am a liar after all. I lied to her. I hurt her" His voice, if was heard in the first place, was empty. Void of all emotion. He still had his eyes closed. So I slowly sat beside him under the tree.
"That's not what I meant. And you were trying to do the right thing. It turned out to be wrong. So what? If every man on earth gave up because he did something wrong, well how do you imagine the world would be like?" I said softly.
"I hurt her too much. And she's not willing to take me back. What am I going to do without her? How can I survive?" His whisper broke and I looked to him to see his eyes opened. He was staring at the tree opposite us. His eyes full of nothing but pure pain. His face was strained. Like he was being strangled.
"Edward. You really need to get to know Bella more. She's not 'not willing' she's just not ready yet. She needs to figure some things out by herself. That's something neither you nor I can help her do." I told him as I shifted my position, to sit cross legged facing him.
He didn't answer me.
"Fight for her Edward. Be strong. Be patient. Wait for her to pull herself together again. Be the Edward she knows. Be the Edward she told me about"
He stared at me with an agonized expression and mouthed, "I can't"
He was so weak. Like a child afraid of the dark. Sitting in it and fearing to move and open the light. Afraid of what might still be waiting for him in the shadows. Decided to stay in the dark corner where it was safe enough.
Then I have to provoke him, "You can't? When Bella told me about you, she told me that you were strong and persistent. She told me how you struggled with the scent of her blood, and how you overcame that, just because you loved her. She was wrong I see" I said in a harsh voice, "You're weak and undeserving of her love"
His head hung sadly and he didn't say anything to protest. So I poured more fuel in the fire.
"She would be better off with someone else. Someone who would be able to fight for her" He winced and flinched back. I noticed how his arms encircled his knees. Trying to keep himself in one piece.
"Please that's enough" He whispered shakily.
"Why? You can't stand knowing that you are a coward? That your cowardice prevent you from doing whatever it takes to gain her back?" My voice was clipped and mean, I didn't like it but this has to be done. He needs to be provoked.
"I can't" His voice shook again and he hugged himself tighter.
"huh" I stood up cockily, "that's what I thought at first. I was right from the beginning when I said you didn't love her…." And that undid him. His head snapped up and a fierce growl ripped from his chest. In a second I was backed against a tree, his hand gripping my neck and his face inches from it. His fire filled eyes looked up at me and his lips pulled back revealing his sharp teeth.
"Don't you dare say that I don't love her ever gain or I'll rip you into pieces." He growled. He was panting and his fire light eyes looked mad.
"Then fight for her" I said staring into his crazed eyes. Willing him to do it.
He stared back at me, still panting. Slowly his fire dimmed and his panting slowed. Realization lit his eyes and horror replaced them. He released my neck and pushed himself away from me. I fell on my feet easily and fought for unneeded breath. He took a few unbalanced steps backward, a pure look of horror on his face.
"I was going to kill you" His whispered. He looked at me again, still staggering backwards.
"It's ok Edward. You didn't, and I wasn't fighting. If I was, you would've been the one backed against the tree" I tried to calm him. He fell on his knees and gripped his knees.
"I'm losing my mind, Damien" He almost sobbed. I went and sat in front of him on my knees.
"Wait for her. Be her Edward again" I said the words as firmly as I could.
Edward stared at me with a lost look on his face. I've never seen anyone look so vulnerable. "Be what she needs" I urged and that was what it took to bring him back. The lost look on his face was replaced with a look of determination. His jaw locked and I heard his teeth click as he nodded firmly.
I sighed in relief and smiled.
"Thank you, Damien" He whispered.
I just shrugged and stood up. I offered him my hand and he lifted his to take mine. But once our palms touched an electric current through my whole body, it was such a shock that I yanked my hand away in the same time Edward yanked his. I stared at my hand with my brows furrowed and looked to Edward to find him doing the same thing.
"D…did you feel that?" He asked hesitantly. I nodded slowly.
"Did you do that?" I asked him in confusion.
"No, at least I don't think I did" he said as he looked back at his hand. "You?" he asked.
"No" I said as I touched my palm that was still tingling. "No, I don't think I did"
A/N: I know you guys probably hate me for stopping here but it was such a tempting ending, I couldn't say no. Sorry it was a short chappy but I have to go study now. Sorry. Hope you liked it.
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Mai
