Christina-
I was backstage with the kids. Nathan was going crazy about being backstage. Cora was holding onto her daughter Macy and Charlie was giggling with Thea. Ella held onto Carter.
"So this is what it's like back here?", I asked Cora.
"Oh yeah. I'm glad you came", she said.
"I had too", I said.
We saw Sarah walk over to us.
"I see Jon invited you. Does this mean things are going good between you and block head?", Cora asked her.
We laughed.
"Yes things are good. He talks a little more now", Sarah said.
Two short men came over to us and smiled.
"Hey Noble", Cora said.
"Hey, the boss wants to see you ladies", he said, accent thick.
They both looked at me.
"Hi, I'm Christina", I said, shaking their hands.
They smiled and introduced themselves.
"We know each other already don't we", I said, feeling embarassed.
"It's okay, we heard what happened", Joey said smiling.
We followed them through the halls and I walked behind everyone. Feeling a little out of place. Cora was talking to Sarah about the show, making me feel even more out of the loop. Ella came over to me and took a hold of my arm, she walked beside me.
"It's a lot to take in, I know", she said with a smile.
"Did I like coming to these shows?", I asked her.
"Yeah, you got into it. Probably more than Nathan", she said giggling.
Getting to a room, we walked in. A woman came over to me and hugged me.
"Oh um, hello", I said.
She pulled away.
"I'm sorry, it's just, we missed you around here", she said.
"Steph, you're scarying her honey", the man said, coming over to her.
"Sorry", she said to me.
"It's okay, a lot of people here have been doing it", I said.
"I'm Paul and this is Stephanie, my wife", he said.
"It's nice to meet you both, again", I said.
They laughed.
"Your seats are ready whenever you are, we just wanted to see how you were", Paul said.
"I'm good, getting back into my routine and trying to remember", I said.
They nodded and smiled. It felt weird, yet familiar talking to them. A knock at the door pulled Paul away and I heard him sigh.
"Not now okay", I heard him say.
"I heard they were here and I want to see them, they are my kids", I knew that voice.
"Jason?", I asked.
Paul looked at me and then opened the door wider. Jason smiled and walked in. He hugged me, that hug felt, wrong? He pulled away and then smiled at the twins. Nathan was behind Ella and Thea behind Sarah.
"Hi kids, I'm Jason", I tried to stop him.
"Wait, Jason don't", I said.
"I'm your dad", he said.
"No you're not, you're a liar", Nathan yelled and stuck his tongue out at him.
"I'm not lying, ask your mommy. Isn't that right baby? I'm their father, tell them", he said to me.
I didn't know what to do. I needed Joe, I wanted Joe. I bit my lip and started feeling overwhelmed with everyone looking at me.
"Tell them, I'm their father", he said, placing his hands on my arms.
My mouth opened, but nothing came out.
"Let her go", I turned to see Joe in the doorway.
I could see the anger in his eyes, if looks could kill. He took a step in, I noticed Jon behind him, same look. Colby stepped between Joe and Jason.
"I just came to see my twins and I see you haven't told them yet. Have you?", he said with a smirk.
He gestured to the twins.
"Go on, tell them", he said to Joe.
"Not here, not now. Get the hell away from my family", Joe growled.
I was frozen in place, this was all to much for me. Especially not being able to remember how this all went down. Joe might have told me, but I still didn't understand it.
"Just go Jason, please", I begged.
He looked at me, his hand on my cheek and his thumb rubbing my cheek gently.
"Okay gorgeous", he said.
He kissed my other cheek. Joe took a step and Colby held him back.
"Calm down", Colby whispered to him.
Jason left the room. Joe looked at me, hurt. I looked down, I didn't know what to say or do. Jon came over to me and rubbed my back.
"You okay kid?", he asked.
"I don't know, I need some air", I said, leaving the room.
Roman-
I was going to follow her after she left the room. Colby stopped me.
"Let her go, she is safe here. Everyone knows her", he said.
"But she doesn't know them", I said.
"She hasn't remembered anything?", Stephanie asked.
"No, but when she says or does things, she says they feel familiar. Like picturing an image in her head but it's blurry", I said.
They all looked sad and I know they wanted to help, but there was nothing anyone could do but wait.
"We just gotta take things slow", I sighed.
"Well you know that if you need anything, we have your back and best interest at heart", Stephanie said.
"I know, thank you", I said.
Christina-
I kept walking and walking, going down different halls. I didn't know where I was going, all I knew was that I needed to leave that room. I finally stopped and brushed my hair back.
"Chris, you okay?", I looked up to see Jon and Josh.
I felt relieved to see someone I actually knew and I hugged them. Crying into their shoulders.
"Hey, it's okay, what's wrong?", Jon asked.
I pulled away, I haven't seen them since high school. Seeing them now felt weird.
"Everything", I said.
"Hey, we know this could be tough, I mean, one minute everything is fine and the next well", Josh said.
"I know Joe wants me to remember being with him, but I can't and it kills me. Then this whole thing with Jason. I lost my memory at the worst possible time and I don't know what to do", I cried.
"Do you, do you still love Jason?", Josh asked.
Jon shoved him and Josh shrugged.
"I know this is wrong to say, but yes, a little part of me still does", I said.
They both nodded.
"You said it yourself, you don't remember what happened. So you having feelings for Jason is normal because that is what you do remember", Jon said.
"Do you love Joe?", Josh asked.
They both looked at me.
"I've always loved him, you both know that. I might be pissed at him for what he did, but I also understand why he did it", I said.
They smiled.
"You both can relax, I don't plan on cheating on Joe. My life right now is complicated enough", I said.
They both laughed.
"I guess I should go back", I said.
"Need help getting around?", Jon asked.
"Please", I smiled.
Jon put his arm over my shoulder and Josh put his arm around my waist.
"Like old times huh", Josh said.
I laughed. They took me to a locker room. Joe was dressed in his gear and pacing the room. He looked over when Jon cleared his throat.
"I see you're in good company huh", Joe said with a smile.
"Yeah", I said, hugging myself.
"We had a good talk", Jon said.
Joe raised a brow and nodded.
"Well we have to go get ready for tonight. See you out there", Josh said.
"Bye, thanks guys", I said.
They smiled and nodded.
"Everything okay baby girl?", Joe asked sweetly.
I bit my lip.
"You were crying, talk to me baby", he whispered, kissing my forehead.
"Promise you won't get mad", I said, my voice low.
He looked into my eyes.
"You still love him, don't you?", he asked.
"I'm sorry, I just can't help it", I cried.
He took a step back from me and looked around the room. His eyes watery.
"I can't be mad at you for feeling that way. The last thing you remember is being in love with him and me, well what you feel for me", he exhaled.
He was trying to hold in his tears.
"I love you too, Joe. I have always loved you, but I just don't remember being married to you or how I made my choice to be with you. Do you know what it was because I don't", I said.
"Because you have always loved me. Because I know you better than anyone, better than him", he said, his tears finally falling.
I wiped my tears.
"I would always choose you", I said.
Something deep down told me to say that because it was true. No matter what, something told me it was always going to be Joe. He smiled and wiped his cheeks.
"What do you want Chris? Do you want me?", he asked.
"You know I do. This is just hard for me, I don't know what he did but it must have been something we both didn't like, right?", I asked.
He nodded.
"I should find my seat", I said.
"I'll get someone to walk you", he said.
We walked out into the hall. Joe called out to some guy named Randy.
"Hey Chris, it's good to see you again", this Randy guy said.
"Oh, you too", I said.
"I know you don't remember me, this is Kim, my wife", he said.
"I heard what happened. I'm sorry, but I'm glad you're doing better", Kim said, hugging me.
"Thanks", I said.
"Hey Kim, mind showing Chris to her seat? I know you're sitting in the same section right", Joe said.
"Yes, I'll be happy to show her", Kim said.
I looked at Joe, he smiled.
"We'll give you two a moment", Randy said, pulling Kim with him.
I hesitated before hugging him. He kissed the side of my head.
"Be careful", I whispered.
"Always am", he said.
I pulled away and then tip toed up to reach his lips. I left a small kiss on his lips.
"I needed that", he whispered.
I turned and Kim took my arm. We walked towards our seats.
Roman-
I sighed, my lips still tingled from her kiss.
"Everything okay with you two?", Randy asked.
"Oh yeah, she's just frustrated that she can't remember", I said.
"And you? I mean, I'm pretty sure you're feeling the same way", he said.
"I just miss my wife and I want to help her, but there is nothing I can do and it pisses me off you know", I said.
"Yeah, I would feel the same way", Randy said.
I sighed.
"If ever you want to talk or just let out your frustrations, call me. Hell call anyone, you know we are all here for you", he said.
"I know, thanks", I said.