Chapter theme song: I caught myself

Artist: Paramore

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I am still pissed about how my chapter got deleted after I saved it and I had about 10 pages and was half way through.

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BPOV

"Bella," A strange voice was calling my name.

I rolled over my brick body and mumbled into my pillow, "No."

A chuckle came from just above me and startled me.

"Bells, now." The voice had strain and harshness in it.

I jumped out of my covers but didn't make it very far because I rammed into Jake's forehead.

"Ouch, Bella!" He choked on his words. "Next time, you'll better than to hover over my sleeping body and startled me to death!" I snickered at Jake.

"You have 30 minutes to get ready for that mall or I'm leaving your ass at home!" Jake threw his pillow at me as I ran to go brush my hair.

After I had succeeded to brush not only my hair but teeth I decided to change my outfit as well.

"Jake, will you pass me my tote bag, over there by your computer chair?" I pointed to where the bag was and Jake handed it to me.

Rummaging through my bag I found a nice pair of comfy old jeans and a soft, yellow pocket T.

After I had changed and freshened up Jake had also decided to change.

"Why are you wearing old, and tore up sweat pants with an old football T?" I giggled at him.

"I'll have to know, these bottom show off my girlish figure, thank you very much." Jake imitated a super model walking down a runway and led us to the kitchen.

"What time are you picking me up from the mall, Jake?" I asked.

"Whatever time you'd like me to, I'm just going to the rental center and renting us a few movies."

I screamed like a child and started jumping up and down.

"You have to rent Knocked Up. You know that movies is my favorite and plus, it's hilarious!" Jake started shaking his head and laughed.

"No, no, no! That Seth guy is a complete loser on there. And plus, you really like watching some girl getting knocked up?" I punched Jake in his arm.

"He's supposed to be a drug using, loser! I mean, c'mon he sells homemade porno videos in the movie, it's a classic. And you're getting it for your girlfriend!"

I hugged Jake close to me and whispered, "Maybe, I'll show you some of my moves later on tonight, after the movie…"

I grabbed my purse and headed out the front door of Jake's.

"Are you coming cowboy?"

Jake followed me out the door and we were off to the mall.

"…I swear Bella, you've changed since we were little 14 year olds. You're totally not a virgin anymore! I, I just can't believe it! You did it before me!" I looked at Jessica, giving her a strange look. "I know, I know, hard to think about right? Well, it's true. I'm a v-i-r-g-i-n!" Jessica waved and twirled her hands in the air as she spelt out loud 'virgin'.

We walked into American Eagle and started looking around.

"I could use some more thongs, I keep like loosing them!" Jessica threw a horrid face at me and started to crack up laughing. "Oh, my. God Bells! That's because Jake probably shreds them up at night!" Jess wiggled her finger at me as if punishing me.

"Whatever, I think I'll get these 5." I showed Jess the different colors of thongs and she approved.

We checked our things out and moved on to our next stores.

2 hours later, and 10 bags full of clothing, and mall food we were outside waiting for Jake to pick me up.

"So, what are you two love birds planning tonight?" Jessica casually asked me.

I shrugged my shoulders, and gave her one of my cheesy smiles.

"Oh, god Bella! Too much information! Now I have pictures of you guys all hot and sweaty in my mind!"

I slapped her and she shrieked loudly. "Did I tell you he wants to be a fireman?" Jessica gasped and almost died of laughter.

"How is his body? Is it banging?" I laughed and nodded my head "yes".

"Jessica, he's absolutely and utterly good to me, and treats me right, and I know we fight, but we fight as if we're married! And I just love him so much!"

We both giggled like little kids. I saw familiar headlights coming towards us.

Jake honked his horn as he stepped out of his SUV.

"I'm here!" He shouted stupidly.

Jessica waved by to me, and said a friendly hello to Jake.

Jake helped me with my bags of things I had bought and helped me in his car.

After we pulled out of the parking lot, and got onto the highway Jake started playing his annoying rap.

"Jake, please?" I begged him. "What?"

"Your music sucks. I can't believe I am dating a guy that listen to this crap." I pushed the eject button on his stereo and plugged in my iPod.

"Hell no Bells! I love you, but you pop culture, dinky, panky music is not allowed when I'm in the car!" I smiled, I loved to annoy Jake as much as he annoyed me.

"My car. My music, I'm driving." Jake said sternly. I rolled my eyes and turned off my iPod.

After a while of just driving I started getting bored.

"How far away is a freakin' grocery store Jake?" I was getting irritated.

"Bells, you okay? You're starting to sound…" Jake trailed off and dropped whatever he was about to say.

"What? I was starting to sound?" I flung my arms in the air and gave him a puzzled look.

"Nothing, I shouldn't say, Just please let's not argue.

Oh, hell no he wasn't getting out of his unfinished sentence.

"Jake, just tell me, please!" I was starting to sound 5, and not 18, but I didn't care.

"You're just starting to bitch at me, and it's just annoying me, okay? There, babe I said it."

I just sat there in the quiet, listening to the wind outside blow by as Jake drove us to a near grocery store.

I didn't want to tell him I was expecting my period within a few days, possibly even 2 days, but it wasn't worth fighting about.

Was Jake suddenly going to want to crave sex from me now?

Is he starting to think I want to have sex with him every time I see him, and whenever we're alone?

I hope he didn't get the wrong idea the other night, I know this is our last night together, but I'm just really tired…

I felt my eyes slowly close shut, and start to float away.

I felt a firm and warm grip on my shoulder. "Bells, babe, please, wake up. We're here. Bella, Bella!" I suddenly jumped in my seat.

"What?" I looked to my right, out the window to see a bright sign read: Publix.

"Sorry, traffic was really thick coming here, you know, it is Saturday."

Jake opened his door and came around to my side.

Once we were out of his car, and into the store I realized just how nervous I really was.

I mean, I was buying condoms, with Jake!

If I was 14, and someone told me within 4 years I'd be sexually active and be here, on this night with Jake, I'd probably die.

Jake didn't make me feel uncomfortable one bit though.

He held my hand and would softly rub little circles on the back of my hand and we were swinging our arms while looking for the right aisle.

We went to aisle 17 and found the condom section.

I started snickering, the names these companies thought of!

'Twisted pleasures', 'Ultra lubricated', 'thin', And even ones I didn't even dare to ask what they meant.

Jake started to let go of my hand. "Which one do you want?"

I surveyed about 50 boxes of different types, "Uh, the normal kind?"

It was honestly stupid, I didn't need ribbed, or ultra lubricated, and any of this crap. I just wanted, you know the normal kind?

"Bella, seriously." I gave him a 'Don't you dare tell me that, I am serious look'. "Fine, I'll just get Trojan lubricated, okay?"

I nodded my head. "Do you need anything else?" I suddenly thought about how I was expecting my period, but was completely out of pads.

"You know what, yeah I do, why don't you go get us a spot in line, and I'll meet you there?" Jake looked at me but I just urged him to not ask and just leave.

He finally gave in and made his way through crowds of people and to the line.

Always maxi, Stay free, Kotex… Ah!

I found my normal brand of panty liners, Playtex tampons and Always infinity pads.

Once I met Jake in line he saw what I had and I guess understood why I had asked him before to just leave.

"Did you get enough?" He joked. "I don't know, I think I forgot something…" I wiggled my eyebrows at him. "I need Midol."

Jake shot me a look if despair. "Bella, please. No…"

"Then don't make fun of my needs." I threw my items on the counter as Jake took my hand into his.

He kissed me cheek and whispered "I'm your boyfriend, your best friend, and now your partner, I'm allowed some jokes about your feminine products. You just bought condoms with me, I don't think it's so bad."

I smiled and kissed him quickly.

The cashier rung up everything and I let Jake pay for the things.

"Are you ready?" He asked me. "Yeah, I guess so. I'm just really tired."

"You can go home and sleep if you want, it's getting late."

Wait, did he just offer me to sleep, and by that not sleep with him?

Maybe, I'm just worrying. I'm sure Jake didn't expect to get some every night.

Yeah, I am just worried from nerves and excitement.