CHAPTER FOURTEEN
Thursday, March 8th
It had been almost a week now and I still couldn't face the idea alone. I still had moments of ellapsed time where I'd find myself holding the black and white blurry picture and staring at the wall. Shane sighed and I felt the bed shift as he sat up. I didn't realise he had woken up. I felt his hands on my waist, gently pulling me back to him and his lips on my neck, soft and comforting against my skin.
"What're you doin'?" He asked sleepilly and I forced my eyes away from the picture.
"I couldn't sleep." I replied and he sighed again, holding me and carefully reaching for the picture. The picture of our unborn baby.
"Come here." Shane moved the picture away and gently guided me to lay down. "You need to sleep." He murmured, holding me tight and kissing my neck lightly. "Sleep, Baby, you've barely slept all week."
"I have nightmares." I admitted softly, feeling safer in Shane's arms. "I dream about doing something wrong, being a bad mother, it hating me. I don't want this, Shane, I'm not ready for it."
"We-we still have nine months, just relax for now, I don't like seeing you so worked up." Shane soothed, but it didn't help much, I was still terrified and nervous as Hell. "You're going to be amazing, you're kind and smart and sweet and sensitive and funny. Any baby would be lucky to have you as their mother."
"I don't think I can sleep anymore." I mumbled, "too many nightmares."
"Do you need to see Doctor Livingstone?" Shane offered and I winced. Dr. Livingstone is what started all this with his fertility tests and hormone levels.
"No, I'm fine." I denied, revelling in the warmth of his body.
"Can I take you out tomorrow? You need to relax."
"I don't really feel like going out, Shane." I muttered and he sighed sadly.
"Please don't push me away? I thought we agreed we'd talk more and stuff?" Shane begged.
"What's there to talk about, Shane? We both said we weren't ready and now I'm pregnant making the entire conversation redundant." I snapped before I felt guilty. "I'm sorry."
"We still have nine months before it happens, it's still nine months to do the talking and dating thing." I kept silent after that, I couldn't say it to him, he was trying so hard to try and put a possitive spin on this, to make not sound as bad. I couldn't tell him now that my thought was that it was nine months till my life was practically over. "Go to sleep, you need it." He urged softly.
Queen Miley
I was exhausted by the end of the day; between not sleeping, worrying and the usual fanfare of students bombarding me. Shane was still with Trevor when I finished my homework. I didn't want to admit that that was a relief; he was trying to be possitive about this whole thing for me and I just wanted to have time to get used to it without having to think about it. I was int he shower with the scalding water stinging my skin and the steam making it hard to see when I felt hands. I panicked for a second until Shane's scent filled my senses. I turned and kissed him, linking my hands around his neck and pressed my body against his hard, sculpted, naked one.
Not a word passed between us as Shane gently pressed me against the cold glass wall of the shower and kept his lips glued to mine, our tongues tangled together with a slow burning passion. He touched his forehead to mine and stared at me with burning brown eyes that were so dark they were almost black. He stroked a finger across my cheek and kissed a trail after it as he followed a drop of water down my neck, across my collarbone, between my breasts. I couldn't stop the small moan from escaping when his lips strayed from the path and enclosed around my left nipple.
The scalding water felt cold against my skin when Shane's mouth lapped up the falling water over to my right nipple and paid it the same attention. I impatiently pulled his head away from my chest and back up to be level with mine, kissing him hungrilly. I let out an embarassingly whiney sound and pressed my body against his more, aching for more of his body. Shane lifted my legs around his hips and I cradled him as close tome as humanly possible. He pulled back and started to open his mouth, his dark brown eyes hesitant, but I just nodded and kissed him again, urging him to continue and I was forced to pulled away in a gasp when his hardened length filled me.
Shane pushed away from the foggy shower glass and pressed his palms flat against my back as he tried to navigate us to the bed. He stumbled a few steps before pressing me against the wall of the bathroom and I let out a breathy moan as he moved inside of me so pleasurably. I let my lips leave his and find his pulse point on his neck, licking at the warm water left from the shower and before I kissed around the spot. Shane moaned and I smiled against his skin as he tried to walk us to the bed again, this time getting as far as the dresser before we lost ourselve to the passion again. I met his hips thrust for thrust, wanting more of him, more of his touch, his love, his passion.
By the time we made it to the bed I was almost at my climax and Shane fell on his back with me on top, he held me close and his thumbs brushed the side of my breasts as I moved on top of him and around him. I gasped out as I felt the tensions completely release as my orgasm washed through me. Shane held me and kept helping me move until I felt him twitch and he groaned as his seed spilled inside of me.
We both laid there, wrapped up in each others arms and I sighed contentedly, my lips moving across Shane's slightly sweaty chest. I could feel his heart racing under my touch and I smiled softly.
"What was that for?" I asked breathlessly and he chuckled, his arms tightening around me.
"I love you, Babe, no matter what happens." Shane whispered, absently starting to stroke my hair and massage my scalp. "I'm like a wolf remember? I'm in this for life." He sighed and kissed my forehead. "I don't like when we fight, I don't like when you're upset. You're my whole world, Miles... I just-I just needed to show you."
"I love you too. For ever and ever." I snuggled into him and he reached under us and pulled the covers back before slipping us both under. Never mind that we were both dripping wet from the shower or that it was only early evening.
"What are we go-" I started to ask, feeling the stress from before start to creep up on me.
"Nope." Shane interrupted and I lifted my head to look at him. "No thinking about any of that; right now it's just you and me. We're just two teenagers in love, no Royalty or responsibilities beyond our puppy. Just you, me, and nothing else."
"I like the sound of that." I smiled, resting my head back down.
"Of course you do; it was my decission." Shane teased cockilly and I laughed. "Now get some sleep and I'll have something ready when you wake up." He urged and I pouted and whined.
"I don't wanna, I want to savour our no worrying time." I hummed as Shane kept stroking my hair, occassionally tugging on the ends.
"It's okay, Babe, we're gonna have plenty of time, I promise." I couldn't help it, our love making, his steady, strong heartbeat, his arms around me and his fingers massaging me, it was all making me tired and that paired with the lack of sleep I'd been getting was slowly lulling me to sleep.
Queen Miley
Friday, March 9th
I smiled as consciousness slowly returned to me. I was laying on my stomach and Shane's hands were on my back as he straddled my legs, massaging my back and shoulders. Shane brushed my hair back from my neck and I felt his lips touch my skin.
"Did you sleep good?" He asked and I hummed and nodded slowly, sleepilly. It was the best sleep I'd had in what felt like a long time.
"What time is it?" I asked, reaching up to rub my eyes and looking around, it was still dark everywhere.
"Five in the morning." Shane replied and I groaned. "Come on, Miles, I want to show you something." I whined and snuggled into my pillow making Shane laugh. "Come on, you missed dinner and I made us breakfast."
"At five in the morning?" I forced myself to sit up.
"It's the only time I can show you this." Shane insisted and I smiled at his eagerness.
"Can I at least get dressed first or are you making me go naked?" I teased and he grinned.
"Well, I wouldn't object to the naked option." I swatted his chest and blushed before getting out of bed.. I quickly put on a bra, underwear, my pajama pants and I stole one of Shane's shirts that smelled like him. It was freezing for March when Shane led me outside, holding my hand and a picnic basket, it was still dark outside when we sat down next to the tree we first met at and I smiled as he pulled out some food.
"You're nice and warm." I sighed contentedly as I snuggled into Shane and he held me in his lap.
"Hey, it's happening, look." Shane smiled against the side of my head and pointed out over the lake; the sky was turning a reddish orange as the sun started to peak out from behind the water.
"It's beautiful." I breathed out.
"Not even half as beautiful as you."
"Corny much?" I teased, turning my head to kiss his jawline, he was scruffy from not shaving and it tickled me a little. "Thank-you for bringing me here." I smiled.
"This." Shane's hand moved over my stomach, my abdomen, my womb. "This won't change us, we still have nine months to figure all this out, and we still have nine months to ourselves; to learn and talk and love without interruptions." I stayed silent and moved my hand over his. "Neither of us ready, and... To be honest I don't want this, not yet, but it's happening and I don't want to lose my chance for you to love me because of it." Shane laced our fingeers together and I smiled a little. "Just please don't push me away, Miley? If we can get through everything else that's happened we can get through this, just don't push me away."
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