Disclaimer: Hey guys! Shonda here! Guess what, Grey's Anatomy is going to be new this Thursday! In fact we're having a new episode every single week for the rest of the series, with no hiatus EVER! We're negotiating with ABC to let us show some steamy Merder sex, and by next year we should be getting a new plan together to show a new episode every HOUR of every day!

Seriously? If Shonda wrote that and it was true I would die. But that was me. And I'm not Shonda. So it's not true. See where I'm going with this?

And the beloved Rated M rope makes another appearance here. LOL. I wasn't sure of where to stick it so it's kind of just in a place where I thought it was needed. Enjoy! Lol.

"Derek… we don't have to talk… I get it, you have a girlfriend."

"No, Meredith, you don't get it." Derek sighed. He pulled her closer when she tried to move again.

"Derek-" She tried to speak again but was cut off by an insistent kiss from him. He had to force himself to pull away when he finally did. It had been so long since he'd done that, so long since he'd had her lip on his, and he'd missed the feeling of them yet at the same time he'd never forgotten the feeling. It was like he had burned them into his memory, and an imprint of them were forever on his own.

"I don't love her." He said quietly. She shook her head quickly. "Derek, no, don't say that." He kissed her again, effectively cutting her off.

"I. Don't. Love. Her." He said slowly, looking her in the eyes.

"I don't… I don't think I have in a long time. I think I might have at one point a long time ago I just… we spent time apart and I got to remember what my life-"

"What your life was like." She whispered and he nodded.

"But when I was with you…." His voice dropped and he stroked her cheek. She bit her lip and closed her eyes, turning her face slightly into his hand. She felt pathetic, she hadn't touched him like this in weeks and now she was sitting in his arms and he was touching her and her body was crying out with sweet relief at having him again.

"When I was with you I was… I was myself. There was no changing and you made me… me." He whispered, his mouth by her ear now.

"I don't expect you to forgive me for hurting you… I could never do that so why should you? But please Mer… don't walk away from us. Just give me a chance. Give me a chance to end it with Addie and I'll do it, I swear I will." He pleaded softly with her.

She opened her eyes and looked at him.

"How do I know that… how do I know that you're not going to break your promise?" She whispered.

"Because I can't. I can't even imagine trying to."

Meredith looked at him for a moment. She searched his eyes and saw the desperation they held, needing her to believe him. She looked away for a moment thinking. When she returned to his face again, she found it worried. Worried that she would say no.

"I… slow. Whatever this is, whatever we are, this has to be slow. And I'm not forgiving you anytime soon."

He nodded but she could see how this pained him.

"I wouldn't expect you to."

"And… Addison, you have to end it with her. But you can't end it… you have to be gentle. Because she's been with you for five years and-"

"How do you know?" He asked her, confused.

"Know what?"

"About me and Addie? And how long we've been together?"

"Oh… Mark, the other day, he told me…." She said softly.

"Everything?"

"What defines everything?"

"About how long we've been together?"

"Yeah…" She admitted. "And a bit more."

Before he could ask anymore questions his phone cut him off. He sighed and reached into his pocket. A dark look fell on his face as he saw who it was and he picked it up.

"What do you want?" He asked, struggling to keep his voice patient.

"No… no, I don't want you to come over. I don't want to come over to you. No, I don't want to meet anywhere! We're not Derek and… we aren't. Why? Because I'm in-"

He paused for a moment.

"Because I'm with someone else. No, I- forget it." He slammed his phone shut and sighed with frustration. Meredith looked at him with concern, an unpleasant feeling in her stomach.

"Who…?"

"Addison. She's not letting go. She doesn't have any grounds to keep this going, it's not like we're married but… she's going to make this as difficult as possible." He let out a harsh laugh. "Not that'd I'd expect her to do anything different." He muttered.

Meredith looked at him for a moment. She hadn't planned for this. She was supposed to wait to make him prove himself. This was stupid and ridiculous and just like one of those stupid books with the people on the cover that are wrapped in an embrace. But he was already broken and now Addison was ripping him apart at the seams, taking his life from him, taking his spirit. She didn't know if she could replace it, but she could try.

She shifted her position in his lap and he looked at her. He opened his mouth to ask her what she was doing but he was cut off by a kiss.

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It started out slow. She was pouring all of her emotions into him and he drank them in, replacing hers with his own. In that moment they were one, exchanging everything they felt for one another and the outside world. She grabbed his face and the kiss deepened. He wrapped his hands around her back and held her tighter to him as he groaned against her mouth. Tongues clashed and lips moved as they desperately tried to get closer to the other. Meredith started to rock on him and he thrust his hips up against hers. She whimpered and broke the kiss.

"Derek… need you." She whispered. He slowly lay her down on the ground.

"Mer… are you sure? We're… and Addison." He said roughly. She dragged his lips down to hers once again and kissed him.

"Please Derek." She whispered and her hands moved to his belt. She unbuckled it and then started to desperately fumble with the button on his jeans. She unzipped them, and he unsnapped her pants, and yanked the zipper down, forcing the edges just past her hips.

"Mer…" He groaned her name as he pulled her panties down. He slid one finger into her and she bucked her hips slightly and he leant down to kiss her stomach. He pulled it out before moving up and kissing her with a slow passion as he thrust slowly inside of her.

She moaned against his mouth, arching her back up from the ground and he broke the kiss.

"Sssh." He murmured into her neck as he started to slide in and out of her. She bit her lip and clenched her fists, a soft cry escaping her mouth every now and then. He pressed a kiss to her neck, groaning and starting to thrust harder and faster. Their rhythm was something only they could create. He'd never had this with anyone before and she was pretty sure she hadn't either. Each thrust from him brought her closer to the edge, and a fire built in her stomach that was growing higher and higher.

"Derek…" She moaned. She held tightly to his shoulder and he trailed kisses down her shoulder, moving her shirt out of the way. He started moving faster and faster at a desperate pace.

"Fuck Mer… Mer, oh God Mer…" He murmured. He could feel her growing tighter around him and he sped up.

"Derek!" She screamed his name and he quickly kissed her to cover it as he thrust jerkily a few more times before groaning as he released inside of her. She pulled him close and he placed a soft kiss on her forehead. They murmured a few incoherent words to each other and she brushed the few curls that had fallen down from his hair away from his sweating forehead. He gave her a tired smile before pulling out and rolling off, holding her close, both of them still struggling to breathe.

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"That was… intense." She said with a gasp. He nodded and kissed the top of her head.

"Yeah… it was… it was great."

She grinned a little and lifted her head to look at him.

"Amazing. Astounding. Wonderful." She said and he laughed.

"How about another round?" She said, her voice dropping and he stared at her. "Mer, seriously? We can't breathe and you want to-"

"I'm breathing fine." She retorted. It was true, her breathing had calmed down slightly but it was still coming in deep, shaky gusts. "Just because you're so old doesn't mean I have to be deprived." She said with laughter in her eyes.

He stared at her for a moment before laughing. "I'm old? If I'm old then you're a gold digger-"

"No gold to dig." She murmured, kissing his jaw.

"And I'm extremely agile for my age. I think you had a sample of the… acrobatics I can do a few minutes ago. You were screaming… with glee." He mumbled.

In the blink of an eye he'd flipped him so he lay over her and she laughed as he started to kiss her collar bone.

"Sorry Mr. Shepherd, I do believe you've proven me wrong." She laughed. It turned to a moan when he started to nip at her neck.

"Derek… we need to go." She murmured.

"Yeah." He agreed but he didn't stop.

"Derek, what did I say?" She said, shuddering beneath him, as his hand moved to massage her breast, rubbing his thumbs over it over and over.

"Seriously…" He mumbled.

"Seriously, Derek… we're taking it slow." She fought a cry on the last word and she felt him grin against her skin.

"I can take it slow… I can take it incredibly slow." He whispered roughly as he kissed her earlobe.

"We have to take it slower than that. And we've already had sex-"

"Mer, it was just our third time."

"And we see how well the other two times have started. Derek, we need to get out of here at least… find a bed."

"But I like it here." He mumbled.

"Derek." She warned him. "I will leave you if we don't go right now." She said and his head snapped up.

"You wouldn't." He said quietly. She saw the worry in his eyes and sighed.

"No, I wouldn't. I couldn't. But I'd try, and there'd definitely be no sex for you." She said softly as she rested her hand on his cheek. With a reluctant sigh he got up and they straightened their clothes. He draped his arm loosely around her waist and he kissed her temple as they left the grove.

"Where to?" He asked her smiling.

The talking leads to touching, and the touching leads to sex. And then there is no mystery left.

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Sorry this update took longer. It was supposed to be up Saturday. Then yesterday. So you get it today. Because Derek wanted things to go as simple as possible. He wanted to apologize to Mer, say he was leaving Addie even if she made things difficult and then… well, Derek really, REALLY wanted sex. A lot of sex, but only sex from Mer. I'm talking a ridiculous amount here. But I didn't want to give it to him. Because he doesn't need it and it wasn't necessary for the story. But he was stubborn as all hell, so we compromised. Sort of.

So they talked. But they are no where near done. See how they got cut off there? By Derek's phone? And then the sex came because Mer hates to see Derek like this, and sex can make him feel better. So instead of finishing the talk they had sex. Really good sex that they've been wanting for weeks. And now they're going to have more. Because as far as Derek's concerned, he and Addison are over, even if Addie doesn't want to let go.

And just so you're not worried, Derek was talking with Addison on the phone. He doesn't have anymore hidden girlfriends or wives or fiancés or dirty mistresses.

And back to the talk. I hate to tell you this, but it's not going to be quite that easy. This will be revisited several times after they continue the talk, whenever that is. They have issues and they don't always share things with each other. So stuff might just slip in a fight or two.

Ok, so I THINK that's it. But if you have any questions, comments, concerns, and possibly even requests, just review and let me know! I don't bite, I promise!

Fine, to make it sound like I'm not fishing for reviews, you can PM me too lol.

Oh yeah. Surprise! The song line at the end actually wasn't from Stolen. ::No, REALY!?!:: LOL. Portions for Foxes. Because that line fit perfectly.

Hovering out –

Meredith/Em