I decided to take the guest's suggestion of having Clary write a letter to Jace. Not an overly long chapter but I'm quiet happy with it. I hope the guest who suggested it likes it, let me know what you think. will upload as soon as i get some reviews. xxx

7PM Tuesday night.

The hour was approaching fast. Clary still hadn't decided exactly what she was going to tell Jace yet and she had 1 hour to prepare herself and get to the institute. She couldn't just tell Jace what she was doing, he would never allow it but on the other hand she also couldn't not tell him anything and just disappear he would be frantic and may try to follow her. Then an idea hit her Cassandra only appeared to Clary not Jace so maybe Clary could convince Jace that she wanted Cassandra to appear again so it would be best for Jace and George to spend the night upstairs. The excuse was perfect simple yet totally believable. Her next task was following through with her plan and managing to cover herself in runes and gather weapons without being noticed. George was happily munching on a couple of biscuits before being put to bed and Jace was washing plates up after he and Clary had finished their tea.

"Jace do you think you could stay upstairs once George is in bed tonight?" Clary asked trying to sound as ordinary as she could. Jace shot her a puzzled look "Why?" Clary quickly put her head down avoiding his gaze, she could never lie to him but she couldn't risk getting caught. "I was just thinking that I might try and see if I could get Cassandra to come and talk to me again" she paused taking in a breath "and seen as she only made herself visible to me, I think if I'm alone she might try to again and I could ask more questions." Clary bit her lip, nervously waiting for his response.

Jace walked over to his wife and placed a soft hand on her back. "Are you sure you're alright doing that alone? You seem kind of nervous" he asked. 'Dammit!' Clary thought. She had to be careful or she would blow her cover story. She closed her eyes tight for 3 seconds still facing the floor. As she reached the final number her head sprung back up, "I'm fine, just had something in my eye." She smiled at him but without trying to look too enthusiastic. Jace nodded and pulled her into a hug, he kissed the top of her head gently. "I was thinking about what Cassandra told you and Clary I don't know what I'd do if that happened to us or even if I just lost you... I don't know how I could go on without you"

His words hit Clary like a knife cutting her heart. "Jace please don't say that." She swallowed all her morals about always telling the truth. "Nothing's going to happen to us okay. Where a team and I'm sure our family have gathered tones of support and are protesting the claves actions. Even if something did happen to me you'd have to keep going for me and George." Tears lingered in her eyes but she refused to let them slide. She stretched up on her tip toes and kissed her husband. Her lips clung to his not wanting to part. Jace smiled against her lips. Slowly they separated.

"Let's put George to bed"

Clary carried a very tired George to bed cradling him in her arms. His eyes where drooping closed as she carefully placed him in his bed. It suddenly dawned on her that if something was to go wrong tonight she might not see her son again. Before she could compose herself a tear slid down her cheek and splashed onto her son's delicate face. She quickly wiped it away not wanting Jace to see her tears. Taking one last look at her son Clary stood up said goodnight to Jace and quietly went back downstairs.

7:20PM

Clary only had 40 minutes before she had to arrive back in New York. Quickly clary changed into her shadowhunters gear. She grabbed some serph blades and daggers and fastened them onto her weapons belt and around her ankles. Knowing that Issabelle was best armed with a whip and Alec with a bow she also grabbed one of each and placed them on the table beside her.

Now it was time for the runes. After taking 3 extra steles and hiding them within the lining of her clothing she began to applied runes. She applied as many runes as she could fit onto her pale skin. Runes of strength, power and health as well as the rune she created to put people to sleep, on to the palm of her hands.

7:35PM

25 minutes to go. Clary wanted to arrive at the institute at exactly the time Cassandra told her too with not a minute to spare. She sat down putting her head in her hands wondering what to do. Guilt hit her. She was about to leave her husband and her son without telling them anything knowing that there was a chance she may not make it through the night alive. Finally, Clary decided that she couldn't leave without at least explaining why so she decided to write two letters.

Dear Jace

If your reading this, then you will have realized that I have gone.

Don't worry it's not permanent hopefully I will be back in a few hours.

I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner but Cassandra gave me another message, she told me that the clave had our family locked up in the institute, torturing them into telling the clave any information they have on us.

She also told me that I had to go to the institute and get them out of the institute by 10pm tonight or they would be sentenced to their deaths. I know I should have told you and normally I would have but Cassandra told me that I had to go alone. And I honestly think that if one of us has to die its better off being me.

Your so much stronger than I am and I know you could protect George much better than I ever could.

It breaks my heart to wright this Jace but this is our only chance of seeing our family alive, I can't give up on them or let them die whilst we stay out in hiding.

I love you Jace with all my heart, I hope you can understand why I'm doing this. I know your probably mad but please if I don't come back make sure you never forget me because even in death I would never forget about you.

All my love,

Clary.

After wiping her tears away clary began to write another letter but this one was too her son.

Dear George, my beautiful baby boy.

You're only a baby right now and won't understand all the things that have happened to us and our family. As I carried you to bed tonight and kissed you goodnight I had no idea whether I will ever get to see you again or if you will be reading this letter.

I'm sure your farther has explained to you what has happened with me and our family, and I hope you know that everything I've done, I've done to protect you.

Words cannot describe a mother's love for her child but my love for you goes beyond any love a regular mother could give.

You may not remember me too well or even at all and the thought of you growing up without me being with you breaks my heart but I hope you can understand that family is the most important gift we are all given and I would do anything to protect our family much like your farther would.

I cannot bear the thought of losing everyone we care about.

You are a beautiful baby boy and you deserve to know the amazing family that you have. I couldn't give up on them knowing you would never get to really know them or have them in your life. As I'm sure your farther would have told you my mother, your nana ran away from my farther and we lived in hiding for years until I discovered I was a shadowhunter. I spent years living with just my mum and although that was brilliant and I do not envy her for it, I have also longed for a family and once I had one I knew I had to protect them no matter what the cost.

George this may seem confusing to you and you may well hate me and think that I just gave up on you and I wouldn't blame you if you did. But I hope that one day you will understand that I love you with every single bone in my body and as your farther once said to me

I love you George Herondale

And I will love you until the day I die

And if there is life after that

I'll love you then.

All my love

Mum.

7:55pm

With only five minutes left Clary neatly folded the letters and placed them on the table. She picked up her stele and finally drew the last rune she had created on to her arm. As the black swirls sunk into her skin clary watched as her body began to disappear. She glanced over at the mirror and couldn't see her own reflection. Normally Clary would smile with success but this was not time for smiling. She stepped other to the table and picked up the bow and the whip clipping them onto her shadowhunter gear. With one final look back Clary created a portal and stepped through taking her back to New York…

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