A/N: This is quite a nice chapter, the next one is another heartbreaker :3 HAPPY LATE BIRTHDAY TO MELLO (13/12) Also, I have another thing to say but I'll do it at the end of this chapter.

~MairaMai

~Matt POV~

I practically moved in with Mello. I couldn't leave him alone, and my parents didn't really mind, especially under those circumstances.

Mello was very distant. Everytime I tried to go near him, touch him, hug or kiss him, he jumped away from me as if I burned him. What hurt the most was the fear and disgust in his eyes, as if touching me was horrible, but after a short while I noticed Mello acted like this towards everyone. No one could touch him. I didn't knew if that was normal, but I decided to give him some time. Mello once told me on skype that he started getting along with his mom really well, her death must have been twice as bad then. He also had nightmares. Every single night since he returned, he'd scream and cry in his sleep, and every single night I got off the couch in the living room and ran over to calm him down. It was very tiring but I'd do anything for Mello. He became good friends with Halle. It did make me jealous but I didn't say anything. I was jealous of everyone, Halle, Valeriya, even people who just looked at him briefly. It wasn't my fault though. I was so scared he'd leave me, Mello could have anyone, literally, and I didn't even knew why he chose me. But he did, and I couldn't be happier.

"I don't think you need to be jealous...", Naomi said as we were heading back home. I asked her to go shopping with me for groceries, unfortunately I wasn't skilled in that field.

"... You just have to look at him to see he needs you, not only for the shopping, but for emotional support", she continued, "Whenever you're not around, Mello gets anxious and really nervous. He needs you around to feel somewhat safe, so I'm sure you have no reason to be jealous. Besides, I believe Mello and Halle get along so well because of their similarities, they're just friends, Halle wouldn't do anything to hurt you either"

"Whoa.. You should be some psychologist or something", I was intrigued. Naomi could always read everyone like an open book, and she was always right, her words calmed me down. We climbed the stairs to the apartament, Naomi opened the doors as my hands were occupied with the groceries and we entered into the kitchen through the living room, where Halle was lying on the couch.

"Where's Mello?", I asked, placing the groceries on the kitchen counter.

"Taking a shower", she replied, looking up at me.

"How long has he been there?"

"About 20 minutes"

"Did you check up on him?"

"He's a big boy, I think he knows how to clean himself, besides you'd choke me if I peeked on him", she smirked, while I rolled my eyes walking over to the bathroom.

"Mels, you okay there?", I called through the door, knocking on them softly. I was always checking up on him, since he still wasn't eating too well. I was just worried he might faint in the shower. Everything is possible.

"I'm not a child", Mello said opening the doors. He had black skinny jeans on and his hair was damp, drops of water falling onto his black t-shirt.

"I didn't say you're a child, I was just-"

"-You were just worried about me, I know", he sighted, then did something he hasn't done in a few weeks. Mello hugged me. I was surprised but hugged him back, pulling him as close to me as I possibly could.

"Awwhhh", Naomi and Halle were standing behind us.

"Stop with the cuteness or I'll throw up", Halle laughed.

"What? You want a hug too?", I spread my arms in her direction.

"Eww don't touch me", she yelped, smile disappearing from her face.

"Come help me with dinner", Naomi said to me laughing.

"Yes mom", I replied. Mello hugging me -even if it was for a short while- gave me energy, a reason, it made me believe that what I do for him does actually make him better. And that's all I want, for him to be happy.

"Hey guys", Halle was looking at get phone, "I just got a text, Light is having a party this weekend, we should go"

"I hate him, but I'd go to a party", Naomi agreed, heading to the kitchen.

"Mello?", I turned around to look at him, "You want to go?"

"I don't mind", he shrugged.

"Great, then we're all going, I'll text B", Halle smiled, not taking her eyes off her phone. I heard her whisper something to Mello but decided to ignore it. Naomi was right, they are good friends and for all I know, she is probably helping him thorough it aswell.

"Why are you smiling so much? It's not like you", Naomi asked Halle while we were eating the pasta.

"I'm just looking forward to the party", she replied.

"Halle is just using this party as an excuse to get Yagamis' dick", Mello said nonchalantly, looking at his plate, while we all stared at him surprised, "What?", he looked up at us, "You all know it's true", Mello looked confused as we all laughed.

"We know but we didn't think anyone would say it out loud", Naomi wiped a single tear escaping her eye.

It was quite late when I drove the girls back to their homes, we don't live far away but I still couldn't have let them walk too late. I came back to the apartament to Mello sitting on the couch eating a chocolate bar. This would've been the usual thing, except that on the floor around him lied about 7 empty, chocolate wrappers.

"Mels, don't you think you should slow down a bit? At this rate you'll get constipated... Or diabetes", I said picking up the wrappers and throwing them in the bin. He didn't say anything so I looked over just to see him sticking his tongue at me. I rolled my eyes, taking out a cigarette and lighting it.

"Matt", Mello glanced at me, when I sat down beside him, "You know my name isn't really Mello, right?"

"Is it not?", I turned in my seat to fully face him.

"Of course not! Who would've called their child Mello?!", he raised his voice.

"Then what is it?", I asked quite amused at his outburst, but really curious.

"I can't tell you. It's a secret"

"What? That's bullshit why would your name be a secret?"

Mello shrugged.

"So you're not gonna tell me?"

He shook his head.

"That's not fair, I told you mine when we met", I put out my cigarette on the ash tray, "Why did you bring it up if you're not going to tell me?"

I was quite surprised at his behavior. Today he spoke more than he did altogether since he came back.

"If one day I'll go missing, don't look for me, and don't ask for Mello", he was giving me a serious look, almost a glare but not quite it, "Promise me, you'll never look for me"

"What? Why would you go missing? What is that supposed to mean?", I couldn't understand what he meant. It was incoherent to me.

"Matt, promise me!"

"I can't promise you that! You should know that if you ever go missing I'll do whatever it takes to find you... Fuck Mels you don't just randomly pop up with that sort of bullshit!", I took out another cigarette, standing up and taking a deep drag of it. I didn't want to yell at him, but I couldn't control myself, "Why would you want me to make such a promise in the first place?"

"I have something I need to do"

"What is it?", I finished my cigarette dropping the butt into the ashtray.

"I've got to do it alone"

I took a deep breath, closing my eyes, turning around, my back facing him. I was wearing a white and red rosary under my strapped shirt, which I took off. I wasn't religious, I didn't believe in anything, but my mom gave me this when I was small and since then it was always around my neck. I've put it over Mello's head, still holding on to it tightly, pulling him closer to me until our foreheads touched.

"I'm here for you, I can help you. Mello I love you", I whispered looking into his eyes, already knowing he tensed up. Mello nodded slightly. I let go of the rosary, letting it fall onto his chest as I pulled him in for a hug. Mello relaxed, hugging me back.

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