Authors Note: I have no excuse except for that life sucks sometimes! But I'm not abandoning this story what so the ever, which leaves me here posting this! Enjoy!! By the way my reviewers are AMAZING!!!! 80 REVIEWS!!!!!!!

IMPORANT! Now that I have your attention I would like to make an announcement. I am looking for someone to beta read this story for me! If you are interested PM me or when you leave a review just let me know! Thank you!!

Disclaimer: I own nothing. =(

"Speaking"

Dream or emphasis

Dream

"Bella?" I turned around in the darkness looking for the person calling my name. Trees suddenly started forming through the darkness around me. I was in a clearing, the grass illuminated by the sun shining brightly over head. "Hello?" I called into the forest. Edward appeared in front of me his skin sparkling like diamonds. Something was wrong with him though, his eyes normally golden colors were now black and his face was deceptively calm. "Edward?" I asked a little puzzled. Edward just stared off into the forest as if he didn't hear me. "Edward?" I heard myself question again. Edward looked into my eyes this time and I flinched, they had turn blood red. Suddenly we were standing on a cliff that overlooked a raging ocean. The bright sun had turned into a roaring storm and lightning illuminated the sky. Edward's eyes where illuminated in the flash of light and I stumbled backwards from him, they had gone pitch black. Suddenly a huge deafening roll of thunder boomed above my head and the heavens opened up pouring down rain. "Goodbye, il mio amore bello."(1) Edward whispered softly before turning and running off the edge of the cliff. "EDWARD!" I screamed out in terror.

I yanked my eyes open and sat straight up, chest heaving as I gasped for breath. EDWARD! I thought panicked. "Bella?" someone asked. "Bella is everything okay?" I looked around the room wildly searching for the speaker. I saw Carlisle clipboard in hand staring at me cautiously. I took me a moment to realize that Carlisle was actually here. "Carlisle!" I half way screamed, "Where's Edward?!" I demanded. Carlisle looked far too calm; didn't he know that Edward just threw himself off a cliff?! "Bella, Edward is at home. The family needed to get something to eat and I sent your mom home to sleep. Edward should be back any minute now." He replied in his best calm doctor mode voice.

I breathed a little slower in relief, "So Edward didn't commit suicide and jump off a cliff?" I asked just to make sure. Carlisle chuckled a bit. "No Bella. It would take more than jumping off a cliff for a vampire to kill themselves, humans got the better end of that deal." Carlisle replied a bit grimly. I frowned in confusion; I had never seen this side of Carlisle before. "What makes you say that?" I asked a little hesitantly, I didn't want to pry. Carlisle smiled to reassure me. "I tried it when I had first been turned. I thought committing suicide would surely be better than killing humans. Vampires cannot drown, for they need no air, poising does not work due to our venom and throwing them off a cliff would do more than tickle a bit." I sat still as a statue absorbing this information.

I sat in the comfortable silence that was broken by the beeping of the many machines in the room and Carlisle's pen gliding over the paperwork on the clip board. Every now and again he would glance over at one of the many machines I was connected to.

The sound of the door opening broke the silence. I looked over at the door to see Edward smiling at me. I smiled back weakly still not completely over the terror my dream had instilled in me. Edward's smile transformed into a frown as he studied my weak smile. "What's wrong?" He asked gently as he walked into the room.

I moved over on the bed and patted the now empty space next to me. He lay down next to me and I cuddled into him laying my head on his chest and listened to the air moving in and out of his lungs. I noticed that Carlisle had left, as I rested my head on his chest. "What's wrong?" he asked again as he softly rubbed one of my arms. "Can you promise me something?" I asked my softly. The hand that was rubbing my arm stopped, and I whined in protest. "That depends." Edward replied.

I frowned. "Please Edward never through yourself off a cliff." I begged him still a little rattled over my dream. Edward chuckled, "No worries love, I am quite durable and falling off a cliff wouldn't hurt me at all." My frown deepened, he had to promise me this. "And Edward don't you ever dare try to kill yourself!" I said firmly. Edward was silent for a while. "I can't promise that Bella. I refuse to live in a world where you don't exist." Edward finally said softly.

I was silent trying to come up the best argument to this. "Would you want me to kill myself if something where to happen to you?" I asked. "No! Absolutely not!" Edward said horrified at even the idea. "Exactly! I don't want you to kill yourself over me! Let's face it Edward, just because this one tumor is almost gone means nothing! I'm not out of the woods yet and I won't be for a while." I said frankly.

I had had to think about death very often seeing as how it was very possible that I could be healthy one minute and the next cold as stone, that's the way it is with cancer. "Don't be silly Bella. You're going to make it out of this just fine." Edward whispered to me as he continued to rub my arm soothingly.

I sighed in frustration and got up off his chest, he wasn't getting it. I leaned on one arm on my side so that I could look at him. "No Edward I am not going to make it through this! I'm not being silly okay. I have been through this before, over and over again and it feels different this time! Edward I feel it! Every single day it's there lingering in the corner of my mind…" I trailed off and looked away from him. He didn't say anything so I continued in a whisper, "It's different this time. I'm going to die. They say that cancer patients always know when it's time and Edward it's here. I don't know how long I have it could be a week or a month but it's not long. So please Edward," I looked at him with tears in my eyes, "Please promise that you won't go and kill yourself."

For a long moment he just looked at me as my tears ran down my face. Before gently gathering me in his arms as he cradled me to his chest. "I promise, love." He whispered softly in my ear as he held me. And then everything overwhelmed me and I cried. As I cried Edward held me whispering sweet nothing in my ear before finally humming a lullaby. Finally warm comforting blackness claimed me.

Authors Note: So there it is! A little short but hey it's done! Now as of when I am posting this story I have 80 reviews (ya'll are AWESOME!!!) but I love my reviews soooo I'm giving you an incentive! For the 90th reviewer I will write you a one shot! It must be a Twilight one shot with Twilight characters and you cannot request anything that will make the rating go above T. Other than that you chose the characters, the situation they're whatever you want! It could be pure Edward Bella fluff or a day in the relationship of Alice and Jasper! I'm open to anything! That's your incentive!!! Now go on and REVIEW!!! You know you want too……

Love,

Kate