Chapter 14

BPOV

I was sitting in my room thinking about everything that has happened. Last night I found out the huge family secret that my ex-boyfriend, my brother and all his friends phase into giant dogs that protect our people from vampires. I also found out that said ex-boyfriend imprinted on me, something only wolves do to find their true soul mate. Strangely enough I am not bothered at all that they turn into giant dogs. It is the fact that Seth is now my soul mate. I had to now drudge up all the hurt memories I had of Seth and I being together and how much I loved him. How much I still love him. I just didn't trust him.

A few minutes later there was a knock at the door. Dad had been fishing with Chief Swan all day and Jake was with Lorina, of course. I lurched myself out of the bed and answered the door and couldn't believe who it was. Leah Clearwater was standing at my door pleading with her eyes for me to let her in. Just when I though today wouldn't be as bad as last night, I was wrong. I had nothing to say to Leah. We hated each other. I am sure she is here to tell me what a loser I am and that Seth deserves better.

"Leah?"

"Hey Bella. Can we talk?"

"What is there to talk about Leah?"

"A lot"

"Come in"

Leah walked into the living room and sat on the couch. I guess she was waiting for me to sit down with her. I sat in the recliner across from her and nodded for her to say what was so important.

"Listen. I know you think I don't like you Bella and that is not true at all."

"Really Leah, cause you have a really crappy way of showing that"

"Bella I have always thought of you as a little sister. Maybe that is why I tortured you so much. The last four years have been hell on Seth. He just started getting out of bed when you came back."

"And you think they weren't hard for me? Do you know the things that were going through my head that day? Do you have any idea how it feels to think you were used? Of course not, cause Paul is your imprint and you know he loves you no matter what"

"Seth didn't use you Bella. He loved you so much back then and now it is just proof that you guys were meant to be. He imprinted on you and now you are hurting him again."

"I'm hurting him? Are you serious?"

"By not accepting the imprint. He is physically in pain. He told you that last night. How do you not feel it?"

"Leah I know Seth is your brother and you love him. I understand why you are here trying to get me to see how this works, but how can I give myself to him for eternity when I cant trust him. It took me four years to forgive Jake and he is my brother."

"Bella I can understand that you don't trust him. It was awful how things happened, but it wasn't his fault. Please don't blame him"

"So who should I blame?"

"There is no one to blame Bella. It just happened."

Just then there was another knock at the door and when I answered it Sam was standing at my front door with Quil and Embry. Was this gang up on Bella day or something?

"I suppose you morons are here to defend Seth too?"

"Bella" Embry said. "I know we have never been close, but my brother is hurting. You are being selfish. Shit happens. Get over it and accept the damn imprint"

"Wow Embry. I didn't know you cared! Asshole!" Leah shouted at him

"I want everyone out now. This is between Seth and I. I realize he is your brother, but we need to figure this out. And Sam, you have a lot of damn nerve showing your face here. It is your fucking gag order that took Seth away."

Sam looked at me like in shock. He was not my alpha and I didn't owe him anything.

"Bella, I did it for your safety. I didn't want Seth to live with the guilt I feel everyday."

"What the fuck are you talking about?"

"You have seen Emily's face Bella? Do not pretend you don't know."

"Emily got mauled by a b….." Holy shit! "You did that to Emily?"

"Yes and now I have to live with hurting her. That is why I keep all the guys away from everyone for a few weeks. They have to learn to control the phasing. Emily and I were fighting, I got mad, she was too close when I phased and I scarred her beautiful face for life. I didn't tell Seth to stay away to hurt you. I was trying to prevent him from hurting you. If I had known he was going to imprint on you I would have never ordered him to stay away, except for the first two weeks."

"I understand why you did it Sam, but that doesn't make it any better. Now please I want some time to think. Thank you all for coming and caring about Seth as much as you do, but I need to decide what I am doing."

"Bella please don't leave again. We couldn't take it" Quil told me. He seemed sincere. Quil was always the nicer one of him and Embry.

"I am not promising anything guys. All I can say is I will think about it. If it makes any of you feel any better I do love Seth. I never stopped, but love isn't always enough."

"You're wrong Bells" Leah chimed in. "It is always enough"

They all waved goodbye and headed out the door. I was more confused now than I was before they came over. Of course I loved Seth. How could you not love him. He was sweet, caring, loving…The list goes on and on, but he still hurt me. His fault or not. That was what I needed to get past. Could I? I knew I could if I tried to. But did I want to. It would easier to just go on with my life, but in reality I did feel the pain of not being with Seth. Just when I was about to make dinner and relax for the night there was yet another knock on the door.

"Can't you assholes just leave me be?" I screamed as I went to open the door. I felt like an ass immediately as I saw Seth standing in the door way. SHIT!

"Have a lot of visitors today Bella?"

"You didn't know?"

"No"

"Well let's see. Leah, Sam, Quil and Embry were here telling me how selfish I was being and that I was hurting you."

"Fuck! I told Leah to stay out of it. I'm sorry I didn't know they would come here. You are not selfish"

"Aren't I though? I was told you were in physical pain."

"Don't worry about them Bella. I am fine"

:"Why are you here Seth?"

"To talk. To explain. To beg"

He moved his large, muscular, hot body further in the door way causing me to back up enough for him to close the door. Invite yourself in much?

"Seth"

"No let me explain something. Sit down…..please?"

"Fine"

"There was this girl when I was younger and she was a rotten spoiled brat that always got her way. She would put sand down my pants if I pissed her off, hit me in the head, pull my hair and steal my cookies. She was mean to me, but she was my best friend. I knew from the time I was six years old that I loved her and she would be my wife one day. As we got older our friendship grew and she was the only one I could tell everything to. She never laughed at me, she stuck up for me if the guys gave me a hard time for being friends with a girl, she even kissed me by the rocks when we were fishing after she caught a boot. Eventually she graced me with the pleasure of becoming my girlfriend. I was the luckiest guy at school cause the prettiest girl liked me as much as I liked her. We got closer and closer as the years went by and I completely and totally fell in love with her. Then fate came in and fucked it all up. Not only did fate take one of each of our parents, but it made me the monster I am today. The best of my life was ruined because someone thought it would be funny to make me a wolf. You see this girl gave me the most precious thing she could have ever given me…..herself and it was beautiful and meaningful and life changing. My heart was forever hers and it all had to be fucked up. Now I believe fate is trying to make up for things because this girl is now officially made for me. She is my soul mate, my life…..my everything. Do you know who that girl is?" He asked and I nodded.

I could barely contain the tears that were coming down my face. Of course I knew it was me, but I never knew his feelings were that strong. I have loved Seth for as long as I can remember. He was the only constant thing in my life. The one I knew I could always depend on.

"So Bella you see that girl who changed my world for the better hates me now and I need to know what I have to do to change that cause I cant live without her."

"It's not that easy Seth. I cant just turn off the hurt and pretend that things are ok. My body is telling me to go with it, but my heart is protesting. Telling me to forget fate and just run. I want to Seth. I want to run and never look back, but I know I love you and my body just wont let my mind take over."

"You cant leave Bella. I wont let you"

"You wont let me? You cant tell me what I can or cant do. You don't own me."

"Do you have to make everything so damn difficult Bella. Why cant you just give me a chance."

"I gave you a chance and you broke my heart"

"That wasn't my fucking fault Bella. You are so thick sometimes."

"Is this your way of charming back into my arms Seth, cause flattery will get you no where."

I swear I heard him growl and the next thing I knew he had picked me up and slammed by back against the wall forcing his lips to meet mine. I was so pissed at him right now, but extremely turned on at the same time.. I couldn't help but tug on his hair as he licked my lower lip with his tongue. He squeezed my hips hard enough to cause me to gasp just enough for him to slip his tongue in my mouth. Sneaky little asshole. I tried to move my head away to stop him from kissing me, but he just pushed me harder against the wall and secured my head from moving by placing one of his hands around the back of my neck.

He stopped long enough for me to catch my breath and grabbed my hair and pulled my head back to give him access to my neck. He placed rough open mouth kisses all over my neck moving down to my collarbone as I felt the pool in between my legs begin to form.

"Ugh Bella you smell so fucking good. I can smell how bad you want me!" He could smell me? I saw my opportunity to try to escape when he started talking to me, but he yanked my hair again and pushed me back towards the wall. He shoved his knee in between my thighs so I couldn't move as he removed his shirt and threw it on the floor. I couldn't help but stare and his gorgeous chest. Seth was truly a fine specimen of a man. Every muscle in his chest was chiseled to perfection. His pants hung dangerously low on his hips just slightly revealing that luscious V that led to his manhood. I couldn't help but keep my eyes on him.

"See something you like Bella?" Who was this cocky confident man that stood in the place of the shy boy I once knew. As much as I tried to deny it my pussy was aching for him to touch it. This rougher side of Seth was sexier than anything I have ever seen. I was still trying to fight him though. I didn't want to give in but my body was not cooperating. Seth slammed by hands against the wall and assaulted my neck once again. He knew I was at his mercy and he was taking full advantage of the situation.

He let up a little and whispered to me not to move as he grazed my earlobe with his teeth. With one swift movement he ripped my shirt off of my body with my bra quickly following. Shit I liked that bra, but I couldn't be concerned with that now. The last time Seth and I did anything it was dark and he couldn't see me, but here I was totally exposed. I tried to cover up and he growled at me.

"Don't you dare cover those beautiful tits." he half growled and half moaned. He leant his head down and pushed my back against the wall and grabbed one of my nipples in his mouth and I moaned. I was trying so hard to hide my enjoyment. I was sadly defeated as he bit and sucked on my nipples. Seth kneaded roughly against my sides, still sucking my nipples as he tore my shorts off. He slipped his finger down and rubbed my clit through my panties. I was coming undone under his hands and I could feel him smile as he moved further down my body knowing he was winning. His kissing become more passionate and less rough as he moved down and knelt in front of me. He ran his nose against my soaking wet panties and inhaled my scent moaning as he realized how wet I was for him.

"You are so fucking wet Bella. It is intoxicating. I cant wait to taste you again. I missed the taste of you on my lips."

He swirled his tongue in my navel and tore my panties off. Completely and totally naked I felt self conscious but loved at the same time. There was no doubt how much Seth loved me. I was his and he was mine forever. If I could just convince my heart.

I was in the air with my legs wrapped over his shoulders before I could process it. I had absolutely no time to think. Seth knew if he gave me a minute I would bolt. I was now straddling his face sitting on his shoulders as he pressed his tongue roughly on my clit. I had missed his touch more than I knew and his tongue was now hitting every single nerve. Thank goodness Seth was tall enough where I could place my hands on the ceiling to brace myself. I moaned his name involuntarily as he circle my clit. He flattened his tongue and began licking my the bottom of my slit up to my clit and back. He grabbed me tighter and started sucking my clit sending me into overdrive. I knew I didn't have much longer before I released all over his face. He leant against the wall giving us a little separation and slipped his finger inside of me hitting that spot immediately. That was all it took. With one flick of my clit I came all over his face as he licked me clean as I rode out the remainder of my orgasm.

He placed me on the floor and secured me with one hand as he wiped his face with the other.

"You are just as delicious as I remember. It is taking everything I have not to cum right now just thinking about my cock being inside of you."

And that is exactly what he did. He slammed me against the wall again and grasped my thighs hard. I knew this was going to hurt. I hadn't been with anyone since I lost my virginity to Seth. I tried to return the favor first and suck his cock but he pushed me back against the wall again and lifted me so he could slide himself into my pussy. He was gentle at first letting me adjust to his size again. When he was convinced I was ready he brought his cock all the way out so that just the tip was inside of me and grabbed my hips slamming me down on his cock. I couldn't help but grunt as he continued to slam in and out of me. He was so rough with me it was almost angry. I mean we had been fighting before we started this. I knew he was frustrated. I was too.

I could tell he was getting close but he was holding back waiting for me to reach my climax. He spun me around moved me towards the table and bent me over the nearest dining room chair. Once he was situated he entered me again slamming inside of me hard. He reached around me and started rubbing my clit. I was so close I could feel my insides burning.

"Scream my name, Bella. I want to hear you."

He pressed hard against my clit and I lost it.

"Oh God Seth. That feels so fucking good. Holy shit!"

He kissed the back of my neck as he felt me clench around his cock cumming hard and fast. Just as I was finishing riding out my orgasm Seth came inside of me screaming my name.

"I love you so much, Bella"

"I love you too Seth"

"Can we make this work baby please? Please I need you."

"Yes Seth." I breathed as he pulled out of me and turned me around and placed his head in the crook of my neck. I could feel his tears hitting my skin as he continued telling me he loved me and I knew I had forgiven him. I had accepted the imprint.