Chapter 12: Renesmee's POV

It was later that night, after had all hung out that sleep began to take its toll on me and I was in bed, sobbing. I was crying. I did this every night, letting out my emotions when I couldn't really do so around my brothers. As I was wiping my eyes with a corner of my blanket, my father walked in. "Honey? Are you alright?" I just sobbed even louder. Dad walked closer to me and climbed onto the bed, on top of the blankets, holding me to him. I had yearned for this, for so long I had yearned for this chance to be in his arms, to feel his love. Now that I was feeling it, I never wanted to let it go. "Would you like to talk about it? You can talk to me about anything, I'll listen."

"I just... I don't understand why someone like my mother, someone who had so much to live for, was forced against her will to stop surviving. She was my best friend, she was the person who were there for me, always and now that she's not here I don't know how to respond. Please, dad, why did they take away someone like her. She was a selfless woman, someone who would die just to save someone else, so why was she someone that had to suffer so horribly?" I cried violently in his chest.

"I don't know sweetheart. I'm so sorry you lost her, and I'm sorry I wasn't there when I should have been. I don't understand it either, but I promise you that I will never leave you, ever. I'm here and always will be here. I miss her as well and I feel like such a horrible man for not knowing that something wasn't okay. I'm so sorry sweetheart." He said, sad, but reserved. Was he trying to hold himself together in front of me? His answer to my venting had calmed me slightly and I was breathing at a more normal pace.

It wasn't until my father began to hum a lullaby for me, a graceful and beautiful lullaby, that I had fallen asleep into a long needed rest. Finally it was happening, I was in daddy's arms and I felt safe. It wasn't until the next morning, that someone began thinking of something that had woken me. I hadn't given anyone the knowledge that I was awake and I kept my heart at a steady pace, making me seem to be asleep to others.

Bella, I'm so sorry. I really am... I wish I could have been there, if only I hadn't left in the first place you would be here right now, a vampire, all of us being able to be finally be a family, but of course I screwed it all up. I know that you said I wasn't to blame myself, but I can't help but feel that your death was my fault. I put you through so much sadness, heartbreak, and pain. I am a horrible excuse for a man. I could have stayed behind, managed to hold on longer than I had. I could have never left. I could have been there for our babies, and for you! I'm greatly ashamed of myself, of my actions. I... I miss you! I wish you were here. I miss your smile, your love, your kindness, your blush, your heart, and just you. I miss being able to talk with you, being able to express my love with you, being able to just kiss you or just hold you against my as you slept. If only I hadn't been a coward, I could have been there when you most needed me and we could be a family, but of course... I let my worries get ahead of me and I left you alone suffering. I don't know if I can ever forgive myself, but I will promise you I will never ever leave their sides, unless it's said in fate that we all die together. Bella love, do you hear me? Can you see me? I know this may sound odd, but I feel you, as if you are in this room right now, I can only hope that that's true. I will pray to you everyday, that's a promise.

I sniffed the air, smelling venom. Since vampires weren't exactly alive their venom replaced the water needed for their eyes as well as their mouth and things like that, but the venom wasn't concentrated at all so it was just like saliva or whatever. I wanted to cry with him, to hold him and tell him that I could feel mom's presence here as well. I wanted to tell him that everything would be okay, but I didn't know how to make him feel better. I mean, I wasn't mom... he clearly loved her and I couldn't ever imagine the feeling of losing someone that you care for deeply. If I were to lose Jake, I would break down, just as bad as he was. Mom was a wonderful woman to us, so I could only imagine what she was like with dad before we existed. I could hear his very very very quite dry sobbing and I began to cry a little, but I held back the tears. Instead, I turned in my sleep, moving closer to my dad's chest. He was very cold in temperature, but his embrace was one of the warmest I had ever felt. The true paternal embrace.

Eventually I knew I had to make him awake of the fact that I was in fact awake. It was then that I opened my eyes slowly, stretching slowly, yawning. I heard my dad's chuckle as he patted my head. "Did you sleep well sweetheart?" I smiled and nodded.

"A lot better than usual." I didn't want to mention the fact that Jake would hold me as I slept, didn't want to make the fact that I was dating someone to be more awkward than usual. It would just cause dad to dislike Jacob more than he already did. I don't think he disliked him so much because he had had a thing for mom years ago, but because he had imprinted on me, his only daughter. I can only imagine how the day when I marry Jacob and have children of my own one day with him will be like. Dad might find a way for vampires to actually get high blood pressure.

"Well, that's good. Good Morning!" He chuckled as I hugged him. It was time to get out of the bed though, because I could smell breakfast. I laughed, flying over him as I reached the door. "Hungry for human food?" I nodded happily.

"Oh yes, it smells like Turkey Bacon, my favorite!" I cheered. I looked at the clock to see that it was forty-five passed eleven. I was shocked, I had never ever slept that long before. I stood there wide-eyed momentarily before I heard my brothers talking.

"THIS FOOD IS AMAZING! THANKS SO MUCH GRANDMA!" I smiled, becoming more hungry by the second. I didn't want to take the time to walk so I used my speed to get to the kitchen, sadly my clumsiness played a joke on me and I didn't stop in time. Instead I took out a section of the counter and nearly crashed into the window, thank god dad was there to catch me. I blushed, embarrassed.

"Sorry... about the counter." I said, grabbing the piece of granite. I scratched my head and pulled a tube of extreme super glue from my pocket. I had bought this years ago seeing as I had inherited mom's trait of being clumsy. When I wasn't careful I would accidentally break something, not even attempting to. I slathered a bunch of glue onto the piece and put it on the table, holding it there until I was sure it wouldn't fall off. I put the lid back on the glue and put it back, looking up at my grandmother.

"Oh don't worry honey." She said, giggling to herself. "Thanks for fixing the counter though." I nodded and sat down at the breakfast bar with my siblings, where a plate for me sat. I didn't hesitate and I dug into my food. It was so delicious that I couldn't help but to lick my lips. The bacon was so delicious, having no fat in it whatsoever. I smiled and looked at my grandmother.

"Thank you, very much grandma." The look on her face was so priceless. It wasn't a funny priceless, but one that would show a human how much love she held within her. She smiled and nodded. I turned to look at my dad, as did my siblings. "Dad... to be honest... I was awake for a while before I showed you that I was... um, Are you saddened? By us being here? Do we only cause you pain because we remind you of her?" My father's face was shocked, but then very reserved. He took in a deep breath and shook his head.

"I am not saddened that you are here. Yes, I am very sad that the woman I have ever loved in my one hundred and twenty-five years is gone, but never in my life would I not want you or your brothers to be here." He said. He walked closer to me, placing a paternal kiss on the crowd on my head. "Now that I have you three, now that I know you exist, I will never let you go... even if that means when you all marry we all live together. We'll add rooms." He said, a chuckle in his voice. I smiled and hugged him. "And though your mother is gone... though I miss her so very much... I couldn't have asked for anything better than this. I'm glad to know I have you and your brothers. I'll never let you go, I promise. You just promise to stay with me? I don't want to lose my family again."

"I promise." My brothers and I said together, hugging our father. Everyone else in the family stood there in the room now, awed by our family interaction. Afterwards, we all moved to the living room where my brothers and Uncle Jasper began playing Skyrim. I was overloaded with happiness. "Could I play as well? Jasper looked at me, shocked, but he handed me the controller, telling me to make an account since my brothers had already done so the night before. I was happy here, acting like a normal family with my completely un-normal family.

As I played, I remembered how much of a beast I was when it came to playing Skyrim. My brothers were just as good as I was. I was chopping people heads off and going ultimate attacks amazingly. Once I was done playing, my uncle Jasper turned and looked at me and my siblings. "Wow! Man, Edward, you're kids are awesome." My brothers and I smirked, giving each other a group fist bump.

To Be Continued...

Hey! Sorry for the wait... I've been busy with daily life things and had no time, but I hope this is an okay chapter to hold you over until the next chapter ;)