Three days went by before Amy and Scully had decided to head back home. It only took three days for Amy and Scully to talk out their differences. Amy would be moving back home to help out Scully through her recovery time and to recover lost time with her. They had found it incredibly easy to talk to each other, which left both of them wondering why they hadn't done so sooner.
The morning after Amy had arrived at Washington D.C., Mulder had dropped by to see how Scully was doing, and Amy ended up convincing him to take them out to that dinner he had taken her to months before. Him and Scully's diner.
"Mulder, you know how hard it's going to be to get me *into* the dinner?" Scully said in the car while they were on their way.
He chuckled, "probably twice as hard as it was to get you into the car." He gave her a quick smile before returning his eyes on the road. Amy smiled at the interaction, hoping and wishing.
"Mom, it'll do you some good, fresh air is good." Amy told her as she patted her shoulder from the backseat.
Once inside the diner, and after 20 minutes of attempting to bring Scully out of the car unharmed, they placed their orders and were now sitting in a table sharing an uncomfortable silence.
"This is weird." Scully said looking at her hands, "I'm sorry, I just….I just feel weird about sharing a meal with the both of you. After all that's happened. I never thought that I'd be sitting here 2 weeks ago, never in a million years." She said smiling at the both of them. It was at this moment that Amy realized just exactly how much she had hurt her mother, and she knew that this hurt would not go away so easily nor would it go fast either. "I've had a lot of time think, about the two of you, and I want to take this opportunity to apologize to the both of you for what I took from you both. It has tremendously hurt me and I cannot imagine how much it hurts the two of you to know you missed out on two decades of life with each other; and for that I'm truly sorry. I just wanted to make it official. That's all."
The waitress returned with their food before either Mulder or Amy could react to Scully's short monologue.
Once the waitress was gone and they were settled attempting to eat their food, it was Mulder's turn to talk. "Amy, I want to say that it is not just your mom's fault that things happened the way they did." He began, he saw Scully begin to open her mouth to say something, but he signaled her with his hand to let him speak. "Amy, did your mother happen to tell you what made her decide to move to Texas? Or why she didn't get a chance to tell me that she was expecting you?" He asked Amy determined to get everything up in the air.
"Mulder…." Scully began, "We don't have to do this, there's no reason to, let's just move on."
"No, Dana," he called her Dana, geez, he was serious, "it has to be done, we are both at fault here."
"Dad, just continue, I think we all need to talk about this. I want to know, I think I deserve to know, everything. Don't you think so, mom?" She asked.
Scully managed to nod, and thought about how the food that was now in front of them was probably not going to be eaten, and if it was, probably not enjoyed.
"Dana, er, your mother, was going through a rough time after your cousin Lucy died," Amy nodded, Scully noticed it was raining outside and remembered what Lucy told her that day at the hospital think of me with the rain she felt tears well up in her eyes, but she would not let them fall. "Your mother and I had been, well, intimate, right before Lucy passed. Then Lucy passed away, and your mom took it hard," Amy looked at her mother who had taken a great interest in her napkin, tears flowing freely from her eyes, she used the napkin to wipe her tears. "She went into a deep depression and she was finding it hard to get out, and I was having a hard time helping her get out of it. I stopped going over to check on her, stopped calling, I loved her with all my heart, but I was so angry that she was so sad and I couldn't do anything. Well, the day she came over to let me know she was expecting a child, I didn't even let her into my apartment because I was busy with a blonde, if you know what I mean. She of course, knew this and was devastated, and I knew this, but I tried to ignore it at the time. It had only been a couple of months since she and I had been intimate with each other, and here I was with another woman. I cant imagine the pain you felt Dana," there was the use of her first name again, "and I never apologized for that, so I'm very sorry. Anyway, I figured, like an asshole of a man, that I would fix things between your mom and I, later, after I'd had my fun. But before I realized it, she was just gone. No one told me she was leaving, and if they did I wasn't listening, my mind was elsewhere. I went looking for her some time later, and I saw the both of you, out in the yard, and I assumed that she had found what she had always yearned for: a caring husband, and loving children. So I didn't bother, I wanted her to have the life she wanted. Some time later after that I received some emails from her, and I figured she wanted to catch up or tell me about her life, and I was not wanting to learn about her new family, and the man that I felt had taken my place. So without reading them I deleted them. I just recently learned that she wanted to try and tell me again about your existence, and for the 2nd time I rejected her in that aspect. So you should not be placing all the blame on your mom, she did all she could with what she had, and she still raised you amazingly. I'm so thankful for her having raised you. She may have made the right decision by taking you away from me for a long time. I don't think I would've made the best father back then."
"Mulder, stop, don't say things like that." Scully stopped him.
"All of this information would've been helpful when I was pissed off at mom." Amy said.
"I wanted for you and your mom to fix things your own way, I didn't want to get in the middle, I didn't know what you knew and what she wanted you to know, so I didn't want to screw things up even further. I think I let it go on way too long though."
Before she could react, Scully started to speak, "Now, Amy, you wanted to know the truth, and the truth is not something that is enjoyable, or nice, sometimes the truth hurts, but you wanted to know it. We, as adults made some incredible mistakes, and for that many people had to pay, and I'm sorry that you're suffering from our mistakes. If I could take it back, I would, but it's a little too late now, all we can do is deal with what we're handed today. WE, you and I, have gone through a lot these past few months, and you are NOT about to do the same with your father. Enough time has been lost between the two of you. Forgive and forget, that is all that can be done." Scully said staring deeply into her daughters eyes and reading her mind. Amy's facial expression relaxed and she looked down at her hands.
"I'm sorry, I'm just having an incredibly hard time processing all of this. I don't mean to react in the way that I have, I'm just trying my best to deal with all of this. As of a few months ago, I didn't have a father, and I didn't wonder why I didn't, or why he would leave me, or why he didn't want me. I didn't ask myself those questions. Now, that is all I do, I wondered whether, You" s he looked at Mulder, "knew about me and maybe were pretending you didn't all along, there was no way my mom would just keep a big secret without a reason. I guess all I'm trying to say, is that I kind of sort of understand you guys, and why everything happened the way it did." She said then preceded to grab her fork and take a stab at her food and began eating. That single sentiment meant everything to Mulder and Scully. She had forgiven them. They sat in that dinner for hours and spoke of everything and nothing at the same time. To the stranger, they seemed to be a normal family, but for those who knew they were a group of family who had just become a family.
