Warning!!!!!!!!!!!! NC-17 not the best but still NC-17!!!!!!!!

I felt the pain of my wounds as I slide my hands over her back trying to unhook her bra. She was grabbing the back of my shirt trying to pull it off. I started kissing her harder feeling the sensation of lust in between my legs. I meet her tongue sucking it in, biting her bottom lip. I could hear her moaning and feel her breathing heavily in my arms.

I finally got the bra off of her which might I add wasn't easy. I let out a sound of pain when I untangled my hand from her shirt. She noticed but I quickly changed her train of thought, by pushing my hands onto her breast.

I grabbed the hem of her shirt and pulled it up onto her arms letting her finish taking it off, while I made my way down taking one of breast into my mouth. I heard her moan when she felt my mouth wrapped around her and my tongue flicking her nipple. I pulled off her breast making my way up her neck kissing every inch of it. I bit on her ear letting my breath fill her making her wiggle underneath me.

I meet her lips again; she quickly put her tongue in my mouth fighting with mine for dominance. When I pulled away her body lifted to follow me. I smiled at her shaking my head, as I made my way back down her front by kissing her all the way down stopping at her stomach kissing all around her bellybutton.

I heard what sounded like a whimper come from her. I looked up to meet tear filled eyes staring back at me. I put my head back down bringing my hands down to her sides caressing them as I kissed her belly.

I was a loss of words I had so many emotions going through my body. She had a baby inside her she wasn't showing now she wouldn't be it's to early. But I could still feel a change in her.

I slide back up her body my eyes meeting hers again only for a second as I picked her up. Her legs wrapped around my waist, and she threw her arms around my neck hiding her face from me. I knew she was crying I felt her shaking.

I carried her upstairs not wanting her to have to lie on the hard kitchen floor anymore. I must have come out of my anger because all I felt now was love. Love for my wife and this baby she is carrying. I don't know how I would feel later or tomorrow but I didn't seem to care.

I laid her down on the bed crawling on top of her straddling her waist. I placed my hands on the side of her stomach rubbing up and down. We were locked in a gaze her eyes showed me lust and sadness all at the same time. I leaned down so my lips tuched hers, I was slow and gentle with my actions. She moaned and pushed her lips hard into mine, making me moan into her mouth.

I slide my hands down her belly, while I kissed her breast taking it in my mouth caressing it with my tongue. My hand played with the hem of her pants I could feel her arching into me wanting more. I left her breast to make my way dow to her stomach as my hand slide into her pants. I could feel she had no under wear on. I looked back up at her andh she had a smile on her face.

"Jeez Spence did you have this planned" I asked smiling up at her still moving my hand to the folds of her clit making sure to slowly drag my fingers up her starting from the bottom up to her mound.

"Oh God Ashh!" she was trying to talk but I stared rubbing her moving my fingers in a circular motion. She started to writhe under my body, I seen that she needed me. I travel my lips back up to meet hers she kissed my softly at first until she felt my finger tempting its way into her.

"Ashley Please!" she moaned into me before she started to kiss me harder. I came into a rhythm my fingers slowly pumping in and out of her sometimes slipping out to rub over her clit.

She would stop kissing me every once in a while just slowly breathing into my mouth making little noises. Her mouth was partly opened when I looked at her to see what expression she had on her face. She was in pure pleasure I stretched up biting her lower lip that hung there, causing her to rock into me.

"Spence?" I whispered to her so she would look down at me, and when she did I could see she was close. I kissed her hard adjusting my body before I slide her pants off. I stood above her watching her bite on her lower lip craving for me to touch her again. I grabbed her leg putting it up on my shoulder, running my hands along the side of them feeling her skin.

I got down on my knees and nestled in between her legs. I started kissing her thighs making her moan for me. I what she wanted I didn't want to make her suffer! I started by kissing the inside of her leg slowly opening her with my hand. I felt her body trying to rise to meet me half way but I only backed up blowing cool air onto her clit.

"Ashley stop and just… "I think she liked the sensation of my tongue on her flicking at her clit sucking on it, cause she stopped talking mid sentence. She began to rock into my face wanting more of me to be inside her. I stuck two fingers in her letting her gain rhythm on them before I went back to her. I felt she was close as I slipped my fingers out of her sliding my tongue down into her letting her ride it out.

As she came I felt her begin to shake humming sweet little noises. I crawled back up her taking her into a kiss.

"Ash" she moaned

"Yeah I'm right here" I said watching her try to gain her composure

"I think I'm gonna be sick" she said getting up from the bed and running to the bathroom.

"Spence shit" I said getting up to go follow her.

Success is how high you bounce when you hit bottom, I think I have finally hit my bottom, not only in my career but in my life with Spencer. I know it will get harder but this is my test. Can I not only be here for Spencer to lean on and love but can I be here for a baby that will love me unconditional through all my faults and forgive me just as Spencer does every day. That will be my test along with handling all these hormones and bithcy Spencer.

"I'm here babe right here!" I said rubbing her back while I hold her hair.