Chapter 14
When everyone turned around, they saw four men running their way, all with black hair and black eyes, with fire in their hands.
Aoi and the other water users looked at the fire users. "It are the ones that escaped! Get them!" Aoi yelled as he and his group now started attacking the fire users that came running up to them.
But now, another figure jumped out of the trees, with black, ruffled long hair, fierce red eyes.. spitting fire out of his mouth. The water users now jumped back a little, but couldn't help but being caught in the fire that came from the fire user's mouth.
Sasuke looked at the man that used the level four of fire magic. He knew perfectly well who it was. Someone of who he had thought he would never see again. His brother. Uchiha Itachi.
"Who are you guys!?" Sasori yelled to the fire users.
Itachi came running towards them now, towards Sasuke.
"Don't worry, we're on your side." He called to Sasori now. "I first need to help my brother." He then sat down next to Sasuke, and hugged him close. Damn. He had to stop himself from bursting out into crying now. He didn't knew what to say, while he let warmth go into Sasuke's body. He slightly set Sasuke's body on fire, but not in a way that he hurt him.
Sasuke felt his muscles slowly getting worked up again. But he didn't even care. His brother was here.
"...I thought you were dead.." Sasuke said, almost whispering.
"..I thought 'you' were dead.." Itachi softly said, as he stroke over Sasuke's back. "God I'm so happy you're still alive.. When I heard from that water user that you were alive, I immediately did all I could to escape, and I succeeded."
"..Why didn't you escape earlier? You're on level four..." Sasuke said as he hands started to move and his legs too. "I missed you so much all those years.."
"I didn't know where to go and at the mountains I was with other fire users.." Itachi softly said. He kept warming Sasuke. "..And I'm not on level four Sasuke. I'm at level five." He released Sasuke now, and slightly smirked at him. "Let's go beat the crap out of these guys."
Sasuke looked at Itachi and moved his shoulders and neck a bit, then stretched. "Since when does level five exist?" He asked as he got up. He could move again. And he would certainly beat the crap out of every single one of those fire users. But one in particular.
Itachi stood and pulled Sasuke up, while the water users were healing themselves.
"You'll see." Itachi said. "I can see you want to kill one of them very badly, am I right? You go for that guy and I'll take care of the rest."
"I do. The one with the green hair. He killed my boyfriend and raped someone I care deeply about." Sasuke snapped and then focused fire in his hand. He looked at it and smirked. Oh he was back.
"Alright." Itachi said with a smirk and then walked forwards. "Everyone get back!" He yelled at the elite team, and they all walked back, a bit frightened by this fire user. Itachi then let out a yell and pushed his hands down onto the earth, which caused the earth to split. A huge split was now heading towards the water users and then, when it reached them, tore the earth apart. It separated Aoi from the rest. And to the shock of the other water users, a loud bang was to be heard now and before anyone could wonder what was going on an enormous amount of lava came erupting out of the earth, towards the water users.
Sasuke looked at his brother amazed, but he would ask about it later. Sasuke jumped up and then ran to Aoi, started to shoot fire towards him.
"You will pay for what you did!" He yelled furious. Aoi would die. Painfully and slowly. For Haku and for Neji.
While the water users screamed in pain and terror, Aoi send a wave of water towards Sasuke.
"What did I do wrong?" He asked at a mocking tone.
Sasuke didn't respond to Aoi as he easily avoided the water, jumping over it and then shooting giant balls of fire towards Aoi, one even bigger then the other. He would kill Aoi for sure.
Aoi now tried to avoid the fire balls, and succeeded in destroying two of them with his water, because he got hit by one of the fireballs. He let out a scream of pain and tried to get the fire off him, by moving water around him.
But before he could try any of it, Sasuke kicked Aoi away, smashing right through the water. He then spread his arms and let fire cross his arms. It turned from read to blue, the hottest fire there can be. Sasuke then grabbed Aoi by the face with one arm burning his face. "That's for Neji!" Sasuke yelled.
Aoi let out a scream as his face was burned and torn. Everything in his face was being destroyed now.
Sasuke then used his other hand to burn right through Aoi's stomach, slowly burning all his intestines. He looked at Aoi furious. "And that one's for Haku." He snapped bitter.
Aoi now let out a few screams, but it didn't took long. Within a few seconds, his body was burning and Aoi was dead. Just like the other water users. A deadly silence followed now.
Sasuke looked at Aoi, still furious and then threw him away into the lava that Itachi had created. He would not have a funeral or anyone to mourn for him. Sasuke just stared at the magma now. At least this was over. He had taken his revenge for Haku.
Itachi now placed his hands onto the earth again and let the lava take the bodies with it, and let it flow back into the earth again.
Sasuke looked at the earth which closed as well. He then looked at Itachi and ran over to him, launching himself into Itachi's arms. He had wanted to do that for ten years now.
Itachi hugged Sasuke back, as he closed his eyes, holding him close. God he'd missed Sasuke so much.
"..Don't ever leave me again.." Sasuke said as he held onto Itachi for dear life. The rest of the team came walking towards them now.
"..So. This is Uchiha Itachi then? Your brother Sasuke?" Sasori asked, although he knew the answer.
Itachi kissed Sasuke onto his head now.
"I won't leave you anymore Sasuke." He said, and then looked at Sasori. "And yes, I am."
"Well nice to meet you." Sasori said. "And thanks for saving us sir." Lee added.
"It's fine." Itachi said, nodding to them all.
Sasuke was still holding onto Itachi like a small child. "Which water user told you I was still alive?" He asked Itachi. The only one it could be, was Neji. But then why wasn't he here?
"It was a young water user with white eyes and long brown hair." Itachi said, as he stroke through Sasuke's hair.
"..Neji. So why isn't he here?" Shikamaru asked Itachi. Something probably happened to him.
"That green haired guy came and took him with him." Itachi answered. "I don't know what happened to him after that."
"He'd better be OK." Sasuke snapped. If Aoi had killed Neji too...then he really wasn't sure what he should do.
"So what do we do then?" Lee asked.
"..Perhaps we should go search Neji?" Kiba asked.
"I think that would be a good idea, if we knew he was still alive. We might be looking for nothing." Sasori said.
"True." Kiba said, frowning. Then all of a sudden, they heard the splashing of water and when they turned around to the river which was near them, they could see someone racing towards them in the distance. Kiba sweat dropped.
"That could be Neji." He said.
"Or another enemy." Shikamaru said. "Although it does move like Neji." He added.
Everyone nodded and then the figure got closer. It was indeed Neji. He then came walking towards them, looking confused.
"What happened here?" He asked.
"We killed Aoi and those other water users." Sasuke said. "Or rather...Itachi did." He smiled at his brother now, still holding onto him a little.
"Good." Neji said, smiling a little, but then his smile faded. "Sasuke.. I'm so sorry for you about what happened to Haku.."
Sasuke's smile faded too. "..That's OK." He said, hiding his eyes behind his hair a little. He didn't wanna be weak about it again.
"Follow your heart Sasuke." A soft voice suddenly said, as the wind started to blow. "I'll love you forever, no matter what you do."
Sasuke looked up now, surprised as he looked around. Who the hell just said that? It sounded like...Haku.. He turned around and then felt something on his lips. A kiss.
"What's wrong Sasuke?" Itachi asked, as he let go of Sasuke a little. He hadn't heard the voice. No one had, except for Sasuke. Everyone looked at Sasuke, a little confused now.
Sasuke slowly touched his lips and then felt a hand on his cheek, softly. The wind then started blowing again, taking the soft touch with it as it stopped. But he was sure Haku had been there. Right there. Telling him that everything he did was OK.
"..Are you OK Sasuke?" Kiba asked, looking at Sasuke.
"..I...yeah.." Sasuke softly said and then wanted to touch his cheek but felt something in his hand. He opened his fist and then saw a necklace in it. Haku's necklace. The one he always wore. Sasuke then smiled. "...Thank you.." He softly said.
The next day, the team had calmed down from everything that had happened. Sasuke had gone away from the group for a little while. He just wanted to sit down and think about everything that happened. Haku's death, Itachi's return...Haku's spirit and what he said. He was just a little confused. Sasuke was sitting by a river now, cooling his feet until he felt Neji sitting down to him.
"Are you alright?" Neji asked, and looked at him worried.
"I'm OK, don't worry." Sasuke said as he toyed with Haku's necklace. He really was OK, just confused about it all.
"You seem.. disturbed." Neji said.
"I'm just a little overwhelmed by everything that happened." Sasuke answered.
"I can understand that." Neji said, nodding. "Can I do something for you?"
"Haku told me to follow my heart." Sasuke suddenly said, without looking up. "What do you think?" He asked Neji.
"When did he tell you that?" Neji asked. "And I think you should do that as well. It's always the best to do what your heart tells you."
"After he died..." Sasuke softly answered. He knew he must sound crazy right now. But Haku had been there. He still was sometimes. In the wind, Sasuke was sure.
Neji frowned.
"..His spirit talked to you?" He asked. He didn't think of Sasuke as someone crazy right now, since he believed in spirits as well.
"Yesterday. When that wind suddenly came up." Sasuke answered nodding.
"And do you know why he told you to follow your heart?" Neji asked.
"...I think I do." Sasuke answered. He didn't know how, but somehow Haku knew. About what he felt for Neji. He knew Haku knew about it somehow. And that was probably the reason.
"Do you want to share that with me or is it personal?" Neji asked, curious.
"I think I 'should' share it with you." Sasuke said and smiled a little again, still toying with the necklace.
"Why?" Neji asked, as he smiled at Sasuke a bit confused. What was Sasuke talking about?
"Because it's about you." Sasuke said and finally looked at Neji.
Neji now frowned as he looked at Sasuke.
"...What?" He asked. He felt his heart beat in his throat now. Could it be..?
"He knew." Sasuke said. "Somehow he just knew that I...like you.. so much." He softly said.
"..He.. do you mean that you...?" Neji asked, not finishing his sentence. Was Sasuke in love with him..?
"I think...no I 'know' I'm in love with you Neji." Sasuke said, looking Neji in the eyes.
"Really?" Neji asked, as he felt himself becoming very happy and he blushed.
"Yeah.. So that's why he told me.." Sasuke answered.
"..I'm in love with you too Sasuke.." Neji softly said, as he looked at Sasuke.
Sasuke looked back at Neji. "..You are?" He asked and then smiled a little at Neji. Well.. that definitely felt good.
Neji nodded as he smiled back.
"But I thought you already knew." Neji said.
"..I knew you liked me...But I thought...since I was with Haku and all.. You just didn't really pay attention to it." Sasuke said
"I did.. I'm thinking of you the whole time." Neji said, as he sat closer to Sasuke.
Sasuke smiled at Neji and sat down closer to Neji too. "I was really worried when you didn't come back." He said.
"It almost didn't end good." Neji said. "But I succeeded in escaping."
"Itachi said they caught you indeed. So.. I'm glad you came back." Sasuke said.
"Me too." Neji said, smiling. He couldn't help himself anymore as he grabbed Sasuke's head and kissed him, holding him close.
Sasuke immediately kissed back and grabbed Neji to pull him closer. He felt just a slight hint of guilt for Haku, but Haku had told him it was OK. And Haku knew Sasuke would always love him back. He just needed Neji now.
Neji stroke through Sasuke's hair with his hands, as he enjoyed the kiss. Finally.. he could finally kiss Sasuke again.
Sasuke just stroke the bottom part of Neji's hair, as he was rubbing over Neji's back a little. He kissed Neji softly but deeply, feeling as if it had been ages.
The kiss was deep and passionate, they were both obviously busy with showing the other how much he loved him. Neji sighed a little in the kiss, happy and satisfied. He finally got what he wanted. He did feel guilty towards Haku though. He felt like stealing Sasuke away from him.. but Sasuke did as his heart told him, which was what Haku had told him to do.. so it had to be alright.
Sasuke pushed Neji down now, just to kiss him better and more heavily. He loved how Neji kissed. So different and he tasted so good. They had such a big connection to each other. And Sasuke had no idea where it had come from. It was like it was faith.
Neji pulled Sasuke down better on top of him and deepened the kiss even more. He let Sasuke lay in between his legs now.
Sasuke grabbed Neji's legs now and massaged them softly as he kept kissing Neji. Their tongues just danced around each other by themselves. Everything felt right about this.
Neji sighed once more and then turned Sasuke around slightly, letting their legs get tangled together.
Sasuke moaned just slightly. He kissed Neji for a little while longer but then pulled back and looked at Neji. He then smiled. "You're a good kisser.." Sasuke said.
"Thanks.. you are as well." Neji said, smiling as well.
"So are you gonna keep travelling with us?" Sasuke asked, wrapping his arms around Neji.
"Sure." Neji said, as he kissed Sasuke's neck. "I'd love to."
"Then will you be mine?" Sasuke said as he stroke under Neji's shirt now.
"..I already am yours.." Neji softly said as he pulled off his own shirt. "Will you be mine as well?"
"Well I think that is only logical since I asked." Sasuke said and grinned a little as he touched Neji's upper body, exploring it.
Neji smiled as he simply kissed Sasuke again. He let his hands stroke through Sasuke's hair and over his cheeks, and finally under Sasuke's shirt.
Sasuke kissed back, letting his tongue swirl around Neji's a little. He then moved his hands into Neji's pants and massaged Neji's ass. God Neji felt so good.
Neji sighed, as he let his tongue touch Sasuke's. He broke the kiss for a moment to pull off Sasuke's shirt and then kissed him again.
Sasuke grabbed Neji's head with on hand now and then turned them around. He sat down between Neji's legs and started unbuttoning Neji's pants as he licked over Neji's chest.
Neji softly moaned as he stroke through Sasuke's hair once more. Sasuke's tongue on his chest felt so great... it all felt so great..
Sasuke now opened Neji's pants and then pulled them down together with Neji's boxers. He then moved more down and licked around Neji's length, teasing him.
Neji groaned as he then turned Sasuke around and unbuttoned Sasuke's pants as well. He now really wanted to see Sasuke. He wanted to look at him.
Sasuke stroke through Neji's hair now as it was the only part he could reach. "You're really pretty naked." He said.
"Thanks." Neji said, with a slight smirk. "You can't even see everything." He then pulled down Sasuke's pants and underpants, and pulled off his own shoes and socks. He then did the same to Sasuke as well.
"I saw you not even a minute ago." Sasuke said and then turned Neji around again and looked at him. "And I can see you now." He said and grinned a little as he sat down between Neji's legs and let both of his hands stroke from just above Neji's length, up to his nipples, which he played with a little and then back.
Neji smirked and then just turned Sasuke around again and got up, pulled Sasuke up and pushed him against a tree. He then took a few steps back.
"There, now I can finally look at you." Neji said, smirking. He inspected every part of Sasuke's body now, and he definitely liked it.
Sasuke laughed a little and put a hand in his side. "Well what do you think? Ain't I pretty?" He asked and laughed again.
"Very." Neji said, as he licked his lips a little. He then felt something stir between his legs. He looked at Sasuke and then smirked, as he flipped his hair back and looked seductive. "And what do you think about me?"
"Hmm I already said you're pretty. And horny." Sasuke said and walked to Neji again, then pushed him down on the floor again. "So let's do something about that." Sasuke said and traced a finger over Neji's starting erection.
Neji let out a gasp and then moaned. His hand suddenly shot forwards and he grabbed Sasuke's crouch. That'd teach him.
Sasuke groaned and then gasped. "..D-dammit. That was just mean." Sasuke said as he grabbed Neji's face roughly and kissed him. It somehow turned him on that Neji was so aggressive. Sasuke moved his hand over Neji's erection more roughly now.
Neji smirked into the kiss as he just pushed Sasuke's hand away and started to massage Sasuke's erection. Let's see how Sasuke reacted to that.
Sasuke moaned into Neji's mouth but then grabbed Neji's hand in return and pushed it up above Neji's head. He then smirked and started stroking Neji's erection really roughly, putting his entire hand around it and moving it up and down while using circular motions. He was doing it really fast as well.
Neji groaned as he let his head fall back. God Sasuke was so good at this.
Sasuke now let go of Neji's hand and traced it down over his arm before grabbing Neji's head roughly and kissing him, his tongue pushing on Neji's. His hand now started moving even faster and he squeezed harder. Neji would not 'want' to stop this ever.
Neji winced and groaned as he gripped the ground under him. God.. If Sasuke continued like this he'd come in a minute.
And Sasuke did continue. He just continued, stroking and squeezing Neji's erection over and over again while he kissed Neji roughly, easily turning him on with his kisses too. Neji would have to feel overwhelmed.
Neji groaned and after a few more strokes, he came. And he came hard. He let out a soft yelp and somewhere between you could hear Sasuke's name.
Sasuke smirked. God it turned him on how he felt Neji come in his hand and his name in between those moans and yelps. It turned him on so badly how Neji looked, giving that pleasured face. It was almost becoming painful now.
Neji laid there panting for some seconds, before turning Sasuke around and bit down onto his neck hard and while Sasuke was distracted with that Neji licked down Sasuke's body and before Sasuke even noticed, he took Sasuke's full length into his mouth.
Sasuke gasped loudly as his hips bucked forward a little. Fuck that felt so...so good. "Ah.. ah...N-Neji.." Sasuke moaned as he grabbed Neji's by the hair and looked down. Fuck, it looked so damned hot, Neji's head between his legs. And Neji's mouth on his erection. He would almost come from that only.
Neji looked at Sasuke with a slight smirk and then he took Sasuke's dick in his right hand and started moving his head up and down, using his tongue to lick around the shaft once in a while.
Sasuke moaned loudly now and squirmed a little, bucking his hips up every once in a while. Oh God Neji was so good at this. It felt so warm and...fuck he would come in no time like this.
Neji continued sucking onto Sasuke's shaft, moving his head a little faster now and he sucked harder.
Sasuke started panting heavily now as his head fell back. "Oh g-god Neji...P-Please faster.. hn.." Sasuke moaned to Neji.
Neji nodded as he moved even faster. He didn't knew if he could go any faster so he decided to deepthroath Sasuke. He deepthroated him three times, and then sucked onto Sasuke's shaft for a while and then deepthroated again.
Sasuke's breath got caught up in his throat every time Neji deepthroated him. God that felt good. So warm and moist and God just so great. "...N-Neji ah...almost..." Sasuke moaned as he grabbed Neji's head tightly by the hair.
Neji put his left hand onto Sasuke's hip now as he deepthroated again and sucked really hard. He knew Sasuke was close.
Sasuke moaned loudly as Neji did this and then bucked his hips again, stopped by Neji's hand, but came inside of Neji's mouth heavily, giving a few shocks after. That had felt so great.
Neji kept his mouth onto Sasuke's organ and just as he wanted to swallow he looked at the right when he heard a voice and then sweatdropped as he saw Kiba standing there.
"Oh err.. I came to tell you we're going to eat.. yeah." He said and then quickly turned around and ran back to the camp again.
Neji sweatdropped, and then quickly swallowed.
Sasuke just laid there panting, looking at Kiba. Dammit, why did he have to come here? What an idiot. "..I-ignore him.." Sasuke panted to Neji.
Neji smirked as he laid down onto Sasuke.
"I already do." He said.
Sasuke turned his head to look at Neji and smiled at him. He then stroke softly over Neji's cheek. "Good." He softly said, still panting.
"Oh we're so good at pleasing each other." Neji said, still smirking.
"We are.." Sasuke said and laughed a little. "Did you like it?" He then asked.
"Of course I did." Neji said, smiling, and then kissed Sasuke's cheek.
"Good. I'm glad about that." Sasuke said smiling too. He stroke through Neji's hair absentmindedly.
Neji smiled at Sasuke.
"Perhaps we should get something to eat." Neji said.
"I think we should. Or we'll starve." Sasuke said and sat up now. Kiba would definitely eat all the food if they wouldn't come back soon.
Neji sat up as well and then took some water as he washed himself a little, and then put on his clothes again.
"Indeed." He said.
Sasuke just put on his clothes again and once he was done he waited for Neji.
"Hey, I wanted to say that you shouldn't feel guilty about this." Sasuke then said.
"If you don't do it as well." Neji said, smiling slightly.
"I don't. Haku knows I love him." Sasuke said and smiled back.
"Alright." Neji said, nodding, as he took Sasuke's hand. "And he wanted you to continue with me right."
"He said I should follow my heart and it led me to you." Sasuke said and smiled as he held Neji's hand tightly.
"I'm glad you did." Neji said, smiling.
"I'm glad about it too." Sasuke said and gave Neji a kiss on his lips. "Were you jealous when I was with Haku?" He asked as he started walking back.
"Very." Neji said, as he walked with Sasuke. "I was very jealous."
"Sorry. I kind of knew you were. I just.. really liked Haku." Sasuke said.
Neji nodded.
"I know." He said. "...What I don't understand is why you bring this subject up."
Sasuke looked at the floor and then shrugged. "..I don't know.. I just can't really forget about Haku and.. I'm just.. confused." Sasuke said.
Neji was silent now as he looked at Sasuke. What did Sasuke mean? Was he doubting if he really wanted this..? Neji frowned. What was going on in that pretty head?
Sasuke stayed silent too now as he didn't get any response from Neji. They now reached the camp and Sasuke sat down silently, next to his brother.
Neji sat down at his other side and stared into the fire that was burning.
"What's wrong?" Itachi asked, as he looked at Sasuke.
Sasuke shook his head. "Nothing." He said and then turned to Neji and gave him a kiss.
"I do want you, so don't worry about that." He said softly.
Neji slightly smiled at Sasuke and then looked at the fire again.
Itachi looked at Sasuke for some seconds and then shrugged, as he roasted some meat.
"..Are you ignoring me now?" Sasuke asked as he frowned. What the hell?
"Who are you talking to?" Kiba asked, looking at Sasuke, who was sitting near.
"To Neji, so buzz off." Sasuke snapped and then looked at Neji again. "Neji." He said again.
Kiba looked offended while Neji looked at Sasuke now.
"What?" He asked.
"I asked if you were ignoring me but never mind." Sasuke snapped and looked at the fire, then started moving it annoyed.
Neji now sighed as he stood and walked away from the group, back to the lake again. He needed to think.
Sasuke let out a frustrated growl now, throwing a stone in the fire and then turned around, walking away. Right now, he didn't even care if he would ever go back. He was confused and Neji just walked away. Asshole.
Itachi sighed as he stood as well, and followed Sasuke.
"Sasuke." He said, once they were a little away from the group. "What's wrong?"
"Nothing's wrong." Sasuke snapped as he stopped. If he was honest to himself, everything was wrong. Everything was messed up. Haku was suddenly gone and Itachi was suddenly back. He should go on with Neji, but that felt awkward too and now he even just walked away. Everything was just so messed up.
"Sure." Itachi said as he placed his hands in his side as he looked at Sasuke. "Do you want to talk to me or do you want me to go back to the camp?" He knew he should let Sasuke decide what to do now.
Sasuke was silent for a little while and then sighed. "I want to talk to you.." He softly said and sat down in the middle of the forest.
Itachi sat down next to him.
"Tell me what the problem is." Itachi said. "There's something between you and Neji."
"Yeah but.. that's not it...It's just a part." Sasuke said annoyed. "...I'm just confused about everything." He pulled up his legs now and put his arms around them.
"About your previous boyfriend, me and that Neji guy?" Itachi asked.
"...Yeah.." Sasuke answered. "You're all confusing me.." He said and let out a groan as he buried his head in between his knees en chest.
"Well let's start at the beginning then." Itachi said. "Why does Haku confuse you?"
"..Because he's gone..." Sasuke softly said. "He's gone and he was here and then he said to follow my heart and how the hell am I supposed to know what he wants me to do?"
"It's quite simple." Itachi said. "He wants you to do what your heart tells you. What 'you' think what's best. What you got the best feeling about. That's all. He wants you to be happy, he'll always love you, no matter what he does."
"..But I miss him...So much.." Sasuke said and felt tears prick behind his eyes again. He always wanted to cry when he thought of Haku.
"I understand that." Itachi said. "But that's logical. You loved him. You still love him. Are those feelings confusing you?"
"..Yes...Because he's gone.." Sasuke said.
"...You don't have to be confused Sasuke, it's normal that you are sad." Itachi said. "And it's normal that you miss him. But you know Sasuke, he's not completely gone. He's still with you, you know that. He'll always support you."
"I know he is...I feel him around me sometimes, but that's just.. what confuses me.. I don't know how to act...he's there but.. he's not like he used to be and I so badly just wanna see him again and touch him...And I can't.." Sasuke said as he bit his lips, but a few tears escaped his eyes nonetheless.
"He's not like he used to be?" Itachi asked, as he moved his hand over Sasuke's back.
"..Haku's here as a spirit...but I want him back as a human.." Sasuke answered as he started crying just a little.
"..Sasuke.. think about it.. he could not be here at all anymore." Itachi softly said.
"..It's just hard to know that he's here and I can't tell him anything...And I can't see him or touch him when he's here..." Sasuke cried softly.
"..I understand.." Itachi softly said.
"...And then Neji comes along and I like him so much and then we have sorta sex and then I tell him I'm confused and miss Haku and he becomes distant and just walks away." Sasuke said.
Itachi softly smiled now.
"Sasuke.. how would you feel if he said he misses his ex?" Itachi asked. "Or if Haku would've said that to you while you had a relation with him?"
"Well I wouldn't have mind if it was someone who died." Sasuke snapped. "I would've understand that if someone just gets ripped away from you like that that you can miss him."
"Of course, but it still hurts the other if he knows that you love an other person." Itachi said. "I understand it from your side, but from his side as well."
"Well it's one thing to feel awkward about it but...he just ignores me and I already feel so bad." Sasuke snapped. "And now you're here and I.. don't know how to act around you...I wanna be like we were before but I grew up and you grew up and...we're not the same.."
"Do you feel uncomfortable around me?" Itachi asked.
"..Yes.." Sasuke answered. You could hear he really was uncomfortable around Itachi.
"And why is that?" Itachi asked.
"..Because you're smart and strong and different...And I feel so small and like I don't matter anymore.." Sasuke answered softly.
"..Sasuke, you do realize that I'm five years older then you right?" Itachi asked. "That's a whole difference."
"..I don't care..." Sasuke said. "You're just so much better and it just made me realise that you were so much anyhow. No matter how old you were. You were better then me when you were ten then when I was ten and same goes for every age...I just feel uncomfortable.. And you were dead in my mind and now you're here.." Sasuke said.
"..Sasuke." Itachi said. "I want you to know something. I'm damn intelligent. I get everything, I can do everything, and I'm strong. But I suck at things like emotions, talking, fun things and all that kind of things. And exactly those things are important in the life of a human. And 'you' are the one who's so strong at those important points. And that's what makes you stronger then me. It's what makes 'me' uncomfortable, at seeing how far you are with those things."
"You're just saying that to make me feel better." Sasuke said as he bit his lip. He had to admit it felt good that his brother said those things. But they couldn't honestly be true.
"Like I said, I suck at emotions." Itachi said. "I wouldn't know what to say to cheer you up, I'm only telling you what I know."
Sasuke was silent for a little while and then moved closer to Itachi and sat against him.
"I'm not really 'that' good at those things.." Sasuke said, wanting to stay modest. He loved how his brother said those things. And he knew Itachi was right. He never lied to Sasuke either.
"At least you're better then me." Itachi said, as he put an arm around Sasuke. "Really Sasuke, I'm not better then you. It's the other way around."
"We both just have are strong and weak points..." Sasuke said. "..I want us to go back to how it was Itachi.." Sasuke said. "..All those years ago."
"We could." Itachi said. "We just have to get used to each other again."
"I know." Sasuke said. "I do feel like I can talk to you and stuff."
"Good." Itachi said. "Because you can."
"Thanks. You can talk to me too, might you want that." Sasuke said.
"Thanks." Itachi said, nodding. "But we weren't done yet. Now we've had Haku and me, we still have Neji."
"...Neji.. I don't know...I felt so good just now and then he started ignoring me and walking away and I don't know." Sasuke said.
"What exactly happened?" Itachi asked.
"We had sort of sex and then we were OK and I said that I missed Haku and then he just ignored me and then I asked if he was but he didn't respond and I said 'never mind' and then he walked away." Sasuke said.
"..I think that there's a lot more in his head then we know." Itachi said.
"..Yeah well...whatever." Sasuke said.
"I don't know." Itachi said. "I fear I can't help you with that."
"..I hardly even know him by the way." Sasuke said.
"Perhaps it won't work between you and him after all then." Itachi said.
"But we have this connection almost from the beginning and it's just...I can't get him out of my head.. I cheated on Haku with him." Sasuke softly said.
"..I don't really know what to say upon that but.. well.. it seems that I have to take my advise from a few seconds ago back because you obviously love him then." Itachi said. "Or you are fascinated by him."
"Or both." Sasuke said. "I just don't know what to do with it."
"I understand." Itachi said, nodding. "Yeah well.. You should talk to him."
"..I know.. But I don't know what to say to him." Sasuke said and sighed.
"Perhaps you could ask him how he feels." Itachi said. "Unless you are angry at him.
"I'm not really angry...I just still feel weird." Sasuke said and shrugged.
Itachi could only look at him and blink. He obviously had no idea what to say upon that.
Sasuke looked at Itachi and then suddenly started laughing. "You look so stupid like that!" Sasuke said.
"What?" Itachi asked, confused. What the hell was Sasuke talking about?
"Just now, you looked so stupid!" Sasuke laughed. "When you didn't know what to say!" Sasuke just kept laughing from the face Itachi had made.
Itachi brought up his eyebrow. He didn't knew what was so funny about that. But well.
"At least you're laughing again." Itachi said, shrugging. "I still don't get why my face was funny, but well."
Sasuke slowly stopped laughing and then hugged his brother. "Thanks." He said.
"..You're welcome." Itachi said, as he hugged back. "I'm glad I could help you a little."
"You helped me a lot." Sasuke said and then got up. "I'll go talk to Neji now."
Itachi nodded.
"Alright." He said. "He went to the lake I believe."
"Thanks." Sasuke said and then gave Itachi a kiss on the cheek before walking off to the lake. He really had to go talk to Neji.
"Bye." Itachi said, waving at Sasuke a little.
"I'll see you later idiot." Sasuke said and grinned and then walked to the lake. Once he got there, he saw Neji sitting by the water, making figures out of it. Sasuke walked to Neji and sat down next to him.
"Do you wanna talk?" He asked.
"Sasuke I don't know what's wrong with me, I'm sorry for my behaviour." Neji said with a sigh as he looked at Sasuke. It was obvious that Sasuke wasn't the only one who had been thinking.
"..That's OK. So what's wrong?" Sasuke asked as he looked at the water now.
"..Nothing serious." Neji softly said, as he looked at the water again.
"Yes there is." Sasuke said. "I know there is."
"..How do you know?" Neji asked as he looked at Sasuke again.
"Because you act like me and whenever I say nothing is going on, then something definitely is." Sasuke said.
Neji looked at the water again.
"..There are just some things which I keep thinking of the whole time." Neji muttered.
"Then what?" Sasuke asked, looking at Neji this time.
"..Well.. it's just about Aoi and well.. Haku.." Neji muttered, shrugging.
"..What about them?" Sasuke asked as he sat closer to Neji, trying to tell Neji that he was there for him.
"..Well.. it's so strange that Aoi is gone now.. I.. I've been in love with him for a very long time and well.. he's gone all of a sudden.." Neji softly said. "..But on the other side, I'm happy that he's gone.. I keep thinking of that rape, every time I think of Aoi I think of that happening as well.. I have nightmares and stuff.. It just sucks.. I hate it being this weak."
"You're not weak." Sasuke said surprised. "You're strong. If you were weak you would be crying and thinking you couldn't go on anymore."
"I'm weak because I keep thinking of it." Neji softly said.
"Neji don't say that. It was horrible for you, of course you keep thinking about it." Sasuke said as he grabbed Neji's hand softly.
Neji bit his lip now.
"..The worst thing is that I'm still jealous of Haku while he is dead." Neji softly said.
Sasuke pulled his hand back as Neji said it. It felt like a hint to pull back.
"..You shouldn't be." Sasuke said.
"..You still care more about Haku then you care about me.. and it hurts." Neji softly said.
"I don't care more about Haku then you." Sasuke said. "I miss Haku, I loved him. But I want 'you'." Sasuke looked at Neji frowning a little now.
"..Yes, because he's not there anymore.." Neji whispered as he looked into the water as tears entered his eyes.
"No. Because you're here and I'm in love with you. I already told you that I would've asked you to be mine." Sasuke said.
"You know as well as I that if you truly loved me some more then you loved Haku, you would've broken up with him for me." Neji softly said. "And even if you want him as gladly as you want me, it still hurts that you can't give your full love to me.. I don't know.."
"Well I'm sorry OK. I didn't mean to fall in love with two persons at the same time. And I didn't mean for him to die as well.." Sasuke said annoyed.
"..Sasuke, I'd love to be with you now... but now I see how much you still care about Haku, I think we should wait with this relationship after all.." Neji said, looking at Sasuke with a sad look in his eyes. You could see that he was doing his best to not burst out into crying.
"Fine.. Fine then take that away from me too. Whatever. But if you don't wanna be with me, then I don't think we should be travelling together either." Sasuke snapped as he bit his lip.
Neji looked away now.
"..Fine, I'll get my stuff then." He said with a shaking voice as he stood now. He just couldn't take it, Sasuke thinking of Haku the whole time. Talking about him. He knew it wasn't fair, but it tore his heart apart. Neji quickly turned around and started walking back to the camp.
"Fine then go away!" Sasuke suddenly yelled as he got up and turned around. "Go somewhere where you have no one! Go leave me behind after I said I'm in love with you! What do you want me to do!? Should I just forget about Haku?!" Sasuke yelled and then melted Haku's necklace in the back and threw it to Neji. "Here! Is that what you want me to do!? Just throw it all away!?" He felt tears on his cheeks now.
Neji only walked harder as he shook his head now, his cheeks covered in tears. He walked into the camp and ignored the questions of the others when he grabbed his stuff and then walked off, into the other direction of where they were heading to. He now ran into the forest and after a while of running, he hid behind a tree and collapsed onto the ground, sobbing heavily. He was so confused, there were so many feelings in his body. He didn't knew if he could take this. He felt so guilty, what he was doing to Sasuke. He hated himself for it. He now hid his head into his arms. He had no idea what to do now.