Hey sorry I haven't updated in FOREVER, but I had exams and crap at school that I needed to research for and stuff, sorry. Heres the next chapter…you may\may not like it I don't know but let me know, pretty big change of events/
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It took me maybe 2 seconds to gradually reach the answer that I was positively awake and alive, because if god was real he wouldn't let me go to heaven and Alec's eyes alone were like seeing Angels fly. I drew in every last feature I could see on his face from his pale flawless skin to his red and black eyes I sunk into, he was smiling for once, a pure happy smile something that made my heart beat louder than it should, due to the ceiling of the roof being transparent and the sun was gleaming in, he was glimmering slightly, making his presence that much more valuable, his smile made his lips look even more full and perfect, something in me lurched like it was the right thing to do, I slowly as ever made my hand scrunch that back of his hair at the neck and pull him towards me, I didn't have too much strength but I had enough just to look at him once, as I pushed my lips onto his, soft and slowly moving against each others sparks flew then and I didn't care people were watching or what had happened several minutes or hours ago, I could only see him and that's all I cared about, he made a slight in pain sound as he parted and hugged me closely to him I laid my head on his shoulder I looked past him, to be looking at a small childish body it was that Christian boy who could…oh no…could bring people back to life with his gift…the boy looked lifeless and pale as alec, I shuddered against alec daring to ask ''why did you make him do it'' I shrieked in Alec's ear who immediately snapped his head up to my now standing figure, I I just wanted to destroy something, anger bubbled through me, id met the boy before he was sweet and shy, and he died all because I was god damned dead, Alec would've forced him to do it make him die to make me come back I was beyond furious alecs mouth moved without any sound, I looked around there were people staring at us bug eyed I hated there staring I want to snarl and spit venom at them, I ran out of there then and there I couldn't handle it, I made a decision right at that moment.
I stuffed everything in the room near the door, so it would delay any vampire coming in, long enough for me to go out the window, I didn't want to see any of THEM. I shoved the music in my ear and calmed myself m,aking my thoughts disappear as I lay on the bed sisiuated near the door, I only realized then how trapped id been I knew what I was going to do, so I drifted off to sleep thinking about the next day.
When I awoke I immediately ran to the throne room, the guests had left id heard and I was ready to see Aro, problem was Jane and Alec were in there as well as I opened the door, I stared at them my chest tightening, I glanced at the spot where Christian had been and back to Alec, he was glaring at the floor his jaw popping out, I didn't even give a damn. I walked slowly up to Aro, his face showing pure happiness and calm that was until I said something ''I want to go home'' I said quietly but defiantly at him,his face fell into a humourous one as everyone laughed at my comment except Alec I gulped ''why you are home dear'' Aro said, clueless much?
I growled and the laughter simmered down growling at Aro Volturi the leader of them was very very bad doubt that any vampires had ever done it, his face still shone amusement not annoyed at all. I stepped back from him a little so I was directly in front of the witch twins ''no,I mean my real home, I mean where my best friend is, this is not home'' I said through clenched teeth, my heart plummeted as Alec's head snapped up, as did Janes, I started walking backwards as Aro's face looked unbelieved I sighed as Alec started shaking his head in the corner of my eye I seethed. ''um very well…miss Cullen…you were a great guest I can't keep you here against your will, im sorry for any inconveniences'' Aro's words were confused and ancient like thinking about me gone hurt him, it hurt me too but I needed to get out of this and house despite my feelings towards certain members of the volturi, him calling me miss *Cullen* instead of volturi made my blood run cold…I was technically a Cullen but no one ever used or did call me that…it made me feel just awful.
I nodded chewing my lip to stop me from crying right at that moment, I started walking backwards towards the door, looking at the scene one last time…the apparently evil volturi seemed almost normal at that point, but in the back of my mind the little boy's blue eyes turned to ice as I remembered realizing Alec had made him die by awakening me from death. I shuddered as Alec's all too familiar hand touched my arm as I opened the doors,this time a spark of anger jolted me up and I shoved him away, he regained his posture and looked at me, his lips trembling my emotions were hazy I wished for jasper's power then. Alec shook his head ad glanced at me ''i—can't- you cant go'' his voice was cracked and almost high pitched at the last word, I mentally categorized this as my most heart breaking tear jerking moments in my life, I clenched my teeth looked at him in the eye and said ''well I am, you're not going to stop me, I left my best friend Seth to come here and I'm going to spend the rest of my life regretting it and trying to get him to forgive me'' I said in a tight hiss, every word was true, part of me wanted to leave becase I realized how much I mustve changed since being here, I barely ever talked to seth anymore I was devastated, at the reply of Alec my heart stopped beating ''well I hope the mutt enjoys your company, for every second I spent with you I hate'' the last thing I seen was his ruby red eyes just before he slammed the Italian doors in my face, I was bewildered but with fear of what would happen when I arrived ran to forks, the weather changed dramatically the rain and clouds only increased my depressed mood.
When I arrived near the Cullen reservation, I took in my house, it was the same 2 roomed house id had built when I was 13, I practically through myself into my bedroom and buried my face in my pillow, weather trying to sleep or suffocate myself I have no clue, but it wasn't long till I smelt Emmett and Seth's scents coming towards me, I inhaled Seth's first although I admit he was a shape shifter so he smelt like wet dog which most vampires absolutely hated, but for me underneath that he smelt of grass and flowers and with a hint of honey but that was just to me, it was all too familiar. Emmett's was dark and strange consisting of something like raindrops and mint, as far as I could guess I got up and looked outside to the forest to see the two figures running towards me with big happy grins on their faces both dimpled. They were soon in front of me, Seth's grin turned into a grimace as he shoved his hands in his pockets and glanced at me an apology written in his eyes, I rolled my own and hugged him, warmth instead of coldness I couldn't tell which one I liked best but the warmth felt more welcoming. So this was how things were going to be…no matter how much I missed him.
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NOT THE END.
Reviews plzzz :3, this is not how it will finnish cuz im on team volturi! #1 so meh.