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Four days later…
"Hey," Spencer said opening the door to Toby's home.
"Hey sorry I couldn't be there at your first session. I couldn't find a sitter for Lexi in time. I promise to be at your next one though," Toby apologized as he helped her take off her jacket. "How did it go?"
"It was good," Spencer nodded. Truthfully Spencer was glad Toby didn't come. There were a lot of tears and she talked about the attack in great detail, something she knew would make Toby upset to hear.
"What did you talk about?" Toby asked as he hung up her purse.
"Um… Pretty much what we talked about at the hospital, just more detail. And we talked about my parents, my friends, and you," Spencer nudged Toby playfully.
"Speaking of friends…" Toby smiled grabbing Spencer's hands in his. "I just got off the phone with Hanna. She has this dinner party for her work and she's not sure how late she'll be out. So I told her you would spend the night here."
"Oh you did?" Spencer giggled. "You didn't even bother to ask me if that was ok?"
"You don't have a choice," Toby shook his head. "You will never be left alone ever again. So if that means you have to spend a lot of nights here, then so be it. Hanna is going to drop off a bag of stuff for you any minute now."
"You are too sweet," Spencer frowned. "I don't deserve it. I still feel like you shouldn't forgive me for what-
Toby covered Spencer's mouth with his hand. "It would make me feel better if you would stop apologizing. In fact I should be the one to apologize. Spence I-"
Spencer covered Toby's mouth with her arm that wasn't broken.
They both laughed and then dropped their hands. "I'll stop apologizing if you stop," Spencer held up her pinky finger.
"Fine," Toby said intertwining their pinky's.
"Did it hurt when you got in a car accident?" Lexi asked Spencer staring at her bruised face.
"Uh…yeah," Spencer hesitated. She knew Lexi was a curious kid but she hated the way she stared at her injuries.
"Lexi," Toby noticed Spencer discomfort. "I told you no more questions about Spencer's accident."
"Sorry," Lexi apologized to both of them. "Are you guys going to read to me?" Lexi waited for them in her bed.
They both smiled at each other and crawled into bed with her. Toby began reading as Spencer sat on the other side of Lexi. Lexi leaned her head against Spencer's side and wrapped her arms around her.
After Toby finished the story he leaned over and kissed the top of Lexi's head. "Love you Lex."
"Love you too," Lexi mumbled.
Toby helped Spencer out of Lexi's bed.
"I love you Spencer," Lexi smiled.
Spencer turned around, not expecting to hear those words. "I love you too." Spencer had tears in her eyes. She thought about how close she came to losing Lexi for good. It was a good thing Toby found it in his heart to forgive her for betraying him. She loved Lexi and Toby with all her heart and she promised herself she would never take that for granted again.
"So…" Toby gulped as he shut Lexi's door. "I didn't know where to put your stuff. I could bring it down to the guest room or you could sleep in my room and I can sleep in the guest room. Or if you feel more safe we can sleep in the same room…" Toby and Spencer were better. But things weren't necessarily back to where they were. They both wanted it to be, but it wasn't.
"I've been making Hanna sleep in my bed the last two nights," Spencer smiled. "I would prefer to have you there with me. But if you don't feel comfortable then…"
"I would prefer to be there. I can sleep better knowing your safe," Toby let out a heavy breath.
"I need to shower," Spencer admitted. "I haven't showered since the night I left the hospital."
"The bathroom is all yours," Toby moved out of the way.
Spencer walked into Toby's room and found her bag. She stalked the shower with all her soaps. She took out a fresh pair of pajamas and laid them on the bathroom counter. She struggled with getting off her clothes with one arm. She remembered that Hanna was the one who has been helping her dress for the last two days. "Ugh," Spencer grunted trying to undo her bra.
Toby could hear her frustration from the hallway. He hesitated then decided to knock on the door.
Spencer opened the door with a guilty look on her face. She was in her bra and jeans. "I'm having some issues."
"I can hear that," Toby laughed. "Do you want some help?"
"That would be awesome," Spencer sighed.
Toby started her shower first. "What do you need me to do?"
Spencer blushed, "You know what never mind. I'll figure it out."
"Spence, let me help you." Toby extended his hand. "Come here."
Spencer grabbed his hand as he pulled her body into his. He wrapped his arms around her lower waist. "What is wrong with us? Were acting as if we've never kissed. I've seen you naked before. There's no reason to be embarrassed."
"I know. I guess I just feel guilty still…"
Toby silenced her with a kiss. "I." Kiss. "Love." kiss. "You." kiss. "So let's stop acting like strangers and get back to being us."
Spencer smiled and leaned her head against his chest, "that sounds perfect."
"So do you need help undressing or what?" Toby asked.
"Yes," Spencer admitted. "And maybe… you could help me in the shower too?"
"Anything you need," Toby kissed her forehead. Toby reached around her back and unhooked her bra in one quick movement.
Spencer gasped, "You are so good at that."
Toby laughed as Spencer's bra dropped to the floor. His hands slid down her body to unbutton her jeans. He slid them down her legs and removed her socks while he was down there. He finally removed the last article of clothing on her, her underwear. His eyes slid back up her body, he couldn't help but glance at her wounds. He tried very hard to keep a straight face and not cringe at the sight of her injuries.
Spencer had her arms covering her chest. Her face bright red as Toby took a look at her.
Toby grabbed Spencer's hands and slowly pulled them down at her sides. His face slightly changed when he noticed that even her breasts were covered in bruises. "Hey don't be embarrassed."
"My body… It's just not the same," Spencer turned her face away from his.
"You're still beautiful," Toby pulled her face back to his. "Now hop in the shower."
Spencer smiled, "It's your turn to get naked."
"I'll get in there in a second," Toby pointed to the shower. "I'm not going to undress in front of you, you pervert," he joked.
Spencer giggled and got in the shower and waited for Toby.
Toby entered in a minute later. Spencer couldn't help but glance at his naked body.
"Hey," Toby covered up his manhood jokingly.
"You looked at me!" Spencer smacked his chest.
"I was not," Toby stuck out his tongue at her.
Spencer gave him the look.
"Ok maybe I peeked a little," Toby rolled his eyes at her.
"A little?" Spencer giggled.
Toby squirted some of Spencer's shampoo in his hands and began washing her hair.
Spencer giggled, "Your pretty good at this. Most guys wouldn't know what to do with all this hair."
"I still have to help Lexi wash her hair, it's from years of experience," Toby said while helping her rinse it out.
"Ok now with the conditioner put a lot in. My hair is really hard to brush through after if you don't," Spencer said handing him the conditioner bottle.
"Am I going to have to brush your hair too?" Toby teased.
"I think I can manage that one on my own."
After Toby rinsed out the conditioner he began helping her wash her body. He was careful not to apply a lot of pressure to her bruised body. "Am I hurting you?" Toby asked as he lightly washed her shoulders.
"Not at all," Spencer closed her eyes as his hands moved down her arms.
Toby moved to her back. The one part of her body that looked pretty good. There were only a few marks on her shoulder blades, otherwise it looked normal. He turned her around and delicately washed her stomach and slowly made her way to her breasts. Spencer moaned when his calloused hands enveloped her tender breasts.
"Toby…" Spencer couldn't help but let his name slip her lips.
Toby wanted to give her what she wanted but it didn't feel right with her covered in bruises. So he continued down to her legs and quickly finished before his hands got out of control.
"Its your turn," Spencer said rubbing the bar of soap on his chest with her free hand.
"You know it would go a lot faster if I did it myself," Toby teased.
"Let me return the favor," Spencer whispered. She continued down his chest to his abdominals. She traced ever line slowly.
Toby gulped as she proceeded to go lower and lower.
Spencer intentionally dropped the bar of soap once she reached his man hood so she put her hand around him.
"Spence," Toby moaned, as he felt her hand around him.
Spencer continued to move her hand slowly increasing the pressure. She wasn't sure why she wanted him so bad in this moment. But it was growing fast and she wanted him now. Spencer pushed him against the shower wall without breaking contact. Her hand moved faster causing Toby to growl in pleasure.
Toby quickly moved his hand between her legs. He stroked his fingers along her, making her shiver.
Their mouths frantically moved with each others. As their bodies collided into the wall. Spencer grabbed onto Toby so hard, almost like she was afraid he might slip away. Toby was still careful not to grab onto her too hard, aware that she was still sore.
Spencer spread her legs and stood on her tip toes so she could feel Toby at her entrance. "I want you Toby."
Hearing Spencer whisper that in his ear made him want it so much more. Feeling her against him made it impossible. Toby lifted her up and slid into her with ease.
"Ah!" Spencer cried in pleasure. "Toby yes… yes!"
Toby was about to come undone before he even got started. He searched for a place to put his hands. Instantly he saw that there was no where to grab onto on Spencer that didn't have a bruise. Her hips, her waist, her arms, they all had bruises. He gently took Spencer off his body. "I can't."
Spencer looked confused. "What do you mean?"
Toby put his face in his hands. "I can't do this right now."
"I don't get it. Did I do something wrong?" Spencer tried peeling his hands away from his face.
"Look at you!" Toby lost it. "Look at what he did to you! I can't… Looking at you like this makes me hate him. It makes me hate myself!"
Spencer pulled back. Tears filled her eyes as she watched her angry boyfriend shiver at her ugly body. Spencer quickly opened the shower door and grabbed the towel. She didn't want him to see her cry.
"Spencer wait…" Toby pleaded realizing he hurt her feelings. He shut the shower off and grabbed himself a towel. He walked into his room to find Spencer trying to dress herself as tears rolled down her cheeks. "Babe, let me help you."
"No, I've got it." Spencer slowly pulled on her underwear with one arm. She was taking forever trying to get them up her legs.
Toby reached down without her permission, and effortlessly pulled them up. He grabbed one of his t-shirts, because he knew she liked to sleep in them. He first put her broken arm with the cast through the arm hole. Then he did the other, before helping her get her head through. He then wiped the tears from her face. "Why are you crying?"
"Because look at me!" Spencer gestured at her body. "I'm hideous!"
"No you're not. That's not what I meant at all! I just meant that every time I look at a bruise it reminds me that I wasn't there! Every mark on your body mocks me, reminding me of how horrible of a boyfriend I was!" Toby admitted getting tears in his own eyes. "You are so beautiful. I can't even explain how amazing your body is. Even covered in head to toe in bruises you make it look incredibly sexy," Toby cupped her face. "I want you too baby, so bad. I just can't do it right now. It doesn't seem right, so soon after your accident."
Spencer nodded in understanding. She kissed him gently on the lips. "Stop torturing yourself. You can't keep blaming yourself."
Toby wanted to argue, but he didn't want to fight with her. "I love you."
"I love you too," Spencer hugged him. "So my body isn't ugly then?"
Toby chuckled to himself. "Of course not silly girl. You have no idea how much you turn me on. Just standing there naked is enough to make me go crazy."
Spencer pulled away to go quickly brush her hair and her teeth. Toby threw on a pair of boxers and joined her in bed.
Spencer took her pain killers before bed and then shut off the lights.
"Oh we are so lucky!" Toby gasped.
"What?" Spencer looked confused.
"Well they say when you are taking prescription drugs while your on birth control it can make the birth control not effective," Toby reminded her.
"I didn't even think about that," Spencer's eyes widened.
"Good thing we didn't continue," Toby said spooning her.
"Yeah," Spencer agreed.
"Although," Toby laid soft kisses along her neck. "I would love to make babies with you someday."
"Oh really?" Spencer turned around in his arms.
"Mhm," Toby said as he pressed his lips to hers.
Spencer straddled Toby, "Gosh it's really too bad that were not married. And it's really too bad that you won't sleep with me right now." Spencer said moving her pelvis against his hardened cock.
"You…" Toby tried to remember all the reasons why he couldn't do this. "Are the death of me."
"Goodnight baby," Spencer whispered in his ear before plopping over on her side.