Disclaimer: We have reached the end and I still don't own it.

I know somewhere,
We'll find a little place for you and me,
It all turned out,
A different way,
Can't feel the pulse,
In our veins,
So weak today,
We'll let our heartbeat,
Guide us through the dark,
Just trust me...
-- 1000 Oceans by Tokio Hotel

There really wasn't anything easy in life, big decisions were always the hardest to make. The life changing ones that left a part of you behind while uncovering a part you hadn't known would ever exist. Teresa Lisbon was going to make one of those decisions on this very day. She didn't know which side she would choose, one would leave her heartbroken and the other would leave things the same as they were now. She knew which one she wanted but it wasn't a one sided option, it involved other people. This was it, the day of decisions, life changing alterations and she had to talk to Jane about all of it.

She took a deep a breath, decided it was now or never and headed towards the bullpen. She didn't know why she was doing this at work; honestly it just seemed like the best place to get it done. It would keep her clear headed and emotionally in check -- hopefully. It had only been a little over a month since that fateful case that left them both a little confused. Lisbon had killed a woman to stop her from slitting Jane's throat, routine and by the book but what happened after wasn't. She'd hugged him, not a friendly I-just-saved-your-life hug but a desperate gripping I-can't-lose-you one. They'd stood in the middle of her office holding onto each other for dear life and then just walked away like nothing happened. Neither of them brought it up and everything had been burning just under the surface since then. Stolen touches and standing a tad too close had been the only indication that anything had happened at all. It had led to this point of breaking and it would regretfully leave them both with an aching heart.

"Jane, can I talk to you?" He was sitting on the couch, bugging Van Pelt about something but Lisbon knew if she didn't do this now she probably never would.

"Isn't that what you're doing?" Her eyes flickered over to the younger agent still frowning about something Jane had said or made her think about. He was good at torturing people just by making them take the time to think about things.

"In my office." Lisbon knew he could sense the uneasiness in her tone, the rest of the team always seemed oblivious or at least acted like it but Jane always got that concerned glimmer in his eyes.

"Sure." The few steps to her office were filled with tension and stares from Jane. This wouldn't be as easy as she had hoped.

"Close the door and lock it please." She hadn't turned around to face him but she knew he was doing exactly what she told him. She took a few deep breaths before finally turning to meet his worried gaze.

"You want to tell me why we're locked in your office? Really Lisbon if you want to jump me...hey what's wrong?" What had started as a teasing statement ended with a question as soon as he saw her gaze drift to the ceiling. She continued to count the ridges above her head, willing herself to just start the conversation to just spit it out already. Seconds of silence quickly turned to minutes but he didn't push her.

"I uh, I know you probably knew this long before I did but I'm..." She took another calming deep breath and let it out slowly while she dropped her gaze back the man standing in front of her. Only about a foot in front of her, it startled her a bit that he was so close. "attracted to you, and I think that maybe you..."

"Lisbon."

"might be a little attra..."

"Lisbon."

"...cted to me but we can't be anything." Staring into his green-blue eyes -- that just so happened to be more blue that day -- proved to be a problem and her gaze once again drifted away. The floor became her new focal point as she rambled on completely missing the fact that he was trying to get her to be quiet. The emotions she'd been pushing down were starting to bubble over making her heart beat wildly in her chest. "We both know it can't happen and..."

"Teresa hush!" The sound of her first name cut through the air punctuated by the slightly loud voice saying it. Lisbon shut her mouth and cautiously brought her eyes back up to meet his. She wasn't sure what she had been expecting to see, but what was in front of her wasn't it. "What brought this up?"

"Things have been tense lately since we, I don't really know what to call it. It wasn't just a hug and we both know it."

"Tense because in that embrace we both caught up to reality." Jane took a step towards her, leaving only inches between them. No matter how hard she tried to control herself Lisbon couldn't do it. She'd opened this can of worms at work in hopes of keeping it together but as a tear slipped out at his words, she knew she'd failed. "You're right; we can't be anything. There's too much in the way." He caught the tear spilling down her cheek with his thumb and gently wiped it away, begging himself to keep the moisture building in his own eyes at bay.

"Teresa please, I don't want you to be sad. Maybe after we catch..." He let the sentence hang knowing she caught on to what he was implying. "I don't know if things will be different then and I want you to be happy."

"You should get to be happy too. We'll catch him soon."

"Such a stubborn woman." Lisbon let out sigh when his hand started to softly caress the side of her neck affectionately. "You shouldn't wait on me."

"I want to." Jane didn't want her wasting her life on him, but he'd never been so happy to hear such simple words. He let his lips seek hers for a soft kiss, just a brush against hers and then another this time adding a little more pressure. The kisses continued like this, just a short touch that lasted longer with each one but then he stopped. Seconds passed and nothing happened; Lisbon's heart plummeted at the thought of it being over. She didn't want it to be, she wanted him to wrap her in his arms and hold her tight.

Whispering a quick 'I'm sorry' against his mouth, she sealed her lips to his pouring out the tension, hurt and longing she was feeling. Hands gripped tightly to clothing and flesh, never wanting to let the moment end but both knew it had to. She kissed him with everything she had, hoping he'd get the point and he kissed back with the same intensity to let her know he understood. She wasn't going anywhere and he couldn't force her to give up on what they could be. They knew this would be the first and last kiss they'd share until his goal was completed, so they made it memorable.

He let his arms circle around her waist to pull her closer before tangling one of his hands through her hair. He was pretty sure they were both crying at this point but it didn't matter. This moment, this thing they had between them would end in less than five minutes but it'd be back. Till then he found himself looking forward to the future because now he actually had one and it involved living long enough to be with the woman in his arms.

Lisbon didn't want the feeling of having him pressed against her to end but his kiss was turning slow and tender. She knew what was coming next. It was no surprise when he started to reluctantly pull away causing the pang in her heart to return. She kept her eyes closed as he rested his forehead against hers, letting their noses touch. She relished each second for all too soon it would be gone.

"Soon. We'll get him for my family, for our future." His voice was raw with honesty, his warm breath fanning against her face and she knew that no matter how long it took that she would wait.

"Soon." That's what you do for the people you love; you wait.

a/n: There it is people...the end. I really hope you enjoyed this series because I LOVED writing it. I'm a big music person. :) I'm going to have more stories like this in the future...probably after I finish 'Take Away'. I am so freakin' excited for the new season...anyone else seen the promos? So funny. And Robin Tunney's haircut...GORGEOUS! That's how I picture her in this one; hair straight, bangs to the side. Look for yourself if you haven't already seen it.

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I tested the link and it worked for me so hopefully....~ Rina