Evanescence

My last breath

hold on to me love
you know I can't stay long
all I wanted to say was I love you and I'm not afraid
can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?

Ch.12 Escape

Tuesday

Everybody was tense. That would probably be the best way to describe how everyone was acting these last past days. We all know that our days are growing shorter, me especially. And the worst part is Alice had a vision that the Volturi was coming…today.

Carlisle decided that we needed to get some help from his companions, seeming how we won't be able to fight them by ourselves.

So he is in his office right now and is calling up Tanya's family to see if she could assist us in our hour of need while the rest of us waited downstairs, stressful and dreading the answer.

Edward was pacing back and forwards at the bottom of the stair case, Emmett was staring at the ceiling, Jasper had his eyes closed, and Alice, Rosalie, and I were all fidgeting with our hands on the sectional sofa.

After a long break of silence, Jasper finally sighed out, "What is taking him so long?" We all lifted our heads towards the ceiling where we could hear Carlisle pacing back and forwards as well.

"If we knew, do you think we would still be standing around and doing nothing?" Rosalie snapped, rubbing her fingers against her temples.

"I'm not in the mood for you smart ass comments, Rosalie." Jasper replied coolly, pinching the bridge of his nose. I was going to silent them at their bickering but Rosalie said just as coolly but with a sneer on her face, "I wouldn't want to upset you, your majesty. Excuse me for my outburst, please don't exile or behead me."

I heard Edward and Emmett chuckling and Alice and me sent them a glare which they instantly turned their heads, but still were smiling.

Jasper ignored everyone but sent an icy stare at Rosalie who just shrugged it off.

"You guys, please could we just get along?" I asked in exasperation. Alice got up and went to sit next to Jasper, as we could hear Carlisle muttering something along the lines of "Yes, it would be most highly appreciated."

"Edward," Alice asked, "Can you hear what he is thinking?"

"No, he is blocking his mind."

"Why would he do that?" I questioned, laying my head against the palm of my hand as Edward stopped pacing for the briefest moment, but resumed back at it.

"It might be that the answer they gave him was an acceptance, and him blocking his mind is just another way for him to tell the news and not Me." he stated.

"Or," Emmett contradicted, "It could mean that the news was an refusal and him blocking his mind from you is just Carlisle's way at trying to break the news to us the most…civilized way possible."

"Why would they refuse? We are practically family, and if they hear our situation at hand, I'm sure they will be glad to help us." Rosalie looked at Emmett.

"Yes Emmett," Jasper opened his eyes, "Please elaborate on your theory."

Emmett thought for a minuet and then answered, "Well, I could think of a few reasons as to why Tanya wouldn't want to help. I mean after all that happened between her and"-

Edward let out a very menacing snarl that had Emmett close his mouth in an instant. Tanya and who? What was Emmett referring too? I gave Emmett a curious glance and asked, "Well, Tanya and who?"

Nobody said anything, all looking at Edward who eventually met my gaze. They are keeping something from me.

"Tanya who Edward?" I asked again, my tone turning sharper.

He sighed in defeat and slowly came to sit by me while explaining, "When I went on my rebellious state long ago, I took shelter with Tanya and her family. Not too long after that, I discovered she had some…attraction, towards me. Being at that time, I thought I needed no one so I rejected her and then left as soon as possible."

"What kind of attraction?"

"Do not worry love," he said, putting his two hands against my face, "She holds nothing over me. I am only meant for you, and no one else. Emmett is just fretting over it because we don't know if she will hold a grudge against me or not."

I sighed in contentment as I leaned against his sculpted chest. We were all silent afterwards, awaiting Carlisle's appearance.

Finally, after what seemed to be eternity, he came descending down the stairs. We all stood up, but the way he was walking was wrong. It was as if he was dreading to reach the final stairs.

"Well, what did they say?" Edward asked. Carlisle brushed past him, ignoring him completely and settled in the chair and motioned us to sit as well.

"Dear?" Esme called out to him, touching his shoulder lightly. He slowly raised his head and looked us all in the eyes.

"They declined." He whispered.

Edward jumped up from beside me and started mumbling a string of profanities as he went over by him.

"I can't believe Tanya has the nerve to refuse to help us! Just because Edward didn't share the feelings she did, she thinks she has the right to do whatever she wants? What, does she think that she is getting her revenge on him after all these years? That little immature"-

Carlisle interrupted Emmett's ranting by raising his hand in the air to silent him while saying without any emotion in his voice, "She did not refuse us because of Edward."

"What?" Alice asked, clearly shocked as the rest of us, "Then why did she turn us down if it was not for Edward's sake?"

"Do you remember the story I was telling you long ago about Annabel?" he questioned us. We didn't say anything, and he continued, "Yes, I'm sure you also remember the South America clan I was telling you about too? The boy that Annabel killed, he was only sixteen, not even a year old vampire yet, still young. His name was Alan Woodlock."

"That's irrelevant." Rosalie said.

"It is not! That is why Tanya refused to help us!" Carlisle replied back angrily at her. Rosalie looked taken back for a second, but quickly composed herself and stared at Carlisle. I have never seen him this upset before, it's quit disturbing.

"What does this Alan kid have anything to do with us? We didn't even know the guy." Emmett snapped, sitting down by Rosalie who looked still troubled by Carlisle's outburst towards her.

"You didn't know him, but I did. Not well, but I knew enough."

"I don't understand." Edward admitted, scratching his head in the process.

"She is not holding anything against my family, but she is holding a grudge against me. Apparently Alan and she were soul mates, destined to be together. At the time, like I mentioned before, I was on Aro's side. And also I was at that battle field when Annabel killed him. She told me she will never forgive them and me for what suffering I have caused her."

"I recalled to her that I don't work for the Volturi any longer, I also explained to her how they wanted to kill us now. She told me she felt sorry for the rest of you, but she had no sympathy towards me. I begged her, if not for me, but for Bella, and she still refused. Her last words to me were, 'I will see you in hell.'

"So she won't help us for something you had no control over!?" Edward shouted, balling his hands into fists and baring his teeth.

"Call it what you may, but no matter how hard I tried to persuade her, she still denied." Carlisle replied back to him, standing up and putting his hand on Edward's shoulder but he shoved him off.

"This is it then? They are going to kill Bella!" he snarled. I got up quickly and grabbed his face, trying to make him look at me. He ripped his head away from my hands violently, and started storming off in the opposite direction.

I slowly wrapped my arms around my body and bent my head down. I didn't want him to know how much that hurt, so I turned myself away from his disappearing figure and stared at the colorless wall, waiting for the feeling of abandonment to run out of my system.

I didn't hear him approach, but soon enough, I felt his strong iron arms wrap around my small form. I tried to push him away but that only made him hold on tighter.

"I am deeply sorry. I shouldn't be taking my anger out on you, it is not your fault that the world has cruel evil things lurking everywhere." He whispered into my ear. I turned around, removing his hands from my waist only to bring them up to my mouth and kiss them. He kissed my forehead as well.

"Is there no hope then?" Alice's voice rang out, bringing me back towards the present situation.

"I'm not sure anymore, it would be a miracle if by some whim of faith, someone was to help us." Carlisle told us, sulking in his chair.

I looked down at my engagement ring glistening off of my finger, and then I had a brilliant idea.

"You will take any help that is offered to you, yes?" I asked nervously, glancing at all of them. Carlisle merely answered yes as did the rest of them.

"And you won't care who you receive it from?"

"That is precise." He said in confusion.

"Where are you going with this Bella?" Jasper questioned me, but I shook his question off and drew in a deep unnecessary breath of oxygen.

"Well, I think I might be able to suggest someone."

Esme was still grasping Carlisle's shoulder when she asked, "Who is it dear?"

"Well…hear me out ok? He is very helpful and he is the one who kept me alive when you guys weren't there."

"Just tell us!" Rosalie snapped.

"Jacob Black and the rest of the pack."

It only took a second for this information to process through there heads. There was a huge uproar of protests, especially from Edward.

"Are you insane? He is a Werewolf! A dangerous, adolescent one!" Edward shouted at me, letting go of my waist and standing in front of me now.

"I would rather die from the Volturi then work along side them." Emmett said indignantly. I crossed my arms over my stomach and narrowed my eyes at everyone.

"Didn't you guys just promise me you wouldn't care who it was? If I am mistaken, I thought I was under the oppression that you guys would do anything for assistants, and now that I am telling you who it is, you automatically tune me out!" I growled at all of them as they still were ranting of a bunch of uncalled for names.

"Yes, but we weren't expecting you to mention a bunch of dogs." Alice stated grimily. They rest of them nodded their heads in agreement.

"I seem to recall that you all said you wouldn't care what help you received, as long as you got some amount of it." I snapped at them.

"That is a different." Edward told me.

"How so?" I asked him, raising my eyebrows and daring him to go on.

"They do not know how to control themselves, and if I seem to forget, I recall you telling us about your last visit with them." He said calmly. I glared at him in response and he seemed satisfied with my answer.

"But," I proceeded, "Jacob will help me if my life depended on it. I am sure if I can just go back to Forks and ask him he will be gladly"-

"No way in hell are you going to confront him!" Edward snarled.

"Excuse me?" I asked in disbelief.

"I am afraid he is right Bella. You have seen, I am sure, how easy it is for them to lose control of themselves. It would be extremely dangerous for you to go." Carlisle informed me.

"I was around him practically my whole life and he never put me in danger!" I snarled back at them.

"Yes," Alice added, "But you were not a Vampire back then, you were still human. In case you do not know, Werewolves and Vampires are sworn enemies and they will always be. Seeking help from on is asking for your death. They are mongrels; beasts who do not deserve the glory of life."

"We are no better then they are!" I argued, "We thrive on blood, we hunt innocent lives just to feed our hungry appetite! Do you honestly think that we deserve the glory of life?" I asked all of them, and when they didn't say anything, I continued, "You know what I think? I think you all are a bunch of stubborn hypercritic vampires! I give you a plan of action and hear you sit, not wanting to even glance at it!"

"Even if we were to ask them for help, it would be too late. Alice saw the Volturi coming today; we wouldn't make it in time if we tried." Jasper sighed, giving me a remorseful look.

"We could call him." I pleaded with everyone but they still shook they're heads no.

"Fine, I guess I will just go and ask him myself!" I shouted as I turned on my heel and headed for the door. Emmett and Jasper were already in front of me and blocking my path. I sighed in frustration as I turned towards the window but Edward gripped my wrist and pulled me so I had to look at him.

"Bella, it's too dangerous, you can't go!" Edward cried out desperately to me, but I shook my head and said, "We need help and it is the only help we will probably receive."

"No!"

"You don't trust me?" I asked incredulous, ripping my hand away from his grasp and taking two steps back.

"I trust you: it's them I don't trust," Edward said, "I'm sorry Bella, but I am afraid if I have to, I will use unwillingly force to have you stay here in this house."

"Are you telling me that you are forbidding me to go?" I asked, gritting my teeth. If I thought I was angry before, I was fuming now!

"It seems that way."

"You can't tell me who I can or can't see," I said, shaking slightly, "I will get help from them, I will go to forks and maybe I might even live with them! I will be damned if you tell me to do otherwise! You will accept it; I will be leaving right now. Either you can sit in your room loathing me, or you can appreciate my decision and respect my wishes."

He looked at my coolly and said in a calm tone, "I don't feel the need to do either, since you will be staying. Even if I have to have all of us restrained you Bella, I will. You will not be leaving."

"I dare you." I threatened him. Edward didn't do anything, so I walked past him and headed for the front door again. All of a sudden I felt three stone bodies collide with me. It felt like they were trying to force me backwards, but I merely ducked and slid gracefully through one of their legs and made a run for the door.

Another stone body collided with me hard and sent my spiraling towards the wall, but instead I landed into familiar arms. I struggled against him with all my might but he would not give. My anger was growing rapidly as I squirmed, pulled, and kicked, trying to get away from his iron grasp.

I felt another set of hands grab my feet, and then another grab my arms. I was throwing every bad word in my vocabulary at them, demanding along the way that they let me down but they merely held on tighter. I snarled, snapped my teeth, and shook violently with rising anger.

Finally I just went limp; I gave up. It was no use, no matter how much I pleaded with them; they were never going to see Jacob for what he truly is. They loosened they're grip on me and let me down. I felt myself sink onto the hard surface of the carpeted floor. I felt Edward's hands on my shoulder but I slapped them away and stood sharply up, glaring at all of them.

"Bella, please, we are doing this for your own good." Edward cried out to me, begging me to listen but I nodded my head once, turned around, and stormed up the stairs.

I realized how hard I was squeezing my hands; my knuckles were completely white, you could see the outline of my bone. I turned the corner sharply and thrusts open the first door my eyes made contact with.

It was lit by an open window as I entered the room. No furniture was in it, the walls were pure white, and there was no carpet, no mirrors, and no nothing. It was just an empty room. I could hear them mumbling downstairs and with all my vengeance I could gather I slammed the door closed as hard as I could. It made a defining loud crack, and I saw I made a huge dent in the wall and the door.

I started pacing angrily back and forwards, punching the walls along in my furious attempts.

Who the hell do they think they are? They can't just keep me here! If they think that they can hold me hostage here, they have another thing coming! And then Edward actually has the nerve to forbid me to see Jacob? Insolent fool!

I started dry sobbing as I slid down the wall into a sitting position. I wish Edward would just trust me. He needs to let me do this; I don't need to be cared after all my life. I am stronger then he thinks, I know I am.

I banged my head against the wall over and over, until I realized something. What is stopping me from leaving? I can just sneak out!

I jumped up enthusiastically as I opened the door and slowly creped down the stairs, a plan already forming in my head. Nobody was in the main hallway, and I smiled in spite of my self.

I ran stealthily towards the garage door and entered it. I saw eleven types of cars lined up side by side, and my astonishment grew at how there was only seven of them. I brushed that thought quickly off and headed towards Edward's silver Volvo. I opened the door and very quietly shut it, while rummaging through everything until I finally found his keys.

I put them in the ignition and expected the loud roar of the engine, but instead it sounded like a quiet purr. I laughed at myself as I realized that my old truck only sounded like World War 1. I pushed the garage door opener and slowly backed out, glancing around everywhere just in case they might have heard me.

But surprisingly, no one was there.

I slammed on the breaks as I realized I forgot to write a note telling them not to worry. I swore under my breath as I jerked off my seatbelt and bolted out of the door. I quickly found a piece of paper and pen and began hurriedly writing down a short explanation.

Edward-

Your wrong about Jacob

Love, Bella

I set it in the space were his car was parked a second ago and jumped back into the Volvo. I pressed down on the accelerator and turned out of the driveway, into the deserted road.

I gave the house one last glance, just to make sure no one saw my bold move, and stomped on the gas pedal. The car jerked forward at the speed and took off in an instant. I was thinking to myself, if I can just make it to Forks by this afternoon, I will be good. At that I sped up even faster, the meter already going over 100 m/ph.

The house slowly disappeared from my review mirror, along with the trees that covered them up. I had already reached the highway in fewer than five minuets.

As I headed away from my own personal angel, I realized that what if Edward would be right? Would Jacob truly hate to see me? Would he deny me? Would he try to…kill me?

There's only one way to find out,

Evanescence

My last Breath

holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight

hello everyone, i am glad i finally got to post this chapter, but i think i could have done it much better, review please, i at least want over 10 reveiws by tomorrow

the next chapter will probably be in Edward's point of view, so hurry and review otherwise i might wait till next friday to post it.