A/N: Began: 3/13/13 End: 3/14/13
Alright! I got a new Spotify playlist, a date to prom, and some fried chicken from Popeye's! My mood has increased considerably, upside to that is that I'm happy. The downside is I now see the error of my ways. SIRIUS WHY DID YOU HAVE TO BREAK UP WITH REMUS!? But it's too late. Don't worry though; this WILL have a happy ending. Also, as soon as they get out of school, the time lapses will be less frequent. In fact, I'll try to get at least three sixth year chapters, five seventh year chapters, and then a bunch of chapters of after Hogwarts. THIS IS GOING TO BE A LONG FIC! YAY!
Shorter A/N later.
He said he loved him. He said he would never shake him off. He said that Remus would always have him. He said, he said, he said… it meant nothing. Or did it? In the end, what did it mean? Why, it meant that the thing Remus was dreading all along, every day, happened. He dreaded the moment that Sirius said would never happen. Because Remus knew, all along he knew if would happen. But he wished it never did.
Remus found himself in the dorm room; he was face down on his four poster bed. He forgot how he got here or for how long. But he was there, and his face felt sticky. Tears, those must be tears. Here was a young man who, even though he was sickly, could easily turn into a giant raging wolf and rip your throat out if he wanted to. He was crying, and over another boy.
Pathetic… He thought. Getting up off the bed, he took a shaky breath and pinched the bridge of his nose, closing his eyes. Get it together, Lupin.
While Remus brushed away his tears, Sirius decided to be a rebel full of angst. He took a walk on a cloudy winter day. He then realized thoughts full of angst like 'the weather in Britain is always cloudy' and 'will I ever find my sunny day?' Truly, the rebel was so full of angst; he could have burst out into a depressing song at any given moment. Finding his way back to the castle, the angst-filled Sirius Black decided to do what he set out to do in the first place, find his brother and confront him.
It was in Slughorn's classroom, where Regulus Black was found, talking with fellow Slytherins. The boy looked up, saw his brother, glared, and turned away. Sirius swallowed his pride and walked up to his brother. He decided to come right out with it.
"Don't join Voldemort."
Reg snorted. "And if I do?"
"I will not hesitate to kill you, if we ever come to battle. I'll be on the opposite side. And after hearing what this Voldemort has to say, battle may as well be eminent." Sirius didn't care if he sounded crazy. He had just made a choice that hurt him and Remus. He lost his Scars, he lost his Moony. He lost Mr. Lupin. Damn if he didn't do the thing he set out to do when he decided to lose what he believed to be his first love.
"Piss off, Sirius." Reg muttered, turning back to his friends. Sirius grabbed him and wheeled him around.
"I know we aren't the closest of brothers…"
Reg laughed bitterly. "We were never close to begin with. While I upheld the family honor, you didn't even dare look at me, or come out and play. You never did anything for me. Piss off if you think you can suddenly just start to care."
Sirius felt he had been kicked in the face for the second time that day. "I beg of you… Don't join him! His theories may sound good at first, but dammit, they will kill us wizards off!"
"They'll uphold the dignity of us wizards! Voldemort intends to restore us to our rightful place, reigning over muggles!"
"We must hide away!"
"We must fight oppression!"
"We aren't being oppressed! We're completely fine living in secret; do you know how scary things will get? Muggles will die; muggle-born wizards and witches will be killed! Innocent creatures will die!" Sirius fought shrilly.
"Muggles are nothing to us!" Reg hissed.
"You're just the same! Kissing our parent's arses as usual!"
"And you're still the same idiot who refuses to be proud of his bloodline!" Reg shot back.
"Yeah, I should be so proud of a crazy aunt, years of family oppressors, and dark hidden half-blood secrets burned out of our family tree!" Sirius glared. "Don't join Voldemort… I forbid it!"
"You can't forbid shit!" Reg stormed out of the classroom.
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"Remus…" James knocked on the door of the dorm room again. Old music (James suspected the Beatles) was playing loudly from there. "Remus, open the door. I'm worried."
"Go away; I'm listening to his favorite song." Remus whispered dramatically. James didn't hear it. As soon as Remus first pulled his face off his pillow, he saw the records just lying there. He remembered this one song from the record, Helter Skelter. Within five minutes he was listening to the song repeatedly and had his face stuffed in his pillow again. He had no more fucks to give on his dignity.
"Remus, open this door." James demanded.
"Why doesn't the idiot just use—"
"Alohamora!" James shouted, unlocking the door.
"Now he's got it." Remus mumbled, head still in pillow.
"Shit! What is this!?" James asked. "What are you doing!? Why are you… for god's sake, what?" Remus was rarely seen making too much emotion.
"Go away."
"Get your damn head outta that pillow and look at me."
"I only want to see his eyes, but his eyes are now off limits."
James looked at the werewolf. "Are you kidding me? That line?" suddenly it clicked in the thick boy's brain. "Wait a second… Who is he?"
"Take a wild guess, dumbass, and pass me some chocolate." Remus snapped, dragging his head from the pillow and hold his hand out."
"What… he didn't…" James was still working on it.
"Yeah, he really, really did."
James waved over chocolate with his wand, Remus grabbed it. "But why?"
Remus huffed, narrowing his eyes. His scars looked more pronounced on his tear streaked face, and he looked almost feral with his hair in a nat. "You! You had to get him worried over Reg! This bullshit reason you hid behind instead of saying you were just jealous is the reason he broke up with me, you stupid git!" Remus was standing up now. "I just lost Sirius and it's your damn fault, Potter! Wanna go ruin another thing now? Why don't you go off and tell Peter he's thick, and then punch him in the stomach! How about you poison a teacher now? You seem to have the knack for ruining things anyway!"
"I—I didn't…" James face turned red, and he stood up as well. "My fault!? Here's a weird coincidence; Sirius Black was perfectly straight before you snogged him! Maybe he's tired of you! Maybe he realized he doesn't want you!"
"He can turn into a bloody dog because of me!"
"And they say I'm the one with the ego! Do you hear yourself? Sirius did this for me, he's this because of me, and he's that for me! Maybe Sirius is fucking tired of doing stuff for you!"
"YOU AREN'T HELPING!" Remus screamed "AND YOUR ARGUMENTS ARE COMING OUT OF NOWHERE!"
"YOU'RE BLAMING ME ON YOUR OWN RUBBISH PROBLEMS AND I AM SORRY YOU MUST CONFRONT THEM!" James screamed back.
Remus started walking out. "APOLOGY FUCKING ACCEPTED! AND I AM SORRY YOU SUCK AND RUINED MY RELATIONSHIP!"
"YOU CAN'T JUST APOLOGIZE LIKE THAT!" James followed him out.
"I CAN AND I DID!"
Peter watched them both from the steps. "I don't want to deal with this." He said to himself before walking to the portrait hole and out of the common rooms.
"We're—WE'RE FALLING APART!" James said hopelessly. "We're falling apart." He said, quietly. Remus stopped walking.
"Yeah, we are." He said curtly.
"We are all just falling apart, and I hate it. I chose you all. I chose you all to be my friends; we're the marauders of magic. The rebels of the school, we fought no one and everyone… and we're falling apart. And it might be my fault, or yours or Sirius', shit, could be Peter's. But—we're falling apart."
"So you said," Remus turned around and folded his arms.
"I don't want to… I can't let us. I'm… I'm going to fix this."
"As you should." Remus remembered the chocolate in his hand and took a bite. The lycanthrope looked at James expectantly. "I'm sorry I blamed all my shit problems on you."
"I'm sorry I brought up Reg and made Sirius moody." James mumbled.
"He needs to be dealt with…"
"But not by Sirius." James finished. Remus felt tears swimming around his eyes again. If only James stopped saying that name. James opened up his arms. "…hug?" Remus collapsed into the stag-boy's embrace. Just then, Lily walked by.
James, do you think that tomorrow you could—hello, what's going on?" she took notice of Remus, who was now sobbing again.
"He's got some man troubles." James said. For the only time in his life, James didn't immediately go crazy over the fact that Lily Evans was speaking to him. Even the most selfish of people can be good friends when they want to be.
"Oh dear, is it Sirius?"
"Y-yes." Remus choked out. "He just b-broke up with m-me and he's t-trying to talk to Regulus."
"Eh, I don't understand…"
"It's personal stuff, Lils. I'll catch up with you later, okay?" James walked Remus back into the dorms. "Come on, you don't want people to see you like this, Moony. Stop crying now, I'll see what I can do…"
Lily stared in disbelief. James Potter just blew her off to care for a friend. What the hell? This never happened. Lily was impressed… and insulted. She may have been just a little jealous, but mostly impressed. Just when she thought he was the most insolent, selfish, annoying boy on the planet, he does something kind of cool and really touching.
"It's a trap or something." She muttered, hoping to explain her own confusion. "He's bribed Remus to get under my skin and it's a trap." She didn't really believe that though. She walked over to the girl's dorms, muttering about evil schemes. Just as she closed the door on her dorm, Sirius came bursting into the portrait hole.
"REMMY I MADE A STUPID MISTAKE AND I GIVE UP ON EVER CONVINCING REG OF CONVERTING TO THE GOOD SIDE." He screamed while running to the dorm. Many Gryffindors, who saw the whole fiasco with James and Remus outside the dorms, glared. They weren't so much secretly shipping the two boys together as just pissed off that their peace and quiet was being rudely disturbed once again. Nonetheless, Sirius continued yelling at the top of his lungs. Remus heard him from the dorm and ran out.
"SIRIUS BLACK, I HATE YOU, HATE YOU, HATE YOU!" Remus screamed back, though he still continued to smash into the other boy, and kiss the other boy, and laugh with the other boy. James came out of the room as well.
"So… you guys literally were broken up for… four hours. Wow, that has to be a record. What the hell has this school come to anyway?" James shook his head. "You two are so… gay."
"I'll never leave you again, baby I promise!"
"I hate you so much! I want pity chocolate; and JAMES WE ARE AWARE OF OUR GAY." Remus went back to Sirius, purring. "I hate you, I love you forever…"
"SO GAY!" James stormed into the room again. "SO FREAKING GAY!"
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"This book is rubbish, and no pictures!" Sirius whined, the adult rebel was laying his head on ex-professor Lupin's lap, reading a book. They were in Black's hidden home "Completely wrong when it comes to werewolves!"
"Just because you shag one doesn't mean you're an expert, Padfoot." Remus was reading the paper. "I'll have you know that Weird Werewolf Witticisms and Witchcraft is the best book in my library."
"Your library sucks, then. Is it true you shed during the winter?"
Remus sighed. "Yes, Sirius. Everything in that book is true."
"That's disgusting!" Sirius smirked. "You shed in the winter!"
Remus dropped the paper of Sirius' head and huffed. "Oh shut up, it's not as humiliating as... hmmm... a four hour long breakup?"
"WE SAID WE WOULD NEVER SPEAK OF THAT!" Sirius yelled through the paper. "...LITTLE SHIT."
"Little shit who is one of the few people out there willing to snog you." Remus said evenly, kissing Sirius through the paper.
"STILL A LITTLE SHIT." Sirius batted away Remus. "I don't want kisses now. Get this thing off me!"
A/N: I HAVE NO IDEA
THE THEME OF THIS CHAPTER IS SCREAMING
ALL REVIEWS MUST BE POSTED IN CAPS.