A/N: THIRTY-FOUR REVIEWS! *passes out Kleenex* You're going to need those. You guests need to login so I can mail you. I leave you on a cliffhanger WITH NO SHAME. Bwahaha... Now for Doomsday feels. Please listen to sad music while reading this. You'll cry like I did when I wrote it.

"He's not going to be alone again.", Rose's voice rang through the almost empty room as she materialized.

The Doctor looked gaped up at her. Ten minutes ago he had made her go to the parallel world. He should be mad at her for leaving it, but he wasn't, but he had to be anyway. The Doctor backed her up against a desk and turned on the Oncoming Storm.

"Once the breach collapses, that's it! You will never be able to see her again- your own mother!", he yelled.
Rose spoke softly, but firmly. She wasn't intimidated by his anger, knowing that she wasn't the reason he was mad, it was the situation.

"I made my choice a long time ago and I'm never going to leave you. I said forever and I meant it." He breath hitched the tiniest bit and there was an awkward pause before she continued. "So what can I do to help?"

The Doctor regained his bearings and pointed to a computer. "Those coordinates over there, set them all at six and hurry up."

Rose picked up her medallion, threw it across the room, and started typing on the computer.

"We've got Cybermen on the way up."
The Doctor looked over at her worriedly. "How many floors down?"
"Just one."

He started typing furiously on another computer and smiled when he got the levers working.
Rose grinned at him. "That's more like it. Bit of a smile. The old team."
"Hope and Glory, Mutt and Jeff, Shiver and Shake."
"Which one's Shiver?", she asked with her tongue poking through her teeth.
"Oh, I'm Shake."

The Doctor handed her one of the magnaclamps and they secured them against the wall. The Doctor swallowed his foreboding to explain how to use them.
"Now when it starts, just hold on tight. Shouldn't be too bad for us but the Daleks and the Cybermen are steeped in Void stuff. Are you ready?"
Rose looked out the window and back to him. "So are they."
"Let's do it."

They pulled the levers and then ran to hold on the magnaclamps. The wall opposite of them opened up to the Void and started sucking the Cyberman and Daleks in while pulling on them. The Doctor couldn't help but feel happy to see them being pulled in their final detestation, the Void, an endless white Hell. He'd never see them again. He and Rose would go on and fight other battles instead.

The there was a Dalek. Just one that was no different from all the rest, but it would make the most heart difference for the rest of his life. It had to fly on Rose's side and hit the lever. She looked over at him when the suction of the Void started to decrease. The Doctor knew what she was going to do. He wanted to stop her, but he didn't have the voice or power to. Rose reached for the lever to pull it back, but she wasn't strong enough.

She knew this would be it. She knew it was the lever started to fall back, but she wouldn't accept it. The least Rose could do for the Doctor after all he'd done for her is end his suffering, his pain. Surely she could reach the lever and pull the Daleks, the destroyers of his home, into the Void.

"I've got to get it upright!" was the last thing she said before letting go of the mangaclamp. She managed to get a hold of the lever and managed to pull it back. She let a sigh of relief as the computer told them it was online and locked. However, when the suction started building up, she pulled backwards. Rose held on to the lever, knowing it was her key to her life, her world. She could feel her fingers slipping slowly as the Doctor yelled at her to hold on.

The Doctor hearts stopped as she let go of the mangaclamp. She wouldn't be able to do it, he thought. But of course his pink-and-yellow human (as he fondly called her in his ninth form) always surprised him. She pulled the lever back so it was online and locked. She looked over him her face the picture of raw fear and she being pulled horizontally towards the Void. He yelled at her to hold on, as if it would help, but her fingers were slipping. Slowly, but surely. One by one until he thought his hearts would stop for good. He didn't even knew he was screaming or that his sense of time was gone as she flew backwards.

Time crawled on it's knees and she knew she would die the moment her fingers slipped. Rose Tyler, the Valiant Child, would die in battle defending the Earth. Never to be seen again. The Bad Wolf, supposed goddess of time itself, vanished. Left in the pit of the hellish Void for all eternity, slowly going mad. The face of Doctor would kill her on the way first. Not once did she see pain like that. It was raw terror, fear, and loneliness all rolled up in one uncensored image that would scar her for life. Perhaps the Doctor did love her some, if he was this afraid of losing her. Not that that it mattered now, she bitterly thought. She wanted to say something to him, but her mouth wouldn't work.

And then it all stopped-

-and for one joyful moment in time the world was happy. The Void had closed and the roaring in her ears was the only thing left of the whole ordeal. But by looking up at Pete, the man who wasn't her dad, her world collapsed. She knew why he was here, to collect her. Take her away from the Doctor. Possibly save her life, yes, but at what cost? The inside of her would be dead.

She looked back at the Doctor who gaped at Pete. The look of terror still on his face, his voice raw from screaming her name, and one lone tear on his face. The only tear she'd ever seen him cry.

He looked at her and his mind ceased to work. She would be saved from the Void, yet still gone. Back to where he sent her in the first place. The last thing he saw was her look at him with a face that could only be described as a lover's last look as their cherished one dies. And that was his breaking point.

Yes, the inside of her was already dead, she thought as he vanished and a dark wall replaced it. She ran to the wall and hit repeatably, yelling for someone to take her back. Tears flowed freely and without shame. She heard Pete say that the Doctor closed the breach. Rose stopped for one moment and laid her sobbing form against the wall. She closed her eyes and tried all the telepathic power she could muster into feeling him. She put her empty hand up against the wall and it felt as though he was there, returning the same gesture.

The Doctor walked to the wall having wiped off his lone tear. He wouldn't cry, not yet. He leaned against the wall. It was as though he could break it down and she was be on the other side, waiting for him with that Rose Tyler grin and an outstretched hand that would fit perfectly in his. Maybe it could still be there. If he was fast enough and tried hard enough. He ran to his TARDIS, ignoring everyone that he passed. Maybe, just this once, he could get somebody he loved back.

A grandfather and his ginger granddaughter had stepped in the room and they saw a man with sticky-up hair leaning against the wall, mourning something. Robots had flown through the air and into the window of this room and was naturally curious. He stepped out of the way as the man went running to a blue box and stepped inside. They gaped at it while it disappeared.

As the feeling went away, Rose slid down the wall to her knees. Her hands clenched into fists as a shudder ripped through her body as her chest seemed to cave in on itself. Tears soaked her face and her mascara ran past her eyes. Never in her life had she felt such pain and loneliness, it felt familiar, although it shouldn't. He was the man she loved, for real. It wasn't like the contract she had with Jimmy or the obligation she had felt with Mickey. It was real love and she never got to tell him because she would only accept it now. But she would never see him again. They had closed the Void forever and there was a part of Rose that went with it that Pete couldn't catch.

She curled up on the floor, choking on her sobs, while her heart feeling as though a thousand Daleks were exterminating it. Rose felt someone lift her head into her lap and brush her hair to the side. The person rubbed her back and whispered comforting words. She stayed like that for hours until she was only hiccuping. She turned her head from the person's soaked knees to look at their face. It was her mum. She scrambled to her knees to hug her and hold her close. She felt her mum's tears as she rocked her back forth.

"I- I won't ever see him again, mum.", Rose choked.
"I know. I'm so sorry."
"I- I- didn't even get to tell him."
"He knew, love."

"How long- How long has it been."
"Six hours."

Rose started crying again. "He always said to wait five and half hours."

The Doctor got back to the TARDIS and searched to the room with all his physic textbooks. If he hurried, he might be able to find an opening and pull the TARDIS through and get Rose back. It was selfish, he knew. He shouldn't be risking the walls of the universe, but he had to try because he realised something as his Rose was harshly pulled away from him. He loved her, and when he saw her again, he'd tell her. He was already breaking so many rules by even traveling with her and finding a way to the other universe. One more wasn't going to stop him.

A month later, a unbelievably thin Rose woke up in bed in Pete's mansion. She refused to call it home. Her home was in the other universe, a small blue and somewhat magical box. She had decided something last night. It was her last night mourning. In her grief last night, she had resorted to something she hadn't for years. Rose had cut herself. It really had surprised her after she'd done it and she knew she needed help. It had taken her over a year to stop cutting last time she started.
Rose pulled her reluctant body out of bed. Her stomach growled. She sighed and looked around the empty room. There was the bed she was on, a dresser with mirror, and a desk with her cold TARDIS key laying on it. There were no decorations, no colour, no pictures. She silently cried when she thought of her TARDIS room with it's starry ceiling and hundreds of pictures from her and the Doctor's adventures.
She pulled on a pair of socks and pulled her hair into a ponytail. She looked at herself in the bathroom. Her face was pale and gaunt, free of makeup. Her hoodie and sweats barely hung on her all to thin frame. Sighing, she walked out of the bathroom and grabbed her TARDIS key and pulled it over her neck. She padded out of the room and down the hallway to the stairs. Using the cuff of her hoodie, she wiped the tears off her face before entering the kitchen.

"Mum?"

Jackie nearly choked as she saw Rose in the doorway. She hadn't come out of her room for a month.

"Rose? Are you hungry?"
Rose nodded and sat at the table. Her mum got her a bowl of cereal that she started downing instantly. She stopped when her mom saw the cut on her wrist. They met eye to eye and Rose looked down at the table.

"Rose-"
"Mum, I need help.", she choked. Jackie held her while she cried again.

The Doctor let out a loud 'ha' as he finished the equation he needed. He sobered up when he realised it had been two hours. He wouldn't be able to get the TARDIS. He groaned and rubbed his face with his hands.
Separation from Rose was inevitable, but at least they'd get a proper goodbye. He ran to the console to search for a star big enough and far enough away from any inhabited planets then he'd need to rewire some of the console to use the star's power.

Rose walked out of the Torchwood's counselor's office. She felt better than she had for the last two months. She still cried when she thought about the Doctor, but at least it wasn't as heart wrenching. Well, unless you counted at night. Or when she reached for a hand that wasn't there. Or turned around to accidentally pull a stranger into a hug.
Scratch that, she thought. It still hurt horribly to think about the Doctor, but at least now she had someone to talk to that would set her straight and not just comfort her. Her counselor, Analise, encouraged her to find a job at Torchwood, so she decided to start going through certifications and training. Pete was director now, so it was different. The Doctor would be proud.
Rose got in her car and went to met her mom for lunch. She checked her makeup for smears in the mirrors and turned on the car. She smiled thinking about her mum having a baby. Jackie and Pete wanted children, but weren't able to have any together. They had done a procedure last week and were supposed to get the result back today. Rose wondered if she wanted a little sister or a little brother as she pulled out of the parking lot.

The Doctor jumped around the console, pressing buttons and trying to harness the star's power. It would burn and might damage the TARDIS in the process, but it was worth one last goodbye. Finally getting it, he called out into mind for Rose.

"Rose. Rose."

Rose woke up from her all to real dream. Or maybe it wasn't a dream. She had dreamt every night about the adventure her and the Doctor had, but this one was real. She could actually her his voice calling to her. Even now she could hear it. Rose sat up with widen eyes when she realised what it was. He was trying to reach her telepathically. She ran to Pete and Jackie's room to tell them.

A week later found them on a Norway beach named Bad Wolf Bay, much to Rose's bitter amusement. She looked around the cold beach and kept walking until she heard the voice stop. Rose turned to the ocean to watch and wait until she heard a voice beside her. She whipped around the see the Doctor. She wanted to laugh or cry. Maybe throw her arms around him and declare her love.

"Where are you?", she managed to choke out with a smile.

The Doctor swallowed at seeing her so thin and gaunt, and her eyes hollow. "Inside the TARDIS. There's one tiny little gap in the universe left. It's about to close and it takes a lot of power to send this projection. I'm in orbit around a super nova." He looked at her and chuckled. "I'm burning up a sun just to say goodbye."

Rose knew what it meant for him to destroy a part of the universe just to say goodbye to her. She wiped a tear from her eye. "You look like a ghost."
The Doctor frowned and pointed his sonic screwdriver at something. "Hold on"
Rose reached out for his face, aching for his touch. "Can I-"
He shook his head sadly. "I'm still just an image. No touch."
Rose bit her lip in effort to keep the tears at bay. "Can't you come through properly?"
"The whole thing would fracture. Two universes would collapse.", he choked
"So?", she said softly. He looked her in the eye and they both knew that they couldn't do that.

The Doctor took a breath and stuffed his hands in his pockets. "So where are we?"
"We're in Norway."
"Norway. Right.", he said slightly sarcastic
"It's about fifty miles out of Burgen. It's called 'Dårlig Ulv Stranden'."
He looked appalled. "Dalek?"
"Dårlig.", she corrected him. "It's Norwegian for bad. This translates as Bad Wolf Bay." They both smiled at each other.

Rose took a deep breath. "How long have we got?"
"About two minutes."
Rose shook her head. All the things they had done together, all the people they'd met and saved, all the time spent and she didn't know what to do the last two minutes with him. "I can't think of what to say!"

The Doctor nodded to the jeep. "You've still got Mister Mickey, then?"
Rose smiled. "There's five of us now. Mum, Dad, Mickey and the baby."
The Doctor was shocked, remembering the planet they had went to before being seperated. "You're not-"

Rose shook her head sadly. She thought maybe she was pregnant a month after she had come here, only to find out she couldn't have children. She suspected it had something to do with the Xhinn's experimentation. "No. It's mum. She's three months gone. More Tylers on the way."
The Doctor smiled. "And what about you?"
Rose shrugged her shoulders. "Yeah, I'm back working in the shop.", she lied.
"Oh, good for you.", he said nonchalantly, knowing that she had hated the shop.
Rose smirked at him. "Shut up. No, I'm not. There's still a Torchwood on this planet. It's open for business. I think I know a thing or two about aliens."
The Doctor gave her a real grin. "Rose Tyler, Defender of the Earth. Can't disagree with that."

Rose smiled and there was a bit of silence. They both knew their time was almost up and they'd never see each other again.

"You're dead, officially, back home. So many people died that day and you've gone missing. You're on a list of the dead. Yet, here you are, living a life day after day. The one adventure I can never have."

'Without you. The one adventure I didn't want.', thought Rose tearfully.

"Am I ever going to see you again?", she cried, her tears smearing her mascara.
The Doctor swallowed a lump in his throat and shook his hand. "You can't."
"What're you going to do?", she choked.
"Oh-" The Doctor looked off in the distance, trying not to let his tears fall. "I've got the TARDIS Same old life, last of the Time Lords."
"On your own."

He didn't have answer for that and she knew it time. She never see him again. Ever. Rose Tyler, now Defender of the Earth, was stuck without the man she loved and she hadn't told him yet. There was a time when she was embarrassed to let him see her cry, but know she let the tears run unashamedly down her face.

"I-", she choked and wiped her face as her heart clenched. "I love you."

The Doctor let a tear fall and he didn't care. "Quite right, too.", he whispered. "And I suppose- If it's my one last chance to say it- Rose Tyler, I-"

His image faded and Rose trembled and fell to her knees, sobbing. His "I love you", that was rarely spoken between his people, bounced through the empty TARDIS walls in his ears, but he could still see her. She stood up with tears streaming down her face and he tried to use the sonic screwdriver so she could she him again. He had to tell her.
But she couldn't see him. Rose Tyler, his brave pink-and-yellow human separated from her home, stood and wiped her eyes. He saw as her eyes flashed gold and she turned her anger to the universe.

"I WILL FIND HIM.", she yelled. He sobbed and smiled, thinking that she could give his Oncoming Storm a run for it's money. "I WILL TEAR A BLOODY HOLE IN THESE UNIVERSES, STEP THROUGH IT, AND PUT THEM BACK TOGETHER IF I HAVE TO."
Hot , angry tears splashed down her face as she stamped her foot and tried to breathe. All he wanted to is hold her in his arms and comfort her. The last thing he saw was her crumpled, crying form, clutching her TARDIS key.

She yelled her promise to the universe and meant to keep it. Then she fell to her knees, emotionally and physically spent. She held the key around her neck like a lifeline and cried for the Doctor, the stars, and all the unfairness in the universe.

A/N: And that's part one folks! Stay tuned for an author note regrading part two.