Disclaimer: I do not own Camp Rock.
Thank You for all the reviews, I'm so happy. I love feedback. I just want to clear up one thing that was written. In reply to a review. Mitchie's mother doesn't have cancer and has been at the camp since the start of the story.
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Chapter 14
Mitchie POV
I had managed to avoid Shane and the kitchen for the rest of the day. I still hung over about what I had said to him yesterday morning. Some of it was true like what I said about him trying to please everyone and how he hides behind his image. As for the other stuff I said, I was so worked up with everything I guess I didn't think before I spoke. I didn't mean to say what I did but I did have my doubts about how we both felt about each other, but looking back I wish I could have taken it back.
Somehow I ended up in the dining hall where I first played "This Is Me" last summer. It was where Shane first heard me sing, but he didn't know it was me until I preformed it at Final Jam. I sat at the piano and played the first note of the song. It brought back memories of Final Jam last year, of how happy I had become. I smiled and started the melody; it always felt good to sing the song.
I've always been the kind of girl This is real, this is me Do you know what it's like This is real, This is me
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I have this dream
Right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time
To let you know
To let you know
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
I heard the door open behind me. Was it Shane? I felt my heartbeat rise, I part of me wanted to run and the other half wanted it to be him. I turned my head and saw that it wasn't Shane but instead Nate at the door. I was a bit disappointed that it wasn't Shane and I guess it showed.
"Expecting someone in particular?" Nate sat beside me at the piano.
"Not really," I answered.
"You sounded good. You looked happy playing the song."
"I was. I love that song," I started playing a soft melody. Nate just listened.
"He's a wreck Mitchie," Nate said softly. I stopped playing, "and I know you're a wreck too. You still care about him. I can see it he your eyes." I nodded.
"You're right. I do care." I looked at him with sad eyes.
"Then why don't you forgive him? You can work it out. Him and Kate were the past and will stay in the past. Let it go. He's different now. Shane's a changed person thanks to you. Before, I barely knew my best friend and now he is like what is was before fame got to him. And I'll forever be grateful to you for finding him. He's a happier person since you came and I want him to be happy. That's why I put up with his Mitchie ramble all the time about how you're amazing, caring, and a understanding person who doesn't judge people on their mistakes, and how proud he is just to know you. Be that person Mitchie. Don't be like other people because you are no just a somebody to him, you are all that matters to him."
With that Nate stood and left me thinking about what he said. I played another note and starting singing where I left off with high emotion.
You're the voice I hear inside my head This is real, this is me
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you, I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you, I gotta find you
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me (this is me)
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
Little did I know Nate was outside the window and watched me finish the song. He walked away with a smile on his face.
Shane POV
I hadn't seen Mitchie since breakfast yesterday. She didn't come in for duty since and we both managed to avoid each other since. I walked into the kitchen for dinner duty and saw Connie sitting with a pile of potatoes, I must have been early.
"Hello Shane," she gave me a loving smile.
"Hi Mrs. Torres," I walked to her.
"Please call me Connie. My mother in law isn't here," she joked I gave a light hearted laugh. She started to peel. I took a seat across the table.
"Would you like me to peel some?" I asked.
"Sure," she handed me a potato peeler. We sat there in silence expect for the sounds of the peelers at work. I was deep in thought when Connie looked at me.
"What's on your mind Shane?" Connie asked and placed a bare potato in a bowl.
"A lot of things, I guess," I shrugged.
"Anything you want to talk about?" Connie raised her eyebrows at me, "Someone in particular?" I looked at her.
"I guess you know what happened?" She nods. I gave her an awkward laugh and scratched the back of my head. I tended to do that when I was nervous. I felt a bit uncomfortable yet comfortable to talk to her, like she'll know what to do. I sighed I didn't know where to start because I had so much on my mind.
"Did you ever do something in the past, not knowing the consequences you regret today?" I asked Connie.
"We all make mistakes Shane, it's part of being human, but we shouldn't necessarily regret them. They help us life lessons we can only learn with experience. We should learn and grow from them so we don't make the same mistakes again."
"I surely won't be making the same mistake," I said. "Do you think people can regret falling in love with someone?" I asked in a very curious tone. Connie laughed.
"You do have a lot on your mind?" I nodded.
"No. I think two people don't regret it. As a matter of fact, I think people don't fall out of love with someone. I think people become confused and doubt everything they have. They may think they are out of love but really they are in denial," I listened interested in what she had to say and thought of Mitchie.
"She loves you Shane," she says as if she knew what I was thinking. I look at my half peeled potato, "She does. I sometimes catch her daydreaming and I know she cares a picture of you in her pockets. When she thinks I'm not looking she peeks at it look. She's just confused about things. She doesn't have many people like you who she could truly trust."
"And I ruined it," I mumbled, "Everything she believed in she saw it in me and it gave hope and confidence and with everything that happened, she thinks I'm a fake so to speak," Connie nodded and placed her hand over his.
"Just give her a bit more time, she will come around on her own but don't give up."
I smiled and chuckled.
"You sound like Nate," I told her. Before I got back to my peeling Mitchie entered and looked at me and walked to the sink.
Connie left to find Brown to confirm tomorrow's special menu for the Rock'n Roll Jam. She left Mitchie in charge of the stove and oven and left me in charge of mixing the cake batter for dessert. We didn't talk or look at each other, just stayed occupied with our tasks.
I knew nothing about cooking which included the functions of various equipments. Since I had to mix the batter I grabbed the blender since it was the only thing I am familiar with. I opened the top and poured in the content and plugged it in. 'Easy as pie,' I thought. I spoke too soon. As soon I turned it on, everything that was in the blender shot up from the top, which I forgot to close and splattered all over the place and me. I unplugged it and looked at myself. What happened next I shocked me. I heard something I hadn't heard in a long time Mitchie's laughter.
I turned and looked at her. She just laughed harder and pointed at me. I don't know why but I started to laugh along with her. We laughed and laughed. Twenty minutes later, the kitchen was cleaned with Mitchie's help and we sat on the counter trying to pick out the batter from my hair.
"Why were you laughing?" I asked her.
"Seeing you with batter in your hair reminded me of my birthday last year," she replied. I smiled at the memory.
Mitchie POV
Flashback
It was about a month or so since I had last seen Shane. It was my birthday and I wanted to spend it with him but he was in L.A recording a new album with Nate and Jason. I came home from school to an unlocked door which frightened me. My mother was at a catering event and my father was working at his shop and wouldn't be home till late. I entered quietly and grabbed an umbrella that stood by the door.
"Hello," I called out and heard a banging noise from the kitchen. I walked carefully to the kitchen and expected to see a robber but instead saw Shane standing there with cake batter in his hair and the kitchen was a mess.
"Surprise," he said. I was shocked. I didn't know whether I was more shocked to see Shane or my kitchen. After I thought about it, the kitchen could wait so I ran into my boyfriends messy arms.
"What are you doing here?" I asked.
"I didn't want to miss my girlfriend's birthday," he kissed me. We made out for a few minutes before I pulled back. I looked around at the mess.
"What are you trying to do?" I asked.
"Make a birthday cake," he replied. I looked in the pan and there wasn't much. "I was mixing the batter and it splattered all over the place." He pointed to the blender.
"In a blender?" I gave him a weird look.
"Well…ya. It's a blender which blends things," he looked confused.
"You're supposed to use a cake mixer," I pulled one out.
"Well that makes senses," I pulled my hair back and rolled up my sleeves. "Let's finish. We started from scratched because the "batter" Shane attempted to make was not editable. I showed him everything from how to crack eggs to how use the mixer but it was useless. We got into a fight with the flour and messed the kitchen even more. After about an hour we cuddled on the kitchen floor.
"That was the best cake ever," I had flour all over my hair and face. Shane laughed. The cake never got made.
"Wait one thing is missing," he pulled out a candle and lit it, "Make a wish."
I blew it out. "I don't need to. My wish came true," I said and leaned in and kissed him.
End of Flashback
Shane POV
"You know I'm useless," I tell her after she finished the story. She nods in agreement, "You would think I would of remembered to use a mixer." We laughed. I know I should have waited but I needed to know, "Hate to spoil the moment but what is this?" I pointed between us. She looked at me and didn't look mad, I had hope.
"I still care about you deeply despite what I said," my eyes lit up and I smiled, "but, I think we should be just friends." And just like that the light in my eye faded and my smile dropped.
Disclaimer: I do not own the song This is Me.
Just friends ouch! I hope you all like the chapter. I at originally planned a Mitchie and Kate scene but I didn't know how to lead up to it and what would have talked about. Next chapter will include the Rock N' Roll Jam. Please let me know which songs you want.
Shane: Invisible or Stay
Mitchie: Gift of a Friend or Two Worlds Collide
(I'm having a hard time with Mitchie, I want something she wrote during the break up) What's Good?
Author Note: I will be editing more chapters. I've been going back and re reading the other chapters and find new mistakes every time. I'll keep you posted on my progress.