Why was I doing this? I thought as I trudged my way slowly back up to the Lightwood manor. I would've had to come back here anyway, I lost one of my necklaces here yesterday. My heart was beating a mile a minute, my palms still sweaty as I wiped them once again on the sides of my jacket. My worn and well used trainers scraped against the ground as my heart rate somehow increased. No matter how slow I walked, I got to the Lightwood house in mere minutes, seeing as it was only a block down from the Blackthorn house.

Tentatively, I used the almost ancient looking door knocker, that eerily reminded me of a Christmas carol, and knocked 3 times. Izzy opened the door, her face looking stressed. She relaxed slightly however as she saw it was me.

"Oh hey Clary, I thought you were Jon."

"Nah, I'm way better looking anyway" I joked to ease the tension. "Is Jace still here?"

"Yeah, he's sulking in his room I think, did something happen between you guys?"

"Yeah, but don't worry, I'm going to make up for it."

"Good, Jace is super unbearable when he's upset, like a girl on a heavy period really. " even though she made a joke about it, I could here the serious undertone to it. There was still a tense and stressed look in Izzy's face.

"Is everything okay Izzy?" I asked. Izzy slightly teared up.

"Ill tell you later. now go and see Jace." Izzy pushed me towards the stairs. she then left for the kitchen. I just hoped that she wasn't cooking anything, I had been warned before about her culinary skills, or moreover lack of. I started to ascend up the grand stairs and towards the room that held him. My palms were sweaty once again, the tell tale sign of how nervous I was. There was a sense of Déjà vu when I stood in front of a door again, ready to knock. But before I had the chance to, the door was opened, revealing a sad and now slightly startled looking Jace. He held a towel in his hands, presumably for a shower.

"Clary?" He was definitely shocked.

"Hi" I said rather awkwardly, "can I come in?" my voice was hesitant. Jace's face hardened.

"Sure" He quipped out passive aggressively. This was going to be hard. I went inside of his room, it was freakishly neat and bare, like one of the bedrooms from an IKEA store. I sat down on the bed, crinkling the sheets. Jace sat beside me, tense. I faced him before talking.

"I just want to start off by saying that I don't regret us kissing this morning, but I do regret leaving. I- I met Aline earlier, and she made me realise that I should give you a chance."

"Look Clary, I really like you, but do you like me? I don't want to be strung along by you-" Jace cut in.

"I never wanted to string you along Jace! cant you see that I'm scared. I've only ever been in one relationship before, and you know how that turned out!" I shouted, Sebastian smirking face flashed in front of me, and my heart rate increased. "Can't you see how hard this is, I want to be with you, I like you. But I'm so scared." I broke off, masking a sob for a cough, I wiped my hand over my eyes, making sure that I wasn't crying.

"Well If you like me, we could make this work? I want to make it work, I can help you Clary, I really like you, all you have to do is let me-" I was the one to cut him off this time, kissing him. once his shock wore off, he kissed me back desperately. We kissed for quite awhile after that, eventually having a full blown make out session, he was a really good kisser. when we had finally separated, both of us were breathless. "Is that a yes then?" Jace asked smiling.

"Well it depends what the question is. "I teased him.

"Okay, Clarissa Fray, will you do the honour of going out with me and showing you what a real boyfriend is like?" Jace laughed, but his eyes were serious, hopeful.

Don't do this Clary, if he ever finds out about Jace. He'd kill both of you the voice inside of my head whispered, terrified. But I ignored it for once and went with what my heart wanted, not my head.

"Yes" and then I returned to kissing him.

Both Jace eventually broke from out kissing to go downstairs to have break- well more of an early lunch now. Holding hands, we descended down the stairs where we were met with the smell of pancakes. Behind the stove was Magnus, who had clearly stayed the night and was now flipping pancakes. We both turned to look at a dreamy looking Alec, who was staring at his glittery boyfriend. Magnus caught him looking and blew a kiss. I coughed awkwardly to show our presence. Both of them looked slightly bewildered, like deer's caught in the headlights. Jace laughed before separating from me and heading towards the plate filled with pancakes. They all started laughing over something silly.

Meanwhile my focus had changed to Izzy, who seemed to be sulking in the corner.

"Izzy, do you want to talk?-"

"Nothing's wrong really, its just Jon and I going through a rough patch." Izzy spoke, smiling sadly.

"What happened?"

"Both of us like different people I think, but we still both like each other, we'll get over it though, don't worry about me, really."

"Well have you talked about it properly?" I asked.

"Yesterday." She replied.

"Well weren't you both drunk?"

"yes, and that was the most truthful we've been to each other lately, we haven't had a fully honest conversation in ages. Maybe it isn't meant to last"

"Well, you'll just have to do what's best for you." I finished. what else could I do?

Heyy, from now on I'll be updating every Thursday. just get ready as things will be heating up next chapter... Anyway, please review and tell me what you think. Reviews help motivate me. well till next week.

-Ruby |-/