Deeks tossed and turned restlessly that night, sleep seemed impossible at the moment. Everything he had ever wanted, everything he has ever had, was laying in her bed across the hall asleep, completely clueless. He wanted more then anything to be in that bed by her side, to have her warm body pressed against his, to have her snoring in his ear and hogging all the covers. God, he wanted those days back. Deeks rolled over to his back looking up at the ceiling. He was just about to close his eyes and attempt to sleep again, when he heard Kensi. At first he thought she was just talking in her sleep like normal, but then she cried out for him, a helpless horrifying cry. Deeks climbed out of bed and made his way across the hall to Kensi's room.

"Kens." He said as he tapped on her door. She didn't respond. Honestly he didn't really think she would. "I'm opening the door Kens, don't shot me." He explained just incase she was awake.

He cracked the door open to find Kensi laying on her stomach(the way she slept most nights), but he could tell she was having a nightmare. Deeks had spent enough time by her side to know how she slept when she was happy, when she was angry, and when she was terrified. This was defiantly terrified Kensi. Deeks kneeled down beside the bed, reaching out he took the back of his hand and brushed gently across her jaw. "Wake up Princess, its only a dream." He whispered tenderly to her.

Kensi was confused as she woke from her dream to the reality of Deeks gentle touch to her jaw. Kensi tried to remember what she was dreaming, Deeks watched her as he continued to rub his fingers across her jaw. Then all of a sudden Kensi sat straight up in the bed, and looked horrified.

"Its ok Kens, it was only a nightmare." Deeks explained.

"No it wasn't. It was real." Kensi said.

Deeks sat down on the bed next to Kensi, "Usually I am really good at following you Kens, but its two in the morning and I haven't the slightest idea what you're talking about." Deeks said. Kensi turned her head to the side, hesitating for a brief moment, she reached out to Deeks and ran her fingers across his jaw mirroring what he had just been doing to her only minuets before.

"You were hurt." She said as she traced his jaw line with her fingertips. Deeks put his hand on top of Kensi's to still her movements. He closed his eyes at the feel of her touch on his face, he nuzzled gently against her hand. "I'm ok." He said.

"But you weren't. Were you? Something.. No someone hurt you. Didn't they?" Kensi questioned.

"Kensi." Deeks pleaded with her. He was begging her to drop this, praying like hell she would let this one go. But knowing Kensi the way he did, he knew it wasn't going to play out like that. He decided there would be no getting around this, no avoiding the subject, she was to stubborn for that. "What did you see?" He asked.

"We were somewhere dark, I don't know where it was. You were hurt, it was your face or your mouth um..I don't really know. There was blood all over the place, and you were so afraid. You called out to me to help you. But I never did. Did I?"

"You did what you had to do." He replied.

Kensi shook her head, "No! The hell with doing what I had to do, I should have done what I needed to do. What I wanted to do. I wanted to save you."

"You always save me Kens. You're the only thing that got me out of that place." Deeks explained. He could see Kensi was getting upset, he could see so much near the surface it was heartbreaking for him to watch this.

"Did I? Did I safe you? I cant remember." She said as she started to cry. "I cant see anything besides you. Your face, your fear, it's all I can see. All I can hear is your god awful screams as you cry out for me. So tell me please, tell me how I saved you." She desperately begged.

(Flashback )

"Hey." Kensi said as she entered the bullpen.

"Hey." Deeks answers back.

"What are you doing?" Kensi asked, as she noticed he was packing up his things from his locker.

"I don't know, I was just cleaning some stuff out, but I don't know."

"Listen I know what you're going through." Kensi said.

"I really hope that you never do." Deeks said honestly.

"If you want to talk about it, or not talk at all, I am here for you."

"I just want to take some time away from everything."

"And everyone?" Kensi asked broken hearted. "Right." She said when she didn't get a response from her partner. You could see the disappointment in her eyes, as she turned away from him.

"Kens." Deeks called out. He couldn't stand the look on her face. He didn't think he had ever seen her so disappointed as she was now. After everything they had been through, and everything they had shared, what was one more thing he thought to himself.

"Yeah." She answers turning back around to face her partner.

"I just want you to know, the place I went to in my head ,to stop the pain was you. I just kept thinking about your smile, your laugh, everything. It's the only thing that got me through. I just thought you should know. For whatever its worth." Deeks explained.

(End flashback)

"That is how you saved me. Everyday you save me Kens, because your you, because you're here." He admitted to her.

She didn't know what came over in the next moment, she didn't know what had given her the courage to do it. Still sitting in her bed, she moved herself to where she was sitting on her knees, and facing Deeks. She leaned into him, grabbed his face, and kissed him. Deeks didn't hesitate, he didn't question her actions, he threaded is fingers in her hair and brought her closer to him. She wrapped her arms around his neck, and straddled his lap. His hands went instinctively to her hips. It didn't take long for their kiss to get heated. Deeks pulled back first and was greeted with the sight of his wide eyed partner.

"That is not the first time I have kissed you." She said. She let her tongue dart out over her bottom lip to savor the taste of him that was still lingering there.

"No its not." Deeks said.

Kensi pressed her forehead against his, she ran her fingers through his blonde hair, then whispered in his ear, "This is not the first time you will have ever made love to me either is it?" She questioned. She looked at him square in the eye, her passion evident in that single look she shared with him.

"Kens, as much as I want to, and God do I want to. I think we should wait till you get your memory back and can remember us." Deeks explained as he his thumbs gently rubbed the exposed flesh over her lower stomach that her shirt left exposed.

Kensi reached down taking one of Deeks hands off her hips, and placed it over her heart. "My memory may have left you, but my heart, she is a fixed point. Its been with you since the beginning, and will be as long as I can tell." She explained.

Deeks leaned in capturing her lips. This time it wasn't gentle, this time it wasn't sweet, it was passionate and filled with need and desire. She bit down on his bottom lip tugging at it gently with her teeth, as his hands began to wonder over her body. Deeks trailed kisses from her jaw, down her collarbone and to the top of her breasts that her tank top left him accesses to. Kensi whimpered as her partner skillfully assaulted her neck. He pushed down the strap of her top so he could suck at a particularly sensitive spot he knew she loved. She grabbed onto to his shoulders ,as he found that exact spot that turned her into a whimpering mess at the slightest touch of his mouth against her heated skin.

"Are you sure about this Kens." Deeks asked taking his lips away from her neck.

"I am sure about you. Now stop talking." She said breathlessly.

"You got it." Deeks agreed.

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