Mark helps Jeff off the hard ground, Jeff looks up at Mark with his misty blue eyes.
Mark places his arm around Jeff's shoulder, He eyes Gilbert, Mark's eyes were showing the anger boiling up inside.. It just took one wrong move and he would be ready to go off. Gilbert pursues to walk up to Mark and Jeff, He grabs Jeff's hand, Mark reacts swiftly and steps in front of Jeff, Being a human barrier between Jeff and his angry father. "I think you need to treat your son better." Mark says as he grabs Gilbert's wrist "I also think you need to let go of your son's arm like that, It looks like it may hurt." Mark whispers, Not soft spoken like you would assume from some-one whipsering, No it was completely different then that, Much more intense then you would think, It was demanding in that same rough voice that had capivated Jeff's attettion when they first meet. It demanded your focus, You just knew he wasn't playing around, Gilbert knew it too, He felt Mark's hand wrapped around his wrist tight, Gilbert scowls, "Let..go..of me damn you." Gilbert shakes his arm, Trying to get loose of this man's grip but the stranger was much more stronger then him. Mark just stands,scrutinynizing Gilbert while keeping a firm hold, Gilbert gets angry, He shouts as he tries once again to get out of the grip but Mark wasn't letting go for anything, It was like playing tug of war with a brick wall if that would even be possible. The brick wall would always win, And Gilbert found out that he wouldn't beable to get out of this man's grasp until the man was ready to let go.
Gilbert signs, He felt deflated, And for the first time he feels weak, Something that he despises.
"Please...le..t..me..go.." Gilbert whispers, His face lowered to the ground out of shame.
Jeff stood there looking around Mark's large frame to see his father, His father the weak one, The one who was weak, Jeff had a smirk on his face, He thought that maybe he shouldn't, Atfer-all he still didn't know what was gonna happen, And his father is surely gonna be pissed off more then ever. But it would probably be the only time that this would happen and to not take enjoyment out of it would be a waste, After-all his father deserved it, He was kinda of dissappointed that Mark didn't punch his father's lights out, Now that would have been a sight to see. Jeff was aware that he wasn't feeling the feelings that he probably should have been feeling for his father during this time, But why should he feel ashamed for his feelings, No-one lived his life, No-one else knew how painful his life had been so why should he care on what those people think, They had no idea on the things he's had to go through, No-one knows of the horrible things that his father has imparted upon him and his life. The things that he will have to live with and carry for the rest of his life, The struggles he'll have to go through. He deserves at-least once in his life this feeling of standing tall, While his father is beaten down, Maybe not the way Jeff would like, But mentally beaten down is an alright solution too.
Mark turns to look at Jeff, He smiles, Jeff blinks. You have such a beufiful smile mister Jeff thinks.
"Now, Are you gonna treat your son the way a caring father should treat them?." Mark asks as he loosens his grip.
Gilbert was still holding onto Jeff's arm, He nods reluctly and lets go of Jeff.
Mark smiles wide "Good." Mark in return lets go of Gilbert's wrist.
Mark's grasp had left a nice red mark around Gilbert's wrist.
Sure to be there for a hour at the most, He might even have a bruise.
Gilbert coughs and then steps back "Jeff, Please come in-side." Gilbert then gazes at Mark one last time, His eyes were flat and he had the most pityful reaction plastered on his face, Mark just huffs and Gilbert turns around and heads in-doors.
"With his tail between his legs." Jeff laughs
Mark looks at his watch "Look kid, I'm late now.."
Jeff looks hurt but Mark reassures him with a smile " I wasn't implying that I was mad at ya kid, Just saying that I've gotta get going, It was fun but it's almost 7:30 at night." Mark replies.
And as soon as that's said, Jeff almost with-out his knowalde or approval, He leans and pulls his arms around Mark's body, He didn't even remember doing it, Until he regains sense, And feels Mark's waist along with other things. That man was tall. Jeff barely was tall enough to reach the man's chest-nipples, Not that I was thinking of his chest or of his nipples Jeff thinks.
He shly smiles "...Sor...ry" He stutters. Mark just looks down at this shy kid, With his face all bright red and his fingers tapping on his stomach like he was just waiting for this man to leave so that he could exhale, I swear that kid ain't breathing. I don't wanna make the kid die on me just cause I make him nervous. Man, Why does this always happen?. Mark thinks Wait, Correction, This AIN'T ever happened before. Sure it's happened with women, Women that are of my own age but this kid, I don't want someone to think I'm some sinko, Cause I'm not but this kid is really making me think twice on how I approach certain things, Like tonight, Why would anyone do this,Why did I do this, Sure I was just trying to help a kid out and I would never even think of liking a child and he surely is one but I can't help but want to stay here with him, Does that make me sick, Am I starting to feel things I shouldn't. I'm not saying I have any sexual feelings towards this kid, God I hope I never do, I just feel happy near him, And I have a feeling like he doesn't get much happiness in his life. And that in it-self makes me want to stay here with him, I want to make him smile, He deserves to have a happy life.
Mark knew of having those same feelings, He felt like he would never get through them and not having anyone to help him through it made it ten times worse,He had felt isolated and at times he was, Locking him-self in his room, Not coming out for anything, Not even showering for days, He was just so drowned in himself, In the depression. He had a lonely life, Not to say his life wasn't filled with happiness at times, Cause there were plenty of great years when he still had his folks, When he still had his baby brother around, But after the fire, after he was forced to be an orphan, All that changed, All those happy times faded like the memerios, All that destroyed his happiness, And He was in that same situation that this young man is in now, Feeling alone when there's millions of people in the world but no-one to help, He felt used and abused. Not all fixed on others, Some abuse was by his own hands, He dabbled in drugs and booze, Just trying to cling onto the hope that it was better to live then to be dead, But the drugs and the booze just made him want to be with his family more then ever. He only had one person who was partially there for him, Paul Bearer, He was a friend of the family, Aswell as a co-worker in Mark's family's funeral parlor, It was always a surprise to think back on what his family had did, Not just as a job but as a family tradetion, The funeral parlor was in the family for generations. Mark always thought it was ironic to think that his family had died in the house that had also served as a funeral parlor, He would have never thought that they would die in a fire, He thought they'd die from a car-accident, Anything but what was truely the case. Mark had to thank Paul Bearer for helping him out when-no-one else would, Not that he was really there for him mentally, He pretty much stole Mark's life insurance money and once that was out, Paul was gone. Mark never wanted Paul to act like his father because he would never be, But Mark just wanted someone to lay his feelings out on, Someone who would just sit and listen, Someone to place a comforting hand on his shoulder, Whispering that it'll be okay, Just like his mother used too. How he missed his family. To think that this kid has his father doing this to him, Enraged Mark. He couldn't believe it, To think on how this cowardly man treats his son. He would give anything to hear and see his parents calling out to him, To feel their loving arms wrap him up in a hug, To hear his baby brother stumbling up the hill of thier propety just like he used too when he was still on this earth, He would give anything at all to have them here, And here this man has his son and he treats him like a dog, How can anyone do that, He just couldn't understand it. It was beyond him to see why he would. Mark just wanted to be to Jeff what he always needed when he was going through his rough time, Along-time has passed since then but for this kid, He could still be helped.
"Look kid, If you need me, You call me." Mark scribbles something down on a match-box
"Here's my number, Anytime you need someone Kid." Mark assures
Jeff softly takes it from the man's fingertips "Thanks... I...I will." Jeff nods.
Mark nods back, He steps up to his motor-cycle. "Better get going in kid, I don't want your dad to get mad, Plus ain't you got school tomorrow morning." Mark asks.
Jeff rolls his eyes " Whatta you know, Your an old man." Jeff declares
Mark smiles " I'm not that old yet."
Jeff twiddles with his shirt "I guess you've missed your appointment, Sorry about that."
Mark shakes it off "It's not a big deal, It was just a dinner. I think they'll be fine with-or-with-out me."
Mark places his hand out in-front of Jeff.
Jeff didn't know what for at-first until Mark grabs his hand and gives it a firm handshake.
"See you around kid." Mark says his good-bye and heads on down the dark street.
Jeff looked at his hand, He didn't see the match-box with Mark's number, He panics, He starts looking all around his feet.
"Oh no, Don't tell me I lost it, How could I have lost it, He just gave it to me."
Just when Jeff starts going into full panic mode, He notices a white strip of something underneath his shoe, He steps back and picks it up, Sure enough it was the match-box. Jeff laughs while sticking it in his pocket and begins the slow walk to his apartment. He had a smile on his face, He had this desire to see Mark again, He didn't know if he would ever see him again but until that realization surfaces, He'll continue to have this smile on his face and the feeling that is rolling around in the pit of his stomach, What kind of feeling Jeff couldn't describe but he liked it, He liked it alot. He would hope that it would not ever go away.
It was funny, Jeff would have denied this to death if this was with any other person, Knowing that he could be feeling these kinds of things with someone who wasn't of the oppiste sex, Would have scared him so, It did, That's why he would make excuses for it. He wouldn't have ever liked it but something was different this time, It wasn't like those funny feelings he'd get when-ever he saw or heard Jay-Jay coming and his hard on afterwards, He hated feeling that reaction but it was automatic, He couldn't contain what those things made him feel, What it made him have to do, When he-himself came while thinking of things that he didn't want to think of, He had been trying to surpress these feelings for quite awhile now but this feeling for Mark it wasn't exactly the same, It wasn't a desire of sexual needs like with Jay-Jay or the men he'd think of during masterbation, It was something else, Love perhaps, But how could that be, We just meet, How could I have fell in love with someone I don't even know. If Jeff was ever confused before, Which he has been but this time would have to take the cake, I don't think I'll ever figure this one out for sure. I have the feelings but there different then usual, That was all Jeff could understand. All he could process at the moment. That and how beutiful his smile is.
TBC
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