A/N:
Ah yes the chapter is finally here, now I don't want to keep you too long so ill make this quick.
Dedications are now at the bottom, make sure you check then out if you have reviewed or favourited because you will be definitely be mention in one of the chapters :)
I shot a glance at Bella, her liquid gold eyes where wide in fear, her pupils dilated, she grabbed Edwards hand and they slowly moved closer to Renesmee and I did the same. Renesmee was still sleeping and Carlisle rushed over to her and pushed his fingers on her neck, then he checked his watch, we all looked at him and he studied the watch carefully.
"Now" he said to himself and he took his eyes away from the watch, removed his finger and looked at Renesmee.
She was lying flat on her back facing the ceiling, then her back arched, her chest was yanked up by some invisible force, her eyes opened and she quickly inhaled a deep breath, the sound that was produced wasn't right, the air seemed to whistle down her throat as she breathed it in. Renesmee's eyes where opened wide but they didn't once look at any of us, she stared up and then her eyes rolled up into her head and her back slumped down against the bed with such force that the bed moved back and hit the wall.
I watched in complete and utter horror, never in my life had I felt so useless and pathetic, Renesmee's body was limp, besides from the occasional fierce twitch of muscles, her face was what gave away her pain, her beautiful face which was so calm only seconds ago was now scrunched up In agony, her eyes squeezed shut and her neck and jaw tensed.
Bella was hysterical, sobbing without tears once again; she clutched onto Edwards arm frantically and looked toward Carlisle in desperation. Carlisle hovered around Renesmee checking her pulse and staring at her in complete concentration. I looked at Edwards face; the look resembled the won he wore when Renesmee was inside the human Bella breaking all her bones, his brow was frowned and eyes where black and projected sadness, he stared at Renesmee, concentrating deeply.
"Her venom is released" he whispered, not removing his gaze from his daughter.
Carlisle nodded, I looked toward Renesmee, her neck and jaw seemed to be forced up and her mouth opened to release the scream that I know had formed inside of her, yet nothing but the twisted sound of the scream and air came out, her jaw clenched. I noticed how her hands turned to claws and attempted to grab empty air, her fingers trembled and all of her movements where stiff.
Carlisle moved away from her for a slit second and then returned with vials of dark red blood in his hands, the look of concentration on his face was gone and there was now one of fierce desperation. Renesmee's body went into a spasm, her limbs jerked widely as if they where trying to pull themselves from her torso in effort to escape the pain, and Carlisle looked toward us all.
"Edward, help me hold her down!" he said through his teeth.
Edward approached hesitantly, and couldn't seem to touch her body, I didn't blame him, I was completely paralysed in fear, I could imagine having to hold Renesmee's thrashing body down. Carlisle looked at Edward and mentally pleaded with him, Edward touched Nessie's cheek then put his hand on her arms, Bella rushed over and cupped Nessie's face in her hands, she whispered reassuring promises as she stocked her cheek. Renesmee seemed to relax the tiniest bit at her parents touch and Carlisle took advantage of it and spilled one of the vials of blood into her open mouth, Renesmee chocked but yet swallowed the dark liquid, the chocking seemed to jolt her self control and she began thrashing around again and attempted to take constricting arms off her. I felt the urge to take Edward and Bella off her but I knew they where doing what they could to help her, more so than me. Carlisle continued to pour more and more blood own her throat until it got too much for her and her gagged then threw Edward and Bella off her easily. Edward and Bella landed neatly on their feet even tough the force that Renesmee applied threw them back past me, Renesmee let out a small whimper as more blood was given to her and I couldn't stand it anymore, I ran over to her and grabbed one of her hands that where clutching the bed, as soon as I touched her skin she jolted and then slowly relaxed.
"Renesmee, its Jacob, everything's okay darling, the pain will stop before you know it, I promise" I coned softly, tear begin to fall from my eyes as I lied.
Her grip on my hand tightened painfully, but I did not withdraw from the bone crushing strength and I focused on Renesmee who was becoming remotely still, her mouth closed again but her eyes remained tightly shut and her face was still scrunched up.
I held her hand and she remained in the same position for at least a couple of hours, I didn't leave her side, even when Esme insisted that I go down to the kitchen to eat. I figured out a few things about Renesmee's condition, she didn't like people standing too close to her, that was why I was now sitting on the floor next to the bed, every time one of us stood around her she would tense up ad then thrash her head from side I guessed that she sensed that persons presence and it was too close and overwhelming for her. Edward and Bella sat against the far wall, Bella was holding herself against Edward's chest and he had his arms wrapped around her.
"How bad-d-d" Bella asked in an extremely shaky voice.
Edward cringed and then stroked Bella's hair, "Carlisle was right, what she is suffering makes our transformation pain look like nothing, But she is strong, she cant hear us and she doesn't know that we are here, but she knows that we would be so that is why she is trying her hardest not to let the pain show" Edward said his face showed agony as Renesmee's did.
My heart stopped beating or at least that was what it felt like, my whole body felt numb, a natural reaction for when you body was over come with too much emotion pain, it was instinctive for it to try block out all senses. I felt light headed and weak from the lack of food, my body was simply running on pain.
Jacob leave, go get some food, nothing will happen to her in half an hour
Edward's voice was pushed inside of my head, I shook my head, No I'm fine I thought.
Jacob, Renesmee wouldn't have wanted you to never leave he…
A terrible, excruciating scream cut him off. Edward and Bella where both by Renesmee's side instantly, I jumped up and looked at the source of the scream and the sight away almost as horrible as he sound. Renesmee now was twitching uncontrollably, Carlisle was had ran into the room rushed over to hold her down and she struggled violently with him as he did.
"I wasn't paying attention to her thoughts" Edward was mumbling as he looked around helplessly, "It's reached her heart, I should have seen it coming".
"Edward it's not the time to feel guilty" I snapped at him, "Carlisle what can we do" I asked in desperation.
Carlisle was almost losing his battle to keep Renesmee still, he looked at me with a frantic expression, "We need to get her to drink this blood" he said roughly.
I nodded as I couldn't seem to find speech, Renesmee screamed once again, all of the Cullen's where now coming into the room.
"No! Get out, Its claustrophobic for Renesmee, we don't need to add that to the list of her suffering" Carlisle order at everyone, the all backed out the door but waited in the hallway, "Jacob, Edward try calm her down, Bella go fetch me some more blood from the other room".
Bella disappeared and Edward and I did as we where asked, Renesmee kept whimpering in pain as she struggled against us, her eyes remained shut. I gasped as I felt a sharp pain form in my wrist, the pain the outcome of how hard Renesmee was now clutching my hand, I felt the pain turn into complete agony as her grip became unbelievably strong and then I felt my bones in my hand crush and I let out a short scream. My scream was followed by another scream from Renesmee and I completely forgot about my hand. I didn't bother trying to remove my hand from her own, it was already broken into a million pieces what more could she do? Bella was back in the room but she came empty handed.
"There's none left" She said looking desperate, her voice was high in fear.
Carlisle's head shot up, "That's not good then this is the last of it".
Carlisle whole body was rigid and his hands where trembling as he reached for another vial. We had to get Renesmee to relax other wise she would just simply choke on the blood again, "Carlisle" I said loudly over the sound of Renesmee attempting to break free of our hold, my voice was 10 times worse than Bella's, "Why don't you give her some more of that gas? I know it won't make her sleep but if it calms her down then you can be sure all of that blood actually goes into her and doesn't get spit out".
Carlisle stopped what he was doing, he nodded quickly then got the mask, he had trouble getting it over Renesmee's face but when he did it seemed to have worked, it brought tears to my eyes watching Renesmee have some mask shoved upon her when she was obviously so frightened, she had know idea who was holding her or what we where doing to her. 5 second after the mask was on her Renesmee went still, Edward and I backed away from her cautiously. Was it working? Or had I just made things worse.
Seeing Edward frightened was fighting in itself, "She's grateful" he said not looking at me.
What the hell was he talking about?
"The gas has made it easier for her to stay still, and she is grateful for that, she was trying before to remain calm but she fells as if the pain is controlling her" Edward said roughly, he looked away from Renesmee and I could see that his eyes sought Bella, he rushed over to her on the other side of the room and kissed her.
Bella was now comforting Edward, he looked a mess and I wondered what I looked like.
"Jacob, Please go and eat, ill come and get you if her condition changed the slightest I promise" Bella pleaded.
"No, I'm not leaving her" I said my voice breaking, then I was aware of the horrible pain in my right hand, I had forgotten about that.
"Carlisle, take a look at Jacob's hand, Renesmee has broken it" Edward said.
Carlisle had my hand in that instant, I cringed in pain as he touched it, "No I'm fine, look after Nessie" I insisted. I attempted to take my hand away from him.
"Jacob" Carlisle ordered in his doctor tone, "This is serious; your bones are shattered, sharp shards are going to cut through your veins and tissue if you keep moving it".
Carlisle put a brace on my hand even after I insisted that he didn't, while he did I kept looking at Renesmee, observing her to see any signs of the gas wearing off, Edward informed us that she was wide awake and still hurting terribly but the gas had relaxed her muscles so that she now had control of her body once again. The numbness in my body had taken over again; it felt like my body was filled with emptiness, and in that emptiness echoed an emotion that was too horrible and painful that not even a million foul adjectives could describe it.
And that feeling didn't leave me for the whole of that day, and the whole of the next, I just sat and watched her. Hurting with her, her pain was and would always be my pain, I didn't leave her side for one moment, I did not sleep, I did not move, I did not eat. And for the first time I actually doubted Carlisle promise that Renesmee would return to normal after tomorrow, how was it possible for someone to be the same after experiencing this, how could Renesmee ever recover? Maybe she was right, maybe she had been right all along, maybe Renesmee Cullen lived no more…
Hope you liked it, it was very rushed as I didn't want to make you al wait any longer, make sure you let me know if you think I got the transformation right, even if you hated everything about it lol
This chapter is dedicated to:
chelseycullen who reviews chapters wit her personal opinion, and always complements on the story, and has also favourited me as an author.
Thank you so much, I love reading your reviews as you always give me an inside of what you think, and thank you so much for having me as a favourite author, I appreciated it so much :)
CherryStorm who reviewed the last chapter and has favourited the story
Thank you as well, I'm glad that you like Nessie and Jakes relationship and thank your for favouriting Lunar Eclipse. P.S I want her anklet too lol :P
gg123who has complimented many chapters of lunar eclipse and has favourited the story.
Thank you for always leaving positive reviews, every time I get one from you it makes me proud of the chapter