AN: Hey guys. You seemed to enjoy the last chapter thumbs up eh?

Well, this chapter may be slightly happier than the last. I was really down over the weekend, when I wrote most of it, and the beginning of this week. However, this week I've really been into my spiritual life. I think I've gotten even closer to God than I was before. Someone on fictionpress basically told me that there was no God and that no one is going to give a damn when I die. I pretty much told him thank you for trying to bring me away from my faith and to apologize for that fact that he failed and that he may have brought me even closer to God by trying to break my faith. J My faith has also possibly been an inspiration for a new fanfic. crosses fingers we'll see if I ever post it…

Anyway:

?Noone? : I like bubblesJ. Lucius does say fuck you…in my world. I was just being weird when I updated, I was tired of my boring titles. More fic coming up.

RubyFoxburrofLoamsdown : Yes, I would like to kill Lucius too. For now I guess he should stay alive. How can we hurt him if he's dead? You haven't cut in three weeks? That is important! Good for you! I nearly cut on Monday night. I had a blade in my hand and then I looked at my bible on the side of my bed and stopped. I haven't cut for 32 days, that's…four weeks and four days. I think. Anyway, thanks for the review J

Cinnamon Angel: I take it you liked the chapter? Yeah, I don't really know where all that came from, probably my own obsession with blood. Yes, Ginny bothered me a bit in the last chapter, but I wasn't really sure what she should do, so I made her helpless. I was writing the whole Harry thing, not knowing where it was going, and then realized that I was going to trigger someone, got mad, and made him throw his knife across the room. Yes, Snape enters the scene, haven't decided what I'm going to do with him yet…I just had to throw another character in there. There wasn't enough going on for my liking so I'm throwing in a bunch of other stuff to fill up the empty spots (Harry, Hannah and now some Hermione). You wouldn't kill me. You'd never get to read the rest of the fic J. Sorry I couldn't meet you online on Monday. I don't get home from school til 4 and I'm not home on Mondays anyway. Anyway, this is very long for a response thing, so I should go. I hope to talk to you soon. J. By the way, I notice you don't seem to upset about the fact that Draco might be dead, I spose you trust me with his life eh?

Kneh13 : Yes, I think that Draco will be very hurt because of that. But, Snape is there now. It will all be fine thumbs up

MiOnEGrAnGeR741 : Not everyone cuts themselves, but a lot of people do. A lot of people cut themselves a lot worse that I EVER did. I am 14 years old. Yes, I do realize that this fic is very dark. But I think that writing this and getting my feelings out through writing this fic is probably better for me than killing myself, you be the judge. Everyone has different reasons for cutting themselves, I had mine. I've quit cutting myself now, and it has been the hardest thing that I have ever done. Yes, this fic is dark, and right now it does appear to be going nowhere, but it will definitely end with Draco and Ginny NOT cutting. They will eventually quit, Draco has already tried. I can handle myself thank you. I have no intention of going to a therapist. If I did seek professional help I would probably end up lying to them anyway because I have some major trust issues. I'm sorry you feel this way about my fic. If you don't like it I suggest you don't read it. And, I 'spose, if you really have a problem with it, you could report me.

Sandwichbitch: great to hear from you again. Sorry to hear that you don't like what I'm doing with Hermione. I'm not really sure where I'm going with her right now. I have a feeling that she is definitely going to play a part in this though. I don't really know what I'm going to do with Hannah. You should probably find out soon after I do. J

CrashCart: Yeah, it is a horrible addiction. I dunno, maybe if you find it triggering than you shouldn't read it. Not that I'm trying to chase you away. I'm just saying, I don't want to be responsible for you cutting.

dYiNgdEsTiNy – glad to see you are enjoying the fic. Sorry this update took so long, I haven't been writing lately, due to some personal crap.

KaylaSummers – Hello. Hopefully this will feed your craving!

Happy-little-hobbit – Hello my faithful reviewer. Hope you enjoy this chapter!

Sadie – I'm glad that this story is helping you. Cutters seem to be helped by this story, while a lot of the non-cutters reading this seem to either think that I should stop writing because I might trigger someone, or that I automatically need mental help. But anyway, I'm glad that you are enjoying this story. If you ever want to e-mail me I'm at:

CHAPTER 13

Ginny ran across the room to Draco. Snape hurried along behind her. He bent down and checked his pulse.

"He's alive, but barely," Snape said, "We'll need to get him to Madam Pomfrey."

"No!"

"What? He needs medical attention immediately!"

"Yes, but can't you fix him? I don't think that too many people should know about this," Ginny explained.

"Yes, I suppose you're right for once in your life," Snape said, knowing it was true and hating to admit it.

Snape bent down and started to heal Draco's wounds. This boy had lost a lot of blood. More blood than Severus would have thought possible, even considering his wounds. A lot of his wounds seemed to be broken bones which Severus healed quickly. Everything on Draco seemed to be bleeding. How could there be that much blood? He was just covered in it. Suddenly Snape came across something odd on Draco's leg.

"Hmm, that's odd."

"What?" Ginny said, worried.

"There is a wound on Draco's leg that I can't seem to heal," Severus explained.

"Oh, um, is it bleeding?" Ginny asked, trying to cover for Draco's self-injury.

"No, I guess I can leave it for now."

Severus went back to healing Draco wounds. He hoped that he was doing it right. He had never really had much training in medicine. He had taken healing twice while he was at Hogwarts. He never thought that he would need healing skills, especially for something so severe.

Suddenly Ginny realized she was being stupid. Draco was lying on the floor dying, and she was standing and watching. She could help with this. She had never had any training in healing, but she was well aware of how to heal cuts and things. She bent down at Draco's side and lifted his arm. Ginny noticed a group of cuts on his wrists. She healed some of the cuts on his arm, but most of them wouldn't heal.

Snape healed Draco's injuries, all along watching Ginny. He wondered how she had gotten so good at healing. She was better at it than him, she was faster. She had never taken any medical courses, as far as he knew. He put it out of his mind for now; he would ask her about it later.

Hermione examined the blood on the carpet in the bathroom. Someone had probably accidentally cut themselves shaving or something. She decided that it hadn't been someone deliberately cutting themselves. No one that she knew would do that.

She put the fact that the blood was fresh out of her mind. She didn't want to think about the fact that people didn't shave at this time of day. She tried to forget about the blood on the mat but it just wouldn't leave her mind.

Harry lay down on his bed in Ron's room. The door was locked. Everyone thought that he was outside flying on his broom. He had probably twenty minutes before anyone realized that he wasn't outside.

He looked at his knife. What difference would it make if he cut again? He had already done the dirty deed once. Would it really matter if he did it again? What was so bad about cutting anyway? Why had he stopped in the first place?

But no, then he realized that what he was thinking was wrong. Cutting was wrong. There was no excuse for it. He didn't need his knife anymore. It hadn't fixed anything then, and it wouldn't fix anything now. Harry pointed his wand at his knife and said the words to make it disappear.

Hours later Ginny and Severus sat in Draco's dorm waiting for him to wake up. He was still alive, but it had been close. Ginny had never been so worried about someone in her life. Suddenly Severus stood up.

"I have to go!" He said.

"Why?"

"I don't think I need to tell you before I do everything Miss Weasley. But please, do stay here with Draco then." And with that he got up and left. Ginny was alone in the room with Draco.

Ginny held Draco's hand, watching him silently. She brushed his hair off his face and leaned back in her chair. It had been a very long day. It didn't take long for Ginny to drift off to sleep.

Draco slowly opened his eyes. Was he dead? He should be…No, he wasn't. Why wasn't he dead? He looked around and saw Ginny sitting beside him. He smiled. She had been sitting with him all this time. She appeared to be sleeping. She must be exhausted if she had healed him.

Suddenly she stirred. She looked at him and gasped.

"Oh! I'm sorry! I wanted to be awake when you woke up, but I guess I fell asleep," she said.

"It's ok. You didn't have to stay."

"I thought you were dead when we came in."

"We? Who was with you?" Draco asked, worried.

"Professor Snape. I hope he wasn't too surprised with my healing skills."

"Snape? He helped you? He must finally know what's going on with my father then."

"I guess. How are you feeling?"

"Better than I normally feel after a beating."

"This happens regularly?"

"Yeah, but never this bad."

"You should rest," Ginny said.

"No, I've been in bed too long, I need to get out of here before people realize that I've been in here for two days. People will start to suspect things."

"But-"

"No buts, help me get dressed."

Ginny helped Draco out of bed and helped him get a clean shirt and fresh robes on. Looking at him now no one would know of all of the scars and self-inflicted cuts that were on his pale skin under his clothes. Draco quickly brushed his hair, although it wasn't the least bit messy and walked to the door.

"Let's go for a walk," he said.

Ginny followed him out of his room. As they walked down the corridors they were getting their usual glares and strange looks when suddenly a 7th year Hufflepuff student walked up to them. Draco stood up straight, ready to fight if need be. But the Hufflepuff student didn't appear to want to fight.

"I just want to let you guys know that I really dig this whole interchanging of the houses thing. I wish other people could see that ones house really doesn't mean anything because we are all wizards and witches on the inside anyway." And with that the boy walked away.

"That's a first," Ginny said.

"There's one for everything," Draco said.

Hannah looked around her. Where was she? The last thing she remembered was flying around in the middle of a storm not knowing where she was going. Now she appeared to be in a dungeon. Her broom and her luggage were nowhere that she could see.

Suddenly the door opened and a horrible-looking creature walked in. She knew that it must be Voldemort because he was so foul-looking. She watched him as he silently shut the door and walked over to stand in front of her.

"Hannah," he said.

"What do you want? Where am I?"

"Well, I can't really explain where you are, and I can't explain why, but I can tell you what you will be doing. We have something very important that you will be helping us with. Until then I will be giving you to my most faithful servant. You will be Lucius' slave until you are needed. You will do everything that he asks you too, no matter how horrible it seems at the time. You may be rewarded in the end."

Hermione loved to read. Right now she was reading one of the many books in Ginny's room. It was a book about self mutilation. She wasn't really sure why Ginny had this book, but she didn't really care. The book was very interesting. It talked about the pros and cons of cutting.

Hermione noticed that there were some marks and things on a lot of the pages. Ginny had circled some things. One thing was circled with an arrow pointing to it. Beside the arrow it said "try this".

Hermione was now wondering. Did Ginny cut herself? Although it wasn't exactly her character Hermione started to look around for something that might show her if Ginny was a cutter or not. She lifted Ginny's mattress and, to her relief, found no knives under it. If Ginny were harming herself certainly she would need something to do it with.

Hermione was looking around under Ginny's bed when she found a dusty box. The box was labeled "do not open" so of course she did. Hermione opened the box and found it to be full of what appeared to be finished journals.

She opened one of them and flipped to a random page.

April 18th

Fred found out that I've been cutting again. He is furious and has threatened to take all of my knives away. I know that he is smart enough not to do that, but what if he tells mum and dad? I would be so embarrassed if anyone else found out.

I love to cut. I don't know what I would do without it. But sometimes I wonder why I started. It really is a horrible thing. I think that it's pleasures are all in my head. How can causing myself pain really help me to get rid of my problems? It just doesn't make sense to me.

-Ginny

Hermione gasped and dropped the book. Ginny Weasley was a cutter.

AN: sorry about the delay in chapters. I cut myself again. I went 37 days without cutting myself and then I just went and did it. I was furious with myself at first, and I'm still mad, but now I am going to try and go longer. It has been 10 days so far since I last cut. J

I hope that you guys enjoy this chapter and I am sorry that it has taken me this long to produce it.

2008 (note during editing)

It's weird...You would never think that you could look down at an author's note like that one and smile...but I am. It's been over 4 years since I cut last...the time that I spoke of in this chapter was the last time. It's hard to believe that at 14 I had the strength to get through all that...If I started again now, I don't know that I could ever stop.