Omg! I just finished my SPANISH FINAL AND I AM FEEL SO BUENO! I am still scared about the my math final but whatever. SCHOOL ALMOST OUT AND BESIDES MY JOB I WILL HAVE ALL MY TIME DEVOTED TO YOU SEXY PEOPLE ESPECIALLY SEEING AS MY SCHOLARSHIP PROGRAM CANCELLED OUR REQUIRED ACTIVITIES FOR THE SUMMER! ESTOY MUY FELIZ! ( I am very happy.

*Renesmee*

I moaned so loud it was ridiculous. I don't really recall how we got here all i know is that me and my homeroom/ economics teacher were in my room and he was feverishly sucking on my breast.

He would pinch at my nipples, give hickeys to my breast and was touching my lower lips, outlining them with his finger. I was in a world of ecstasy and I never wanted to leave. He moved his finger and was now pushing it into me, feeling at my walls.

"oh goodness this is going to feel so good but be so hard" he hissed. I didn't realize what he was talking about due to me being so caught up but I guessed it had something to do with my virginity.

I was too busy with my inner thoughts that I was utterly shocked when Jacob took his body away from mine.

WTF! NOT AGAIN?

Before I could voice my complaints and utter disappointment, Jacob's fingers were parting my lips preparing his tongue to enter. I was kind of scared, we were going really fast and I wasn't sure if this was what I wanted. But, that's why I say 'kind of'. The most dominate side of me was begging me to let him take me. I was definitely going with the dominate side. Maybe even letting him take me all the way. He was licking the outer lips of my vagina and I couldn't help the way my hips moved against his tongue. It felt so amazing. I moaned so much it was ridiculous.

Continuous, 'oh god's and 'mr. Jacob yes!'. He was now tugging on my nub with his tongue. I couldn't help but buck and I guess I was bucking pretty hard because Jacob wrapped his arms around my legs. I couldn't help but put my hand on my lower abdominal. It felt like there were a million and seven butterflies in my tummy.

"Jake, my- my my tummy..." He looked up at and began to smile but only for awhile before he went back to lapping my vagina like a dog laps water. I was shaking, squirming and moving like it was the new dance and Jacob seemed to preoccupied to care. After about what felt like 12 seconds I was shaking with joy and I thought i was going to die of pleasure.

Alice had told me that when going through sexual pleasure that you would have a orgasms if it wad good and this was definitely good. I felt like crying it was that good but I also felt the need to have more to have Jacob... Fully.

I wanted to feel his penis, that had so often been sticking me on the side, inside of me. I felt the need to feel it, to let it bring me even more of this pleasure. I wanted more than anything to have sex with my teacher.

"mr... Jake. I I I I want I I" I couldn't even speak that is how caught up he had me. AND IT HAD BEEN ALMOST FIVE MINUTES SINCE I HAD MY FIRST ORGASM! I WAS STILL SHIVERING!

"I know, but I don't think we should do that, not today" he said cutting me off already knowing what i wantedin the most calm voice.

He began to get up from between my legs but before he could I wrapped my legs around his waist not allowing him to leave.

"Renesmee..." I didn't let him talk I just pulled him to me with my legs as he was distracted and kissed him with all the lustful feelings I was getting. He kissed me back and seemed to become less tense but then became tense again and it continued like that as our tongues wrestled, his definitely dominating mine.

I could tell what was going to happen just as he tensed again but much harder than normal. Just as anticipated, he pulled back.

"Renesmee please" he moaned almost sadly with his eyes closed. I didn't understand, was there something wrong with me?

I inwardly snorted at that.

Of course there was something wrong with me but I honestly didn't think that he would so easily be able to see my damage. Mental and physical.

Regardless, I wanted him, more than anything in the world and that was extremely scary to me. I was scared of him seeing who I really was but I was also scared to loose this affection. His affection.

The even stranger thing is that I didn't know which one I was more scared of.

I let him pull back from me even further and I just looked at his hardened face. It hurt so much to know that he was rejecting me and I couldn't take it so I got up and ran to my en suite bathroom and closed the door.

I didn't cry or throw I fit, I had been through a lot so crying was something that over time I just chose not to do, it never helped anyone. I just sat against the wall holding my knees to my chest thinking about how I had changed. How i had so easily let someone get close to me and not just let them close but I let him come close enough to were although he had not broken done my walls he was definitely a threat and was scaring the shit out of my mental guards with his axe and other deadly weapons. Ha that mental thought made me chuckle even in my saddened thought.

I sat on the floor for I don't care how long before he knocked at the bathroom door.

"come on Nessie, let me in."

Without hesitation I got up and opened the door for him which I guess he found surprising because for a minute or so he just stood outside the door. He finally walked in the door and sat next to me. I scooted over so I was far enough away from him to not feel the sparks, well.. not feel them as strong.

He looked as though he wanted to move closer but chose against it. We were quiet, stuck in awkward silence for what felt like a long time until he chose to break the silence with useless words.

"Renesmee, listen I..." I didnt listen after that.

It wasn't intentional it was just a habit. Whenever I got bad news or knew my feelings would be hurt it was like my mind shut down and went into a zombie like state. I don't know how long he was talking but I figured that he found out I wasn't listening because he grabbed my wrist and gently pulled me onto his lap trying to shake me but I hurriedly got up.

I looked him in his eyes almost positive that my chocolate brown ones were desolate and held no emotion.

"Jacob you dont need to explain. I understand. It was foolish of me to think that I could have you or even be happy for just a few minutes. I know I'm not in your league and...You don't have to make excuses... Just go."

Before i could think to protest he pulled me back down to him and for a second i felt trapped and like a little girl again and i tried to buck in his hold. i was scared and the only thing that brought me out of my hold is when he turned me around in his lap and looked me in the eyes looking so concerned.

"Renesmee... I am not going to hurt you, you have to know that."

I wanted to believe as he spoke with such sadness, i really did but it was so hard to trust especially someone who wanted me for sex.

I finally calmed my breath and came back to the reality continously chanting in my head that i no longer lived that life.

I looked him in his eyes and came back to where i was deciding to not lie but tell him how i felt.

"Jacob, listen i understand that you dont want to do this but please dont lie to me. I knew that you would get over your little school girl fantasy and even if you didnt you would chose someone more befitting..."

he cut me off but not with a kiss or a hug he cut me off with an angry shut up that for a second made me shiver.

"Renesmee, do you think i would be here, in your house, risking getting profiled as a pedophile and losing my job if i didnt like you? I know your smart but i will take back every compliment i ever gave you about intelligence if you think that, because that would be idiotic. Second..." he sighed and then started again.

"Youre a teenage girl and if i did this i would be taking advantage of your vulnerability. At your age most girls are looking for love, that prince charming and... Rensemee i cant be that. I cant love, i dont wont that. I cant be that prince charming for you and for me to lead you on like this would only be bad for you and wrong of me."

I stared into his eyes and could see the honesty in his eyes. The thing i realized though is that i was happy to see that he cared enough to not try to take advantage of me but i was also mad... HE THINKS I AM NAIVE AND HE CAN TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME!

I tried to hop off of him but he was holding my waist, i think he did that as soon as he saw the anger on my face. That pissed me off, he doesnt want to satisfy me and take advantage of me but he doesnt want to let me go either!

", you dont understand how stupid you sound! I am NOT your average girl and you shouldnt assume that i am looking for love, because to be completely i dont want this 'love'" i spoke putting" emphasis on the word love.

"You shouldnt judge me because you are completely wrong. I dont want love or this "prince charming", I just want to have casual sex. I have never wanted anything more than i want your touch right now and you deny me and reject and that is what made me mad. I just thought, that for a second, i was beautiful. I felt like for a second, i was sexy, sexy enough to get a man like you and it, it stirred me and i wanted that. I wanted, want for you to have sex with me. I dont know why because i have never wanted sex, nor felt attracted to someone enough to open up this way but you, you did this to me, you made me this girl who yearns for your touch and i be Damned! if your body doesnt deliver what it promised mine!"

I dont know what changed his mine, the passion in my words or him just no longer being able to ignore my movements of my body but without further hesitation he began to take off the little clothes i still had on which wasnt much. He took off my panties and the t shirt i threw on when i came in the bathroom. I followed his lead and quickly pulled down his pants also grabbing his boxers as i pulled down.

Wow. He is very well endowed, scary endowed.

I looked at his shaft and i honestly got scared. How would that, that... that king kong, anaconda of a penis fit in little ole me?

i couldnt help but voice my medical concerns, " Umm, Jacob, i dont think ummmm..." i looked down slightly blushing at what i was about to say.

"Jacob, i dont think this sexual relationship i just spoke of is going to work so we should just put on our clothes right now before things get a little too..."

I didnt get to finish before he pressed his lips to mine. I wouldve pulled back but i was caught in passion and when he began to bite my bottom lip i forgot my name.

I was lost in ectasy but i was brought out of it when he put me on his lap with his tip right at my entrance.

"OH NO NO NO BUDDY! did you not hear me? i am not letting that thing destroy my ovaries."

he looked amused but looked at me and said, "Dont be so over dramatic."

I looked at him being completely serious, "Jake, you do know that you can ruin someones ovaries like that? I dont think we should risk it. Soooo..."

I got up but just as i had Jake grabbed my waist and looked really worried, what the fuck is his problem?

"Do you hear that? Renesmee, i think someone is here!" he whisper yelled.

My eyes got big and i hurriedly began looking around for my clothes and saw my shirt and was about to go get it but before i could...

Jacob pulled me down quickly onto his shaft causing me to scream loud.

Loud!

I was breathing hard and i thought i would die my vagina hurt so much.

I was hurting, i my pelvis muscles hurt, i could feel blood dripping from me and tears coming out of my tears but i tried not to focus on the bads only positives and the biggest one i could see was Jacob whispering sweet things into my ears.

"My Nessie, i am so sorry, i could sense you were scared but i also know this is what you wanted and i promise you that you wont die. I promise" he continued to whisper this in my ear and i must say it helped me calm down and get over the pain. Not because it was comforting but because it was funny how serious he sounded.

I eventually calmed down and i tried to move my legs so that my vagina would feel some comfort but my legs only partially moved due to their soreness. Wow, i hope this gets better because so far sex sucks!

"I hope youre right, because if i live i think i will right a story about this occurence. I will call it 'The girl who lived'" i said so serious raising a hand in the air as if i could see the title in the atmosphere.

He started chuckling and then went into a full laugh, he then started to nuzzle his face into my neck and suck lightly.

"I would surely buy that book, sounds like it would be very sexual."

I began to laugh and without thinking i was starting to adjust to Jacob's huge ruler sized penis.

After sitting there for a while with him just holding me i looked backed and kissed the side of his chisled jaw.

"Im ready."

Without any words or hesitation Jacob began to pump his hard member inside of me. At first, it felt slightly uncomfortable byt after he continued for a few moments i felt my insides bubble. What was this feeling? Whatever it was i hoped jake would make sure to satisfy it.

He was pumping himself inside of me and it felt so good, my insides were becoming wet and slick and my stomach seemed to be in knots. It felt so good i thought i die.

"you like that?" Jacob whispered in my ear.

I nodded but Jacob was not pleased.

"I want to hear you say it."

I didnt do it, to embarassed to let my voice loose and Jake was not happy.

"Scream for me" he whispered as he pumped me harder causing me to no longer be able to hold my words.

"Oh god, Jacob! I- I - Iiiiii"

He held my waist as his thrust met the movements i was making.

"Yeah, scream for me baby" he whispered in my ear as he pumped me. He snaked his arm off of my waist and brought it up to my nipple and began to roll the pebble like thing in between his finger.

I felt so many sensations, one from my nipples, one on my vagina and the other from his hot tongue licking at my neck and occasionally nipping on my ear.

"Jacob, ii iii iiii do- dont know how much looooooooooooongerrrrr i can-" He cut me off and turned my head so he could stick his tongue in my mouth and kiss me hard. I fell into the sparks that flew everywhere. God this was amazing. Sex is awesome!

"Cum for me, dont hold back" his permission was just enough to send me over the edge. My body shook with tremors and i turned so he wouldnt see the expressions i was sure were displayed on my face.

I shook as the cum leaked from my body, it felt like it was so much and i was so tired. Wow, i feel like such a loser, Jacob was still hard and i had already came with it only being about 10 minutes.

I couldnt help it, i was beat, Jacob's huge tazmanian dick can surely wear a girl out.

I felt so tired and i guess he could sense it because he picked me up and i was guessing that he was taking me to my room. I was proven he was right when i felt myself being placed on somehting soft.

I was looking sleepily at him as he began to get dressed.

"where are you going?"

He looked at me sweetly and smiled, saying, "I dont want you to get in trouble. Last, time i lied about someone being here but i dont want to jinx it" he leaned down and kissed my forehead, "But dont worry, i'll be waiting after school for you tomorrow. We will definitely have to build up your stamina my little sex friend."

I looked at him when he said sex friend and he saw me and winked.

I shook my head and thought happily about what i had gotten myself into.

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I AM SO FUCKING SORRY I HAVE BEEN GONE FOR SO LONG! (well not so long but like 2 1/2 weeks) I will explain but i totally understand if you are mad. What happen was at first i was so held up with exams and finals because my mean ass teachers decided to give me my finals at the in the last two weeks, like write long as research papers and do packets and AHHHHHH! then my grandmother was sick and my grandmother is like a key part of my life, AN EXTREMELY AMAZING WOMAN and i was just sort of depressed because she over exagerates and had me thinking she was going to die, she is going into the hospital tomorrow but i am positive she will be fine so please dont worry. THEN! i got some stomach virus! ahhhhh! I wanted to write anyway but my boyfriend/ best friend refused to let me move a finger until i felt better so yeah blame him.

I started feeling better yesterday but he wanted to take up all my time with... jake/nessie type activity so... yeah.

MOVING ON!1

i love you guys but what really inspired me to stay up this late and write is a pm i got from one of my fav fan NIQUEE18, HAPPY ALMOST BIRTHDAY DEAR! T

this chapter will be up before her birthday but she probaly wont read til after so... just wanted you to know that yes i read it and as a birthday present i want you to review and let me know which story you want me to update and i will bust my bones and break my ass to make sure it is up before sunday, hell maybe even satuday . I WILL EVEN GIVE YOU A SNEAK PEEK ON EACH STORY! GO YOU!

just let me know Nicks.

Anyone else with a b-day please let me know!

I love you guys and i am so happy to say that i am out of school as of MAY 22ND FUCK !

also i feel i need to explain some things because i am started to feel like nessie is bipolar.

okay,

Nessie went through stuff when she was younger, stuff that for a long time made her socially messed up. She tries to move on but it is hard until Jacob comes along and he is changing her even though she doesnt conciously know. She doesnt believe in love because she feels that she has never had it. She subconsciously does love, for example ALice. She loves Alice as a sister would but because of her past she thinks of it as just a prorective thing she has for her and that goes for the rest of the cullens as well.

As for Jake, he does believe in love but due to past experiences as well he doesnt want love. He feels that it changes who you are and makes you into someone else, makes you do something else. If you think about it,it is actually kind of how he felt about imprinting in the actual Twilight series book. You know how he didnt want to imprint because he felt it hurts people, it is kind of like that but with love. Also like imprinting though once it actually happens he will be extremely satisfied.

I THINK THAT IS ALL! I LOVE YOU GUYS AND YOU HAVE NO FEAR I ALREADY HAVE THE NEXT CHAPTER PLANNED BECAUSE THIS CHAPTER WAS SUPPOSED TO BE LONGER BUT I AM EXTREMELY TIRED SO JUST GIVE ME A FEW DAYS AND IF APPLE DOESNT FUCK WITH MY IPOD IT SHOULD BE UP SOON.

LOVE YOU GUYS!1

LADEE OUT, PEACE peace.

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little kissx2 big kissx2 little hugx3 big hug x2 little hug.

(i think that is how it goes, omg i should stop being stupid and go to sleep. bye guys.