Adam

Okay I decided to do this chapter from Adam's POV since it is his story to tell. This is my take on why Adam is such a homophobe. I do hope we get a really do get to the reason on the show why he is the way he is with Connor. There has to be a reason.

I sat in the kitchen staring into my cup of coffee. The coffee had grown cold as I held the untouched cup in my hand. There was so much I needed to tell Connor. Harper had made me see I couldn't hide from the past anymore because it was a part of me and a part of who I was as a person. The past no matter how bad it was for me was something I needed to share with Connor, no matter how hard it was or how much it hurt to tell him I had too. I knew he may hate me forever after I told him but that was a price I had to pay.

I heard Connor come down the stairs. I looked up as he came into the kitchen. He had been staring with me while his mom and Grant were packing up the house in LA. He smiled at me as he came into the kitchen. I knew he was so happy to be moving back to San Diego and closer to Jude. I kind of felt like him moving away in the first place was my fault. If I hadn't have pushed him away like I had and not tried to follow in my parents footsteps, I would have a good relationship with my son.

"Connor sit down we need to talk," I said.

He looked at me as he put the orange juice back in the fridge. He could tell by the look on my face the conversation I wanted to have was serious. I had rehearsed what to say over and over in my head all morning. Hell who was I kidding I had rehearsed it over and over ever since he told me he was gay in the hospital when he had been shot.

"What's up dad?' he asked as he sat down across from me.

"There's something I need to tell you and I need you to listen to the whole story before you react," I started.

He nodded, "okay."

"When I was fourteen and just starting high school, like you did I questioned my sexuality. I met this really great guy and we became instant friends. He was openly gay and I didn't care. We started hanging out together a lot. Grams and Grampa hated him from the start because he was gay and being religious like they are they didn't want us to be friends," I paused.

I looked at him and he was listening. I could tell he knew where this story was going but he didn't know the half of it. I knew I needed to choose my words carefully. This was still a very sensitive subject between us and I had handled it very badly in the past when I of all people should have been more understanding. When he didn't speak I continued.

"I started rebelling. I was sneaking out just to see him and I soon realized what we had was much more than friendship. I was developing feelings for him. My parents had always told me it was wrong to love some one of the same sex. That people who did had something wrong with them mentally and needed help and that God would hate me. So naturally I thought something was wrong with me. One day he was at my house when my parents weren't home and he kissed me. My parents walking in on us kissing and told him to get the hell out of their house. My parents sent me away to a gay conversion camp and then off to military school. I never saw him again. When I met your mother and feel in love with her I thought I was cured," I paused again.

I looked at him and he was staring at me with a shocked look on his face. I wasn't sure I should continue or how much more he could actually handle. I had laid so much on him just now but if I didn't finished I'd never get I all out and I would regret not telling him the whole story. So I continued.

"Sure I still had crushes on guys but I tried so hard to repress it that I convinced myself I wasn't into them. I never told anyone about those feelings I had not even your mom. It was something I just didn't talk about anymore. As time went on and my relationship with your mom started to fail I searched for a reason why. She gave me you and I ruined the best thing I ever had because I couldn't be the person she wanted me to be. I hated myself for a long time for what I was and I didn't want that for you," I stopped.

"Are you serious right now?" Connor asked.

"As a heart attack, this is really hard for me. I've only told one other person this but I'm tired of keeping it a secret. I don't want it to cost me you and I don't want you to be afraid to be yourself around me anymore," I paused for his reaction that I knew was coming.

"Who's the other person you told?" he asked.

I wasn't expecting him to ask that. I was expecting him to blow his lid. I was prepared for him to blow up and be angry. He seemed so in control of his emotions and if he was angry it didn't show. I was just waiting for it to sink in and for him to blow up.

"Harper," I answered.

"You told Harper before you told me?" he asked a hint of anger in his voice.

"Yeah, she shared her story with me and it made me realize how bad I was treating you. I regret everything I put you through and I'm sorry," I confessed.

"So let me get this straight. All this time you made me feel like something was wrong with me, like my being gay was something I would get over, when all this time you had feelings for another guy when you were my age. Are you fucking serious?" Connor screamed the last part.

"There's more," I said.

"No, I don't want to hear any more of your bullshit right now. I just can't," he said as he grabbed his keys and stormed out of the house.

I let him go without saying a word. I knew it was a lot to tell him and I hoped he could forgive me. I also wanted the chance to apologize to Jude. O felt like he needed to know how sorry I was for the way I had treated him. I had only been trying to protect my son and I may have just alienated him even more.

"Hey honey," Harper said as she came in the door followed by her son Tripp. "What's up with Connor?"

"I told him," I said as she poured herself a cup of coffee and sat down beside me.

"I'm gonna go read," Tripp said as he let the room.

"How'd he take it?" she asked as she grabbed my hand.

"Better than I expected, I didn't get to finish telling him everything. He stormed out before I could," I sighed.

"Like what didn't you tell him?' she asked.

"I didn't tell him my parents want nothing more to do with me because I wanted to tell him or about you."

"So he doesn't know I'm transgender?" she asked. "We agreed it was okay for you to tell him."

"I know and I will but it wasn't the right time," I said as I kissed her.

Oh big bombshells in this chapter. Adam has big secrets and now Connor knows almost all of them. The biggest bombshell of all was Harper's not Adam's. One of you guessed it when I first mentioned it back in the beginning. And I introduced a new character, Harper's son Tripp, who has a storyline coming up. What did you think? What is your take on the reason Adam is the way he is?