I sat in the back seat of the car as we drove off to the asylum. Darry's putting me in it. Based off what the doctor told him he thought I need some serious help. Sticking me in some hospital with a bunch of crazy people won't help me at all. Soda tried to talk to me but I blocked him out. When we pulled up Darry had to drag me out of the car because I wouldn't get out on my own. When we got in there I had a bad feeling. The people around didn't look too happy. Words could not describe how much I anted to go home.

''Dar, please take me home. I'll stop cutting. I don't want to be here,'' I pleaded.

''I'm sorry Pony, but if you don't get help I'm afraid you're going to kill yourself. You're staying here until you get better.'' HE shoved me up tot he front desk. The lady working it gave a fake smile.

''Name?''

''Ponyboy Curtis.'' She searched her computer.

''Here you are. Room A-23 is the room you'll be staying in.'' A security guard came over. Darry hugged me. Soda gave me a bear hug. I started to cry. The guard grabbed my arm and took me to my room.

''It's alright, Ponyboy. You're safe here,'' the guard told me. I didn't believe him. How could I be safe here?

When he took me to my room a girl was sitting on one of the beds. I guess this is my room mate.

''Ponboy, this is Vanessa. She's your roommate.'' Vanessa looked up at me. She had black hair and black eyes. She was a good looking girl. She looked very skinny. I assumed she had anorexia or something. The guard left us alone. She smiled at me.

''Why are you here?'' she asked me. Her voice was so soft.

''Self harming, starving myself, attempting suicide, depressions, a whole bunch of other things.''

''Wow,that's a lot.''

''Yeah. I'm pretty fucked up in the head.'' She laughed.

''Why are you here?'' I asked.

''Anorexia.''

''We got somethin' in common.''

''I guess we do.''

''You're name's Ponyboy, right?''

''Yeah.''

''So, ya folks threw ya in 'ere?''

''My brothers. My folks have been dead for a little over a year.''

''Sorry to hear that.''

We talked for a while. a doctor came int he room.

''Ponyboy Curtis, I need to have a little conversation with you.'' I got up and followed him. He took me to this white room.

''Have a seat.'' I sat down. I felt really uncomfortable.

''Now Ponyboy, I know you have voices in your head. Have you identified them?'

''Yes. Leah and Aidan.''

''What do they tell you to do, exactly?''

''Bad things. Things like telling me to kill myself, do drugs, cut my wrists, starve.''

''You do have an obsession with harming yourself with scissors, knives, anything sharp you can get your hands on, correct?''

''Yes, Sir.''

''Why do you feel the need to do that?''

'' It takes my mind off Johnny and Dally and what I did to them. For instance if I cut my self I'm more focused on the pain then on what happened. If I do drugs, I'm too high to think about anything.''

''Tell me about Johnny and Dally.''

''Me and my older brother got into a fight one night. I ran away brought Johnny with me. He ended up killing a Soc. We went to Dally he helped us out.'' I told the doctor the rest of the story about how Johnny and Dally died. He wrote down everything on a notepad.

''You can go back to your room.'' I got up and left. When I got back tot he room Vanessa was throwing up in the toilet. When she saw me she stopped and sat on my lap.

''Vanessa, what are ya doin' ?''

''Just gettin' comfy.'' She was starting to scare me. Vanessa was so skinny. I could feel her bones on my lap. She looked like she was going to kiss me.

Might as well kiss her or something. You're a slut. Sluts cheat on their partners. Clarissa is better off without you. I heard Leah chant. Vanessa leaned in and kissed me. I don't know why but I felt the need to hit her. I did. Right int he face.

''Why did you hit me?''

''Shut up!'' I don't know why I was getting so angry. I wanted to punch a whole in the wall. I laid down in my bed and fell asleep to Vanessa crying. I'm becoming more of a monster everyday.