AN:// THIS IS MY THIRD TO LAST CHAPTER.. AHH SO HAPPY! THEN I CAN GET THIS
WEIGHT OFF MY BACK! UNLIKE CHANGES I REALLY LOVED WRITING THIS STORY!!!
OMGOSH IT WAS THE BEST! FOR THOSE WHO DON'T KNOW.. I DO TEND TO TYPE
SLANGISH. YANO means YOU KNOW yano? Hehe ok lets start this thing!
Pep talking
Sakura had fell asleep in the position she was in. Sitting, but her face was staring at the door. She was awaken around 2 A.M. in the morning. Stirring awake, she quickly woke up and rushed to the door.
She found a man with worried amber eyes, and extremely messy even for him hair.
"Sakura," was all Syaoran said.
"Thank you," Sakura barely managed to whisper.
"Is everything alright?"
A tear slid out of Sakura's eyes, she mouthed the word no. She was unable to do anything, but motioned him to come in.
As soon as Syaoran was seated, she threw herself at him. Feeling his warmth, needing his touch. She cried harder, allowing the sobs to come out of her eyes freely. All Syaoran could do was embrace her. He wrapped his arms around her so tight, patting her back.
"Let it all out Sakura, just let it all out," he repeated over and over.
Finally, after what seemed like an hour of tears, Sakura stopped. She controlled her breathing, just resting on Syaoran now. Syaoran gave her a few minutes before finally asking.
"What is it Sakura?" He asked cautiously. He didn't want her to start crying again.
"You remember that night, that horrible night, that that that MIASO did that to me," she barely whispered.
"Yes, how could I forget," Syaoran asked stroking her back.
"Well," she said slowly, "Because of that night, I'm pregnant."
"Are you sure you are?!" he questioned shocked.
"Positive, I'm showing all the signs, and I took two tests, they all said the same things, they were different brands as well, and the one thing that gave it away, I'm a month late on my period," she said regretfully.
"I see," that was all Syaoran could say.
"Syaoran, I'm considering an abortion!" She finally spat out.
"Oh," he said underneath is breath. "Well, I can't blame you."
"Remember, when we we're 16, and we first lost ourselves in one another," Sakura chuckled a little. "We were worried we were pregnant after the first time. Remember?"
"Yea," he smiled reminiscing the past. "How could I forget? I worried so much, but at the same time I was so happy."
[flashback]
"Are you sure you want to do this Sakura?" a 16-year-old Syaoran questioned between kisses.
"YES," she moaned in his mouth, kissing him more and more. Their kisses became deeper, they could hardly control themselves. Before they knew it, they were pressing their bodies close together, moving together, and feeling each other better than ever... They were showing their love physically, and loving every moment of it.....
A FEW DAYS LATER...
"Syaoran, I think I might be pregnant," Sakura whispered underneath the cherry tree. "WHAT?!" Syaoran almost screamed.
"Well, I am a week late on my period, and we didn't use a condom, remember," Sakura said softly.
"Did you get a test yet?" He asked.
"No," she said softly.
"Well, if we are, I'll tell you we'll get through it together, I love you Sakura," he smiled reassuringly.
"Well, you wouldn't have a choice, because never in a million years will I abort my child, NEVER," Sakura smiled hugging him. "I love you so much."
"We'll figure it out, I promise we will," Syaoran smiled kissing her softly.
[end flashback]
"Well, you remember, I told you I would never, ever get an abortion," her voice cracked. "I feel so against my principle, I mean, I said I never would, but here I am, considering it."
"Well, that jerk isn't giving you much of a choice, how can you expect to live this out, in a way it isn't even your child!" he reassured her, he wanted her to get an abortion.
"But still, it has a part of me in it, it is MINE, its my egg, its my body, its mine Syaoran," she whined. "I don't want to kill this child, but at the same time, I don't want to keep it."
"There's always adoption after birth," Syaoran offered a different opinion.
"No, I couldn't do that," Sakura automatically shook it out of her head. "After, its alive I couldn't let it go."
"Then why don't you just have it, you can treat it like its mine!" he smiled, trying to lighten the situation.
"Very funny," Sakura teased. "You know, I was thinking, I could have it and treat it like it was yours, but every time I'd look at him or her, I'd see HIM. That bastard Miaso, and I don't think I could love a child when it constantly reminded me of a guy that raped me!"
"So---"
Sakura cut off Syaoran, "But at the same time, I don't think I could live with myself if I killed off my own child!"
"But---"
Sakura cut off Syaoran once again, "And I don't think I can make up my mind. I could either have this child and be the worst mother, or not have this child and live with the guilt! WHAT AM I GOING TO DO SYAORAN?!"
Syaoran finally breathed, he could talk, "I think you should sleep on it. I totally understand why you would want it and not want it, but I can't make this decision for you. Sleep on it sweetie, then tomorrow we can go to the doctors, find the procedure and then let you decide some more. I understand time is running out, but you can't possibly make this decision in one night."
"Thanks Syaoran," Sakura smiled. "That's a good idea..."
"Oh yea, and I'll go find a motel, or go to Arisu's house to spend the night, and leave you alone," Syaoran said softly, sadly.
Sakura eyes lightened, and she needed him, her body yearned for him. "No Syaoran," She said strongly. "Stay with me tonight, please, I need you."
Syaoran almost felt like dancing, Sakura took his hand and led him to her room. She went into the bathroom, as Syaoran stood dumbstruck.
He stared at the pinkness, at the queen sized bed, at the place she had called home when her real home waited for her. He couldn't believe he was standing in this room. He quickly shook it off and grabbed another pair of boxers and a white shirt to sleep in. He changed quickly, as Sakura came out of the bathroom. She laid down, and he went in to brush his teeth.
He came out and found Sakura already eyes closed. He quietly snuck into the covers and fell silent. Syaoran listened to the slow breathing of her body, watched her sleeping, he once again fell in love with her sleeping face, she looked exactly like an angle, and he smiled. He had longed for this moment ever since that wretched day happened. He frowned remembering. Syaoran realized he had put her in this position, because of Lili, her life would never be the same.
He starred at Sakura, and softly, and snuck his hand across her waist bringing himself closer to her. Syaoran had mastered this when Sakura was always mad at him, he would always manage to do it without awaking her.
"Syaoran," Sakura's eyes fluttered open.
"Oh, I'm sorry, did I wake you?" He apologized removing his hand from her waist.
"No, I couldn't fall asleep," She said softly, but grabbed his hand and let him keep it there. Then she moved her arms around his neck, to bring herself closer to him.
"What is it?" He asked concerned. "Do you feel alright?"
"I just wanted to say," Sakura breathed in deeply, "I'm so glad you're here."
He didn't even have to say anything, but moved himself closer to her, and in that moment their lips touched softly. Syaoran pulled back about to apologize but Sakura. Sakura didn't allow him, she quickly caught his lips again. Deepening the kiss, wanting more.
In that short while, Sakura pictured the home she ran away from, without being in the mess. She saw heaven when she kissed him, and continued taking him in. Their tongues fought an impossible battle, their hands moved around each others body. They moved closer together, and Syaoran started nipping at her neck. Sakura smiled, wishing it had been like this for the entire time.
They brought each other in for one last longing kiss, before breaking apart. They snuggled and Sakura fell asleep on his chest. Syaoran continued stroking her hair, hoping she would be alright.
AN:// Well thanks guys read and review!
Pep talking
Sakura had fell asleep in the position she was in. Sitting, but her face was staring at the door. She was awaken around 2 A.M. in the morning. Stirring awake, she quickly woke up and rushed to the door.
She found a man with worried amber eyes, and extremely messy even for him hair.
"Sakura," was all Syaoran said.
"Thank you," Sakura barely managed to whisper.
"Is everything alright?"
A tear slid out of Sakura's eyes, she mouthed the word no. She was unable to do anything, but motioned him to come in.
As soon as Syaoran was seated, she threw herself at him. Feeling his warmth, needing his touch. She cried harder, allowing the sobs to come out of her eyes freely. All Syaoran could do was embrace her. He wrapped his arms around her so tight, patting her back.
"Let it all out Sakura, just let it all out," he repeated over and over.
Finally, after what seemed like an hour of tears, Sakura stopped. She controlled her breathing, just resting on Syaoran now. Syaoran gave her a few minutes before finally asking.
"What is it Sakura?" He asked cautiously. He didn't want her to start crying again.
"You remember that night, that horrible night, that that that MIASO did that to me," she barely whispered.
"Yes, how could I forget," Syaoran asked stroking her back.
"Well," she said slowly, "Because of that night, I'm pregnant."
"Are you sure you are?!" he questioned shocked.
"Positive, I'm showing all the signs, and I took two tests, they all said the same things, they were different brands as well, and the one thing that gave it away, I'm a month late on my period," she said regretfully.
"I see," that was all Syaoran could say.
"Syaoran, I'm considering an abortion!" She finally spat out.
"Oh," he said underneath is breath. "Well, I can't blame you."
"Remember, when we we're 16, and we first lost ourselves in one another," Sakura chuckled a little. "We were worried we were pregnant after the first time. Remember?"
"Yea," he smiled reminiscing the past. "How could I forget? I worried so much, but at the same time I was so happy."
[flashback]
"Are you sure you want to do this Sakura?" a 16-year-old Syaoran questioned between kisses.
"YES," she moaned in his mouth, kissing him more and more. Their kisses became deeper, they could hardly control themselves. Before they knew it, they were pressing their bodies close together, moving together, and feeling each other better than ever... They were showing their love physically, and loving every moment of it.....
A FEW DAYS LATER...
"Syaoran, I think I might be pregnant," Sakura whispered underneath the cherry tree. "WHAT?!" Syaoran almost screamed.
"Well, I am a week late on my period, and we didn't use a condom, remember," Sakura said softly.
"Did you get a test yet?" He asked.
"No," she said softly.
"Well, if we are, I'll tell you we'll get through it together, I love you Sakura," he smiled reassuringly.
"Well, you wouldn't have a choice, because never in a million years will I abort my child, NEVER," Sakura smiled hugging him. "I love you so much."
"We'll figure it out, I promise we will," Syaoran smiled kissing her softly.
[end flashback]
"Well, you remember, I told you I would never, ever get an abortion," her voice cracked. "I feel so against my principle, I mean, I said I never would, but here I am, considering it."
"Well, that jerk isn't giving you much of a choice, how can you expect to live this out, in a way it isn't even your child!" he reassured her, he wanted her to get an abortion.
"But still, it has a part of me in it, it is MINE, its my egg, its my body, its mine Syaoran," she whined. "I don't want to kill this child, but at the same time, I don't want to keep it."
"There's always adoption after birth," Syaoran offered a different opinion.
"No, I couldn't do that," Sakura automatically shook it out of her head. "After, its alive I couldn't let it go."
"Then why don't you just have it, you can treat it like its mine!" he smiled, trying to lighten the situation.
"Very funny," Sakura teased. "You know, I was thinking, I could have it and treat it like it was yours, but every time I'd look at him or her, I'd see HIM. That bastard Miaso, and I don't think I could love a child when it constantly reminded me of a guy that raped me!"
"So---"
Sakura cut off Syaoran, "But at the same time, I don't think I could live with myself if I killed off my own child!"
"But---"
Sakura cut off Syaoran once again, "And I don't think I can make up my mind. I could either have this child and be the worst mother, or not have this child and live with the guilt! WHAT AM I GOING TO DO SYAORAN?!"
Syaoran finally breathed, he could talk, "I think you should sleep on it. I totally understand why you would want it and not want it, but I can't make this decision for you. Sleep on it sweetie, then tomorrow we can go to the doctors, find the procedure and then let you decide some more. I understand time is running out, but you can't possibly make this decision in one night."
"Thanks Syaoran," Sakura smiled. "That's a good idea..."
"Oh yea, and I'll go find a motel, or go to Arisu's house to spend the night, and leave you alone," Syaoran said softly, sadly.
Sakura eyes lightened, and she needed him, her body yearned for him. "No Syaoran," She said strongly. "Stay with me tonight, please, I need you."
Syaoran almost felt like dancing, Sakura took his hand and led him to her room. She went into the bathroom, as Syaoran stood dumbstruck.
He stared at the pinkness, at the queen sized bed, at the place she had called home when her real home waited for her. He couldn't believe he was standing in this room. He quickly shook it off and grabbed another pair of boxers and a white shirt to sleep in. He changed quickly, as Sakura came out of the bathroom. She laid down, and he went in to brush his teeth.
He came out and found Sakura already eyes closed. He quietly snuck into the covers and fell silent. Syaoran listened to the slow breathing of her body, watched her sleeping, he once again fell in love with her sleeping face, she looked exactly like an angle, and he smiled. He had longed for this moment ever since that wretched day happened. He frowned remembering. Syaoran realized he had put her in this position, because of Lili, her life would never be the same.
He starred at Sakura, and softly, and snuck his hand across her waist bringing himself closer to her. Syaoran had mastered this when Sakura was always mad at him, he would always manage to do it without awaking her.
"Syaoran," Sakura's eyes fluttered open.
"Oh, I'm sorry, did I wake you?" He apologized removing his hand from her waist.
"No, I couldn't fall asleep," She said softly, but grabbed his hand and let him keep it there. Then she moved her arms around his neck, to bring herself closer to him.
"What is it?" He asked concerned. "Do you feel alright?"
"I just wanted to say," Sakura breathed in deeply, "I'm so glad you're here."
He didn't even have to say anything, but moved himself closer to her, and in that moment their lips touched softly. Syaoran pulled back about to apologize but Sakura. Sakura didn't allow him, she quickly caught his lips again. Deepening the kiss, wanting more.
In that short while, Sakura pictured the home she ran away from, without being in the mess. She saw heaven when she kissed him, and continued taking him in. Their tongues fought an impossible battle, their hands moved around each others body. They moved closer together, and Syaoran started nipping at her neck. Sakura smiled, wishing it had been like this for the entire time.
They brought each other in for one last longing kiss, before breaking apart. They snuggled and Sakura fell asleep on his chest. Syaoran continued stroking her hair, hoping she would be alright.
AN:// Well thanks guys read and review!