Oh guys Chapter 14 is here and is something that came up from the bottom of my heart, like the rest of the chapters and stories I write about them. It comes straight from the love I have for this special couple. Will and Clark. I want so much to describe my love for these two. Because they are meant to be and they are scored on my heart and they will be scored on my heart forever. Many thanks for the great reviews to Tammy Rios, Gingerhairedbeauty, Craddock12, vdslover1864, FanFicFan305, Emberx1989, rapunzelclayre, indyjb and MonroesAudrey. I appreciate it so much guys. Also many thanks to the guests for their lovely reviews as well. I hope that you will enjoy this chapter as much I enjoyed writing it!
In my mind and in Will's mind too, a sexual life for us seemed impossible. And with all the things going on before and after Switzerland we really didn't have the time to think further and explore if someone after a spinal cord injury can actually have any sexual experience. But now that Amanda and Ritchie can have it, we just see that every case is different. And we have to find out if Will's spinal cord injury allows him to have any sexual experience. We both know that our love is above all, but we have to find out if we can have this level of intimacy. And if we can't, well we are intimate as soul mates and our love is eternal and that's the only thing that matters. I know it and Will knows it. But we have to be sure if there's a chance for a sexual life. As we are in bed tonight Will surprised me for good:
"Clark, there's something that I need to tell you"
"Ok. What is it? You've lost your sarcastic look and you were very quiet earlier in our walk in the castle. Should I be worried?"
I said joking because I was nervous he was so serious.
"I would never lose my sarcasm. I know I am unbearably sarcastic but you love me"
"Yes, I do love you so much and I love your sarcasm" I kissed him and he said:
"Well, I love you too my bumblebee fiancée"
"Well, I was suspecting that" I said playfully and then I continued:
"Now what do you want to tell me?"
"Well, earlier today, when you were on my lap with the towel …. Well … when you went to get dressed I had … a reflex erection"
"What? Is this? Are you sure?"
"Yes Clark it was faint and just for a second ….. But it was there. I felt it. I didn't think it was possible Clark"
I felt so happy and especially for him. Because I know how it kills him that he isn't able to….. make love to me. Yes our love and the eternal connection we have is more important to him and to me. But I like seeing him having hope, because he desires me as much as I desire him. I just don't want him to be disappointed if we can't ….. So I said the only truth to him:
"You know I want to make love to you as much as you do"
"I know Clark and I also know I must not get too excited about this…. Not before doctor Stein says that we can…."
"Yes I agree. It's like you read my mind and I read yours as always. And as you already know, you being here, looking at me, us being engaged and together and the soul and love connection we share, that's the real deal. You are everything to me. That's the most important thing"
"Yes, Clark. Everything I want I am looking at it right now. Louisa Clark, you are everything to me"
I kissed him and said: "But let's see what this doctor has to say to us"
"Okay let's do that" he said smiling and then I said to him looking at his great smile. The most beautiful smile in the world.
"Do you know how much I love that smile of yours?"
"Well, as much as I love you Clark. Come closer"
We kissed and as we were ready to fall asleep, both feeling safe in each other's touch, I said:
"We'll be fine Will. No matter what"
"I know Clark. I know. Because we have each other"
"I love you forever my man" I said holding him tight and he said:
"And I will always love you my bee" and then we fell asleep.
We woke up today and after we had our breakfast and Nathan prepared Will's physio and routine, we called to Dr. Stein's office. We scheduled the appointment for tomorrow and all we had to do was wait. In the mean time today was the day that Thomas would come and spend the day with us. Treena didn't take him at campus this week due to some maintenance they do at the nursery they have for the children there.
Thomas really loves Uncle Will and honestly: Who wouldn't love and adore Will Traynor? And a little kid can see a great person like the one that my Will is.
And so I went to pick Thomas up from my parents' house while Nathan was with Will watching a football game. When we arrived at the annex Will was sitting with Nathan in the kitchen since the game has ended and Thomas shouted as he run into Will's lap:
"Uncle Will, Uncle Will today is the day"
Nathan, Will and I were smiling to his words and then Will said to him smiling out of joy:
"What day is today buddy?"
"The day that you will give me a spin with your special car. You promised Uncle Will. You remember?"
We all started laughing and then Will said:
"Well yes I remember buddy. And I don't plan to break my promise. Ok buddy let's go outside then and do something about that spin"
"Yeah" Thomas yelled and while Will had him on his lap Nathan came closer and said:
"Careful mate, will you?"
"I will don't worry" Will said and he looked back at me knowing I wanted to say the same thing that Nathan said to him.
"Ok you guys, just go outside and I'll be right next to you with some chocolate cookies and milk for you Tommy, warm croissants with strawberry jam for me and Uncle Will and sandwiches for uncle Nathan and tea of course" I said knowing what each one of us likes.
A few minutes later I was outside in the garden. Will and Tommy were having a great time as Nathan was enjoying their spin. He even run with them to see who's going to win.
At some point when we had our snacks and drinks, Nathan left due to patient responsibilities and as I was sitting in the garden with Will and Tommy, Tommy said to Will:
"Uncle Will can we do this once again? I love running with that special car of yours"
"Ok Tommy let's go"
As I was watching them bonding together, I couldn't be more proud. Will was giving advice to Tommy how he can become better in sports than his friends in the future and I could see that he wasn't bitter that he can't be a sportsman as before. Nostalgic yes, but he was more happy and fulfilled that he could teach little Tommy these things. As the day was passing by, we had lunch and then we saw a cartoon movie that Tommy really enjoyed.
As we were ready to get Tommy back to my parents' house Tommy said :
"Uncle Will, Auntie Lou I am very happy and I love you very much"
We were so moved and Will said:
"We love you too buddy"
"Yes, Tommy we both love you very much"
I said and I put him on Will's lap. When we went to the van I put Thomas in the back seat while Will was next to me. Will and Tommy were singing songs and me along them. I was looking at Will with the same love he was looking at me.
When we arrived at my parents' home my mom came outside to pick Tommy up.
"Bye Uncle Will, bye auntie Lou"
"Bye buddy" Will said as I waved smiling.
When Tommy got into the house my mom approached the car and said:
"Hello loves, why don't you come inside for a little while?"
"We would love that, but unfortunately we can't. We have to get up early in the morning but we will come soon enough" Will said smiling at her
"Yes mom we have some errands to do and we have to get rest"
"Ok loves but everything is all right. Isn't it?"
"Yes mom"
"Yes Josie everything is fine. We are together and that's all that matters"
Will said and that was the only truth that my mom should know. There was no need to tell her about Doctor Stein. We didn't tell anyone except Nathan and Ritchie of course. And tomorrow came. At 9 am sharp we went to our appointment. When we got inside, Doctor Stein went into the examining room with my Will and fifteen minutes later Will came out first where I was expecting him full of anxiety:
"Will, are you all right? What happened? what did he say?" I whispered to him holding his hand.
"Clark, I'm fine you can relax now. He didn't say anything. He just asked me some medical questions about me and he did some tests. He'll be outside and we will find out"
"You seem too relaxed"
"Well, I have you by my side. That's why"
We kissed and then Dr. Stein came out of the examining room.
"Well Mr. Traynor, Mrs. Clark from the facts and the medical history and by examining you Mr. Traynor, but especially from the latest reflex erection you had, I can tell you this: In your case Mr. Traynor you can have erections from now on"
"But I wasn't able before doctor"
"Yes, you weren't and that's because in some cases like yours, it takes time for the body to rediscover it's sexuality and find satisfaction. When your girlfriend was on your lap…."
"My fiancée doctor if I may add" Will said interrupting doctor Stein and looking at me while I looked at him so in love and smiling.
"Well ok then, when your fiancée sat on your lap as you described me, with a towel Mr. Traynor , that triggered your body to react and I can assure you that you will continue having these kind of erections."
"So, doctor you are saying that Will and I can make love?"
"Well, Mrs. Clark I can't promise you that you will be able to have sexual pleasure 100%, but this is a huge possibility. Because you Mr. Traynor belong to the group of quads that can rediscover their sexuality. You just started doing so with that reflex erection. So …. We will be in touch and you let me know when your next reflex erection will happen"
"So doctor Stein, am I one of the cases that I can hope for a sexual pleasure with my fiancée?"
"Yes, yes you are Mr. Traynor"
We were there looking at him, that doctor and then we left knowing that someday we might be able to make love. To be active in that kind of area. Whatever the outcome will be, there's only one thing we need to know:
Will Traynor and Louisa Clark are meant to be together no matter what!
P.s I did some research about sex life for people with spinal cord injuries but I am not a doctor. I just wrote something hopeful based on some info I searched on the net. The conclusion is that some quads can have strong reflex erections with a spinal cord injury like that one Will has. And all I want to say is that no matter if Will and Clark can make love or not, the most important thing is that they will always have each other and their love. I love them so much.