Edward and I continued with our fifteen minute chats of how he his back was feeling and how our days were going. The only thing different was now we always ended our chats with I love you and usually started them with I missed you. I even started to use terms of endearment with Edward. Calling him babe and he kept to baby for me.

It was strange how easy it was becoming to say I love you now compared to the first time. I didn't have to be think about it, I didn't hesitate to text I love you. I just did it.

Of course I always waited for him to text it first before I replied with the same but the point was I was opening up to Edward in ways I didn't think possible. I always thought I was this broken person too screwed up to ever really let someone in, to truly care for an outsider but Edward helped me realize there was still hope.

I wasn't the unfixable, I just needed someone to show me love and be there for me to make me whole and fix what was once thought lost forever.

Everything seemed to be going so great for us. It didn't seem like anything could get in our way. We were a growing unstoppable force. Until the phone bill came to ruin everything.

September 21st

Edboy92: Hey, my phone is going to be off tomorrow due to a thousand dollar phone bill I received, until I can figure out how to pay it.

Bellbs123: Thousand dollars? How is that even possible?

Edboy92: My family and I used a device that supposedly gave us free wireless internet access from my laptop and phone. However, we were deceived by the phone people. They said it was free/ no additional charge and because of that, we went on it a lot and I used the internet on my phone etc… Recently, we found out it wasn't free and that we racked up a bill of a thousand dollars. My dad isn't happy about it.

Bellbs123: That sucks. Okay, well I guess I'll talk to you later on then.

Edboy92: Okay, Love you. Night.

Bellbs123: Love you too. Night.

The first day without hearing from Edward was a bummer. I had hoped even though he said his phone would be off that somehow he could and would contact me, that didn't happen. I guess I couldn't be too upset though, he did forewarn me.

The second day without hearing from Edward was the absolute worst. I was irritated at work, snapping at people. I couldn't wait to get home and see if Edward left me an email at least.

It wasn't till I got home and checked my email and saw that there was no message from him waiting for me, that it hit me.

I might never hear from Edward again.

I was never a lucky person and having Edward in my life gave me so much happiness and good moments. Maybe my luck ran out.

I started to cry at the realization.

I headed to my room upset and feeling utterly alone, more alone than I had felt in a long time. I curled up in my covers and cried and heaved and sniffed. My whole chest ached from the stress of the emotional pain.

I never had a person affect me so much.

I eventually fell asleep.

There were tearful moments here and there when I awoke, whether it was things I remembered or something I watched reminding me I was alone or the shitty what ifs again.

I literally felt like I was having withdrawals from Edward. I never relied on anyone for emotional support. However, I did with Edward.

He became my sunshine and when I didn't or couldn't hear from him it was like a storm cloud came over and stole my sun away. It didn't take much to make me miserable.

Nothing could make me happy anymore, not without Edward. Nothing ever lived up to him and what he gave me.

I was stuck in a really shitty, unhealthy place. One I thought only Edward could take me out of.

It wasn't till five days later that I finally hear from him.

September 26th

Edboy92: I love you more than you can imagine. It's going to be a couple more days till we can text okay. I miss you and love you.

Bellbs123: I miss you.

Edboy92: I miss you a lot more baby.