AN: Sorry it took so long. I'm up to a three story work load so I'm jumbled with ideas.....*sighs* I'm almost done here though.... I don't know if I should be happy or not.
I was scared, yes, but that was a given. Who wouldn't be scared when they just turned into a wolf for the first time? But that wasn't my primary emotion. I was in agony. The guy I loved had betrayed me by taking me to a concert and then leaving with another girl. And I'd had my chances to get out of that situation. If only I had been smart and...
I forced his name out of my head. If he'd been around nearly as long as I now thought ad known Paul the entire time, he would've known that something like this would end up happening to me. In the end he had betrayed me as well.
Thinking about it, I realized that I didn't have anyone anymore. Everyone had left me or I'd left them. I'd foolishly ran away from the place I truly belonged and damned myself to this existance.
That thought stopped me dead in my tracks. I realized that if I hadn't called my father, then I wouldn't have to deal with this. My heart wouldn't be this hollowed out mess, and I probably wouldn't be running around as a teenage....werewolf.
In the end I'd made all the wrong choices...
-Embry POV-
My first instinct after I saw Allina phase was to chase after her and comfort her. I knew how scared I'd been, and how much better I'd felt once Sam and Jared had shown up. They told me what was wrong...or right. They told me to not be scared.
But the problem was, if I followed her, I knew I'd be in for a hell that I just didn't want to face. Sure, Allina would probably Imprint me, but that was only if she would look at me, which I didn't think was entirely possible.
But, obligations to Allina or no, I was a dedicated member of the pack, which meant I had to deal with any danger posed on our pack, and unfortunately, Allina was a danger. I didn't think about it that way though. In a way, I had an excuse to talk to her.
I jumped from my car, running past Paul's shocked face. I knew that he'd heard Allina howl and most likely saw her phase. I could only hope that he felt partially to blame though, and I severely doubted that he did.
Once I reached the trees, I phased, not even bothering with my clothes, and tore through the woods, following Allina's scent closely. I knew that I would catch up with her quickly, but until then I had to keep my mind closed to the rest of the world. I didn't want Allina to pick up on my thoughts and either A) Freak out and run faster or B) Realize it was me and run faster.
But I could hear the Seth, barely, he was trying to keep quiet, but also alerting the others at the same time.I could only hope that by the time they all got there and began to communicate, I'd have Allina calmed down and phased.
I realized that Allina's head was starting to clear and her link to the pack was becoming established. I had only one shot to warn Seth and not have to worry about the thoughts of the pack disturbing Allina.
Phase back now and shut up Seth! You'll scare her off. Find Jake and tell him that I've got everything under control.
Seth began to argue, but I realized that Jake had already phase and caught everything. He had already stopped in his tracks and had barked out a command to Seth and the wolves that were already phased. One by one, they all faded, leaving only Jake, Allina and I phased.
Good luck Embry. His voice whispered, and then disappeared as well, just as Allina's thoughts hit me like a battering ram.
Betrayed...everyone betrayed me...I have no one...
I cringed when I heard her thoughts, but forced myself onward until I was only feet away from Allina. She had stopped dead in her tracks, but her body trembled horribly. She looked way too much like I had.
I took a careful step forward and touched my head to Allina's flank. Instantly she reacted, flinching back and growling, her pearly white teeth bared. However, I stayed my ground, my eyes directly on hers.
It's me Allina...I'm here...
Allina growled again but this time it was less threatening. Her gaze was softening and losing focus as the imprinting urge won over. That relieved me slightly, knowing that she, in time, would heal through this.
For now though, I had to weather the storm.
You betrayed me, you don't care. I wish you would leave me behind... you let me get hurt.
I lowered my eyes and bent my head, knowing that she was right.
But would you have listened to me?
It was Allina's turn to flinch, but it wasn't just in shock that I heard what she was thinking. She knew I was right, and she could also sense my regret in my actions.
Phase back Allina...Just focus on being human.
She looked at me and, with a deep breath and a shudder, she did as I asked, easily. She truly was her fathers daughter, I concluded as I did as well. Instantly, Allina collapsed on my chest, shaking and crying with such intensity that I nearly panicked. But instead I stayed my ground and held her to me, feeling her tremors running through my body.
I didn't care if I had to do this forever. I'd do anything for her.... my imprint.