EPOV

I still felt like something was wrong. I had a feeling that something wasn't right. I began to feel that way when I dropped Bella off, maybe it was just something in my head? I felt strange. I felt like I had to kneel and pray, but I felt inane. I got home instead and I sat down on my couch and I thought of this day.

I did leave Bella alone at the hospital, but either way Renesmee seemed to have made some good in Bella's day. I didn't know how Renesmee would react to Bella. Renesmee was just a sweet little girl; I sincerely hoped that Renesmee would make Bella feel needed or somewhat grateful for living. I wanted her to feel different…Jacob was just a scum bag.

I instantly shook my head how did my thoughts go from helping Bella to thinking about Jacob. Jacob, that guy was going to pay for all the damage he caused in Bella's life.

I took a sip of my tea and I began to think of this long week that I wasn't going to see Bella. I wanted to see her, I really did, but there was a lot of work that had to be done in the hospital after the days I had taken to see her. I took my phone and I called Jasper.

"Yes Edward?" He answered.

"Thank you so much Jasper, I think everything is going a lot more smoother."

"Oh yes Alice mentioned it." Jasper chuckled.

"Yes I took Bella to the hospital and that seemed to have done some good."

"Bonding time with the patients?" He asked.

"Yes, Renesmee." I said.

"Ah the little girl you always seemed to mention in some emails." Jasper seemed to say with a smile.

"Yes, she made a huge impact on me and I think she did the same for Bella." I replied.

"Well that is great Edward. No one can resist a child's innocence."

"I really hope so Jasper." I sighed.

"Edward I heard that." He teased

"Hey what's wrong with wishing everything turns out fine!"

"Don't worry Edward; Bella will love you one day. In all honestly I am shocked that she hasn't already."

I looked up the ceiling as I heard my cell phone ringing. I quickly rubbed my eyes as I looked at my watch, it was midnight. I stood up and held my cell phone at my ear. Who the heck was calling during this time? Maybe Jasper…na he wouldn't, Alice seemed like the only option.

"Hello?" I answered as I began to turn on the lights.

"Edward?" Ah…I was right.

"Yes Alice."

"Quickly you have to go stop Bella!" Alice screeched through the phone.

My heart thumped hard against my chest, "What?" I quickly put on my Nike shoes and thanked the heavens I was wearing joggers.

"She left Edward! She left! She sent me a message-,"She continued to speak but I felt everything blur out from my ear. I couldn't understand anything.

She left.

"Alice what are you talking about I just saw her today?" I laughed. She must be kidding right. It was just a terrible nightmare it had to be.

"Edward she said she was a terrible person, she said she didn't deserve to be your friend or anything! Edward what happened?"

I ended the call and I ran toward my car. No this couldn't happen, not again. I couldn't lose her again.

I sped out to Bella's apartment and right when I arrived I saw Jacob engulfing Bella in his arms. This was just a nightmare right? I sat there and I felt numb as I sat in my car. Jacob brushed her hair away from her face and he seemed to hold her tightly. I felt like punching him. Why was he holding her! Jacob let go of her and I felt relief. What was going on?

I was about to step out when I saw…Jacob was carrying suitcases. Bella slowly walked to the passenger seat. Right before she went in. She seemed to freeze up. She shook her head once before she went in the car. Jacob quickly ran to the driver seat and sped away. I just looked into the car, until I couldn't see it anymore. I felt like knife went through me again. My heart was breaking all over again.

I felt anger at this whole situation. Did Bella care about me at all! I tried to help her, I tried to be everything to her, but she left with Jacob! Was I just meant to suffer? Did I not deserve to also have some happiness in my life? Why were the odds always against me? When she seemed to be getting closer to me she always left from beyond my reach.

I began to look at the street again. I felt rejection, hurt, pain, betrayal. Why was this happening, was I just not meant to have her. Instead I shook my head and began to drive back and while I was driving I decided that I wouldn't care anymore. I simply should have never tried to gain Bella's love, when she obviously still loved Jacob Black. Was he simply much better than I was? Was I just a worst monster than Jacob, so she chose him over me?

I began to chuckle at the stupidness of this situation. I guess I was just meant to live with a broken heart. I instantly drove to a bar. I needed a lot of drinks.