A/N: Bank holiday!

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Edward's POV

I sat at the edge of the river waiting for her to come up I needed to talk to her and I can't really do that under water. I worried about asking her, worried that she will just reject me and run away to never be seen again. I can't lose her again I just can't it would be way too difficult!

She slightly irritated as she came up from the water a turned away trying to think of a reasonable way to start this conversation, I turned back not having a clue how to start this conversation, I suppose I could just do what feels right it always work with Bella when she was human but will it work now?

"What up chuck?" Bella's perfect voice broke my train of thought I looked up into her eyes. I decided there and then while looking into those deep hurt pools of chocolate brown. I shook my head and replied.

"Oh..." I still want you "um..." how do I say I want you back? "nothing." I gave up it was too hard.

She arched her perfectly sculpted eyebrow at me. "Really!" she sighed in a disbelieving tone. I reached out wanting to know if we both felt the tingling sensation from when she was human. When our hands met it was still there but did she still feel it.

She look at it was sorrow in her eyes but then pain, guilt, sadness, happiness, and then rage. Her eyes started to go red. I gasped why were her eyes red?

She quickly swam away. Why would she swim away if she is mad at you?

Maybe she isn't mad at you maybe she is mad at herself! A small voice in the back of my head reasoned.

She sat on the other side of the river facing away from me, her shoulders were shaking with anger she was trying to calm herself down with deep breaths I don't think it was working though.

Quickly she got up and ran into the trees. Why is she running she doesn't want this she doesn't want me she can't take the pain I left her in and made her like this!

I sat there just staring where she had disappeared from my view. It seemed like years until she came back but I knew it to be more like an hour or less.

"I'm sorry!" I muttered looking at my hands.

She sighed and jumped across the river as if it to be instinct as if she didn't even realizes she had done it.

"You shouldn't be its not your fault I don't know how to deal with shit like this!" she slumped down on the grass in front of me.

"You wouldn't be like this if it wasn't for me!" I growled coming out a little too loudly.

"I don't care anymore! Yes you did this to me!" that stung I nearly flinched but put on a poker face. "But you were trying to protect me! Me I did this to myself! I could have just dealt with it and attempted to move on but no I just had to do the most comfortable one at that moment when I knew full well it would turn difficult and I would be hurting the one person who means a lot to me and also me!" does that means she wants me back but needs to deal with her pain I've dealt with mine and now the only thing that could possibly make it go away is her back in my arms saying I love you!

"I know what you going through!" I sighed.

"No you don't, you don't know why I'm having this internal battle and I need time! Please just give me time and I'll be fine!" she whispered. I nodded wanting her to know I understood her to a certain point. "Come on they will want to know what happened."

She grabbed my hand and we walked back, we weren't too far away from the castle we quickly jumped the walls were no one would see us and returned to the main hall. There were many people waiting to meet her.

She quickly changed her appearance to a blond hair blue eyed girl, her hair fell in down to mid thigh in a braid over one shoulder no make-up and a blue one shouldered dress to her knee, she quickly walked off I was about to call her back to change my clothes when she raised her hand and clicked her fingers and I was back in the outfit I had on this Moring.

I heard some shuffling and then felt a sharp pain on the back of my head.

A/N: who do you think hit him on the head?

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