Right there. Right then... My heart stopped. Maybe not enough time to have me dead on the floor, but enough to make my heart hurt so much that i couldn't think straight. I wanted to run but i couldn't push myself do it so I collapsed. Nothing could make me comprehend what had been told to me. It was to hard to think when i was told my best friend in the whole wide world was declared dead.
As soon as i knew, i slipped out of consciousness. This is so fucking stupid. why me? No- Why Iggy? Tears streamed down my face. I was tired. What was the point of anything. I couldn't believe it completely yet. It hadn't fully settled in what happened... But as i sat there it slowly processed and a whole new wave of emotions cam on again.
TRIGGER WARNING...
I found myself drifting to the bathroom. I sunk to my knees, and slowly opened the cabinets. I lifted the thin matt and there it was. The 2 inch blade. I was tempted, the temptation was overwhelming. This blade had gotten me through everything. Maya, Alex, The depressing times, and now Iggy. I picked up the little item. The cool shiny material was shining back at me. Tempting me. I faced my arm up and sliced. I couldn't stop until i hit too deep. It felt good, so good. It felt like i was flying now. There was this shiny light. It was welcoming me. To Alex, I didn't see gift. But Alex, my first best friend, my first crush, my first kiss, was there. But he was worried. "It's not your time yet Max, go. Go back home, to your family, your friends, to Iggy and Fang.I'll be here, when it's your true time to come" I didn't want to leave Alex, but I knew I had to and I drifted back into a darkness.
I heard the soft beep of a machine, i knew where I was mentally but my head couldn't wrap around anything. I tried opening my eyes but it was to bright. I wanted to run. Was Iggy actually dead? Tears ran down my face again and I was lost. Why couldnt I just die. I thought about Alex and he wouldn't have let me. I had seen him though, and he had spoke to me. He looked like an angel. He was an angel. I smiled.
I finally beared opening my eyes and saw balloons, and presents all around the room, and there I saw Fang, and everyone. My mom and my dad were there in the seats. Fang was against the wall along with angel, Gazzy, and nudge. And my sister, Maya was there against the wall looking down at her shoes.
Everyone was asleep except her. Maya. I hated Maya with a pure hatred like nobodies business. She left, she left with dad even though he was a lying, cheating, dirty fudging scum bad that only used people for his own personal use. all he cared about was sex, drugs, and business, and she left with him. And it wasn't just that, oh no. It was never just that with her.
She than slowly put her head up, me closing my eyes until I heard her leave the room. I slowly took the IV out of my arm (very painful) and walked out of the room quietly. I realized I was in a gown that barely covered my ass but I didn't care. I went downstairs to the desk. The lady looked at me like I was crazy. "Hi, I need to know the room for James Griffith" She slowly looked at me. "Sorry, family only" i scowled at her. "I am family, I am Liv Griffiths his sister" she looked at the list. "Oh I'm sorry, 261" I walked off and tried to find his room, 258, 245. I was going to wrong way. I turned back around and made to the 260's and finally found 261. I slowly entered and there he was asleep. Why had my mother lied to me. I was angry. I walked over to me and I cried. He was alive. He was Alive I was happy. So happy and I hugged him. I didn't care if he was in a coma, or even just sleeping I hugged him. He had an eye patch across his left eye and his left leg was in an eye patch. I felt him stir and I rode up quickly to see his eyes or eye open. It looked like he was confused but his eye soon landed on me. "Max?" I laughed with Joy. "yeah ig, it's me" he looked me up and down. " why are you in a hospital gown than?" I smiled softly at him and hid my wrapped arms away from him. Nobody had currently been in here. " don't worry about me Ig, you just need to focus on yourself and healing, alright?" And I smiled at him to let him know I was okay. Because I really was.