Fili was surprised to get an answer so late at night, but he would take any chance to see him. The middle of the night was just as good as any time of day. When he heard the doorbell he had no idea what to expect. Opening the door he was anxious to see him, but he saw a very serious Kili not looking fully at him. He stood there at the doorway, not looking up to him or saying anything. Fili reached out and gently lifted his head to force him to look into his eyes. Fili honestly wanted to talk, he really felt he screwed up and needed to explain and beg for forgiveness. But what happened next surprised Fili, before he could say or explain anything he felt strong lips push into his. There was no talking at all, the frantic sexual energy between them reached a peak. It was again the touching, kissing and holding. It was ripping off clothes and demanding more. It was just like in the past, two bodies melting into each other and two souls yearning for tenderness and love, but getting desire and lust instead. It had been months the last time they were together so it was exhilarating to feel being together again.
Kili knew it would happen the moment he agreed to meet with him, so he just met the facts face on. He didn't want to talk, he wanted affection, he wanted closeness and sex. He wanted to feel him next to him, and to feel loved. Every time they had sex he felt loved.
For Fili it was all too fast, he didn't ask him to come and have sex, he really felt the need to talk, but as soon as those lips touched him there was no more words said.
Fili woke up early in the morning alone. Just as if yesterday night did not happen at all. When he got up and put some clothes on he went to the kitchen. There he saw Kili fully dressed and a breakfast on the table. Kili was just standing there and drinking a cup of coffee.
"I think he should talk." Fili told him, but Kili just glared at him.
"Whatever, I got to go to work." Kili told him indifferently.
"We should talk about what happened last night, and about what happened in the past." Fili insisted.
"I don't want to talk about it." Kili told him coldly.
"What happened in the past was a mistake… I…" Fili tried to say something to him.
"Save it. I'm really not interested." Kili told him.
"Will I see you again?" Fili asked feeling he was losing the discussion.
"Maybe." Kili replied curtly. "I might drop by, if I feel like it." Kili replied looking at him in the coldest way he could.
"Can we meet again and really talk?" Fili begged, but he saw Kili's strong eyes look at him.
"Why would you want to meet me and actually talk with me?" Kili's voice was dripping with venom. "No, I'm not going to meet you and talk with you. I might drop by for sex, if I feel like it." Kili grabbed his jacket. "Sorry but I really need to get going." He told him and left him startled at the kitchen table.
Fili felt even worse when Kili left him. He just walked out not giving him a chance to explain anything. He said he would come back if he wanted to have sex, but bluntly rejected any idea of talking. Fili felt rejected, he needed him so badly but what he got was an emotionless meeting. He loved the sex, it was wild because both of them were starved, but he desperately needed to talk. The next days he was waiting for a message, but nothing happened. Nearly a week later he sent a message asking if they could go out but the answer didn't come. Nearly three weeks from their meeting he got a short question "Tonight?" and he could feel his heart jump. Kili came near midnight, but instead of talking to him, he just got the same mind blowing sex. The moment he tried to start a conversation Kili looked away and told him to stop. Fili insisted and began speaking. Kili just got up and dressed. Fili was terrified to see him go, but the moment he tried to stop Kili, the boy gave him a strong glare and said goodbye.