September 11, 1393
Dear Mommy and Daddy,
The days seem to roll by in a blur for me. Time itself seems to move slowly. I have thought about this for a long time. I am seriously considering staying as a vampire. I figured that since I have read so many books on myths and legends, that there might be some cure or some way to turn myself back into a human does not exist. Besides, who would want to let go of all this power?
You posed an interesting hypothetical question for me. How am I going to repent for my sins? I don't think I can. My hands have been stained with the blood of hundreds of victims, on that day I became a vampire, I cursed God, thinking not even he would want me anymore. I'm practically a sin onto myself. How can I repent even if I wanted too? It's impossible for me anymore.
I don't feel scared anymore of anything. I don't feel scared of being a vampire anymore either. If there is one thing I have learned from this experience is that you have to keep moving forward no matter what the outcome will be. I have heard rumors that the mage guy passed away last year. I can't believe it. If these rumors are true, then I have spend the last few years for nothing. I'm furious now. I have all this power at my disposal and now what am I going to do with it? I am fast becoming a feared a vampire throughout the country.
The time has come for me to finally live on my own, to not rely on the support of my parents anymore, emotional or not. I will solve all my problems on my own now. I dislike relying on other people. I have learned the only person you can trust in this cruel world is yourself.
I seem to despise humans more an more now. Looking at them, I see that they live short, solitary, poor, and brutish lives. They fight amongst themselves for the most idiotic things, and rarely do they keep their promises. They care for themselves only and not for anyone else. I've witnessed the war between Ireland, Scotland and England, and I know of the many rebellions across the country. So much civil strife and they don't even know what causes it. Forgive me if I sound cynical but that's the way I see things now. The next time I write to you, it will probably be my last.
-Evangeline
Oh hell no!! NOOOOOOOO! I'm all alone against her?! Oh crud, well one more to go...
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