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All portions in Italics are flashbacks.

Disclaimer: All Mortal Instrument characters are owned by Casandra Clare, I just own the plot and the twins

Content warning, Contains Graphic Material (kinda)

Chapter 14- Histories, Mysteries, Unraveled Pt-Three

There wasn't much Clary liked to remember about that day, it only just brought torment and pain. The ride to the hospital was one of the more anxious moments she could recall, remembering Maryse by her side again, holding tight to her hand. The loud sounds of sirens echoing through the crowded street, and the heavy layer of sweat coating her skin.

The ambulance truck was filled with three other people including Maryse. A woman that Clary had never seen before was laid out on the stretcher that occupied the majority of the space in the truck. She found that her eyes where stuck staring, never finding the strength to look away...

"It was on the ride to the hospital when the thought first came in. The general questions that they ask you, you know…" Clary spoke to Maia in a soft far off voice. Clary now sat up, legs crossed in front of her, one hand massaging her ankle subconsciously, eyes staring straight through the air at nothing. "My ankle," she paused, "from the second fall. Apparently, I fractured it," She scoffed, "I was in such a cloud, the noises of the people stretched down the halls and screams for help all felt like they lead to me. The funny thing is, if there could possible be anything funny in a moment like that was the fact that I didn't even know I was hurt and I really don't remember the ride in the ambulance truck that much, it was Maryse that dragged me to the paramedics. So, the next thing I know I'm being lifted into an ambulance, questions through back and forth at me. Then I'm shoved into a crowded emergence room." She drifted off again, "I found out that day in the hospital, alone, terrified out of my mind, along with about a hundred-different people, on the other side of the country from the place I called home and clueless as to where my friends were and if they were even alive…"

There was a long pause in the room that resonated with Maia in a way that raised the tinny hairs on her arms. "I got separated from Maryse once we arrived at the hospital-" Clary stopped, putting a hand over her eyes, trying to block out the emotions seeping through, flashes of memories she hid in the back of her mind kept reappearing, she squeezed her eyes tight, hoping they'd flee her vision. "It was when they were about to take the x-rays on my ankle that it really dawned upon me, I was staring off into space sitting on one of the tables, looking at nothing in particular when my eyes focused on one of the many flyers posted on the walls, asking, 'Could you be pregnant?'. For some reason my mind kept repeating that word in my head, until finally it hit me, the possibility that I could be pregnant. I just remember filling overwhelmed like I was in a dream. At that point I still didn't know where anyone was, if any of them were safe and okay, I tried asking the nursed and doctors but none of them would answer me, they where to busy rushing in and out of different rooms." Another pause before Clary continued on, voice still strong and steady without an ounce of overwhelming pain Maia heard from the girl the night before. "When the test results came back positive-, I felt so numb…" Again, there was a bleak silence left in the room between the two girls. Clary stuck in her head, drifting from memory to memory, Maia stock still in shock for the young women in front of her she called a friend.

"He was shot…" Lifting a hand to lay on her left shoulder. "I found out later…" Clary held onto the memory of seeing him for the last time to herself, she felt selfish for holding that moment closest to her heart, only for her eyes to see, but in some weird way to her, it was the glue that held her carefully crafted secret together.

The thing that forever would be burned in her memories was the way the lifeless looking body gleamed in the dim hospital lights as it laid on a small hospital bed as he slept. She remembered how his hair looked drained from its usual vibrant color, but how it still stuck out from all the white in the room. The feeling of numbness that shadowed over her was starting to fade as she wheeled herself closer to his body, like he was a furnace burning away the coldness that swallowed her, every inch she got closer.

"After I found out what happened to all of them, I made my decision, and I left." Clary casted her eyes downward, "I didn't know what I was doing, I didn't know what was really up until that point, but when I heard their heart beats for the first time, I knew one thing for certain, it wasn't just me anymore."

Okay, first off, I'm really sorry I have been gone for so long! I had a really bad case of writer's block and I had moved to school so my whole routine had switched, and I also wanted to get this whole part of the story just right. Because to me this is one of the most important parts of the story I have, it sets up the reasoning for why most of the characters are the way they are and why they act and do the things they do, so please keep that in mind! This chapter and the next will be the last part of Act One of the story out of like Four, so they will be very important! But that also means that the fun stuff is sooooo closes!

I really don't know when I'll be able to update again, but it really shouldn't be as long as last time, but no later than a month tops!

A review asked me to explain what's happing in the story last chapter, I'm putting it here at the bottom because to me, if you read this last instalment then somethings will start to make sense if you were confused. But if you still are confused,

Chapter 12 is really broken up into three parts of, all titled Histories, Mysteries, Unraveled. Chapters 12, 13 and 14 are all technically one whole chapter but I split them all up because I wanted to get something out to you guys asap.

Anyways, in the beginning of chapter 12 Clary starts to confess the story as to why she never told anyone who the Twins real father was, but it is not just a story, its more of an experience that she and the others went through as to why see doesn't tell anyone, or hides. In chapter 12, we get flashbacks to the setup of what is going to happen. In Chapter 13 we get what happened, the experience.

That experience, if you didn't catch, was a mass shooting at a concert the band was opening up for/ performing at. And it wasn't just any concert, it was the first real professional opportunity the band had ever gotten offered, the outcome of this performance was supposed to dictate whether or not they would get signed to the record company that flew them out. More about all this will be disclosed in a later chapter.

In Chapter 14, this one, we get a picture of the after affects of the event and all the chaos it entails, but really this is only a snip of the underlining effects it just left on Clary, we haven't even really begun to see what effects it had on the other members of the band and family. I think you get to see a little bit of it in the chapters with Jace's Pov, if you know what your looking for.

I hope that clears it up for some of you, let me know if it did or if I confused you more! Please let me know, because I want it to make sense in a way that respects the truth and difficulties of people and families that have gone through a tragic event such like this. So please, please, please let me know! If it still doesn't make sense I will try to explain it in more detail to you, but not in a way that will spoil the rest of the story!

Sorry again for the long wait and my long rambles!

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Who is your fav, and who do you hate?

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You know if you tell me your theories I'll answer one of your need to know questions/spoiler in the story!

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All the love,

~BabyBritt