THIS IS IT! LAST CHAPTER!
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I laid there seething in that damn bed for another hour before a damn nurse came in. It was a good thing I wasn't too bad off because hell, they just freaking left me alone with Beavis and Butthead in that damn room, tied down and pretty fucking helpless. Young rock star was out for the count and I think we could have dropped a bomb on his lap and he would have slept through it. showed up right as they were getting ready to finally untie me and he looked rightfully nervous. "Now Bella, you have to understand, you have a bad concussion. We were rightfully worried so we were just acting in your best interest." I just glared at him as J. D. started backing away from me. He looked at young rock star and shook his head ruefully as he asked Cullen, "Don't you think we ought to get him out of here, after all , the credo is, "Never leave a man behind." Cullen nodded, "You're right, lets get him and get the hell out of here. He dropped the duffle bag he had in his hands on the table in front of me and asked the nurse untying me to wait just a few minutes. They each grabbed young rock star under an arm and hoisted him up and drug him rapidly out of the room as Cullen said over his shoulder, " Your clothes and stuff are in the bag, you have cab fare as well, we will see you when you calm down!" and the bastards left me!
It was another 2 hours before I finally got cut loose from that damn place with all the proper paperwork so my stupid insurance paperwork and all the, "Follow up here and don't do this or this will happen" crap that doctors try to feed you. A WEEK off of work? Who the hell did they think they were kidding? I found my cell phone in the duffle and I called the house right away and I got a rather testy daughter, " Are you calm yet?" I huffed and she said, "I will take that as a big, fat, "NO!" Jeeze mom, you really need to settle down before you give your self a heart attack. I have been here all night with alternating freaked out men and a teething baby. I really don't need any more drama. I have tests and stuff coming up and if you run him off because you scared the hell out of him, that is really going to upset me, because I LIKE HIM! Spence likes him, we all like him and we want him to stay, so be NICE! He was scared to death you were really hurt." "Where are they all hiding right now?" She was quiet for a few moments. "Jess, where are they hiding?" " Mom, I am begging you, please! Don't run him off. Spence needs his dad. I need my friend, and believe it or not, you need him too." "Jess…" "Fine mom, but I mean it, you better be nice! They are at J.D. and Edwards." "Thank you, I will be home soon. Do you need anything for the baby?" She sighed deeply, "No mom, just his daddy in one piece." I prepared to hang up as she said, "Mom?" "What Jess?" " Please, think about it. I have really missed having a dad around and it breaks my heart that Spence might have to deal with that." and with those words she hung up.
I gave the cabbie directions to Cullens place and then I sat in the back and mulled over all that had been said to me about the situation I found myself in. I was still pretty pissed off about being treated like I wasn't capable of taking care of myself, after all, I had taken care of myself and others for close to two decades without anybody else stepping in and helping me out and I wasn't about to lose my autonomy to some shaved tail kid who play acted and sang, chasing about all over the country like some Peter Pan with glandular issues, but, he had kinda grown on me. I was used to the way he warmed up the bed at night, and how he seemed to know just how to hit all the right spots when I needed a good solid trouncing. I liked the way he interacted with his son, and how both their faces lit up when they played with each other in the floor, or when he played his guitar and sang for him, just silly made up songs that he thought up on the fly. The kid had fucking grown on me. Dammitt! I must still be messed up from all the sedation or something, but I found myself deciding I wasn't going to thrash him, (Maybe Cullen, because that jackass knew better), but not the young rock star, but we did need to have a talk.
There were no vehicles in the drive at Cullens, but that didn't mean anything. They were hiding from me, so either they had pulled the trucks into the garage or they had them hidden around the back. Cullen had forgotten I had a key to his place, and I figured that since he had graced me with his presence at the start of this whole fiasco unannounced by using my key, now was as good a time as any to use mine. I put the key in and quickly stepped into the house, turning and locking the door behind me, along with the deadbolt. I quietly walked down the entry way into the living room and there the cowards sat on the couch. Young rock star was slouched on the end of the couch with J.D. sitting next to him while Cullen sat in his recliner. "I TOLD you Jess would dime us off in a heart beat." J.D. said while getting up to stand in front of young rock star. "Its okay J.D., if shes gonna get me, I'd rather she get it out of the way now, rather than later. Im not going to run. Im not going to apologize for doing the right thing." Cullen was shaking his head, " You got some balls man, at least for now you do." I scoffed at him, "Im not going to hurt him, but we need to have a come to Jesus meeting about a few things so some things are really clearly understood, can we all sit down and have a talk?"
You could have heard a pin drop as they all took in what I had just said to them. I was going to try communicating with them, instead of pounding on them, at least for the time being, though it was not my strong point. Cullen jumped up and said, "Well, Im going to get a beer, anybody else want one or a dozen or so?" We all seconded that deal and J.D. resumed his seat next to young rock star so, I snaked the recliner while Cullen was up, leaving him to sit at the far end of the couch. "So how long are you supposed to be taking it easy?" Cullen looked at me like he knew he was about to get ripped a new one, "The release was for a week, but I think we all know what I think of that." "Why is is so damn hard for you to take it easy, its not like the world will end if you actually follow doctors orders and let your body heal properly for once." Young rock star leaned forward on the couch and spoke to me like he had known me for longer than he had, " You push yourself so damn hard to always fight harder, work longer, do more, be tougher and do with less than everyone else. You don't have to be like that. There are people around you who would help you and take some of the load off, and you don't have anything to prove anymore, you have made it. You have it all." I looked at him and I wasn't quite sure what to do with him. I could tell he meant well, but that he had no idea what real life was like.
"Listen up, Jr. I have to work harder, push further and work longer. I have not "Made it", I have a tenuous position in a place where its dog eat dog. I am a woman working in a mans world and where those under me would gladly smile in my face and stick a knife in my back to use as a rung in the ladder on the way up. I do not have anyone I can count on to make things easier for me, I have friends in the exact same position I am in, and I have an ex in prison for trying to kill me. I learned the hard way not to count on a man and that when you do, they cant handle the pressure and they take it out on you. You have seen the scars? That is nothing compared to the broken bones and internal damage he did. Those pills I take for the migraines? That is because of the brain injury he gave me, he hit me so hard he fractured my skull. I was in ICU for 3 months and when I got out, and started rebuilding my life with Jess, I vowed that I would never count on anyone ever again, and I have managed to keep that vow for close to 17 years. I fought hard to get to where I am. That is why I train daily, and I never let anyone get close to me, until you, you slipped past everything I had in place to protect myself and I don't know what to do about it, because it makes no damn sense at all."
Crying, I was crying! I don't fucking cry! But, Hah! I wasn't the only one, Cullen and J.D. were both a little teary eyed and ill be damned, young rock star had tears rolling down his cheeks too. Well, fuck! I really know how to work a room , don't I? "Bella, can I please? He started to raise up like he wanted to come over to me and well, fuck it, I nodded and him and the next thing I know he was hugging me and I liked it. He's a good hugger, not so big and overpowering that he feels like he smothering you, no…he's slender but strong and its just nice and he smelled so damn nice. I hugged him back and we just held each other. I don't know how long we were like that, he was on his knees and that shit cant be comfortable, and I was getting a crick in my back, so I rubbed his back and I may have sniffed his neck a little. He sat back on his heels and he looked at me with those damn eyes, those eyes that make women worldwide just kinda forget what the hell they were doing and go, "Oh!" and wander into walls and shit. I have a love hate relationship with those eyes because they do that to me too and it makes me feel stupid, but ah, hell! There it went, and I was sitting there all googly eyed and goofy. He probably could have asked me to drive his truck into a bank and rob it naked an I would have.
We sat there for a long damn time just considering each other. I really didn't know what to say to him. I figured I was fond of him, after all, he's the daddy to the light of my life, but I am incapable of dealing with a relationship. I didn't know what he wanted or expected, but all I could do is tell him the truth and hope that he was willing to be understanding and deal with things without pushing me. "What do you want boy? I cant give you too much, I just don't have it to give. I am not an easy person to be around, I have a lot of demons and issues and I have a pretty bad temper. The only ones that escape it are my kids, so if you want to hang around knowing that I wont be controlled or bossed or that I am going to continue to be me, then you are welcome to try, but I make you no promises about anything, I cant."
"That's all I want, just let me be there, let me be around, I am sorry if I stepped over the line, and I cant promise it wont happen again, but I will try my best to stay out of your way when it comes to things like that, but you have to understand that you are the mother of my son and that means things." I sighed deeply and ran my hands though my hair, feeling the knot on my skull and wincing at the tenderness of it. I was getting tired and the beer wasn't helping much, so I smiled at him and actually patted his arm, " We both have a pretty big learning curve when it comes to learning how to deal with each other, so we are just gonna have to try and adapt and be tolerant. If I don't, Jess has threatened to hide all my boots. It seems she is rather fond of you for some damn reason." Cullen and J.D. laughed and of course Cullen had to add, " Hey, we are pretty fond of him too, and we had decided that if you were gonna kick him out, we were going to take him in over here, so there!" I cut my eyes at Cullen, "You better watch it, you are still on my Junk punch list." I set my beer down and stood up, just to see Cullen flinch, " C'mon Jasper, lets go home before these two decide to get up to trying to make those rumors about you come true."
Silence fell over the room as they all looked at me. "What?" Why the hell were they all staring at me and grinning, and why was young rock star standing there with a goofy grin on is face like he won some kinda fight or something?
" You said it!" "I said what, What the hell are you talking about?" " Bella, In all the time the boy has been around, you have never called him by his name. Its always been "Boy", "Kid", "Hey You" or "Young Rock Star" or worse, but you have never said his name." J.D. was grinning at me as was Cullen and young rock star, (aka Jasper) was looking like he was going to hug me again, oh yeah, here we go another hug. He thinks he's wearing me down. Hell, he may be right, he just smells so nice and oh boy, here comes that look again. Dammit! I grab his wrist and spin him around and pin him against the wall,(just for old times sake), and whisper into his ear, "Don't think this means that you cant still be neutered and declawed." But I kiss him on the side of his neck and pat his cute little ass as I let him go and I give Cullen and J.D. another glare, as I turn around, "Who is calling us a cab or should I just stay here until I decide that I want to go ahead and deal with you now?" Cullen has his phone out in record time and a cab is on the way before I can even finish walking up the hall to the front door. I hear Cullen and J.D. congratulating Jasper as he gathers up his stuff, and I smile, he's not a bad kid, and maybe if he keeps his head on straight and remembers to duck at the right times, he might just survive being around me.
The End…for now
AGAIN, THANKS TO ALL MY FAITHFUL READERS AND REVIEWERS FOR THE SUPPORT AND LOVE.
Yeah, If anyone wants me to I will probably write a 'Further adventures of" story for these guys, but I wrote an outtake of this in Young Rock Star/Jaspers POV for "Fandom Against Domestic Violence", and as soon as I know if there is any interest, I might get rolling on it.