Chapter 14

The faces of my classmates were somber and everyone's moods had been darkened by my news. This is why I especially didn't want to tell them on this trip, I wanted this to be a fun time to get away from some of my problems, not a time to drag everyone else into them.

Kyoya was staring at the sand and refused to look up when he started talking,

"Maka I am truly sorry. I don't know what I was hoping you were hiding but the last thing I wanted was to cause you pain or force you do to something you didn't want to. If you ever need someone to talk to, any of us and all of us would be willing. Remember that you aren't alone and you have all of us to support you." He never once looked up, I'm assuming so that he wouldn't show any of his true emotions. It was a trick that once worked well for me but you can't hang your head forever, and whenever I'd do it it was a big indication to Soul and I never wanted him to worry about me. No matter what I did, Soul was always worrying about me. He was less of a roommate and more like my father. Just like how I'd have to reassure my father that everything was okay (even though I was dying inside) Soul became very perceptive to my emotions.

Snapping out of it I jumped up and with as much enthusiasm as I could muster suggested that we all go down to the beach to swim. Everyone was still just sitting on the ground so I told them I'd go change and that I'd be back soon.

I took my time walking through the sand on the way back to my cabin and even took my shoes off because I love the feeling of my toes sinking in the sand. As I was walking I tried to take in as much of the scenery as I possibly could but I wasn't paying attention to where I was walking. I crashed into something and was falling backwards. I closed my eyes ready to hit my head on the ground but that never came.

Opening my eyes I was met with amber eyes I had only seen on one other person but it couldn't be. Looking up towards his hair I found the three Sanzu lines. I realized he was still holding me up with one arm wrapped around my waist so I stood up straight and cleared my throat subtly trying to tell him to let go. It took him a while to understand because he seemed slow, reluctant and dazed. His fingertips brushed along my back as he continued to stare at me. I didn't understand what had gotten into him he's never been fazed by anything so what's going on? Then it hit me, I was wearing a frilly pink tank top, short denim shorts that were barely long enough to cover my scars, my hair was up in a single teased and loose ponytail and I was wearing makeup. No one at the DWMA had ever seen me like this so I guess it could shock even Kid.

Looking around I didn't see any of the others so I asked Kid why he was here. It took him a while to snap out of it and answer me but when he did I became furious. It turns out Mori was in touch with Tsubaki and invited all of my old friends to the island. I wasn't ready to see any of them and I can't believe they went behind my back and did this. I turned and started running, ignoring Kid telling me to come back so he could explain. I wasn't ready to see them, I mean I suddenly left without telling any of them and all they got was a note saying where I planned on going and not to follow me. As soon as I got to the cabin I went straight for my makeup bag. To the untrained eye there were two pencil eyeliner sharpeners but to me there was something to calm me down. I didn't bring my usual tools because I had hoped I wouldn't need to do this, but I always come prepared. I guess I only do this when I feel like things in my life are getting out of control, because when I do this I have control over my body even if I don't have control over my emotions. I lifted the cover of the sharpener and pulled out the already loosened screw. I pulled the fresh blade out and flipped it over a few times. I didn't have any bandages with me and it would probably bleed through my shorts. I know I shouldn't do it. I know, but I feel the need to do it. I started rolling up my shorts on the right side, I had done it more often here but I could go deeper than on the left. I traced my finger over one scar in particular it wasn't very long but it was deep. I remember this one the most because it left the darkest scar and it was where I thought I had gone too deep. It just kept bleeding and bleeding, there was nothing I could do to make it stop so I just prayed I had hit something and went to sleep for what I hoped would be the last time.

The next morning I had woken up dizzy and with a limp, but still painfully alive. It had bled so badly that I didn't even bother bandaging it if it really was then end, I just put some folded toilet paper near it hoping not to make too much of a mess. That had been a pretty bad day, but before I passed out I was scared. Scared that I wouldn't get to say goodbye, scared that I'd be missing out on the future, scared that everything might not end. Even though I knew I didn't want to die, I was scared that this might not kill me. What would happen if my friends worried about me enough to send the police? What if they found me just like they found my older sister Marya? Dead in a pool of blood on the bathroom floor with a note stained by her blood,

"I don't want you to feel sorry for me. After all you're the ones who drove me to this. The only one who should grieve is Maka, I'm so sorry baby sister. I know you're only 10 but I hope you know I always loved you and always will. I wish I could have stayed behind just for you, but I couldn't keep holding on. Live on Maka, no matter what may happen, know that your friends will be there for you, always.

Love from your big sister,

Marya"

AN: DUN DUN DUUUNNNNNNNN! What a twist, who could have predicted it? Not even I the mighty author! Just kidding, but I really didn't have this planned. I really should have planned this story so it doesn't just drag on, and on, and on like a bad tv show that really should have ended after season 5. But I hope this will be a story like an awesome show that even after the 29th season is still good. As always let me know what you think, give me suggestions for future chapters, maybe even hint at what you think will happen next. I look forward to hearing from you guys!