A/N:

Gosh, I'm terrible. I haven't updated in forever. I'm sorry guys but remember I'm not giving up this fic so please don't forget to check up on it every once in a while. :) It's my senior year and so I'm a bit busy and there's always drama and AP classes blah blah blah. I need to update more though 'cause it only takes me like fifteen minutes to write these so yeah, sorry.

Inspiration:

The turning point in the process of growing up is when you discover the core strength within you that survives all hurt. --Max Lerner

"He killed a man once," he said with a funny look on his face and a quick glance at the Heavens.

"I loved a man once," she said with much the same look and a glance at him. "You ever wonder?"

"Well, yeah."

"Sometimes I feel like me and you are Heaven, just us."

"Really?"

"Well, yeah," she said, mimicking his voice with ease.

"You know me too well."

"I'll drink to that," she said, holding up her goblet and clinking it with his.

"You'll drink to anything."

She laughed and rolled over nex to him, head on his chest as they laid on overgrown grass. They laid in silence until shegasped, "look at that cloud--it's a hippo."

"It's not a hippo, it's a dinosaur."

"That thing is not a dinosaur. Look at the behind on it!"

"I'm not looking at some fake hippo's behind."

"Oh, so you only look at real hippos behinds?"

"Lily, be quiet."

"Remus, don't boss me around."

They laughed and went back to staring at the clouds in silence, "hippo" she whispered so quietly it would have been impossible to hear her.

"Dinosaur," he said.

"How's Daisy?"

"Jenkins?"

"Yeah."

"Oh, good."

"Are you two--"

"Not yet."

"Soon? Oh, Remus, I hope--"

"It'll tear us apart."

"Nothing's gonna tear us apart. I just don't know why you want her."

"Lily...we've gone through this."

"I know," she said, "but you have to tell me something."

"Not if it will hurt you."

"Yes, you'll just have to hurt me if that's what it takes. I'm sixteen and I've got a lifetime to get over it. So buck up and quit making excuses. Do you love me?"

He sighed and looked down at her with his sparkling eyes.

"You don't have to say anything," she said, "that answered my question."

"You're cocky."

"No, I just know what I want," she said with a wink and gracefully got up from the ground...she began to skip. "Daisy's a good girl," she said, turning back to face him, "but she's not me."

"She's a very good girl."

"Face it, she's boring and mediocre. She's nothing but eyeliner and straight hair and she's got a cute nose and an average intelligence and she likes her coffee with extra sugar. And what's worse, is that you know just how boring she is, you know just how mediocre she is."

"Are you suggesting--"

"I'm not suggesting anything, I'm saying it."

"You're jealous."

"No, because I know this won't tear us apart."

"And you know--"

"It'll always be us in the end, yeah."

"You can't wait forever."

"Don't underestimate me."

He smiled and slung an arm lazily around her shoulder, "I do, you know, think this will tear us apart..." he said.

"Okay, you warned me, I got the memo, I'm well informed," she replied, sarcastic as usual.

"I never thought I'd find somebody like her, I think she really loves me, Lily."

"She's not the only one."

"We've tried this so many times, Lily, we can't keep hurting ourselves by thinking that you and me will..."

"Oh, I know, I just...wishful thinking, you know."

"You've got the world."

"It doesn't matter unless I have you."

"Tell me it's okay to be with her...I need to hear it from you."

"Of course it's okay," she said, "but I bet you it'll hurt you more than me in the end."

"Why?"

"I'd rather try to make this work with us then have somebody who's a sure thing, any day."

"James is a sure thing."

"James is a very sure thing."

"You know what I want to say, don't you?"

"Yes."

"Then that'll do."

"Yes, it'll do."